💔A love without Betrayal is a lie from the one who broke my heart, lied and deceived me! The life already given taken away for selfish pride in a war on my heart! My children were my heart, God held mine & now a lie in the skin I’m in broke my only hope for love! Faith is in the hands of death as life is held by evil in the world! #myloveisneverfree#priceless#toobrokentofix#youthrewmeawayliketrash#youneverknewme
Our past is not our future.
We are not bound to repeat that which has come to pass, for what is past is past, what’s done is done.
On the bad days my life seems to be a trail of broken dreams and failures. My mistakes are the bars of a rusty & battered cage.
Honestly some days I don’t think I can ever get out, that i will be in this place forever. You see if i have always failed to live my dreams, than I must always fail to live my dreams, if i couldn’t do it than why can i do it now. Right?
It’s a dark and lonely place, but I don’t have to stay in this cage. This cage that was once my prison has been broken and I been set free, it is rusty and it is battered, the bars are bent, the door was ripped away years ago. This cage cannot hold me in any more than i can hold the wind.
But on my bad days sometimes all i see are the bars, some days I forget that I am free.
But we are not the product of our past mistakes, we are created to be more than that, better than that.
There’s a lot of time in forever, so much that no one can see it all. But for God forever is a thing laid out before Him, only He sees it, only he knows it.
He set me free, He didn’t just hand me the keys, He ripped the cage apart. Because He knows me, He knew I Would come back here.
He knew if i had the key I would lock myself back inside. If i even even unlocked the door.
And He loved me too much to let that happen.
And This is what get me thru the dark days. He thought i was worth saving.
Only He knows what forever holds.
And He thought i was worth saving.
All i know is that i don’t know anything.
Who am i to think that i know how something will turn out a certain way.
I choose to believe I have a purpose.
I choose to believe I matter.
Because He believes I matter.
Y'all may be at work or school when I'm drinking tea but that doesn't mean I've given up on life or have no plans to complete anything I've started.
I have limited means. It may not appear that way but this is my life right now. Just because it LOOKS like an option in front of me doesn't always mean that it is.
Changing my mind about education or work goals does not mean I'm doing nothing. I cannot return to school until I pay what I owe for 2 failed classes. Having had this time out of school, going through more life, has given me time to entertain the idea of trying something different.
If I went back to school anytime soon I'd be switching from psychology to writing. This change doesn't mean anything about ME has changed.
I'm getting older, life is changing and so are my interests. Whoever gives up on me gives up on me. Fine. Nothing I can really do about that. Walking away though is a whole other story. Once you get up and go, don't think about walking back; I won't be waiting for you.
Personal:It took me awhile before I knew what I meant by being the "silent,quiet type".Many thought I was shy and others thought I was sneaky.....and they both were right but it wasn't until I got older until I was able to apply "sneaky and shy" to catch everyone off guard. I used being shy to throw people off course from the times when I was serious and being sneaky to catch people who thought they were getting over on me.....It worked liked a charm to the point,right now....they still can't read me and I've been laying the blueprint in front of their face for the last 13 years.The best thing about being silent and quiet.....No one knows when you're going to strike because you're not loud and noisy;Don't worry.....You can't read me unless you understand why I haven't quit #Friosanto#Legacy#NinjaSkills#ForTheBigPicture#BuiltForThis#IDontPracticeITrain#Incognegro#YouNeverKnewMe#4thDecade#Mood 😏
I've never been the person you all seem to know me as. I was corrupted by so many things and fell into temptation. I've been quite for such a long time trying to find my true self. I found that person who is loving and caring towards helping others improve and succeed in finding their purpose. I want to make a difference in the world. I have a plan and the only way I can help others is if I help myself. The journey has become difficult but I must keep pushing forward because there are people out there that need me. They don't know me and I don't know them. But I can't let them down. I was made from the greatness of God and will triumph of all. #findyourpurpose#love#happiness#caring#notmadelikeothers#differentbreed#changetheworld#youneverknewme