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I’m looking forward to resuming my writing streams once I get home. They really do help me write more productively! That, and everybody in the chat is always super fun! I miss you guys! 😄💖 #writerswrite #writerscorner #writingtime #writingagain #writewritewrite #writingsession #writinglife #writerscommunity #writersofig #nanowrimo #nanowrimo2018 #writingagain #writeit #writeitdown #writenow #writeitout #writeaway #writerssociety #writersworld #writersgram #writergram #writingabook #writinganovel #instawriters #writingofinstagram #excerpt #excerpts #writingbooks #novelwriting #bookwriting
I’m looking forward to resuming my writing streams once I get home. They really do help me write more productively! That, and everybody in the chat is always super fun! I miss you guys! 😄💖 #writerswrite  #writerscorner  #writingtime  #writingagain  #writewritewrite  #writingsession  #writinglife  #writerscommunity  #writersofig  #nanowrimo  #nanowrimo2018  #writingagain  #writeit  #writeitdown  #writenow  #writeitout  #writeaway  #writerssociety  #writersworld  #writersgram  #writergram  #writingabook  #writinganovel  #instawriters  #writingofinstagram  #excerpt  #excerpts  #writingbooks  #novelwriting  #bookwriting 
Another piece, another cup of coffee. Can’t quite tell if they’re getting better or worse. But the living is in the writing.

#writing #writingagain #writerlife #words #coffee #memoriesofarestlesssoul #coffeeshop #nyc #life
I'm awful cause I never finish writing a book I always stop and I blame this cause I have too many ideas and never enough time to put them down 
#writing#writingagain#psycopath#newbook#supernatural#vampire#descriptivewriting#description#teenwriter
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"She has watched 
many sunrises and sunsets alone;
She is fine with watching 
a few more."
©renu | yellowdiaries
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Art work - my own😊
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#AmEditing #illustration #writingagain #asmsg
#poet #poetry #poetsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #writer #poem #writing #quotes #poetrycommunity #love #words #poetsofig #wordporn #poems #writersofig #poetryisnotdead #writerscommunity #instapoet #spilledink #poets #creativewriting #writers #instapoetry #writingcommunity #write
• "She has watched many sunrises and sunsets alone; She is fine with watching a few more." ©renu | yellowdiaries • Art work - my own😊 • #AmEditing  #illustration  #writingagain  #asmsg  #poet  #poetry  #poetsofinstagram  #writersofinstagram  #writer  #poem  #writing  #quotes  #poetrycommunity  #love  #words  #poetsofig  #wordporn  #poems  #writersofig  #poetryisnotdead  #writerscommunity  #instapoet  #spilledink  #poets  #creativewriting  #writers  #instapoetry  #writingcommunity  #write 
Trying to write again. Thank you so much for all who stayed ❤️ means so much to me💖
Art work - my own illustration 😊
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Promises
I keep safe 
Each one of them
In my heart
So when they break
My heart breaks apart
Every time!
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Wishes
I make everyday
One of those promises
Would not break
Anyway!
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Love
To me is everything
Blooming flower in a meadow
On a hazy morning
Sunshine after the dark night
Before the end of a chaotic day
Meeting the horizon of my dark and light
Twilight!
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Hurricanes
I meet everyday
It's so so hard to survive
But i do it
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Anyway!
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Home
Looking into places
Where it cannot be found
But who would convince my heart
To look just inside
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Rewind
Can someone take me aback
A little
So i can see myself
I can hear myself
I can feel myself
Right now it feels like
I am stuck 
Timelessly
Where i don't belong
Where the world to me is not kind.
©renu | yellowdiaries 
#AmEditing #illustration #writingagain #asmsg
#poet #poetry #poetsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #writer #poem #writing #quotes #poetrycommunity #love #words #poetsofig #wordporn #poems #writersofig #poetryisnotdead #writerscommunity #instapoet #spilledink #poets #creativewriting #writers #instapoetry #writingcommunity #write #art
Trying to write again. Thank you so much for all who stayed ❤️ means so much to me💖 Art work - my own illustration 😊 - Promises I keep safe Each one of them In my heart So when they break My heart breaks apart Every time! • Wishes I make everyday One of those promises Would not break Anyway! • Love To me is everything Blooming flower in a meadow On a hazy morning Sunshine after the dark night Before the end of a chaotic day Meeting the horizon of my dark and light Twilight! • Hurricanes I meet everyday It's so so hard to survive But i do it • Anyway! • Home Looking into places Where it cannot be found But who would convince my heart To look just inside • Rewind Can someone take me aback A little So i can see myself I can hear myself I can feel myself Right now it feels like I am stuck Timelessly Where i don't belong Where the world to me is not kind. ©renu | yellowdiaries #AmEditing  #illustration  #writingagain  #asmsg  #poet  #poetry  #poetsofinstagram  #writersofinstagram  #writer  #poem  #writing  #quotes  #poetrycommunity  #love  #words  #poetsofig  #wordporn  #poems  #writersofig  #poetryisnotdead  #writerscommunity  #instapoet  #spilledink  #poets  #creativewriting  #writers  #instapoetry  #writingcommunity  #write  #art 
Part 27 Warung Kopi Jenny update lagi dengan 1.000 katanya. Hari ini bakalan full nulis Bang Jimmy sama Mpok Jenny. Jadi kita lihat aja seberapa gregetnya aku sama mereka berdua. Apakah bisa update 2 Kali, 3 Kali, 4 Kali, atau 5 kali? Hehehe... Keep stay tune karena Mode baca gratis semua tulisan aku, masih berlaku hanya di aplikasi Wattpad tentunya. Salam kasih, Muachhh... 😘😘😘 #warungkopijenny #updatelagi #semangatmak #writingagain #writingismypassion #wattpad #wattpadromance #adultromance #seribukata #jimmywaluyo #jennythajunitha
Part 27 Warung Kopi Jenny update lagi dengan 1.000 katanya. Hari ini bakalan full nulis Bang Jimmy sama Mpok Jenny. Jadi kita lihat aja seberapa gregetnya aku sama mereka berdua. Apakah bisa update 2 Kali, 3 Kali, 4 Kali, atau 5 kali? Hehehe... Keep stay tune karena Mode baca gratis semua tulisan aku, masih berlaku hanya di aplikasi Wattpad tentunya. Salam kasih, Muachhh... 😘😘😘 #warungkopijenny  #updatelagi  #semangatmak  #writingagain  #writingismypassion  #wattpad  #wattpadromance  #adultromance  #seribukata  #jimmywaluyo  #jennythajunitha 
The joke is that I'm meant to be the joke and I don't need a mic to state it. #thejoker #shortfilm #ohitscoming #acting #writingagain
Live depends on the choices we make..
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#writingagain #itsme #Behappy #never_turned #yolo #LiveBig #livehappily
Dream big, and work harder...
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#writingagain #dreams #working #workinghard #fighting #living #life #never_turned
That's how most of us are... Quite..N it does not mean we r afraid... Its just our humble essence and respect towards others.. Like ➡ Share ➡ Follow
#writingagain #itsme #Behappy #never_turned
That's how most of us are... Quite..N it does not mean we r afraid... Its just our humble essence and respect towards others.. Like ➡ Share ➡ Follow #writingagain  #itsme  #Behappy  #never_turned 
That's why they say love is complicated..
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#lovequotes #writingagain #mynaiveheart #loveindeed #never_turned
No more contacts but it's the melody that still rings up the love...
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#hugs #cuddles #Behappy #loveindeed #towardsyou #lovequotes #writingagain #mynaiveheart #never_turned
I just wished if that could be real...
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#lovequotes #writingagain #mynaiveheart #loveindeed #never_turned
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#Itsme #writingagain #minds
New project underway. Been collecting some great ideas for a Western thanks to Red Dead Redemption 2. Feels good to have some fuel!
#countryliving #country #countrygirl #writing #writerslife #writingagain #feelsgood thank you @rockstargames  #writerslife #newproject #excited
♟was once a pawn in your game of Chess, that pawn turned King. - GiovanniAcel. #hopeitsyou #leadme #inspireme #writingagain
Thinking of us; the planet. Doomed from the start. Just how we like it. Time train sounds like my crying soul, unavoidably ecstatic at suffering this beauty.

