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You know, I was thinking about my triggers, and how I try to create safe spaces on my page to protect followers and friends from reading things that bring guilt, horrible memories and destructive thoughts. Sometimes, I miss the mark. Many times, I try to correct or educate and not everyone will see the harm in what they feel are supportive and encouraging words. All I can do is apologize. Those of you in my inboxes and DMs, I feel terrible that you feel unprotected, lonely, dismissed, and misunderstood. Your feelings matter. Things may look grim right now, and I may not know exactly how you feel, but I've had my own as recently as today, and we don't always get the response we need. I'm here to listen. I won't advise or criticize. I might ask a few questions and I may not be the best at calling every day, but you calling me won't be a burden. What can I do to help you? How can I show you that you have an ally? What can help you feel less alone?
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You know, I was thinking about my triggers, and how I try to create safe spaces on my page to protect followers and friends from reading things that bring guilt, horrible memories and destructive thoughts. Sometimes, I miss the mark. Many times, I try to correct or educate and not everyone will see the harm in what they feel are supportive and encouraging words. All I can do is apologize. Those of you in my inboxes and DMs, I feel terrible that you feel unprotected, lonely, dismissed, and misunderstood. Your feelings matter. Things may look grim right now, and I may not know exactly how you feel, but I've had my own as recently as today, and we don't always get the response we need. I'm here to listen. I won't advise or criticize. I might ask a few questions and I may not be the best at calling every day, but you calling me won't be a burden. What can I do to help you? How can I show you that you have an ally? What can help you feel less alone? Makeup by @oyayothestorm, @bhcosmetics, @nyxcosmetics, @lagirlcosmetics, @hipdot, @ienvybykiss Jewelry by @earthboundtrading #Anxiety  #Depression  #PTSD  #Bipolar  #InvisibleIllness  #SuicideAwareness  #ReprogramYourThoughts  #FindTheLight  #LightAndLove  #WishCraft  #BlackGirlMagic  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #KillEm  #IEnvy  #BeatFace  #KissCosmetics  #NYXCosmetics  #Fash  #Morphe  #HipDot  #BHCosmetics  #StudioPro  #Bloom  #Lotus  #InkedUnicorns  #Moonstoner  #StopStigma  #Ally 
The definition of smiling depression is: appearing happy to others, literally smiling, while internally suffering with depressive symptoms. Smiling depression often goes undetected. Those suffering often discount their own feelings and brush them aside. They might not even be aware of their depression, or want to acknowledge their symptoms due to a fear of being considered “weak" or a burden, or often times have been treated as if their condition would just improve if they would simply "be happy", to please others, which can lead to various relapses of isolation, drug abuse, self harm, and others. Suicide can be a particular threat for individuals suffering with smiling depression. Typically, people suffering with classic, severe depression might have suicidal thoughts, but not the energy to act on their feelings. However, those suffering from smiling depression have the energetic ability to plan and follow through. This is why smiling depression can be more dangerous than a classic form of severe depression. As long as you continue to deny or avoid what makes you feel empty, it will be near impossible to fix the problem. When depressive thoughts and feelings aren’t addressed, they typically build up and become worse
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The definition of smiling depression is: appearing happy to others, literally smiling, while internally suffering with depressive symptoms. Smiling depression often goes undetected. Those suffering often discount their own feelings and brush them aside. They might not even be aware of their depression, or want to acknowledge their symptoms due to a fear of being considered “weak" or a burden, or often times have been treated as if their condition would just improve if they would simply "be happy", to please others, which can lead to various relapses of isolation, drug abuse, self harm, and others. Suicide can be a particular threat for individuals suffering with smiling depression. Typically, people suffering with classic, severe depression might have suicidal thoughts, but not the energy to act on their