My babies - my world 🌍❤🌍❤
Since becoming a mum my whole outlook on life has changed, no longer is life about me, no longer can I think selfishly without considering the impact it has on those who are watching me the most.
Not only am I here to raise my boys, teach them about life, be there to love and support them through each of their life challenges, I'm here to be a role model, to educate them and shape them into considerate and compassionate members of society. .
I want them to see that you have to work hard for what you want in life, that life is about compromise, ups and downs, that it's ok to cry and get frustrated but then to use that as the determination to keep going.
I want to raise them to be considerate of everyone around them no matter their ethnicity, gender or sexual orientation, I want them to ask questions and know that they will get a truthful answer - although explaining why women have periods in the toilets of a soft play is not ideal 😐
I want them to see that I am not just a mum that I'm my own person too with goals and interests. I have a job, I have aspirations and dreams, I want them to support me in my goals as I do with theirs. .
There is so much that being a parent entails, and the longer I am on my own parenting journey, the more I see that it is a constant evolving reassessment of everything we do to try and ensure our children are guided down a path that makes them the best that they can be and makes them WANT to be the best that they can be. .
I want them to see me fail so then they can see me rise and succeed, I want them to see my flaws and love them as I do theirs, I want them to see the world as imperfect perfection and appreciate the beauty of diversity in all its forms, I want them to know that it's ok not to be ok but that I will be there to hold their hand every step of the way. I want them to know that I will always give the best that I can - it may not be in every moment but that's ok because to appreciate what's great you've got to have balance, normality, boring and plain - then the best will shine through and imprint on their heart ❤
When being a teacher is also about being there as a shoulder to cry on, someone to vent to and someone to believe in you.
Serving fruit platters and handing out bottles of water, reassuring the anxious and celebrating the hard work in their revision before being the face they see smiling at them as they walk into and out of the exam today. .
Teaching....it's not all about teaching to pass the exam....it's so much more. .
When a year ago I would have NEVER fit into these shorts - you couldn't even shoe horn them over my knees never mind over my bulging ass.
Even 5 years ago pre children I struggled to fit into them with them being too tight round the waist - talk about muffin top - nah it was an actual fat shelf of an overhang, with jiggly fat tree trunk thighs squeezing put the bottom.
Now, however I have slipped into these - ok a slight tugging over the thighs but that's more because of muscle rather than rippling cellulite - would much rather be tugging over more defined thigh muscle any day.
It's been a journey for sure, one I'm continuing to learn about and learn from, I'm developing a greater appreciation and love for my body, no longer pretending to accept my post baby body because I've 'earnt those stripes' or these tummy rolls tell a story. Yes I appreciate all that it's done in growing and feeding my babies but it wasn't enough for me, I have had body hang ups most of my life, but I didn't want to feel like that anymore. I wanted to be proud of everything it could achieve, I wanted my body to be at its best before it literally all went down hill, some parts will never be as beautifully pert as it once was - I'm talking to you wind sock boobs!! - so I pledged to make myself and my trainer proud as I transformed my mama bod.
Now I'm not saying I'm better than anyone else nor am I saying you should question yourself, if you're happy with yourself who am I to rob you of that - your happiness and self confidence is yours and for no one to take away. But for me I wasn't happy, I've done this for me and I'm finally accepting the greatness that it is.
Exciting news things are being put into motion, I have plenty more to achieve but right now I am pretty damn happy that I'm in these teeny tiny top shop shorts 😄❤😄❤ #bodyconfidence#positivebodyimage