So, I am about to get REAL. •
I know last week was mental health day, but honestly everyday is a good day to touch base on this subject. I felt like writing, tonight. (Even tho, I am the worst writer. Typos, run on sentences etc yada yada yada..) So anyways, back to my point. With mental health being brought up and focused on, I think we all tend to feel more comfortable speaking up. Not like years back, feeling sad would get you put away. Instantly for feeling. And that is the thing... what we are “feeling” we want to be understood. Because we don’t even understand it. • Let’s talk about my reality, which tends to be millions of others as well. Having Panic/anxiety disorder, and ocd. I am very open talking about it. Have I ever explained the feeling mid panic attack? Anxiety attack? Or how about that ocd that loves to chime in. That feeling as if a short circuit has gone off. Your emotions feel as if, you jumped on a roller coaster. You feel dizzy and nauseous to the point your hands become numb and hands tingle. Where your heart beat races like a bass drum in a metal band Lol. Your eyes go blurry and your brain fills up with fog leaving you feeling lost in the middle of the woods. The rock in your throat. The bricks laying on your chest. The uncontrollable crying black out. The repetitive fears enter in. Ocd that has me do a ritual in each room. Counting to five to make sure everything is shut, or even on the most random things. If I don’t count to 5 when completing something, I get super heady and I need to now go back and do it. Because “ what if?” Anxiety is all like “ who have I become?” “ why is this happening?“ • Listen, I am so happy, inlove and confident. I have found things that help. But that does not stop the chemical imbalance or whatever in the world this is. I will say that being understood by the man, I am marrying in just 7 short months. Who loves me, accepts me for who I am, eases my anxiety/ocd. Holds my hand and helps me breathe. Family and Friends who pull me out of quick sand. I am understood. And that... at least is a breathe of fresh air. That I appreciate.
Best part about homemade Chili in the crock pot. You have multiple kinds of dishes! Nacho toppings! And the best yet... A Taco Salad 😍🙏🏻🙌🏼 So first grab that handful of chard/ spinach/ kale
🍁- 1 tbsp of my cashew dressing 🍁- a little more than half a cup of Chili.
🍁- fermented Beets
🍁- shredded carrots 🍁- jalapeno 🍁- tzatziki 🍁- half an avo
🍁- cherry toms
🍁- edamame 🍁- black seed and pumpkin seed
And a side of @traderjoes restaurant style tortilla chips ( which are AMAZING 😍🙌🏼). And some sriracha!
This chili is 100% going in my book. Plant based, w/ lean organic ground turkey. ( I have a vegan alternative for this recipe) A dollop of @traderjoes 0% Greek yogurt as “sour cream” and fresh cilantro- avo.. are my favorite toppings on my chili! Oh I am so glad FALL is finally here 🤗🍁🍂 I love my crock pot meals. I love some simple, clean ingredient, dishes. Crock pots really are like cats. Just fill them up with food, then let them be for hours. Check up on them but.. so low maintenance and easy! Who wants the full recipe posted?! it’s got kidney/black beans, ground organic turkey, cauliflower rice, peppers, carrots and @beyond_broth !!!
My favorite thing about salad. Is how we can load these bowls up. Most tend to think, you need a wrap or bread to keep yourself full. Did you know you can substitute those carbs for other beneficial carbs and add more Magic to your salad!? That is where you can get full and satisfied. Food is our fuel. I am all about simple, clean and pure ingredients. Not only does this help my IBS. I help nourish my body. I fill up and feel good after instead of yucky. We are what we eat 😏 p.s You might have noticed, I love making homemade dressings. That has loads of benefits. Is this something you would like to see more of? 🤗
Aw, we got to see some pictures from our friends Wedding, we were in this summer. My Fiance’ actually married them! And I was a bridesmaid. It was cool walking down the isle with babe. Next time it will be for us 🤗 may 11th !!! I can’t wait 😍💗💕 ( LOL Billy’s expressions in the last two)
While Babe and I do wedding stuff, we were craving something warm on this fall Sunday 🍁🍂 So I whipped up some of @rightfoods Superfood Gluten Free oatmeal. Added some Fall magic and Viola 🙌🏼 Cozy vibes to the max 💗
Swipe left to see these bars, get sessy and model with my curtain. 😆 the first photo isn’t as aesthetic. LOL Getting them out was a little 👌🏼 hard. So use a baking sheet!
