Today marks a very special day for me. Some time ago I have made a decision I dreaded to make for a very long time. I thought it would be the end of things... and I am quite right of course. But it’s not the end I feared and once I have made that first informed step towards this decision it was really easy to go forward from there. Today I pulled through and am losing everything. Everything I was in the past BUT it does not mean the end of all things. Only of old things. And it does not mark my defeat - no - on the contrary my friends, it marks my victory. Most and before all other things on my cowardly self.
Once you strip from all of your outward shells and nothing remains but your true self you realize what you‘re made of. And boy, I am larger than life.
From now on I vow that I will only care and work for true values and with the right kind of people. I have changed so much over the last seven years but the transformation war long and hard and painful. I feel weary but also elated. The future awaits!
(The picture is a sceenshot from one of the last scenes in the series „Spooks“ which has accompanied me over the last months. I saved this last episode for tonight. And as my other favorite HP character Harry Pearce has lost everything but still goes on, I will do too. In the show they tie up lose ends and close chapters for good. It’s a good ending with a vast space for imagination about the future. So this is my perfect symbol for this day and my celebration also.) ~ Alexandra Reichenbacher ~
Made our choice, a trial by fire,
To battle is the only way we feel alive.
I fell apart, but got back up again,
And then I fell apart, but got back up again,
And then I fell apart, but got back up again
Jared Leto tstm ~
Sometimes there are people that you don’t even know that have impact on your life. Because what they say or do matter. You may not agree with all but the essence reaches your core.
Words can destroy but they can also be a remedy.
Thank you for writing words that matter and songs that can pick me up.