feelings. However, those suffering from smiling depression have the energetic ability to plan and follow through. This is why smiling depression can be more dangerous than a classic form of severe depression. As long as you continue to deny or avoid what makes you feel empty, it will be near impossible to fix the problem. When depressive thoughts and feelings aren’t addressed, they typically build up and become worse Makeup by @oyayothestorm, @bhcosmetics, @nyxcosmetics, @lagirlcosmetics, @hipdot, @ienvybykiss #Anxiety  #Depression  #PTSD  #Bipolar  #Suicide  #SemiColonProject  #InvisibleIllness  #ReprogramYourThoughts  #FindTheLight  #LightAndLove  #WishCraft  #BlackGirlMagic  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #KillEm  #IEnvy  #BeatFace  #KissCosmetics  #NYXCosmetics  #Morphe  #HipDot  #BHCosmetics  #StudioPro  #Bloom  #Lotus  #InkedUnicorns  #Moonstoner  #Prevention  #Compassion 
SUICIDE AWARENESS... Hmm... What have I not said already about suicide, my history, and my experiences? I think I've talked about how I got to that point and how death would be easier. I've mentioned the loneliness and the verbal abuse. I've talked about the plans I made and the desire to not be found or resuscitated. I don't think I've said enough about post care, or the others affected, as much, because that I don't experience. Therapy is important, but what if you have no insurance? Outlets are important, but what if there's still no drive? Support systems are important, but what if you're invisible? Usually, if we discover a loved one with suicidal thoughts, we give them tough love, a pat on the back, offer them a "you got this", and whistle on with our day with pride that we stopped by to save the day! That's not always the best fix, and we have to listen yo what Is, and post care is just as big as care and prevention--hell, post-vention Is prevention. Sometimes, a steady reminder that a life is worth living helps someone Want to live. Tell someone today and everyday what you'd miss without their presence and that you love them. Don't wait until something horrible happens to tell them what they mean to this space

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SUICIDE AWARENESS... Hmm... What have I not said already about suicide, my history, and my experiences? I think I've talked about how I got to that point and how death would be easier. I've mentioned the loneliness and the verbal abuse. I've talked about the plans I made and the desire to not be found or resuscitated. I don't think I've said enough about post care, or the others affected, as much, because that I don't experience. Therapy is important, but what if you have no insurance? Outlets are important, but what if there's still no drive? Support systems are important, but what if you're invisible? Usually, if we discover a loved one with suicidal thoughts, we give them tough love, a pat on the back, offer them a "you got this", and whistle on with our day with pride that we stopped by to save the day! That's not always the best fix, and we have to listen yo what Is, and post care is just as big as care and prevention--hell, post-vention Is prevention. Sometimes, a steady reminder that a life is worth living helps someone Want to live. Tell someone today and everyday what you'd miss without their presence and that you love them. Don't wait until something horrible happens to tell them what they mean to this space Makeup by @oyayothestorm, @bhcosmetics, @nyxcosmetics, @lagirlcosmetics, @hipdot, @ienvybykiss #Anxiety  #Depression  #PTSD  #Bipolar  #Suicide  #SemiColonProject  #InvisibleIllness  #ReprogramYourThoughts  #FindTheLight  #LightAndLove  #WishCraft  #BlackGirlMagic  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #KillEm  #IEnvy  #BeatFace  #KissCosmetics  #NYXCosmetics  #Morphe  #HipDot  #BHCosmetics  #StudioPro  #Bloom  #Lotus  #InkedUnicorns  #Moonstoner  #Prevention  #SpeakLife 
Ooh-ooh! Lemme do one. I wanna play!
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Ooh-ooh! Lemme do one. I wanna play! Makeup by @oyayothestorm, @bhcosmetics, @nyxcosmetics, @lagirlcosmetics, @hipdot, @ienvybykiss #Anxiety  #Depression  #PTSD  #Bipolar  #InvisibleIllness  #ReprogramYourThoughts  #FindTheLight  #LightAndLove  #WishCraft  #BlackGirlMagic  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #MorningFace  #KillEm  #IEnvy  #BeatFace  #KissCosmetics  #NYXCosmetics  #Fash  #Morphe  #HipDot  #BHCosmetics  #StudioPro  #Bloom  #Lotus  #InkedUnicorns  #Moonstoner  #Nike  #SayThatShyt 
So... If I cut my locs out at mid-torso length, I'll still have hang-time, right? That would make one Hell of an afro, huh?

