A work spread. Specifically, a spread about a new job I applied for a week ago. If I get the job, I will be doing what I always dreamed of doing: designing new and 'greener' synthetic routes at a pharmaceutical company. My current work situation is extremely stagnant and unfulfilling, so I applied for a few jobs in the past 2 weeks. But this one makes me the most excited. So I did a spread to see the situation. I specifically asked to see some explanation in the 'crossing' and 'below' positions for the fact that I haven't yet received any kind of response, even though I was promised a quick update by an acquintance who works there (although one week is not a long time in company time).
Center: Queen of Cups.
Crossing: 2 of Pentacles.
Above: 10 of Cups.
Below: Knight of Swords.
Past: 6 of Swords.
Future: 3 of Cups.
Self: 8 of Wands.
Environment: Ace of Wands.
Guidance: Page of Wands.
Outcome: Page of Cups.
(Underlying energy: Knight of Cups.)
Any opinions are welcome, especially on the fact that there are so many Cups in this purely work spread. The Page of Cups is also fascinating as outcome. This is not necessarily a negative spread, but I feel like there's more to it than I'm getting right now. With the 2 of Pentacles as obstacle, I feel like the reason I haven't yet received a response is either juggling too much work, or juggling options. But I'm looking forward to how this unfolds.
This rant post is for those who are familiar with the 'twin flame' concept. I used to be such a big believer, in fact, I was a 100% convinced that I already met my twin flame. But recently, my thoughts on the subject are shifting from "this explains so much!" to "who created this hoax?".
The concept of 'having one half of your soul in a different body, destined to unite' is not something I can vibe with these days. Yes, I did meet someone from a different age, ethnic and religious group who I had a crazy deep connection with from the first moment. Yes, we had a wonderful but complicated relationship, and then one day he decided our love was too difficult, and ran away. Yes, the heartbreak catalyzed a true spiritual awakening experience. I can check all the boxes. But thanks to the popular twin flame concept, I believed it was only normal to wait for him to return, because hello, we are the same soul. But the more I think about it, the more this thing seems like absolute nonsense. I put my love life on hold for a person who told me that he doesn't see a future with me; simply because I have been brainwashed into thinking that there is a perfect match for my soul out there, and this man is it. I may have missed the chance to connect with some wonderful spirits, because I figured I was going to end up with my twin flame anyway, so why bother. And what a huge mistake.
This may be the Venus Retrograde speaking, but I don't think there is such a thing as meeting the right person at the wrong time. I used to believe that was our case, and I just had to wait out the karmic lessons, and then reunite, but no. The right person at the wrong time is actually the wrong person, it's just super difficult to swallow. The RIGHT person will meet you at the right time, at the right circumstances. Why would destiny bring us true love with bad timing? She doesn't. Everything happens with divine intervention, at the perfect time. We can make up all the fairytale stories we want about why the person we love had to leave. But the truth is: they had to leave because destiny made them leave. Because there is someone better out there, for everyone involved. #twinflame#twinsoul#tarot
A look into October.
Center: Queen of Cups.
Crossing: Page of Cups.
Above: 7 of Swords.
Below: 2 of Cups.
Past: Ace of Cups.
Future: 4 of Swords.
Environment: 4 of Wands.
Guidance: 7 of Wands.
Outcome: 2 of Pentacles.
(Bottom of deck: Emperor.)
Reluctance to express feelings is the name of the game here. Keeping the bubbling feelings to yourself, and choosing inaction and introspection before acting on anything. Got all the major romance cards here (Ace, Page and 2 of Cups), but the 7 and 4 of Swords give them a different vibe. Procrastination maybe? Avoiding the responsibility? Not wanting to deal with emotions, pushing them down, or simply taking time to examine them first? This spread screams Venus Retrograde if you ask me (coming up on October 6th!).
Our external lives may reach a certain milestone this coming month. Whatever choice or event we will face, the guidance is to have courage and perseverance. Whatever comes up, it's worth fighting for. You will learn to adapt to the new, maybe surprising life changes. Be flexible if the future does not seem like you planned it. Go with the flow, stop trying so hard to control the circumstances.
P.S. The Emperor as the underlying energy shows to me that we may be in a more masculine energy this month. This goes along with the difficulty to express emotions. This Venus Retrograde may be a good month to heal the Divine Masculine energy that resides in all of us?
A career spread, which is not something I do often, but the time has come today.
In a nutshell, I'm considering moving away from the academic scene, and starting a career in the chemical industry in the next 0.5 - 1 year. I'm already writing my resume and browsing job offers.