#writingagain #sufferingimperfection #showingup #southaustin #songwriters
Might as well throw it up here. Let me know what you think 💕 #writingagain #poetry
#stickyconfessionals ✔ing to see...has anyone else missed these?
(even though, this time I couldn't find a sticky) 😋📝 #wokeuptothis #ScorpioSeason #facingfears #writingagain #letmewrite #letmebreathe #iwritetobreathe #poetry #attiestatic #attie2018 #ataliep33
Late at night....
I get lost in thought....
Thinkin bout the times with you, i hope you’ve not forgot...
I never deserved you, and surely i never meant to hurt you... making these things right, i will do and to this i hope you hold me true. 
#writing #writingagain #writer #author #liveeachdaylikeitsyourlast #striveforgreatness #change #changes #improvement #hopeyouvenotforgot #moon #holdmetrue #true #improve #notthebest #butitsme
A I R P O R T 
Always felt most at home in airports. The in between.  A connection that lay in the middle of my journey. It brings me to a familiar feeling. 
The way a song brings you back to a moment, place and time. A feeling of stationary and where time is elusive. 
Strangers become companions and storytellers. Thankful to be on the journey. .
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A I R P O R T Always felt most at home in airports. The in between. A connection that lay in the middle of my journey. It brings me to a familiar feeling. The way a song brings you back to a moment, place and time. A feeling of stationary and where time is elusive. Strangers become companions and storytellers. Thankful to be on the journey. . . . . . . ~ #travel  #nomad  #airport  #journey  #depressionrecovery  #writingagain  #writer  #staystrong  #love  #acrosstheuniverse  #travelblogger  #photooftheday  #photography  in Alaska #staystrong  #bekind  always #explore  #writeyourownstory  #happy  #travelgram  #layover  #music  #storyteller  #discover  #wanderlust  #healing  #positivevibes  #time  #grateful  #survivor  #solotravel  #adventure 
Tout comme ces instants figés dans le temps, mon vrai sourire ne sera plus qu'une simple chose qui existait réellement, avant. En même temps que mes illusions il s'en est allé, et reviendra grace à la paix avec le passé.