Bars 〰️ 🍁 1 can - organic pumpkin puree 🎃
🍁 2 cups- @bobsredmill Gluten Free oats
🍁 2-3tbsp- pure maple syrup 🍁 2 cups- raw cashew butter unsalted 🍁 1 “heaping” tbsp- @frontiercoop cinnamon 🍁 2 scoops protein powder (optional) 🍁 heat maple syrup, cashew butter together. Combined all ingredients together in mixing bowl. Leave in fridge for about 2 hours. Make into ball or flatten in a brownie pyrex )
Chocolate layer 〰️ 🍁 2 cups- dark chocolate chips ( lilys) 🍁 2 tbsp- coconut oil 🍁 heat on stove, then layer on top of bars or dip protein balls into melted chocolate.
You’re welcome 😘 #vitalguide
Okay.... So I am giving you my basic, simple, CLEAN ingredient Cashew dressing recipe. I double dog dare you to try this out. You will love it. Ugh 😍🙏🏻🙌🏼✨ I can eat this with just a spoon! LOL you can also use it as a sauce, just use less water for thickness 〰️
OKEE! Yah ready 🤗
⚪️2 cups- Soaked Whole raw cashews
: soak for about 4-8 hours, or over night.
⚪️2 cups - Alkalized water
⚪️4 tbsp- Lemon juice
⚪️2 tbsp- @coconutsecretofficial coconut aminos
⚪️5 garlic cloves ( I love garlic) ⚪️1/4 cup- @bragglivefoodproducts apple cider vinegar ⚪️2 tbsp- @frontiercoop cilantro
⚪️Ground pink salt and pep to taste. ( optional)
This makes about 2 mason jar filled amount. 🤗
😍😱When you can’t choose just one photo. This roasted apple, filled with @nadamoo cake batter ice cream was so beautiful... I could cry. Just imagine the smell and taste. It was pretty much fall 🍂🙃🍁 to the maxxxx !
Organic miso Ramen @rightfoods 💗added a little vavoom. I usually eat gluten free, but this actually didn’t effect my ibs at all. I love this brand 💗 thank you !!! I have been craving this like crazy, esp since my pal @thepaleoish went for ramen yesterday! also Stay tuned, I will be partnering up with @rightfoods for a fun giveaway! Someone will get a chance to win, some of their yummy products 💗
So update on My back issues-
As of Today, its been 8 days of back trouble. But on a positive note, each day led to progress. Little improvement each day that felt like a huge break through. Last monday was terrifying. A cough that led to throwing my back out, multiple pinched nerves all over, a dislocated hip, a bulging disc, and a shifted spine. Being stuck on my floor in the same spot for hours. Any kind of movement felt like I was electrocuted. The spasms and loss of any control was un real and something I had never experienced. I screamed so loud, someone down the street probably heard me. I cried the most excruciating cry. My mom saved the day, seriously helped me the entire day, motivated me to believe I can move to each new spot. She organized and decorated my apt and cleaned so I wouldn’t have to worry. ( those were my plans that day, and she did it, she is amazing) I finally had a day! To do nothing! except home stuff, homework and self care. But nope! This was a huge reality check, That I had taken on so much at once, needed to slow down and listen to my body. So anyways, thankfully I got to my holisitic chiro/physical therapist. He worked wonders. Gentle and patient with me. Now as of today, I feel 85% back to me. I can walk, get around, feel back to normalish. I do get winded out fast, my hip and legs and lower back, especially the right side of my back where my hip is higher still ache like bruises. But I MADE COOKIES. And I just am so happy and thankful to be back where I am now. I am more than grateful for my Fiance, parents, and bestfriends being there for me. For all the love and support xo
Thank you🎃💗 so stay tuned! All of this relaxing, got me brewing more and more ideas for my Lifestyle/Cook Book, even more recipes and idea’s. I can’t wait to share more about me, relationship advice, skin care and brands! Also stay tuned a giveaway with an awesome brand in November 🤗 😘💕
