So last week the girls asked me to buy them bikinis so they could show their tummy’s! Although I’m not super into that, I decided to let them pick a tasteful one out! Today, they wanted to take a picture in their bikinis before swimming and show how beautiful they are! Since I’ve gained some weight since I haven’t been killing myself to maintain my “goal” weight, I’m happier having a few extra pounds on me and eating more foods that I want! Still working out hard, but having that balance has made this summer way more fun! Yes, I’m a bit more self conscious in a bikini but my kids will NEVER know it! I’ll rock that #mombod knowing I created two amazing women who will change the world! #worldchangers#soulsavers#kingdomgrowers#godsgirls#girlmom#bikini#summer @todayparents #bikinimoms
Over the last 10-15 years I’ve been OBSESSED with my weight! It has been the “thing” that I’ve always thought about, cared about and asked those around me about! It’s been the driving force to help me lose over 💯 lbs since delivering my first babe 5 years ago but it’s also been the thing that has ruled my brain!
No matter what books I read, prayers I’ve prayed, or thoughts I’ve had... they always end up back at “I’m fat, I’m ugly, am I too fat! Am I the ever going to lose weight!!?” Nervous, anxious and always feeling less than because of my weight!
Two years ago I joined Weight Watchers and lost an additional 42 lbs and made lifetime. It was awesome but I was still being held hostage to the scale and the number on the scale. Weighing in every single day. Feeling upset when the scale was up and excited when it was down! But always going back to the feelings inside. The scale, the tracking, the scanning.... it was taking over my life. (Please note, I love WW as a program, it helped me lose weight and learn portions. It’s an amazing program, just not for me anymore at this time in my life)
About a month ago I was completely delivered from the myth that I’m defined by my weight / appearance. Praise God 🙌🏼🙌🏼God is with us and FOR us, this is truth we can rest on!
I have not weighed myself in over a month and it’s so freeing. I’m eating what I want and working out daily. I’ve probably gained a few pounds but I’m OK with that! I’m living MY life! I don’t need to be a size 2 to know Who’s I am and Who created me! Being the wife I know God created me to be, the mother He blessed me to be, it feels so good. Not looking in the mirror questioning everything about myself. God is so good!
Every night we pray over our kids and make them REPEAT these words, that they are fearfully and wonderfully made in Gods image, that they can do ALL things through Jesus, that they are the head and not the tail, that they are above and not beneath. That they are beautiful, confident, smart, forgiven, redeemed, strong, mighty in His power.... and when I stop and process that those words are for me also, it changes everything!