#writingagain  #évasion #freeyourmind #lovetrouble  #lonelysoul #mywords #writing #peaceofmind #painful
Aucun contrôle. On ne peut se résigner à vouloir tout contrôler. Lâcher prise peut paraitre une évidence mais ne colle pas à toutes les situations. Le temps et son pouvoir ne sont pas de notre ressort, alors le présent on en profite, on le savoure encore et encore. Et pour ne plus ressentir cette douleur la, oublier ce qui nous a changé et rester debout, on est même prêts à ne plus rien ressentir du tout.

#writingagain  #évasion #freeyourmind #lovetrouble  #lonelysoul #mywords #writing #peaceofmind #painful
Aucun contrôle. On ne peut se résigner à vouloir tout contrôler. Lâcher prise peut paraitre une évidence mais ne colle pas à toutes les situations. Le temps et son pouvoir ne sont pas de notre ressort, alors le présent on en profite, on le savoure encore et encore. Et pour ne plus ressentir cette douleur la, oublier ce qui nous a changé et rester debout, on est même prêts à ne plus rien ressentir du tout. #writingagain  #évasion  #freeyourmind  #lovetrouble  #lonelysoul  #mywords  #writing  #peaceofmind  #painful 
You’re busy. I’m busy. We define our lives by the time passing by...through the minutes of ‘to dos’ and the hours of ‘I shoulds’, slips in moments I think of you. You’re busy. I’m busy. No time to waste. But never do I discard my ‘you’ for the ‘I need tos’ of today...or yesterday... ~ Words by S. Saucier. .
#timeisnotlinear #writingagain #mamathatwrites #lifeisbusy #wordsoftheheart #lifemovesfast
You’re busy. I’m busy. We define our lives by the time passing by...through the minutes of ‘to dos’ and the hours of ‘I shoulds’, slips in moments I think of you. You’re busy. I’m busy. No time to waste. But never do I discard my ‘you’ for the ‘I need tos’ of today...or yesterday... ~ Words by S. Saucier. . #timeisnotlinear  #writingagain  #mamathatwrites  #lifeisbusy  #wordsoftheheart  #lifemovesfast 
There was alot of TEDX talk writing going on this weekend! Back in one of my favorite writing spots listening to #wholetones
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 #enjoylife #writingagain #feelinspired #tedx #tedtalk #tedxwomen #kelownaevents #kelownanaturopath #nov30 #dralanaberg #thecourageouscure #author #health #healthbook #courage
Some songs are powerful. We could have been the writer. Living again our own story. Helping by words describing our life,  our fears, our doubts but still giving us hope for better times,  music it's life, it's a way to survive.

Lonely soul #writingagain #mysong #évasion #freeyourmind #lovetrouble #painful  #mywords
Some songs are powerful. We could have been the writer. Living again our own story. Helping by words describing our life, our fears, our doubts but still giving us hope for better times, music it's life, it's a way to survive. Lonely soul #writingagain  #mysong  #évasion  #freeyourmind  #lovetrouble  #painful  #mywords 
"We live as we dream - Alone"
Joseph Conrad.