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So... If I cut my locs out at mid-torso length, I'll still have hang-time, right? That would make one Hell of an afro, huh? https://www.facebook.com/YoliOyayo/ #Dreadlocks  #BrownLocs  #BlueLocs  #PurpleLocs  #PinkLocs  #IndigoLocs  #ModelModel  #FreeTress  #BobbiBossHair  #Color  #HealthyLocs  #NaturalHair  #GoddessLocCharms  #LocStars  #LocStyles  #LongHair  #Twists  #MillionareGrind  #NoExits  #Aspergers  #Autism  #Depression  #Bipolar  #Anxiety  #YoliOyayo  #Unicorn  #UnicornHair  #ColorOutsideTheLines  #Evolution  #GrownWithLove 
Crazy azz lineup, dope drummer, venue spot on point, and you gotta love the atmosphere! Better get online about these tickets. Show's getting close!
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When we come from a painful past, we might build our identity around the terrible things that happened to us. But, if we can begin to separate who we are from those events, we see that though our pain may shape us, it does not define who we are as human beings. We are inherently good, and we deserve the absolute best in life. We deserve to be happy, healthy, and to have and give love unconditionally. We deserve to be supported, protected, and adored by the one we lay our head next to at night

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When we come from a painful past, we might build our identity around the terrible things that happened to us. But, if we can begin to separate who we are from those events, we see that though our pain may shape us, it does not define who we are as human beings. We are inherently good, and we deserve the absolute best in life. We deserve to be happy, healthy, and to have and give love unconditionally. We deserve to be supported, protected, and adored by the one we lay our head next to at night Makeup by @oyayothestorm, @bhcosmetics, @nyxcosmetics, @lagirlcosmetics, @hipdot, @ienvybykiss #Anxiety  #Depression  #PTSD  #Bipolar  #InvisibleIllness  #ReprogramYourThoughts  #FindTheLight  #LightAndLove  #WishCraft  #BlackGirlMagic  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #MorningFace  #KillEm  #IEnvy  #BeatFace  #KissCosmetics  #NYXCosmetics  #Fash  #Morphe  #HipDot  #BHCosmetics  #StudioPro  #Bloom  #Lotus  #InkedUnicorns  #Moonstoner  #Relationships  #LoveEternal 
Guess who walked into the school to regulate on a teacher, to leave with a 504 plan and a Behavior Modification meeting? This girl! "Effective immediately, Khalid is Not to be phukked wit, because Miss Yoli ain't one to be phukked wit"-- Administration
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Guess who walked into the school to regulate on a teacher, to leave with a 504 plan and a Behavior Modification meeting? This girl! "Effective immediately, Khalid is Not to be phukked wit, because Miss Yoli ain't one to be phukked wit"-- Administration Makeup by @oyayothestorm, @bhcosmetics, @nyxcosmetics, @lagirlcosmetics, @hipdot, @ienvybykiss #Aspergers  #AspieKid  #AnxiousMom  #Depression  #PTSD  #CarpalTunnel  #InvisibleIllness  #ColorOutsideTheLines  #BeatFace  #SchoolDaze  #PrincipalsOffice  #SocialCues  #Focus  #InteractionSkills  #EmotionalExpression  #Attentiveness  #LearningStuff  #Moonstoner  #Slay  #DontPlay 
I know y'all don't get enough of Emery, but he's not the photo type. That's okay, tho. He's my model for today's post. Many of us still look at locs having to be manicured, and styled often to look good for society and the masses, but, errah... what's the result of all that manipulation? 🎶Dun-dun-Dun....!🎶 Damage! Constant twisting, gels, waxes, and cotton is a heavy contribution to locs fraying and thinning, especially around the hairline. But y'all know me! I got Yoli Oil for that! No different than Wild Growth or Miracle Drops, you drip, drop and massage. The in-between time from touch up to touch up, you gotta be gentle with this hair! It's sensitive and needs your love. Keep it clean! Keep it covered! Keep it Loose! I think I know what I'm talking about. How many of you have a growth testimony, working with yours truly?  https://www.facebook.com/YoliOyayo/
