Missing my handsome man as he’s away on his trip/supervisor training and not to mention working basically opposite schedules sucks big time in not being able to see each other as much as we would like. But moments like these make me cherish and appreciate all the time we do get so spend together even if it were five hours, five minutes or five seconds; it’s all worth it. You are forever my always. My hero. My Prince Charming. My everything. I love you so much and thanks for being such a positive light in my life 💜
Got to visit the coast/red wood forest for the first time in so long a few days ago with a friend. It was super nice to get out of Ashland for a bit and what a gorgeous day it was to be by the ocean! Totally missing it already ugh. Also yes, I wrote my S/O and I’s name into the sand because I’m cheesy af lmao #brookingsoregon #ocean #sunny #redwoods #nature #gorgeousscenery #blueskies #daytrip #photography #oregon
I’ve been so overwhelmed lately. No motivation to do anything. Been back at work for a few weeks and feel so brunt out already. There’s no job I want or would feel like would be make anything better. I feel so under appreciated lately which ironic cause my job is the one place I feel like my efforts are recognized (as well as my boyfriend), which maybe why I have a harder time not wanting to leave despite it being so toxic. Lost interest lately on the things I love like painting, riding, baking, etc. Feel like a terrible friend for not making a lot of time or wanting to do anything but be alone or see my boyfriend cause I’m so tired and only get two days off a week. I’m naturally just not as social as my friends are and just don’t feel like they understand that. Normally I can push through but I just can’t anymore. Not now anyways and I won’t apologize for me needing my space for awhile which could last a few weeks or even six months I don’t know. I am tired of feeling obligated to do something with someone just because it’s my day off and just I rarely want to do anything before or after work, especially now that I’ve switched to nights, it’s way more tolling than I thought. I’m not the type to be on the go or have the energy/motivation to, and I hope some of my friends can understand that. And I know it’s weird but generally I’m always peeved out when people try to constantly make plans with me or are pushy about it, it doesn’t make me wanna hangout with you and feeling that pressure causes a lot of anxiety and causes me to shut down for whatever reason. On another note, I just feel so stuck in this town/state which is no secret to the people who know me, but unfortunately no opportunity to say goodbye to this town won’t be happening anytime soon. Just gotta continue being patient. On top of everything my anxiety and depression has become harder to deal with which just doesn’t help with everything I’ve been feeling, and I love seeing my friends succeeding in life and making big life changes but also envy because everything is going in slow motion right now in my life it seems. I know it seems so minor but it just feels so major to me. Feel like I’m drowning.
•Dancing in the dark. Middle of the night. Taking your heart and holding it tight. Emotional touch. Touch my skin and asking you to what you’ve been doing all over again•
Seattle is so cool! Saw my first Mariners game which we ended up winning in a spectacular come back fashion. Went on the Ferris wheel which my older brother kept freaking out every time my younger brother and I would just move our head to look in a different direction 😂 So happy to say my name is becoming popular enough that I actually find items with my name on it finally! Unfortunately the Space Needle we didn’t get to go to the top, but still amazing to look at anyways. I’ve never really visited a college campus before but compared to SOU, University of Washington was beyond gorgeous which says a lot personally. Of course, lets not forget about my new otter friend, Ted. Gives excellent hugs, 10/10 recommend 👌🏻 On our last full day, explored downtown Seattle area and discovered this weird ass building lmao. Last but not least, flew back home to Ashland but not before capturing this awesome shot of Mount Rainier....I think...I’m not sure #seattle #mariners #ferriswheel #vacation #happytobehome
Six months later and still fall in love with you more each day that passes by 💜
Thirteen more days till my trip to Seattle. Seriously can’t wait. Lately I’ve been feeling depressed/stuck/ trapped in my town/area and not really sure what I want to do job wise. Nothing is peaking my interest, so just gonna stay at a job I’m familiar with will have to do for now. Switching to closing shifts which maybe will help me like my job again. Hopefully getting a small break from Ashland will help out my mood, too. The only thing that’s keeping me going/motivating me are my amazing friends, family and boyfriend. Don’t know what I would do without them 💜
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