One day, you stop waiting, planning, plotting and start doing. .
I've had this story (for a planned series) in mind for five years now. I wrote an original 92000 words on it in 2013 but hated that first draft. Then I kept it in the backburner as I studied for steps, residency etc. A few months back, I downloaded Scrivener for Mac and started afresh: gathering materials, doing extensive research, plotting out my characters and their cities. But I was never able to hit start. To start that first sentence.
And yesterday, on my day off, a light bulb went off in my brain. I started my novel. I wrote my first sentence, then went on to write 1577 words.
For the first time, I'm not worried about this beginning (I'm a perfectionist). I think maybe it was what Elizabeth Gilbert said in her TED talk.
Even if this story doesn't get an "ole" moment someday, at least I showed up. I did my best.
When your boyfriend is about to head back to Florida home after a long weekend spent exploring (including attending Georgia American College of Physicians' conference with you), and has this soft look in his eyes when he randomly says, "I still have the biggest crush on you." I'm still the luckiest girl in the world... thanks to God who gave me you😍😍😍
I always hear people say, "you can't control how people treat you, but you can control how you react to them." Which is true for the most part.
You can control your words or actions toward people who upset you, but sometimes they may just end up taking a toll on your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions.
And one thing I've been thinking about this #worldmentalhealthday is that in such toxic situations, it is okay to leave. To put yourself first. To stop fighting for them to see your point of view. It is okay to remove yourself from the situation...whatever it means in that particular circumstance.
The opportunity cost is small compared to the overall state of your mental health. .
You can't control how people treat you, but you can control when you leave.
Awareness brings discontentment. And discontentment fuels greed.
Have you noticed you can be perfectly happy with something until you notice someone who has better?
So guard your heart and be careful of your influences, especially in this age of social media where we are constantly barraged by the highlight of everyone's lives.
When you find yourself running toward discontentment, move toward generosity. Give first, save second, spend later...and you will even be happier. ❤❤❤
Once upon a time, I was that small town girl who dreamed of breaking away (like that Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway song😊), and my only window to the world was mostly books and magazines (and why I still read non-medical books till date). I can't say enough about the incredible drive and determination I got from the successes of women with humble beginnings, that still stays with me till this day.
I still think it's better to learn from people who are successful in something you are interested in than be resentful! As they say, if you're the smartest, best person in the room, it's probably not the best room to be in! 🌞❤❤
We initially planned to spend this weekend in Miami to mark Stephen finishing his last ICU rotation of residency (and me starting my last ICU) but some personal things happened on my own end that stressed me, so I asked to postpone it...and my sweet, supportive boyfriend booked this beautiful place as a "staycation" for us this weekend! Such a wonderful surprise! I feel so loved❤❤❤💖💖💖💘💘💘
When your VERY HEALTHY 87 year old patient who is able to even drive to her appointment (and who you told that, by the way, she's "aging goals" for you) tells your supervising attending at the end of the visit, "I want to take a picture of your young doctor so I can always remember her. She's very pretty and I enjoyed our discussion."
I let her take a picture on her phone (yes, she's technology savvy too! And no, not this picture) and asked if I could take one of hers as well (which will be forever saved!). So grateful for patients like her that remind me why I love what I do!💖
Back when I was younger (late teens to early 20s), I used to post both the good and bad things that happened to me. I was being "real". But remember anything you choose to focus on takes your energy, so these days, I save my energy for the positives.
Call them "highlight reels". Like getting the sweetest text from this handsome doctor after work today (texting isn't his strong suit- he keeps his messages short or sends memes, so I always appreciate the occasional thoughtful ones)😍😍😍 Everyday, I will choose love and gratitude🌟
And I hope you always remember to choose to focus on the positives of your life. And to radiate love even to those who can't give it. You can never go wrong with love 🌟🌟😍😍😍🎇💘💘💘