#Dreadlocks #BrownLocs #HealthyLocs #NaturalHair #LocLove #GoddessLocCharms #LocStars #LocStyles #LongHair #Natural #NaturalCutie #NaturalHairstyles #Twists #YoliOyayo #Unicorn #UnicornHair #Moonstoner #Evolution #Growth #GrownWithLove
I know y'all don't get enough of Emery, but he's not the photo type. That's okay, tho. He's my model for today's post. Many of us still look at locs having to be manicured, and styled often to look good for society and the masses, but, errah... what's the result of all that manipulation? 🎶Dun-dun-Dun....!🎶 Damage! Constant twisting, gels, waxes, and cotton is a heavy contribution to locs fraying and thinning, especially around the hairline. But y'all know me! I got Yoli Oil for that! No different than Wild Growth or Miracle Drops, you drip, drop and massage. The in-between time from touch up to touch up, you gotta be gentle with this hair! It's sensitive and needs your love. Keep it clean! Keep it covered! Keep it Loose! I think I know what I'm talking about. How many of you have a growth testimony, working with yours truly? https://www.facebook.com/YoliOyayo/ #Dreadlocks  #BrownLocs  #HealthyLocs  #NaturalHair  #LocLove  #GoddessLocCharms  #LocStars  #LocStyles  #LongHair  #Natural  #NaturalCutie  #NaturalHairstyles  #Twists  #YoliOyayo  #Unicorn  #UnicornHair  #Moonstoner  #Evolution  #Growth  #GrownWithLove 
"Let your life be in the sunshine
Not the darkness of your sorrow
You may see your all today
When you know it'll come tomorrow"-- Aretha Franklin
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"Let your life be in the sunshine Not the darkness of your sorrow You may see your all today When you know it'll come tomorrow"-- Aretha Franklin Ink by @artbyblaque Makeup by @oyayothestorm, @bhcosmetics, @nyxcosmetics, @lagirlcosmetics, @hipdot, @ienvybykiss Jewelry by @earthboundtrading #Anxiety  #Depression  #PTSD  #Bipolar  #InvisibleIllness  #ReprogramYourThoughts  #FindTheLight  #LightAndLove  #WishCraft  #BlackGirlMagic  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #KillEm  #IEnvy  #BeatFace  #KissCosmetics  #NYXCosmetics  #Fash  #Morphe  #HipDot  #BHCosmetics  #StudioPro  #Bloom  #Lotus  #InkedUnicorns  #Moonstoner  #StopStigma  #BeBeautiful 
Cute, huh? So... Y'all know about cognitive dissonance, right? I got you if you don't. Now, cognitive dissonance is saying negative shyt over and over and it leads to this shift in your attitude, and you begin to live that negativity. That negativity can affect you in a bunch of ways, but two of the most prevalent is that it will keep you in a nasty cycle of procrastination... and Arrogance. We kinda phukk up as black folks. We can't be too proud, but we can't be too down. Those extremes--without education of finding balance--Still presents extreme behaviors. We either expect folks to think we're the shyt since shyt was shyt, or we receive recognition and turn it into how we Ain't shyt. Either way, we blocking Real blessings... In the universal senseb of course. I'm trying to work this mu'phukkah in My favor, okay? Im-a take this precious little notebook, and write great things I'd like to be, and would like to accomplish. I already got a book of things I'd like to have to assist on this journey, but I need a list of Me... Not just materialistic bullshyt. Now, this incredibly simple method is a powerful tool for changing your attitude for the better. Turn your can’ts into cans. Flip the negative to a positive! You deserve it and others deserve to see a better you, instead of a hurt you. Try starting your Own book to write affirmations in. Keep them short, keep them specific, and Please keep them present (that's a Big, bad lesson learned). Make affirmations a daily habit and begin a brighter outlook on Self

