I had an epiphany. They never ask Where’s Dad or compare our lil family unit to their friends . They never cry at night because they feel unworthy or unloved . They never have questioned why we live the way we do . All my resentment towards their Dad was my own issue and selfishness because they are unbothered and unaffected . If you ask them how much they love Dad even though they haven’t spoken in weeks or seen him in a year they will still say “ moon 100 million times “ that is not reflection of him as person or his parenting but reflection of me and how well I’m doing because they don’t feel like they’re missing out on anything . I am more than enough because if I wasn’t they wouldn’t be more than ok . The love I give , the effort I put in , the adventures I plan , the everything I do is the job of two humans been done by one 🌼🌻🌼🌻🌼🌻🌼
Body confidence doesn’t come from been the prettiest , tallest or thinnest . It comes from within 🌸 If you read dolly , cosmopolitan or any other teenage girl magazine as a impressionable teenager you probably compared your body shape to a fruit ( thin up top wide in middle you are a pear ) and were made to feel that you couldn’t wear whatever bikini you wanted because it wouldn’t be flattering to your body shape . The human body is a complex structure that should never be compared to piece of fruit . Did you know that the shapes of our body are heavily defined by our skeletal system ? I never had wide hips until I became a horny teenager thank you estrogen for widening my hips and making me an ideal baby making machine . We are complex creatures and our bodies are just as complex. Embrace the complexity and the rest will just flow naturally . These bikini bottoms were not made for a wide hip girl like me but I’m going to flaunt them anyways 🤙🏽
🦀 moody little cancerian 🦀
Magical Monday’s with my sweeties 🌿 *Not a baby bump but just ate shit load of pasta last night
My love goes beyond the sun , the stars and the moon 🌑 I will love you for eternity .
According to Elizabeth Kübler-Ross: When we are dying or have suffered a catastrophic loss, we all move through 5 distinct stages of grief. We go into denial because the loss is so unthinkable we can't imagine it's true. We become angry with everyone; angry with survivors, angry with ourselves, then we bargain. We beg, we plead, we offer everything we have. We offer up our souls in exchange for just one more day. When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair, until finally we have to accept that we have done everything we can. We let go. We let go and move into acceptance. So here I am , 10 birthdays later and it is that tiny bit easier to look up and say Happy Birthday Mum ✨🌟⭐️💫 Star Delaney fabulously 39 forever 🥂🌻🌛
I use to think who would want to date a single mother of two children who’s ex husband is literal crazy pants . I truly believed for so long I was undateable , all this baggage . All the drama . I am an erratic & twisted mess . Fuckable but not dateable I would think . And you know the funny thing , no one I’ve ever dated has battered an eye at the fact I’m a mother with two children with a crazy ex husband . That is how I felt about myself , they were my insecurities . As I grow , as my family evolves and I mature. We really aren’t this mess that for so long I believed that we were . I don’t have it together most of the time but it works , whatever I am doing is working . I’ve got this , together we’ve got this . Whoever one day comes into our lives , He is going to be the luckiest son of bitch ✨⭐️✨
I woke up with this gut feeling that something bad was going to happen today . A blanket of absolute fear thrown over my entire body for no reason at all . It was just a feeling . A horrible icky feeling that I couldn’t shake . It’s the ptsd . Every time I couldn’t get in contact with Dad this was the feeling I would get . It’s overwhelming the fear of knowing something bad was happening . But today nothing bad happened , I accepted the feeling and let it go and moved on. I walked into AF seen familiar faces and that was like a blanket of calmness . I still told my pt that something bad was going to happen & his response was “ positive vibes positive vibes “ I came out of that feeling , relatively unscathed and not surprising I am ok and nothing bad has happened . A gentle reminder that having a healthy mind is equally or more so important than just physically been healthy and also a wonderful reminder that here @anytimefitness_seaford we are one big family here to look out for each other when it’s needed the most ⭐️✨☀️☀️✨ #afteamseaford 🌻💛💜💛