Teaching is something I will truly miss. My current group is lovely. However, the politics and workings of a researcher academic life is slowly but surely ruining my mental health, day by day. Lately I wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat because of my worsening anxiety. I don't do 9-to-5, I do 0-to-24, because the work flow never stops. I have to bring work home almost every day. No one told me you have to sell your soul for a doctorate. I'm passionate about science, but researching+teaching at a university is something else. I'm not sure how long I can go before I snap.
Anyways, I did this spread with the question: What's going on currently, and what would happen if I moved on to the industry; getting a new job? I think the answer is pretty clear, but any insights are very welcome right now.
Center: 8 of Swords.
Crossing: Queen of Pentacles.
Above: 5 of Wands.
Below: 3 of Pentacles.
Past: Page of Swords.
Self: 5 of Swords.
Environment: 2 of Cups.
Outcome: 9 of Cups (clarified by Lust).
I hope you are all doing amazing. 🌻
NEW MOON IN VIRGO SPREAD.
Center: Ace of Wands.
Crossing: 2 of Wands.
Subconscious: Page of Pentacles.
Past: 9 of Wands.
Future: Queen of Pentacles.
Self: 9 of Swords.
Outcome: 5 of Pentacles + 10 of Pentacles.
(Oracle cards: Insecurity and Prayer.)
Bursting with inspiration, ideas and vitality, after a period of being defensive and struggling. However, there is an element of caution because of the past, and because of this, there is a struggle to make a decision, or make an actual bold move out of the bold ideas. Anxiety and worry may hit with the new moon.
A great deal of secure and practical energy is available with the Queen and 10 of Pentacles (hello Virgo moon), yet somehow, there is still a sense of lack and anguish with the 5 of Pentacles and 9 of Swords. The 5 and 10 together as outcome shows to me that even though we have everything at our disposal, we're still struggling with a feeling of lack and insecurity. Probably because something around us is not going as planned, hence the Tower.
The guidance is to remember that we are whole as we are. We are not lacking anything. We can have all the blessings in the world if we take time to notice them.
"...minds too indolent, too cowardly to think out their own problems, hail joyfully to this policy of appeasement..."
Aleister Crowley on the '4 of Swords - Truce' in the Book of Thoth.
After a hectic week, I'm spending a few hours this morning re-educating myself on some tarot cards I find to be complicated. The 4 of Swords is one of them. It seems so simple, yet it's not. Its shadow side is not simple at all.
It follows the pain of the 3 of Swords, and precedes the defeat of the 5 of Swords. So there must be something fake about the peace of this card. And Crowley puts it perfectly in his Book of Thoth.
It's a card of denial and ignorance. It's a false notion that nothing is wrong, or that we are too weak to do anything about an issue, so we just let it slide. But something is clearly unresolved, and lurks in the background, and hits us in the face with the rest of the Swords suit.
How do you relate to this card this weekend? Are you simply taking a mental rest, or are you ignoring a problem you could actually fix?
Day I of #theegotarotchallenge .
How is my ego-driven self?
10 of Cups.
How is my true self?
10 of Wands.
My ego insists on creating and faking this fairytale life where everything is perfect, nothing hurts me and everything is happy and positive. For this reason, I have a tendency to avoid emotionally connecting with people, because the less I feel for them, the less they can hurt me.
However, my true self knows that in order to live a full life, we must take the responsibility, and accept that not everything is perfect. You can't separate yourself from basic human needs like love and vulnerability, and call it a good life. We must take the risk and the responsibility to live a full life, with a full range of human experiences; and not an externally perfect one.
Anyone is welcome to join the challenge. I probably won't be able to post all the prompts, but I will see what I can do with my busy autumn schedule. But I will try my best to keep up with your draws!
So I got this really random idea that I wanted to try a Celtic Cross spread with my oracle cards. This is probably not very traditional, but honestly, the result is more mindblowing than any of my recent regular CC spreads.
Heart of matter: Confusion.
The keywords together with the lovely images are creating a whole, powerful picture. I almost feel like any explanation is unnecessary with these keywords.
A painful, heartbreaking memory is making us confused and lost in the present. We're feeling a deep lack, we're feeling the opposite of abundant. We might have isolated ourselves from our environment, in order to start a quest for something bigger, something better. We're slowly finding forgiveness in our hearts, and purge or release any resentments and grudges from the past. New passion is knocking on the door if we dare come out of the isolation and notice it. A soulmate might just be around the corner. You may find it in someone else. Or maybe, you will find it in yourself.
Let me know if this spread resonated with you! 🌻