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    Mariah Dawn Scherlacher
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A piece by Alexia Diaz:
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Your words
singed me
Like a hot seatbelt hitting skin
on a simmering summer day
It burned
It blistered
It burst
Leaving a welt
Decaying
Disgusting
Taking over
My body
My thoughts
My emotions

Until one day
tired of avoiding my reflection
I stared at the stranger in the mirror
Scarred, cracked, beaten down by
Those words
And I screamed “NO MORE!!”
I screamed so loudly that the mirror fragmented into a million tiny particles collapsing into a pile of dust onto the floor.

And In that pile
laid a small diamond

I picked it up
I brushed it off 
And saw beautiful little faces looking back at me.
A piece by Alexia Diaz: . . Your words singed me Like a hot seatbelt hitting skin on a simmering summer day It burned It blistered It burst Leaving a welt Decaying Disgusting Taking over My body My thoughts My emotions Until one day tired of avoiding my reflection I stared at the stranger in the mirror Scarred, cracked, beaten down by Those words And I screamed “NO MORE!!” I screamed so loudly that the mirror fragmented into a million tiny particles collapsing into a pile of dust onto the floor. And In that pile laid a small diamond I picked it up I brushed it off And saw beautiful little faces looking back at me.
Driving home from work I always pass a liquor store with a beautiful mural of flying birds on the side.  I think that’s ironic..sad, or something. I listen to ‘Empty’ by Ray LaMontange at least once a day and let myself marinate in it.  I wish I could tell him that his words trickle into my spine and cause me to sit up straight, because I swear, he knows me, it’s an eerie thing. I think about things less because work is busier, but when I get home, the silence is louder.  I’ve never tasted this brand of darkness. It’s beautifully tragic, sitting in the waiting area, like a skeleton waiting for a heart transplant.
Driving home from work I always pass a liquor store with a beautiful mural of flying birds on the side. I think that’s ironic..sad, or something. I listen to ‘Empty’ by Ray LaMontange at least once a day and let myself marinate in it. I wish I could tell him that his words trickle into my spine and cause me to sit up straight, because I swear, he knows me, it’s an eerie thing. I think about things less because work is busier, but when I get home, the silence is louder. I’ve never tasted this brand of darkness. It’s beautifully tragic, sitting in the waiting area, like a skeleton waiting for a heart transplant.
Sometimes I find you hard to read. I like that, because it makes the moments when you give your opinion special..like when you say “idolizing pastors and parents is never a good thing, they are humans too.” It’s rare finding friends that stretch your mind across new canvases. It’s rare, and you’re a radical human, friend. @sarahjon .
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#photooftheday #bleachmyfilm #illgrammers #visualvogue #sky #sunset #nature_good #globe_portraits #globe_visuals #people_infinity_ #beauty #visualsofearth #earth #earth_focus #pixelart #createcommune #createcultivate #justgoshoot #peoplegallery #portraits
Sometimes I find you hard to read. I like that, because it makes the moments when you give your opinion special..like when you say “idolizing pastors and parents is never a good thing, they are humans too.” It’s rare finding friends that stretch your mind across new canvases. It’s rare, and you’re a radical human, friend. @sarahjon . . . #photooftheday  #bleachmyfilm  #illgrammers  #visualvogue  #sky  #sunset  #nature_good  #globe_portraits  #globe_visuals  #people_infinity_  #beauty  #visualsofearth  #earth  #earth_focus  #pixelart  #createcommune  #createcultivate  #justgoshoot  #peoplegallery  #portraits 
On my 3 year anniversary working for RWJ Fitness and Wellness I was given the best promotion, to take over as the acting General Manager of our Carteret location.
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I didn’t want to be serving tables or bartending for the rest of my life and I took a chance, worked my tail off, and now I’m a walking testimony to anyone who doubts their ability to rise above. An ex heroin addict, now a GM of a medically based fitness and wellness company.
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If you ask, and put in the footwork, God will pull you out of the wreckage of your past. STRIVE to better yourself.
On my 3 year anniversary working for RWJ Fitness and Wellness I was given the best promotion, to take over as the acting General Manager of our Carteret location. . . I didn’t want to be serving tables or bartending for the rest of my life and I took a chance, worked my tail off, and now I’m a walking testimony to anyone who doubts their ability to rise above. An ex heroin addict, now a GM of a medically based fitness and wellness company. . . If you ask, and put in the footwork, God will pull you out of the wreckage of your past. STRIVE to better yourself.
Poem : Mariah Dawn
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Model : @uhlaysha
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From my new book, Medium Rare- link in bio::
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The rain brings out my best depression
God sits in my passenger seat
I talk to Him about how I doubt His goodness,
but I talk to Him nonetheless
some days are gold,
some days are filth
the car behind us 
runs over my limbic system 
I like it that way
destroying it myself is harder
the days will go on