The thing is ; when the abs disappear , When the hair gets shorter thinner and greyer , the youthfulness is replace by wrinkles , when the fast metabolism slows down , when the teeth stain from all the years of coffee . When I no longer will look like this , Do you know what I’ll still have ? The quick witted sarcasm , the mouth that makes you cringe and laugh with the absurd things that I say , my heart that freely loves so many people , my ears that listen to those that need a shoulder to cry on . My energetic eccentric weird and whacky personality that brings so much laughs to those that need it . And my brain , I’ll have my brain . It’s not most intelligent engine but it knows some shit . Shit that after my looks fade can still enlighten so many and will be the reason why someone will fall in love with me 🌻🌼🌟🌙
Question. When meal prepping your sweet potato and steamed chicken or whatever the fuck where do you put all your snacks ? Where do you wedge the string cheeses? When counting your macaroons do you incorporate the 6 hot cross buns you had for breakfast ? And how do you fit the 2.5l tub of ice cream on your kitchen scales ? One day you’ll be dead and what if in heaven paradise or wherever we go when we cark it they don’t have ice cream and you’ve literally spent all your good years not eating Ben and Jerry’s 🤔 * me with my late morning snacks 💛💛💛
he bounced from relationship to relationship . Maybe a woman would complete him or maybe it was for gratification or maybe it was because he was narcissistic and his ego needed a boost ? Or maybe he just didn’t know how to be alone . She , she stayed single. She watched him experience undeserving love over and over again but she had something he didn’t have , self worth and self love . She knew that healing herself and treating herself like a queen would heal what he had broken . And in return the universe would bless her with a love that made her soul glisten . an remarkable love . But until then she would remain single and continue to transform so she would only be attainable to the highest of quality .
Nine months ago I started a journey to become a better version of myself . It started from my soul all the way to working on my booty . Complete overhaul of Jessica . This is result of consistency and dedication . I am in better shape than I was before having children . Lifting weights and forgetting about going on dates 🤙🏽 #afteamseaford
I’m charging $10 from now on to any person that asks about my ethnicity. I don’t know what I am but it cute though 🤷🏻♀️
TO ALL MY BAD ASS BABIES 💖 I fuck with your stretched mark skin , excess skin , wrinkly skin , black , white , yellow skin . Flawed , blotchy , freckly ... whatever the fuck is going on with your outside shit DO NOT be ashamed . It’s just skin literally . It is just a minuscule part of who you are , Something that keeps all your inside shit intact . Swipe >> come at me if you think it’s gross or if you make fun of something a person can’t or chooses not to change . If you’re shit human that thinks it’s ok to bully someone I will fuck your Dad ( if he is single ) and make you my step child .
That no dick glow . That no man stressing me glow . That I can act like thotiana and you can’t say shit glow . That I do whatever the fuck makes me happy GLOW .
I want to kiss every soft place of you, make you blush and faint, pleasure you until you weep, and dry every tear with my lips. If you only knew how I crave the taste of you. I want to take you in my hands and mouth and feast on you. I want to drink wine and honey from you. I want you under me. On your back. I'm sorry. You deserve more respect than that. But I can't stop thinking of it. Your arms and legs around me. Your mouth, open for my kisses. I need too much of you. A lifetime of nights spent between your thighs wouldn't be enough. I want to talk with you forever. I remember every word you've ever said to me. - a wallflower Christmas
I want my mind to be fucked . Explored . Devoured . Appreciated . No more can I take small talk . It’s boring , my soul and whole being can not do vanilla , I am not vanilla . I want someone to explore all the hidden crevices and discover all my fears , wants and desires . What makes me tick and what makes me feel excited . Explore with me all that makes me good & bad . What makes me , me . I want to reciprocate. I want to dive deep into someone’s being . The ins and out emotionally , spiritually, physically and sexually . I am not for everyone . I am for a specific taste palate . I am too complicated for someone that prefers vanilla ice cream . Stay away from me if all you have to offer is conversations suited for the dinner table . Art credit - @dromsjel