An old tiny tale from the drafts. I've neglected fiction since very long. Perhaps it's time to go back and visit those unfinished stories. .
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#tinytale #fiction #mood
#shortstory #veryshortstory #fairytale #nofairytale #writersofinstagram #authorsofinstagram #writingagain #alone #drafts #lifeindrafts #story #storytellers #wordweaving
YOUR ANXIETY IS THE BEST PART ABOUT YOU 💕
Every single job I’ve ever had, I’ve had to be the best performing person in my department because I need so much extra time off because of anxiety.
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I have had health insurance for like 3/10 of the last years so getting a drs note wouldn’t work.
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I have to make myself indispensable to the companies I have worked for because of all the days I will inevitably call out sick.
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I always thought, maybe I’m too anxious to have a job. I always really beat myself up about that while hearing only positives from my employers.
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Then one day, I realized my anxiety is what made me so intelligent emotionally which allowed me to be great at my jobs.
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At all my IT jobs, I can read situations immediately and can easily read how someone would prefer to be treated.
The fact that I’m anxious means I think about 1000 things at once which means I likely could think of their solution in .01 seconds.
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Make no mistake about it, my intense personality is what will make me successful.
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What I was made fun of for, I will make millions from.
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The parts of you that you’ve been wanting to not deal with are the parts of you CRYING to be loved. .
While I am not encouraging to perpetuate anxiety, there’s also nothing wrong with thinking faster and more frequently than the world.
It’s just the negative subjects you stay on and the capitalistic society we live in constantly showing us our faults and what they can sell us to help them.
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Your intensity is gold. It’s what life, love, and your happiness will be made of.
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2018 is the year my anxiety became my favorite part of myself.
I’m so intuitive
I’m so caring
I can love so deeply
I am driven to change the world .
My anxiety is love unpackaged
Raw
Overflowing and gross to some people
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My anxiety will set the world on fire with this overflowing love
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I will change the world and I would never ever have been able to do it if I was less intense.
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Don’t believe me? Just watch hunni 💕
YOUR ANXIETY IS THE BEST PART ABOUT YOU 💕 Every single job I’ve ever had, I’ve had to be the best performing person in my department because I need so much extra time off because of anxiety. . I have had health insurance for like 3/10 of the last years so getting a drs note wouldn’t work. . I have to make myself indispensable to the companies I have worked for because of all the days I will inevitably call out sick. . I always thought, maybe I’m too anxious to have a job. I always really beat myself up about that while hearing only positives from my employers. . Then one day, I realized my anxiety is what made me so intelligent emotionally which allowed me to be great at my jobs. . At all my IT jobs, I can read situations immediately and can easily read how someone would prefer to be treated. The fact that I’m anxious means I think about 1000 things at once which means I likely could think of their solution in .01 seconds. . Make no mistake about it, my intense personality is what will make me successful. . What I was made fun of for, I will make millions from. . The parts of you that you’ve been wanting to not deal with are the parts of you CRYING to be loved. . While I am not encouraging to perpetuate anxiety, there’s also nothing wrong with thinking faster and more frequently than the world. It’s just the negative subjects you stay on and the capitalistic society we live in constantly showing us our faults and what they can sell us to help them. . Your intensity is gold. It’s what life, love, and your happiness will be made of. . 2018 is the year my anxiety became my favorite part of myself. I’m so intuitive I’m so caring I can love so deeply I am driven to change the world . My anxiety is love unpackaged Raw Overflowing and gross to some people But My anxiety will set the world on fire with this overflowing love . I will change the world and I would never ever have been able to do it if I was less intense. . Don’t believe me? Just watch hunni 💕
let the (p)ink press out my own body
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#writingagain #poetrydreams #queerpoet #pink
Sono passati diversi mesi, oltre un anno, ma i ricordi sono sempre lì a guardarmi. Sembra siano loro a guardare me. E sento ancora le domande di @karismamarta, la lacrime di commozione durante le meravigliose musiche di @giorgia_verterano che credo sia davvero stata unica, di una bravura inimmaginabile che ringrazierò a vita. @moniacurreli Che ha impresso tutto in foto e album da sfogliare con orgoglio, un orgoglio che oggi mi fa rimettere in moto per scrivere, scrivere ancora e farne altre 10, 100, 1000 di serate come quella. I miei genitori, mia sorella, tutti coloro che sono stati la forza. 
Il tutto grazie anche all'incredibile staff del ristorante Il Laghetto, servizio e onore da sogno. Ora ho anche un'altra persona da portare lì tra il pubblico, e grazie a lui nasceranno nuove righe da interpretare e da accompagnare con nuove musiche e emozioni.
@gioraziel93, la prossima sarà per te e con te.