but some of them will be spent
curled up in the bathtub
soaking in
the realest version of myself.
-mariah dawn
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#portraitsociety #globe_people #thevisualvogue #folkportraits #portraitmood #featurecreature #collectingportraits
Poem : Mariah Dawn . Model : @uhlaysha . From my new book, Medium Rare- link in bio:: . The rain brings out my best depression God sits in my passenger seat I talk to Him about how I doubt His goodness, but I talk to Him nonetheless some days are gold, some days are filth the car behind us runs over my limbic system I like it that way destroying it myself is harder the days will go on but some of them will be spent curled up in the bathtub soaking in the realest version of myself. -mariah dawn . . . #portraitsociety  #globe_people  #thevisualvogue  #folkportraits  #portraitmood  #featurecreature  #collectingportraits 
“I don't want to portray an image that I'm not. I dont want to look more holy, smarter, or cooler than I am. I want to be able to be me, a work in progress, a Christian who still struggles. A man who is still single, thinking about girls. Who is restless and sometimes depressed. Who is still working towards something he's not. Who might change his mind in five years about everything I just told you, but I think that's the point. This is where I am, and that’s being honest.” - @jonpaul_music .
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#photooftheday #street #art #design #picoftheday #style #modern #photography #urbanart #photo #artwork #fashion #streetarteverywhere #people #blackandwhite #instablackandwhite
“I don't want to portray an image that I'm not. I dont want to look more holy, smarter, or cooler than I am. I want to be able to be me, a work in progress, a Christian who still struggles. A man who is still single, thinking about girls. Who is restless and sometimes depressed. Who is still working towards something he's not. Who might change his mind in five years about everything I just told you, but I think that's the point. This is where I am, and that’s being honest.” - @jonpaul_music . . . . #photooftheday  #street  #art  #design  #picoftheday  #style  #modern  #photography  #urbanart  #photo  #artwork  #fashion  #streetarteverywhere  #people  #blackandwhite  #instablackandwhite 
Currently working on a film/photography project for @colinembrystrength. Colin takes personal training and powerlifting to new levels of performance and progress. Whether you’ve never lifted before, or you’re a seasoned exerciser, Colin will break your programming down to bring you to place you never thought you’d be. I’m excited to be a part of this project along with the talented @luistosty 🎥📷. If you want a down to earth, all heart-driven, laser-focused coach and trainer, contact @colinembrystrength. Proud to be your friend, Col!
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#personaltrainer #highsnobiety #urbanphotography #trainer #strengthtraining #lifting #quietthechaos
Currently working on a film/photography project for @colinembrystrength. Colin takes personal training and powerlifting to new levels of performance and progress. Whether you’ve never lifted before, or you’re a seasoned exerciser, Colin will break your programming down to bring you to place you never thought you’d be. I’m excited to be a part of this project along with the talented @luistosty 🎥📷. If you want a down to earth, all heart-driven, laser-focused coach and trainer, contact @colinembrystrength. Proud to be your friend, Col! . . . #personaltrainer  #highsnobiety  #urbanphotography  #trainer  #strengthtraining  #lifting  #quietthechaos 
My first poetry chapbook officially published and available on amazon. Link is in my bio. More books to come, as long as I’m breathing I’ll keep creating. Thank you for the support! Artwork was done by @alex_themishaaa
My first poetry chapbook officially published and available on amazon. Link is in my bio. More books to come, as long as I’m breathing I’ll keep creating. Thank you for the support! Artwork was done by @alex_themishaaa
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there’s a hole
in the back of my head
gasoline leaks out of it
onto streets I walk
in dimly lit restaurants 
on sandy beaches
inside my car
with songs by artists
who know me 
but don’t know me
I’m losing my mind
I could rip open my skull
if I could just figure out
if I could just know
if I’m the one
burning everyone behind me.
-mariah dawn
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#quietthechaos #poetrycommunity #picturesque #visualart #poem #bleachmyfilm #hypebeast #urban #urbangathering #killyourcity #visualambassadors #justgoshoot
... there’s a hole in the back of my head gasoline leaks out of it onto streets I walk in dimly lit restaurants on sandy beaches inside my car with songs by artists who know me but don’t know me I’m losing my mind I could rip open my skull if I could just figure out if I could just know if I’m the one burning everyone behind me. -mariah dawn . . . #quietthechaos  #poetrycommunity  #picturesque  #visualart  #poem  #bleachmyfilm  #hypebeast  #urban  #urbangathering  #killyourcity  #visualambassadors  #justgoshoot 
Can’t take this guy anywhere cause he finds people to speak Spanish with and I’m sitting there talking to myself.
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#hypebeast #bleachmyfilm #tangledinfilm #portrait_shots #portrait_mood #feature_portraits #citykillerz #way2ill #urbangathering #agameoftones
Can anyone guess what Postal Service song I’m thinking of?
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Can anyone guess what Postal Service song I’m thinking of? . . .