#tbt when I was standing up straight LOL. Its been a hectic few days. I have never threw out my back before. But! This is all a lesson. To always pay attention to your body. From slightly pulling my back out a few times the last few months to this big kahuna wipe out. It has shown me, I need to start stretching more, to slow down a bit and to really keep my eyes wide open to anything that doesn’t feel normal. I tend to be a hypochondriac with certain things but I was very much TOO EASY GOING on these back signs. I just thought it was normal and prob cause I lifted something too heavy. I didn’t worry as much. Now here I am with multiple pinched nerves in my lower lumbar, and my sciatica area. A shifted spine, making one hip way higher than the other and hunched over. A bulging disc. And pain, I can not describe.. except it is effing horrible. The love and support is amazing and I am truly thankful. My chiropractor is a holistic doctor practicing chiro/physical therapy on me. 4 visits per week for the next month is needed. My exercise is on stand still until my doctor okays it. He will be introducing cardio, yoga and stretching back into my routine once I have way less pain and my body is adjusted to where it needs to be. I don’t mean to sound like this is so horrible but if you threw your spine out of place and have over ten pinched nerves w/ a bulging disc and dislocated hip. I think it would be understood this is no joke... and very much horrible. I feel frustrated and hate sitting still this long. I hate the pain so much, I cry and bite my fist. But progress has been happening day at a time. And I am more than grateful for that progress. Soon I will be back to me, posting recipes, clean eating meals and my routine. I will be introducing yoga and pilates into my workout “lifestyle” to keep my body stretched and healthy. So anyways that is all. A quick little update.
Been up since 4 am. I had to sleep on the couch with a stem attached to my back and I just hoped once I woke up, the inflammation would be gone, my back would be back to normal. Throwing out my back did a number on me. I just wanna feel back to normal. @medterracbd is by my side🙏🏻. Taking cbd and using all of its anti-inflammatories. So I can get back in tip top shape. My Fiancé, is back to work but seriously the sweetest most loving man. He set up everything I need for access, to if there were an emergency. He is so nurturing and genuine. I am blessed to have so much love by my side. I am still stuck and I am so scared to when I need to get up .. but my mom said yesterday when helping me all day 💗🙏🏻 ( ✨thank you again, mom. You are a super hero💕) and hearing me cry hysterically “ I can’t “ so many times when moving. She said “breathe, never say you can’t, cause you can, breathe and relax.. you can do this” it def helped at moments. So I will tell myself, even tho its going to hurt so bad, I will probably scream on the top of my lungs. That I can... even if it takes a huge amount of time to even take a step. So yeah, no recipes until this body of mine becomes normal again. I just am still shocked this happened. I have been in need of all the self love /care as of lately and this def reminded me that. Pay attention to your body, I slightly have pulled my back out three times in the last month. “Slightly” I literally thought those were bad. This was the big kahuna. To cough and feel the wind knocked out of me and collapse to the ground, stuck for hours in the same spot. To feel spasms through out your body, and like you broke your back. (Everyone is thinking, I have some herniated discs, waiting to see a chiro, acupuncture, or my PT bff) I felt like I was in the movie 127 hours LOL. Well anyway I will stop complaining, or ranting whatever this is. I just wanna feel back to the happy girl smiling in this photo, w/ the love of my life who seriously is a rare breed and such a beautiful man. I will, with rest, self/care and positive thinking #blessed
My Simple Magical Tahini dressing recipe, you all asked for 💗 * 1 cup- tahini @sesamaise * 4 tbsp- lemon juice
* 4 cloves garlic
* 2 tbsp- maple syrup, agave or raw honey * 3 tbsp- apple cider vinegar @bragglivefoodproducts * Pink salt and pep to taste * 2 tbsp @gardenoflife mct oil and water to thin
Enjoy on Salad, as a sauce etc! 🤗
Got to visit the Babe at work yesterday. I am so proud of him. Hours of shooting everyday and always striving for the best for us. Just watching him work, I thought to myself how I don’t get to this everyday. His passion and momentum is so admirable. I know this might be a random post. But watching him work so hard yesterday. To today, after hours of being exhausted from 15+ hour days all week. He sat with me for about 5 hours doing our registry at the store. Even being so tired.. he was just smiling and so excited. He is the sweetest soul there is. The most selfless as well. 💗