Felt good to be back at the gym tonight 👌🏼🙌🏼 got a good cardio hit in, got my sweat on & felt great afterwards 💪🏼 I missed this place, but I’m grateful I took a step back to focus on my inner self for a bit 💞 now I’m back & ready to smash these goals out of the park 🙌🏼
Hahahahaha accurate 😂😂😂😂 I’ve had a bit of a break over the past few days, just going on small walks here & there & tryna get my mental health in check. I’m feeling a lot better now, going back to the gym tonight w/ my darling & ready smash out another week. It’s Monday, a new week, a new chance to make some changes 🙌🏼💪🏼 & it’s my birthday on Friday so I’m super excited about that 🙌🏼🎉🎈
Just a bit of a side by side comparison to lift my spirits, keep me on track, & remind myself that this journey isn’t all about the scales, it’s a long process & feeling happy & healthy is all that matters. In both photos I’m sitting around the 140kg mark, give or take a few kgs, & it just goes to show that even though the scales aren’t changing, if you put in the hard yards, your body still changes & you’ve just gotta be patient ✨
Soz about the undies & bra photos btw 🤷🏻♀️😂😂😂😂 switching to a more colourful theme w/ my insta too. The B & W is nice every now & then but it’s just starting to look sad 😂😂😂😂😂😂
Tonight’s workout sucked.
And that’s ok.
Tonight was the first night in a few weeks that I had gone to the gym by myself, without Stevie, & I didn’t do so well.
I did a few things over the course of the night that resulted in me sitting in the corner of the bathroom trying not to cry, hyperventilate & let my anxiety get the best of me 🙃🙃🙃🙃
I drove myself, which is usually fine, I’m a good driver but I hadn’t driven in a while so I was nervous. I drove into town the way I normally do, forgetting that the Main Street through town has gone from 2 lanes down to 1 & that change made me nervous as I was driving through it for the first time. I went to the gym at an earlier time because I wanted to get in a longer workout but still be home before 10pm (I’m on my restricted) but cos I went earlier there were a lot more people there than I’m used to & because I was on my own walking up the stairs & didn’t have my partner to talk to I got really anxious.
I tried to do a few of my normal exercises & try some new ones but as more people came in I got super overwhelmed & had to go sit in the bathroom for 5-10mins to try & calm myself down. When I came out I did one more workout & a warm down then went home. I’m glad I still managed to get my sweat on & do a workout, but because of my anxiety it ended up being half of what I originally wanted to do so I’m really sad about that rn.
I’m not posting this to be all “aww feel sorry for me guys” (if anyone’s thinking that), I’m just posting it because I want to be as transparent as I can be throughout this journey to show all the ups & downs & show that it’s not all happiness & gains. Mental health takes its toll & can wear down the strongest of people, & while I thought I was doing so well & hadn’t had an anxiety issue in a while, it creeps up on you when you least expect it. I just want everyone to know that I think you’re all so strong & I’m so proud of you all for pushing through all that you’re going through in your journeys 🙌🏼 Tonight’s training was a bit of a bust but it’s alright, we can’t be on our A game all the time. Tomorrow’s a new day & another chance to smash this out of the park 💪🏼
I needed to see this today! Even though I see the difference in side by side photos, I don’t see the difference if I look in the mirror, or if I’m walking past a window & I still feel like I’m right back at square one. The scale isn’t changing & even though my body is, I get stuck on the numbers. So I really needed to read this today! Every small step, every dumbbell that I lift, every bottle of water I drink, is making a change & is making a difference. I’ve just gotta keep sticking this out & one day the difference will be big enough for me to notice it myself 💪🏼🙌🏼
🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 Got just over 5 months left of my current 6 month gym membership & 4 months & a couple weeks until I’m up North for New Years - I can’t wait to see how much my mind, body & strength will change in that time 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼 my body can only go as hard as my mind pushes it & I can already see such a big change in mindset & determination 🤙🏼 It’s amazing how far you can push yourself & it’s going to be amazing to see just how far I’ve come at the end of these next 5 months 🙌🏼 let’s do this 💪🏼
I’ve been M.I.A on this page lately but I haven’t been doing much worth posting, just been plodding along, doing my thing lol but I’ve been getting real excited about my birthday on the 17th cos I get to spend the whole day w/ a whole stack of my best friends & I haven’t had that in a long time 🙌🏼
But anyways, quick update on my birthday jeans situation lol 😂😂😂😂
I got them on the 15th of July & could only do them up completely with my tight shorts underneath to suck my tummy in (lol)& this is the progress from then until today without anything underneath to suck everything in hahahaha👌🏼 just wanted to show the difference between all three photos as well to show that there’s still big differences even tho we don’t see it or feel it 😁😁😁
13 more days to smash this out of the park 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼 I’m so excited!