#writing #writer #booksaddict #poetry #poems #work #workinprogress #bookshow #memories #bestrestaurants #italy #sardinia #booklover #bookstagram #photography #happy #pride #blogger #instagood #success #writingagain #grandineeveleno #pianist #bestpianist #bestmoments
Sono passati diversi mesi, oltre un anno, ma i ricordi sono sempre lì a guardarmi. Sembra siano loro a guardare me. E sento ancora le domande di @karismamarta, la lacrime di commozione durante le meravigliose musiche di @giorgia_verterano che credo sia davvero stata unica, di una bravura inimmaginabile che ringrazierò a vita. @moniacurreli Che ha impresso tutto in foto e album da sfogliare con orgoglio, un orgoglio che oggi mi fa rimettere in moto per scrivere, scrivere ancora e farne altre 10, 100, 1000 di serate come quella. I miei genitori, mia sorella, tutti coloro che sono stati la forza. Il tutto grazie anche all'incredibile staff del ristorante Il Laghetto, servizio e onore da sogno. Ora ho anche un'altra persona da portare lì tra il pubblico, e grazie a lui nasceranno nuove righe da interpretare e da accompagnare con nuove musiche e emozioni. @gioraziel93, la prossima sarà per te e con te. #writing  #writer  #booksaddict  #poetry  #poems  #work  #workinprogress  #bookshow  #memories  #bestrestaurants  #italy  #sardinia  #booklover  #bookstagram  #photography  #happy  #pride  #blogger  #instagood  #success  #writingagain  #grandineeveleno  #pianist  #bestpianist  #bestmoments 
Thank you @freepeople for welcoming my words on your blog & my magic in your space! Visit link in bio to read my blog post “A Recipe for Ritual”  for @freepeople + @fpmovement & sign up for The Circle of Light this Wednesday 7pm in Soho #nyc #soexcited #writingagain #freepeople #freepeoplemovement #freewoman #freedom #freeyouryoni #freeyourmind #thecircleoflight #womenscircle #ritual #magic #medicinewoman #jaguarwoman #november #gratitude #love #light #yoni #experiencethelighthousevibration 💧✨🍃
Thank you @freepeople for welcoming my words on your blog & my magic in your space! Visit link in bio to read my blog post “A Recipe for Ritual” for @freepeople + @fpmovement & sign up for The Circle of Light this Wednesday 7pm in Soho #nyc  #soexcited  #writingagain  #freepeople  #freepeoplemovement  #freewoman  #freedom  #freeyouryoni  #freeyourmind  #thecircleoflight  #womenscircle  #ritual  #magic  #medicinewoman  #jaguarwoman  #november  #gratitude  #love  #light  #yoni  #experiencethelighthousevibration  💧✨🍃
“I am feathered by the moonlight falling down on me
I said, "I walk along these hillsides in the summer 'neath the sunshine
I am feathered by the moonlight falling down on me"
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#countingcrows #augustandeverythingafter #chilltunes #murderofone #feather #moonlight #oldschool #scorpiowoman #scorpio #fallenbrokenstreet #byronbay #metime #journaling #astrology #moon #goddess #reflection #selfwork #healing #change #blackandwhite #ancientwisdom #enlightenment #vegan #plantbased  #growthmindset #dancer #writingagain #poetry #authenticity
“I am feathered by the moonlight falling down on me I said, "I walk along these hillsides in the summer 'neath the sunshine I am feathered by the moonlight falling down on me" . . . . #countingcrows  #augustandeverythingafter  #chilltunes  #murderofone  #feather  #moonlight  #oldschool  #scorpiowoman  #scorpio  #fallenbrokenstreet  #byronbay  #metime  #journaling  #astrology  #moon  #goddess  #reflection  #selfwork  #healing  #change  #blackandwhite  #ancientwisdom  #enlightenment  #vegan  #plantbased  #growthmindset  #dancer  #writingagain  #poetry  #authenticity 
An insight to the inner working of my head.....
Just something I've been working on lately.... Just when I thought I had it all together, I feel like I'm falling.
To others I appear happy and whole but really I'm struggling to keep it together.
I know time heals all wounds and everyone is dealing with their own demons/life, for me right in this moment I just want to let go and give up, I can't keep feeling like I'm treading water just to keep a float. "Keep moving forward, things will get better" I'm told this often but right in this moment, this present point in time I'm to tired to keep going.

A brave face & level head is what you all see with me, lying and hiding the pain seems to be normal for me "yeah I'm fine, couldn't be better" pfft!! Please! If I said how I really felt, what's going on in my head all I'd get is "suck it up cupcake", "everyone has hard days" a hard day is fine and honestly I long for that, yip! Pathetic I know, others are worse off then me and I get that, others handle things better then me and that's great for them.

Inside I'm beaten and broken, outside I'm smiling and seem happy? Ya'll say you know me and that you'll be there for me. But how can I ask for help or even just say how I'm truly feeling when I get the same judgemental BS all the time? What's it going to take to see past the brave face and the act that has been seen for so long, to actually see the bloody and broken person that I am?

What's the point in reaching out for help when really need it, when all you get is empty words?

How do people do it? Get past the pain that consumes them, I'm being swallowed whole by the darkness, there is no light to be seen.

If I just surrender to it will it be ok? Would anyone even notice?

I ask myself these questions daily and still i have know answer.

I've been asked before "what am I like when I'm angry?" I honestly wouldn't have a clue. How does one show emotion when they can't even remember what it's like to feel them?