#Anxiety #Depression #PTSD #Bipolar #InvisibleIllness #ReprogramYourThoughts #FindTheLight #LightAndLove #WishCraft #BlackGirlMagic #Enlightenment #Elevation #Evolution #KillEm #Kindness #SelfCare #Journaling #Bloom #Lotus #InkedUnicorns #Moonstoner #StopHurting #BeYou
Cute, huh? So... Y'all know about cognitive dissonance, right? I got you if you don't. Now, cognitive dissonance is saying negative shyt over and over and it leads to this shift in your attitude, and you begin to live that negativity. That negativity can affect you in a bunch of ways, but two of the most prevalent is that it will keep you in a nasty cycle of procrastination... and Arrogance. We kinda phukk up as black folks. We can't be too proud, but we can't be too down. Those extremes--without education of finding balance--Still presents extreme behaviors. We either expect folks to think we're the shyt since shyt was shyt, or we receive recognition and turn it into how we Ain't shyt. Either way, we blocking Real blessings... In the universal senseb of course. I'm trying to work this mu'phukkah in My favor, okay? Im-a take this precious little notebook, and write great things I'd like to be, and would like to accomplish. I already got a book of things I'd like to have to assist on this journey, but I need a list of Me... Not just materialistic bullshyt. Now, this incredibly simple method is a powerful tool for changing your attitude for the better. Turn your can’ts into cans. Flip the negative to a positive! You deserve it and others deserve to see a better you, instead of a hurt you. Try starting your Own book to write affirmations in. Keep them short, keep them specific, and Please keep them present (that's a Big, bad lesson learned). Make affirmations a daily habit and begin a brighter outlook on Self #Anxiety  #Depression  #PTSD  #Bipolar  #InvisibleIllness  #ReprogramYourThoughts  #FindTheLight  #LightAndLove  #WishCraft  #BlackGirlMagic  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #KillEm  #Kindness  #SelfCare  #Journaling  #Bloom  #Lotus  #InkedUnicorns  #Moonstoner  #StopHurting  #BeYou 
Been quite a while since I've made my face; even longer since I've dressed up. Today, with Darkness on my mind and sadness on my spirit, I put on a skirt and made my face with a splash of color and a bit of fun. Even though an argument that led to things said that I'm an awful mother and my priorities messed up, I strived to have a great time at the Boss Brunch, and I'm thankful for my loved ones that reminded me I'm Much more than the hateful words a co-parent says about me
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Been quite a while since I've made my face; even longer since I've dressed up. Today, with Darkness on my mind and sadness on my spirit, I put on a skirt and made my face with a splash of color and a bit of fun. Even though an argument that led to things said that I'm an awful mother and my priorities messed up, I strived to have a great time at the Boss Brunch, and I'm thankful for my loved ones that reminded me I'm Much more than the hateful words a co-parent says about me Makeup by @oyayothestorm, @bhcosmetics, @nyxcosmetics, @lagirlcosmetics, @hipdot, @ienvybykiss #Anxiety  #Depression  #PTSD  #Bipolar  #InvisibleIllness  #ReprogramYourThoughts  #FindTheLight  #LightAndLove  #WishCraft  #BlackGirlMagic  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #KillEm  #IEnvy  #BeatFace  #KissCosmetics  #NYXCosmetics  #Fash  #Morphe  #HipDot  #BHCosmetics  #Bloom  #Lotus  #InkedUnicorns  #Moonstoner  #WordsCanHurt  #BeBetter 
ad·vo·cate: a person who publicly supports or recommends a particular cause or policy. The term comes from Latin advocare, to “add” a “voice.” To advocate is to add a voice of support to a cause or person. Not only do I share a voice, I share a face, a feeling, a moment. 