This month has been decent for weight loss I guess haha but the past few days have been pretty horrible lol. I’ve had no motivation, no drive to do anything & ive just been mentally exhausted & haven’t been able to bring myself to go to the gym. My partner said to me once “if you’re tired & feel like giving up, REST, don’t quit” so that’s what I’ve been doing. I’ve been resting, I’ve been re-assessing everything & now that I’m feeling better I’m getting my sorry ass to the gym tonight & smashing out these next 2 weeks before my birthday lol 😂🙌🏼💪🏼
Had to post the first photo black & white to fit w/ my theme but pleeeaaaaase swipe to see all the bluuuuuue 😍😍😍😍💙💙💙💙💙 my favourite colour so I’m loving it!!!
My pre-workout & shakers just arrived! + a free sample of some Fruit Punch flavoured BCAAs! Thank you @nzmuscle for having amazing supps & such a speedy delivery! Its pretty much an Overnight delivery from the day your order is processed & im so happy it came so soon cos ya girl has been missing her preworkout! 😍 why does this sound sponsored?? 😂😂😂😂 I love it! blue-raspberry flavour this time & I tried a little bit just before & its deliciouuuuuuus! I can’t wait to train tonight 😍😍😍😍
Idk if you can tell but I’m sooooooooo happpppppyyyyyyyyy 😂😂😂😂😂💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼
YUS!! It’s the start of week 2, my preworkout is here, I’m gonna have all this extra energy, let’s fkn smash it!!! 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼
A quick, unexpected transformation photo lol that couldn’t wait for “Transformation Tuesday” 😂
Jan 2018 ➡️ Jul 2018
I was taking “before” photos this morning cos I forgot to take them on the 10th when I started back at the gym, so I could take photos at the end of this 6 months & see what the transformation is like. Then I remembered that I took photos at the beginning of this year when I thought I was gonna be all fit & healthy & get into shape lmao but only did a few weeks of dieting & exercise every few months or so 🙄🙄🙄😂😂😂 BUT I seem to have made a bit of a change without even realising it Hahahahahaha a bit of a change in my back fat, the bloody line/dip in back where it turns into an awkward back fat shelf butt lmao & I can tell that there’s a small change in my thighs lol if this is what 6 months of on & off exercising can do, I can’t wait to see the change I make after 6 months of knuckling down, working hard, eating right & learning to love my body ❤️❤️😍😍💪🏼💪🏼
I’m so excited! 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼
YO GURL IS GETTING SOME BIIIIIICEEEEEEEPS 😍😍😍💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼 look at the flex & shieeeeeeet 😍😍😍 I’m actually so proud but also so surprised that there’s been such a decent amount of muscle growth since starting at the gym again 🙌🏼 cant wait to see how much my arms (& whole body & mindset lol) change over these next 6 months 🙌🏼 This is gonna be an amazing lifestyle change & this 6 months is only the beginning 😍☺️
I hit a PB on the leg press!! 150kgs for 5 reps 😁😁😁
I’ve been feeling sick asf the past couple days but I’ve been making sure my sorry ass gets to the gym every night, coz the last time I got sick I was all like “I’m gonna keep working out & sweat this sickness out” but then I never did & I felt sorry for myself lmao so this times different!! 😂😂 I work out & THEN I go home & feel sorry for myself hahaha na 😂
I went from 90-150kgs in 10kgs increments, so if you wanna see the last 5 reps at 150kgs & my little happy dance lol then go to the end ☺️💪🏼
ALSO, before anyone says anything or sees differently in the videos, I’m not locking my knees at all lol. Stevie & I worked hard to keep that in check & make sure my legs were not fully extended to the point that my knees were locking. Stevie even stopped filming once I hit 120kgs & set the camera up on a shelf to make sure he was standing by & spotting me to make sure we were doing this as safely as we could 😁 keeping it safe & strong fam 🙌🏼
I’m so proud of this 150kg PB after only being back at the gym for 2 weeks 💪🏼 can’t wait to see just how strong & fit I get ☺️ healthy & strong, that’s the #1 goal 😍😍
Feels 🙌🏼 not even just “results” too. Even just seeing CHANGES becomes addicting 😂 I love getting stronger & fitter. Being able to lift more & jog further. Wanting to go to the gym every single day & being EXCITED to go to the gym 😂😂🙌🏼🙌🏼 feeling physical & mental changes becomes an addiction to me & it drives me to do more, to get better & work harder so I can see even more changes & results 😂😍🙌🏼
I love the gym, I’ve missed the gym & I’m so happy to be making changes 💪🏼
I’ve got 4 weeks to fit into my size 20 outfit for my birthday comfortably & that means knuckling down & working hard 💪🏼 focussing on this goal 1 week at a time & keeping motivated 🙌🏼 doing what I have to do until I can do what I want to do 😁✌🏼lets do this!