How does one get past and move on from what feels like the end?......... If you've made it all the way to the end please feel welcome to give your thoughts thanks..
#writingagain #penanpaper
An insight to the inner working of my head..... Just something I've been working on lately.... Just when I thought I had it all together, I feel like I'm falling. To others I appear happy and whole but really I'm struggling to keep it together. I know time heals all wounds and everyone is dealing with their own demons/life, for me right in this moment I just want to let go and give up, I can't keep feeling like I'm treading water just to keep a float. "Keep moving forward, things will get better" I'm told this often but right in this moment, this present point in time I'm to tired to keep going. A brave face & level head is what you all see with me, lying and hiding the pain seems to be normal for me "yeah I'm fine, couldn't be better" pfft!! Please! If I said how I really felt, what's going on in my head all I'd get is "suck it up cupcake", "everyone has hard days" a hard day is fine and honestly I long for that, yip! Pathetic I know, others are worse off then me and I get that, others handle things better then me and that's great for them. Inside I'm beaten and broken, outside I'm smiling and seem happy? Ya'll say you know me and that you'll be there for me. But how can I ask for help or even just say how I'm truly feeling when I get the same judgemental BS all the time? What's it going to take to see past the brave face and the act that has been seen for so long, to actually see the bloody and broken person that I am? What's the point in reaching out for help when really need it, when all you get is empty words? How do people do it? Get past the pain that consumes them, I'm being swallowed whole by the darkness, there is no light to be seen. If I just surrender to it will it be ok? Would anyone even notice? I ask myself these questions daily and still i have know answer. I've been asked before "what am I like when I'm angry?" I honestly wouldn't have a clue. How does one show emotion when they can't even remember what it's like to feel them? How does one get past and move on from what feels like the end?......... If you've made it all the way to the end please feel welcome to give your thoughts thanks.. #writingagain  #penanpaper 
Come lay with me and tell me all that you hide. I want to know all of you even the darkest parts. ❤️ #mywords #poetry #laywithme #writingagain
The blog is back!  After a needed hiatus, there's a new post up #ontheblog .  I'd love it if you'd read it. (Link in profile) the web address to read is www.livingwithaholts.blogspot.com. TIA for checking it out, and remember: comments are ALWAYS welcome.

#writingagain #testimony #youareloved
The blog is back! After a needed hiatus, there's a new post up #ontheblog  . I'd love it if you'd read it. (Link in profile) the web address to read is www.livingwithaholts.blogspot.com. TIA for checking it out, and remember: comments are ALWAYS welcome. #writingagain  #testimony  #youareloved 
The darkness of the night
The moon is your only light
Abyss is what you see
Alone drowning in the sea
Lonely heart that desires
Your one true love aspires
To take your hand and save you
From this curse that forever torments you

Your voice that echoes hoping to bring
the Divine to wake and hear you sing
The plea to rise you from the madness
This immortality of numbness
Just one kiss it's what you seek
The change you long for even if you bleed
"Hear me out i call thee
My one true love please come to me"

