I’m just going to leave this here , because I’m currently obsessed with the show “f.r.i.e.n.d.s” & I’ve been constantly listening to x’s music & this is by far the most accurate meme of me. summer 2018 in one Picture .🖤😩
People fear change , change is good. Yes it is hard to stand alone in the process of any change we face. We weren’t meant to suffer or to be stuck on a task forever we were made to learn from that task to grow from that task . I get change is scary I’ve been there . If you really think about it you’re never really alone you have loved ones , you have a certain idol who helps you get by even if it’s through out music you have friends who are down to give you the help you need, even strangers . Change is good you may not understand it at first you may be confused you may feel damaged you may be loosing yourself in that process but change is a healing process over time we must always keep that in mind & keep on moving forward with ourselves throughout the growing and understanding the change . For me xxxtentacion was a person with a great heart & his way of words wether it was throughout his music or his live videos the advice he gave helped me out so much . I’m forever grateful I had him help me out throughout the change I was going through .🖤
Tonight was so amazing.
When we gave a prayer tonight I prayed for forgiveness & in need of change . His presence was felt all around me I felt him lift all my sorrow,sins,sadness I carried for so long including to forgive my past . I no longer wanted to feel that way . We should never forget to thank him for the things he puts us through in order to grow as a person , for putting food in our plate , a home for us to live in . We should never forget to forgive & love like he loves us & he forgives each and every big or small sin. Life will always be good having him in your heart it’s never too late to change . 🖤
But the LORD said to Samuel, "Don't judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The LORD doesn't see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."
Everyday I catch myself thinking about you . I have accepted that you’re physically not here with us but I believe you’re here spiritually, I’ll get the tattoo I promised . You were the one who made an Impact in my life and others as well and it hurts to know you physically aren’t here to tell us that we are going to get by and things will get better for us . You were such a beautiful soul taken away too soon when you were changing yourself for the better . You will forever live in our hearts, long live jah!💕 (‘:
- 2am thoughts 💭- Self-love/acceptance is something I continue to work on . I’m in love with who I’m becoming one step at a time . The past is a shoe box under my bed . There’s countless beautiful memories with people I will forever cherish for being part of a chapter in my life . Turning the pages day by day . I’ve met some beautiful souls this year which I’m so happy to have them be part of my life . I’ve decided to surround myself with positive people who also help me better myself . I no longer want to be around a bunch of negativity that sinks me and doesn’t let me move forward. This year has had a few bumps along the road but one day I’ll be fully satisfied with the outcome. 🖤
You will forever hold a piece of me .
You made me a better person , to guiding me in the right direction with an opened mind set . Your music throughout everything helped numb depression and the sadness. We lost you way too damn soon you were only 20 but you’ll never be forgotten. You gave a hope to this youth you spread nothing but positivity and I’m hoping you’re watching down on all your supporters . we will all remember you as you wanted , to be known as good person with good intentions to change the world . We love you so much. Till we meet again soon, Rest easy beautiful angel 👼 🖤 (‘:
“ I thought we hit rock bottom
And then the floor gave out
Yeah, it was hard back then
It's even harder now “
- side note ; I admit I miss my best friend sometimes . We both went our own ways . I could never come to hate him . He was my first ever love . He will hold a special place in my heart forever. I remember the good times only. I forgave and forgot the bad days we went through but he was always there and would sing this song to me and he’d make me the happiest when I was going throughout rough time in my life . He wasn’t the one for me it’s s okay . it was a bumpy road and we were together for two years and a half which is crazy . I don’t hold a grudge against him because at some point in my life he was my best friend and my boyfriend and I helped him out when he would hit rock bottom . I will forever keep a good heart. 🖤(‘: