This is my current obsession! Ever since I read John Berger's 'Ways of Seeing' in undergrad, I've been thinking about how to make a subject appear nude, and yet naked at the same time. I posit that this is the female gaze; a complicated gaze that is sexual and yet humanizing at the same time. In this drawing, sexual object is in the process of becoming subjectified, rather than subject becoming objectified, as the male gaze does. The look of vulnerability and the eye contact the subject retains with the viewer will keep him from being purely nude for the viewer's consumption. For this painting I'm borrowing some fantastical elements, such as the floating nude figure from Pedro Americo's 'The Night,' but of course, my figure is male and will have nightingales (symbolic of the Muse) taking flight instead of putti and an owl. It will be a difficult and risky painting to execute, but I think I can pull it off. I've got the summer to do it, as the deadline for the Bennett Prize is in Sept.
I get so many rejection letters that I'm thinking of building an anti-resume and including them in it. Did you know that an anti-resume is a thing? Perhaps this type of resume will show my creativity, my resiliency, my perseverance - see this incredible amount of artistic production on the right and piles of rejections on the left! My only problem is where is this magical leadership position where I can apply creative decision-making skills, critical thinking, problem-solving, and aesthetic sensibilities? Then again, why bother applying? I'm going to think on how to build it myself.