#amermaidscry 
#passion #writingagain #itsbeenawhile #seoulsearching  #foreveryoung #에이미 💜
The darkness of the night The moon is your only light Abyss is what you see Alone drowning in the sea Lonely heart that desires Your one true love aspires To take your hand and save you From this curse that forever torments you Your voice that echoes hoping to bring the Divine to wake and hear you sing The plea to rise you from the madness This immortality of numbness Just one kiss it's what you seek The change you long for even if you bleed "Hear me out i call thee My one true love please come to me" #amermaidscry  #passion  #writingagain  #itsbeenawhile  #seoulsearching  #foreveryoung  #에이미  💜
I had a lot of fun writing this part of my novel today! I just love writing about  monsters in general. I was really inspired by the Wendigo from Until Dawn here. Gosh, I love that game! That’d be wicked to stream! That has to be one of my favourite monsters in any game! 😄💖 #writewritewrite #writerswrite #writerscorner #writeit #writeitdown #writeit #writenow #writeitout #writeaway #writerslife #writersdesk #writersofinsta #writergirl #writingagain #writingabook #writinganovel #writingofig #write_on #writerssociety #igwriter #keepwriting #amwriting #amwritingfantasy #amwritingfiction #amwritingromance #nanowrimo #nanowrimo2018 #write_on #writersden #writers_den_
I had a lot of fun writing this part of my novel today! I just love writing about monsters in general. I was really inspired by the Wendigo from Until Dawn here. Gosh, I love that game! That’d be wicked to stream! That has to be one of my favourite monsters in any game! 😄💖 #writewritewrite  #writerswrite  #writerscorner  #writeit  #writeitdown  #writeit  #writenow  #writeitout  #writeaway  #writerslife  #writersdesk  #writersofinsta  #writergirl  #writingagain  #writingabook  #writinganovel  #writingofig  #write_on  #writerssociety  #igwriter  #keepwriting  #amwriting  #amwritingfantasy  #amwritingfiction  #amwritingromance  #nanowrimo  #nanowrimo2018  #write_on  #writersden  #writers_den_ 
I'm sorry you cut yourself on the bits of me you shattered #writingagain #throwbacktosenioryear #original #real #brutallyhonest
I dream of a girl
who dreams too much
She fights monsters
And climbs the highest mountains 
And commands crowds 
With elegance and love
She is fearless 
And reckless
And completely insane
She dwells within me
We are one
I am empowered by her
She fuels my soul
With fire
And passion 
My dreams are alive and thriving
Because she lives With me
Within me
Breathing my breath
Seeing my life
Living my dreams 
Our head is in the clouds
We see the world around us
Moving 
Growing
Ever-changing
keep us grounded
We live this life together
We are one in the same
We are completely insane. - Me ✨
I dream of a girl who dreams too much She fights monsters And climbs the highest mountains And commands crowds With elegance and love She is fearless And reckless And completely insane She dwells within me We are one I am empowered by her She fuels my soul With fire And passion My dreams are alive and thriving Because she lives With me Within me Breathing my breath Seeing my life Living my dreams Our head is in the clouds We see the world around us Moving Growing Ever-changing keep us grounded We live this life together We are one in the same We are completely insane. - Me ✨
एक अरसे से हूँ क़ैद इसी आईने में
अब तेरे अक्स में घुल जाऊं तो रिहा हो जाऊँ .
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#selfie #hindicouplet #writingagain #poetslife
#writersofinstagram
#poetsofindia #poetsofinstagram #hindipoetry #Couplet #shair #photography #photopoem #mood #life #musings
Last day with their cousin. My husband decided to take them to play paintball. Needless to say, they all came home with battle scars and stories. Our son had to go to work with his battle scars.
Remember to; Make Moments Memorable.
I’m going to miss my nephew and sister like crazy.
Dreading the drive to the airport tomorrow. :(
#missingfamily #lovemyfamily #amonthflewby #sayingbye #vacationover #writingagain
Last day with their cousin. My husband decided to take them to play paintball. Needless to say, they all came home with battle scars and stories. Our son had to go to work with his battle scars. Remember to; Make Moments Memorable. I’m going to miss my nephew and sister like crazy. Dreading the drive to the airport tomorrow. :( #missingfamily  #lovemyfamily  #amonthflewby  #sayingbye  #vacationover  #writingagain 
Clouds brush across the sky overhead—the last fingers  grasping at a summer long passed. 
#sky #clouds #writingagain #forthelyrebird
The best thing about dreams, is that once you reach them, they shift into something else... #DREAMHIGH #TBT #NYC
The best thing about dreams, is that once you reach them, they shift into something else... #DREAMHIGH  #TBT  #NYC 
More brain spillage #myfuckingthoughts #writingagain #dumbassshit #ionlywanthim #heknowswhoheis #shithole #escapereality #thoughtsintowords #writingabouthim #whoshim a image of an ideal lover who is a dream in my head who nobody can compare to.. #daydreaming #enemyofmyownthoughts
Last night was about bringing 7 creatures together. Our desires and values spread across the ocean of truth.

The lasting minutes under the red lamps, burned a moment between us. 
That moment will see us through.
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#inamoment #forbiddentruths #writingagain #bringingus #songofsongs #liftourvoices #lampobsession #redlampshades #throughsong #throughlaughterandtears #heal #hidden #hiddenroom #liveseekfind #2018
This is such a rad tool for sketching ideas! Thanks @colinandrewviljoen and @marshallmusicwestrandandschool #focusrite #itrackdock #ipad #ikmultimedia #amplitube #writingagain #abouttime  #musician #guitarplayer
Thursday: SOMETHING BLUE.

We haven't talked in months.
But I saw you the other day.
I felt something.
I felt a sour squeeze in my lungs.
I felt questions. A lot of unanswered questions that will remain like that forever.
For my own sake.
You were missing your halo.
Now you're just a fallen angel from my altar.
Sin veladora y sin flores.
Still a teacher though.
Thank you for the lessons.
I really hope it was both of us who learned.
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AA oct/2018
Thursday: SOMETHING BLUE. We haven't talked in months. But I saw you the other day. I felt something. I felt a sour squeeze in my lungs. I felt questions. A lot of unanswered questions that will remain like that forever. For my own sake. You were missing your halo. Now you're just a fallen angel from my altar. Sin veladora y sin flores. Still a teacher though. Thank you for the lessons. I really hope it was both of us who learned. . AA oct/2018
To all the people I told I was done with poetry...poetry decided it was not done with me🙏🏾🔮💖 #givethanks #writingagain #performing #spokenword
So they say a common fear among humans is fear of death but what scares me more than death itself is losing my memories. 💀☠👻
#staypositive 
#writingagain
#makingmeemotional
Might just let somebody steal my hoodie this season. Heart already cold, so I won't feel the chill, but it's familiar, the way he's breathing. Down my spine when he comes from behind, as my hands try to grip the wall. Something about that surrendering feeling, when you know he's about to take it all. #AshleyBRich .
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#SomeoneTakeMyPhone
#ICantStopWriting
#WritingAgain
#AlCapone
#NoComment
#YakGirl407
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Might just let somebody steal my hoodie this season. Heart already cold, so I won't feel the chill, but it's familiar, the way he's breathing. Down my spine when he comes from behind, as my hands try to grip the wall. Something about that surrendering feeling, when you know he's about to take it all. #AshleyBRich  . . . #SomeoneTakeMyPhone  #ICantStopWriting  #WritingAgain  #AlCapone  #NoComment  #YakGirl407  #LetMeBrandYou  #Model  #Artist  #ArtistManagement  #Branding  #Promotions  #ArtistManager  #BRichManagement  #BrandAmbassador  #Ad  #Promo  #Music  #Modeling  #Photography  #Singer  #Songwriter  #Musician  #Entrepreneur  #Trending  #Influencer  #Follow 
Not many people know this about me, but prior to dabbling in visual arts and more recently, music, I was a writer. And I mean, I didn't dabble in writing...it was my life! 
After I got sober at age 30, I found myself incapable of forming words! People will say Writer's Block is a myth, but I was most certainly blocked. I am still trying to fully understand why/how I lost my voice. But if I am honest...truly honest...with myself, it was because I lost myself...at my core. You see, I lost that uninhibited raw truth and observation. When I got sober, I felt I had to change who I was because I was unable to see the real Me beneath addiction and despair. I could not see the woman who had things to say and saw things not many see. I burned my notebooks, resigning that I would never write again and began to explore other modalities of creation. But they never did.it for me like writing did.