One point this week, I was told I was a false advocate. I guess, even though I know the truth, it's not the 1st time I've been called "fake" or a "fraud". I can't say I know Why, but I know that in order to be an advocate, I feel I have to continue to be honest in my fortune and misfortune... Especially my misfortune.
This summer has been the hardest I've had in 3 years. I've dealt with a breakup and the hardships that go with grief, coping, compensating, and, honestly, the disbelief that it even happened. Also, adjusting to my son's diagnosis and not being as present as he needs, my work dwindling, and losing friends for standing up for what's important. My mental health deteriorated. The drinking came back, and so did the irrational behavioral, suicidal thoughts, the Weeks of menstral periods, not eating or sleeping, and isolation, and what I honestly wanted to help me get better, I was constantly denied. This is the Real of My mental illness. Not many have patience, sympathy or understanding for it, because it's more than tears, but not speaking gibberish to a tree for not buying an orange juice t-shirt. Sometimes, you are forced to cope or let go to comfort others, and I just can't anymore. I just know I'm down and hurt and lonely, and I can't deal with the arrogance and the boasting during my low points; it's too much. With this honesty, I hope it brings the awareness that advocacy is intended to do from All angles, and a reminder of where I was when I recover. Much love even without love back
#Anxiety #Autism #Depression #PTSD #InvisibleIllness #ColorOutsideTheLines #EscapingTheDarkness #LearningSelf #Awareness #Enlightenment #Elevation #Evolution #Embodiment #Environment #Grounding #Safety #Truth #Release #SolarPlexus #RootChakraHealing #Moonstoner #WalkingForward #NotAFraud
ad·vo·cate: a person who publicly supports or recommends a particular cause or policy. The term comes from Latin advocare, to “add” a “voice.” To advocate is to add a voice of support to a cause or person. Not only do I share a voice, I share a face, a feeling, a moment. One point this week, I was told I was a false advocate. I guess, even though I know the truth, it's not the 1st time I've been called "fake" or a "fraud". I can't say I know Why, but I know that in order to be an advocate, I feel I have to continue to be honest in my fortune and misfortune... Especially my misfortune. This summer has been the hardest I've had in 3 years. I've dealt with a breakup and the hardships that go with grief, coping, compensating, and, honestly, the disbelief that it even happened. Also, adjusting to my son's diagnosis and not being as present as he needs, my work dwindling, and losing friends for standing up for what's important. My mental health deteriorated. The drinking came back, and so did the irrational behavioral, suicidal thoughts, the Weeks of menstral periods, not eating or sleeping, and isolation, and what I honestly wanted to help me get better, I was constantly denied. This is the Real of My mental illness. Not many have patience, sympathy or understanding for it, because it's more than tears, but not speaking gibberish to a tree for not buying an orange juice t-shirt. Sometimes, you are forced to cope or let go to comfort others, and I just can't anymore. I just know I'm down and hurt and lonely, and I can't deal with the arrogance and the boasting during my low points; it's too much. With this honesty, I hope it brings the awareness that advocacy is intended to do from All angles, and a reminder of where I was when I recover. Much love even without love back #Anxiety  #Autism  #Depression  #PTSD  #InvisibleIllness  #ColorOutsideTheLines  #EscapingTheDarkness  #LearningSelf  #Awareness  #Enlightenment  #Elevation  #Evolution  #Embodiment  #Environment  #Grounding  #Safety  #Truth  #Release  #SolarPlexus  #RootChakraHealing  #Moonstoner  #WalkingForward  #NotAFraud 
So... I did a thing, after thinking of crystals. It's not the best angle to see it, but trust me when I say "@artbyblaque got me right".
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