Suffering from mental disorders are never easy, especially if it's more than one. What do you do when your thoughts always seem to be towards the negative side? What do you do when you feel that constant sense of void and loneliness? What do you do when all you think about is suicide and hurting yourself? It is not easy talking about it, I know. How do you explain to someone something you yourself don't understand? But I'm here telling you that you are not alone. I'm here telling you not to give up. I'm here telling you to keep on fighting no matter how bleak your future might seem. Take one day at a time, don't rush the healing process. It does take time. Ignore the people who shot you down or turned around and said that you're just " joking " about these stuff. These people don't matter. Stay close to the people who love and support you, the ones who encourage you to get back up again. Fight #throughthenight - the thoughts that keep you awake, the demons that come out and play. And even if you wake up feeling like life isn't worth living, look up to the sky and see how the sun shines for you. You don't have to handle everything tonight, leave it for other time or maybe never again. You are loved and you're protected. Some day you will feel ok again - maybe days, maybe weeks, maybe years. But never ever lose hope. I hope it doesn't have to come to a point where it's too late for you. Drop me a dm or message me if anyone of you ever needs to talk, I promise I'll reply. Take heart. ❤ // thank you @narellekheng for helping me through my own episodes all these years.
My first ever overseas experience with friends wouldn't be as special if it wasn't with this bunch 🌈 Thank you guys for always being the quirkiest and funniest, I can't imagine a life without you guys 😭
Happy birthday @thesonilee @thejanicelee 🎂 the very first non-singaporean group I ever loved and got the chance to go for your concert. Thank you for being such a blessing to so many people in the world and being such an inspiration because of your faith. I hope to be able to watch you guys again soon one day. 💝
School's out for the week and met up with @jensylee 🎉 Didn't manage to go into the tsum tsum village because of the lack of time and long queue but hey, today was damn fun 😌 Played 96 worth of credits at the arcade, won my first claw machine toy, Shiyuan Ma'am bought the cutest post-its for me, met @blancsherm + had cake and ice cream 💕 Thoroughly enjoyed every second of tonight 😇
Thank you for being part of most of my life so far. Knowing you since I was in primary school, seeing you around our parents' cell. Reconnecting with you in secondary school by chance, the times I crashed your study sessions while you were chionging for O levels in the canteen with the rest of your friends. Even meeting you during my SRJC attachment. Seeing you graduate from SIM-RMIT was special. Thank you for everything all these years @debsjiaying 💕
If the weekends are a little different now than how they used to be, may you know that you are still free to enjoy the little things, make room for new beginnings and embrace beautiful and unlikely opportunities to come alive and make the absolute most of every present moment - @morganharpernichols // So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. - Isaiah 41:10
And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another — and all the more as you see the Day approaching. - Hebrews 10:24-25
Being able to see these guys again today, especially as a group, meant something so so special to me. Immensely thankful for this community 💕 #leparkfam
• " all that matters is you’re happy ☺️ " •
It's been almost a year since I first got to know you and meeting you by chance at Esplanade. Thank you for always being so encouraging and patient with me even through my toughest phases. I wouldn't be here if not for the timely reminders you constantly sent me and for the advice every time I confided in you. Thank you for inspiring me to accept myself, for being so supportive that I'm back in school. To say that you've been such a blessing in my life is an understatement. Love you tons babe 💕
📸: @jonzhuang and @miccctay @michaeltayphotography
" Love you to bits u know it " - I think that sometimes things can bring you down and circumstances can be so bad it clouds what you already know. I've been listening to 2 songs on loop recently - Hills and Valleys and I'll Find You. Sometimes you just gotta fight, even if you feel like no one is there. Because truth is, there will always be people loving and supporting you even if it isn't physically. Looking back on the times I've been so blessed to have people helping me through stuff I thought I'd never be able to get through, just feeling immensely blessed. I'm counting my blessings even through this season. Thank You for the people in my life.
One of those nights fighting the insecurities that I'm never gonna be enough, the feelings of void and loneliness, the fear of losing people. Clinging to Isaiah 41:10 and John 4:18 even while I'm struggling. You're God of the hills and valleys, I am not alone.
Time check: 7.03am in the morning. Spent the weekend looking back on my Instagram posts from way back. It's been a long shot and so many things have changed. Learning every single day - be it old things or new lessons. Leaving the past behind, or at least I'm trying to. Hello fellow humans, my name is Sarrah. 🦋