Today, almost 16 years later, I am writing again for the 1st time. Now I can't stop! It's humbling to build up a muscle...skill...that is atrophied. I'm not the writer I used to be because I am so out of practice. But perhaps I don't need to be the writer I was, because I am no longer the Woman I was. 🤔

Anyway, I'm inspired by many things...food and nature are two. So I wrote a poem inspired by haiku. 😜
Not many people know this about me, but prior to dabbling in visual arts and more recently, music, I was a writer. And I mean, I didn't dabble in writing...it was my life! After I got sober at age 30, I found myself incapable of forming words! People will say Writer's Block is a myth, but I was most certainly blocked. I am still trying to fully understand why/how I lost my voice. But if I am honest...truly honest...with myself, it was because I lost myself...at my core. You see, I lost that uninhibited raw truth and observation. When I got sober, I felt I had to change who I was because I was unable to see the real Me beneath addiction and despair. I could not see the woman who had things to say and saw things not many see. I burned my notebooks, resigning that I would never write again and began to explore other modalities of creation. But they never did.it for me like writing did. Today, almost 16 years later, I am writing again for the 1st time. Now I can't stop! It's humbling to build up a muscle...skill...that is atrophied. I'm not the writer I used to be because I am so out of practice. But perhaps I don't need to be the writer I was, because I am no longer the Woman I was. 🤔 Anyway, I'm inspired by many things...food and nature are two. So I wrote a poem inspired by haiku. 😜
Im not losing control.
I am learning how dissociate  love and  hatred.
I don't want my futur to get a link with my past.
That's enough. 
Love killer.  Unexpected player. 
You tell that you had everything and broke it, 
You tell that you still love me,  what the fuck. 
You told me you've listened my voice before sleeping
Don't worry now you will hear me singing. 
That is really a fucking story to tell, 
I know now that i should have see that i could fail

#writingagain #mysong #évasion #freeyourmind #love
Im not losing control. I am learning how dissociate love and hatred. I don't want my futur to get a link with my past. That's enough. Love killer. Unexpected player. You tell that you had everything and broke it, You tell that you still love me, what the fuck. You told me you've listened my voice before sleeping Don't worry now you will hear me singing. That is really a fucking story to tell, I know now that i should have see that i could fail #writingagain  #mysong  #évasion  #freeyourmind  #love 
You,  you liar. You cheated me. 
So many thoughts running through my head. 
So many disgusting things I cannot forget. 
You broke me after loving me. 
I was sure and proud of us
Totally proud of you. 
Truly conscious to be lucky. 
Never thought you were this man. 
You took everything I had with you. 
Your words won't change a thing
Cause you made me fucking weak. 
So many times, cheating everyday
I'm broken, alone and disgusted. 
Shame on you, you lost me forever
I will give my love to another. 
Six years ago I didn't think i could fall in love again
But now with rage my eyes are suddenly wide open. 
Nothing can change the way I'm feeling.

#writingagain #mysong #évasion #freeyourmind #love
You, you liar. You cheated me. So many thoughts running through my head. So many disgusting things I cannot forget. You broke me after loving me. I was sure and proud of us Totally proud of you. Truly conscious to be lucky. Never thought you were this man. You took everything I had with you. Your words won't change a thing Cause you made me fucking weak. So many times, cheating everyday I'm broken, alone and disgusted. Shame on you, you lost me forever I will give my love to another. Six years ago I didn't think i could fall in love again But now with rage my eyes are suddenly wide open. Nothing can change the way I'm feeling. #writingagain  #mysong  #évasion  #freeyourmind  #love