3 nights ago was one of the greatest nights of my life. Ever since I was young I’ve dreamed of laying eyes on the Olympic mountains in Washington. For many westerners, this is no big deal. But for me, a guy from a small town in New Brunswick, this was one of the biggest highlights of my life. I’m thankful that I got to see these mountains while drinking coffee, chatting with friends, and sailing.
“I chase the moment that when I had it I felt alive
But now that the thrill is gone, I feel dead inside
I feel like everyone know the secrets I wanna hide
And everytime they ask me how I'm doing, I just say "I'm fine".”
There used to be a point in my life that these lyrics were so relatable. If you feel like this, know that There is so much more meaning to life than the generic lifestyle you’re fed.
Today I lost my Grandfather.
When I was young, I would always look out the window in the morning to see if it was blue or grey skies. In my mind, this would always determine a good day from a bad day and that’s how I remember my childhood. A blue sky day with Grammpy and Grammy would probably always be a legendary day. I spent a lot of blue sky days with my Grandfather. Played hot wheels in the dirt, pretended mowing the lawn (while he actually did), and getting a little treat here and there. You know what, I probably never seen a grey sky day because he always made my day good no matter the weather. For years I forgot about this idea until today. My Grandfather passed today and the world stopped. When I walked outside to catch a quick breathe I looked up and the sky was blue. Birds, wind, no clouds. What would have been a perfect day with my Grandfather.
He was always so good to me growing up and I’ll never forget the things he taught me without saying much. Watching him breathe his last breathes today showed me that life moves fast. A lot of who I am today comes from this old man. Life has been hard for me lately but I know God is always good.