This month I've been focusing on background stuff for my series, things like character backstory and world building. The number of notebooks I'm actively using to look up this info and put it all together is getting a little ridiculous. 😂
One of my friends suggested moving my world building notes into a binder because I mentioned that my usual notebook approach made these particular notes hard to find. I do have about half the binder already filled with maps/blueprints and three years worth of a world building challenge printed out, but that's only for my main culture. I'm hoping to make more progress with the rest of the world/s going into next year. 🤞🏻 #writer#writersofinstagram#writersoninstagram#writersofig#writing#writingbyhand#amwriting#amwritingfantasy#author#authorsofinstagram
💭 God’s Thoughts 💭
New blog post on the blog all about the thoughts of God towards us. ( Link in bio ). Jeremiah 29:11 is one of my favourite verses so I had so much fun breaking it down. There is an excerpt of what I’ve included in the post.👇🏾 Thoughts that Jeremiah 29:11 talks about are from God alone and not from a human being, I love how this is articulated through the usage of the letter I. I in Jeremiah 29:11 refers to God. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Since these thoughts are from God alone, it doesn’t matter what people’s thoughts are towards you. It doesn’t matter whether people think less of you or whether or not they think you will succeed. It doesn’t matter if people speak negative things upon your life or think you are not good enough or pretty enough, because guess what God’s thoughts matter the most and are more important than anyone else’s thoughts.
God thinks you are worth it. that’s why He created you fearfully and wonderfully according to His own image. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
You are not a failure in His eyes, God created you in such a way that He has made you able to do all things through Christ who strengthens you (Philippians 4 :13)
If you want to read more you can visit the blog, link in bio. Stay fearless always!.💛
My mind is betraying me again –
Overpowering what my heart has to say
I’m confused which to follow.
Should I stay or should I just leave?
Torn between fighting and giving you up
Scared of my own monsters – it’s eating me whole and alive.
I’m betraying myself – again.
My mind is restraining my happiness.
My doubts, fears, and insecurities
They’re winning this battle – oh please, not again
A part of me wants to stay and be happy
But I can’t – my mind wouldn’t let me
Unless you’ll tell me…
Unless you’ll tell me to stay
11/21/18 3:15 PM Wednesday
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From my poem "Dream Graveyard"
Have you ever been told that your dreams are too outlandish? That you need to be more practical? Have you ever been told that you can't do it? Well, you can. Never give up.
PARODY OF LIFE.
As we grow older we get to realise that almost everything was a lie just told to us to make us feel safe, like a lullaby easing us to sleep. It was like a kind of hypnosis to help us continue through the uncertainty. We now are gradually growing and assuming consciousness, our eyes begin to open to the darkness around us. In the real world, good people die first. Nothing can save you but you, honest people get used or exploited, the innocent suffer and the conning and wicked rule the world.
Look, I won't lie to you and tell you that telling someone about your problems makes them go away. It doesn't. And for a little while, it actually wakes things worse. But that's not a bad thing. To get through a storm you have to go through it. You have to get wet. Many people, myself included, stored all our feelings away in our imaginary box thinking we could keep filling it without a reaction. But eventually that box runs out of space and explodes and you are left to clean up a giant mess. By telling someone, we don't have to store everything in the box. We don't have to hide away in shame and never show our real selves. We don't have to live a lie. Talking about mental illness is really hard because we were always told to just get on with things and bury our problems. But any therapist will tell you that a much better way to deal with your problems is to put them in the open and work on a way to get past them instead of avoiding them forever. I am not saying you should tell everyone about mental illness, that's up to you. But at least tell someone. A therapist, a partner, your parents, your best friend. I know it's hard. And there are still things I hide away. I actually opened up to the person I trust the most recently about the true extent of my problems. And instead of being ashamed, I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. I was not judged. Instead, I was offered encouragement and support. Knowing that you are not a bad person, you are not shameful, you are not weak like your illness will tell you makes such a big difference in your recovery. It's so important I can't stress it enough. And the more you talk about it, the more you confront it, the stronger you become and the weaker your mental illness becomes.
Do yourself a favour right now. If you are going through a hard time, send the person you trust the most in the world a message and let them know. Maybe you won't find a solution, but making this step, and seeing you're not crazy or weak, and proving to yourself that you don't have to keep it to yourself out of fear and shame, will be a big step on the road to getting better.
🌻 I was sixteen years old, crying on my bedroom floor the night he left me. My heart ached: my lungs struggled to breathe, and every bone of mine rattled at the thought of him with her. I didn’t sit there sobbing into a bowl of ice cream, whilst listening to our old favourite song, like they do in movies - I lay curled on the floor, holding my fragile bones together scared that I might fall apart. I knew that losing him wasn’t even going to be the worst part of all this - it would be losing myself 🌻
The holidays are here! What better gift to give and receive than an escape into an adventure of a lifetime? If you don't believe me, just check out the reviews. Give the gift of a good story this holiday season, and see where the magic takes you. The Dark Pilgrim is available on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, and other online retailers. Link in bio!
******************************************* There is a grievous rule in the universe,
enthralled by our names
Making certain of
our cosmic intersection
No matter what
I always have faith in it
more than any belief I have
more than I should
You are this wild softness
an unrivaled meal
to my constant hunger
And I fall,
towards the ocean
often on your pillows of hollow promises
sometimes at your glacial touch
always to sharp blades
awaiting the slitting of my belly
In spite of the “how’s”
I just do
by kat.g #wordedwrite
For as long I can remember, I've paid attention to how things are worded. Whether it be conversation, poetry, lyrics... I've just always had a love for being able to say something simple that still holds so much depth. One of my all time favorites by The Civil Wars.. "Your hands can heal, your hands can bruise. I don't have a choice, but I'd still choose you." After years of having this postless IG account I created a long time ago, something in me decided that this is the time in my life to run with it. Not gonna lie.. the vulnerability in sharing such personal work makes me anxious. Super anxious. And I think it's because sharing these parts of me go hand in hand with sharing pieces of my life too. "Dirty laundry" as some might call it. But that's ok. Because I'm incredibly proud of who I've become throughout the trials of different kinds of relationships I've experienced, the one with myself especially. And I'm proud of the way my love(literally & figuratively) and I have grown.
I hope you follow along.🙈 Some pieces are old, some are new.. some are the new me connecting with the old me. And even if just ONE thing I write connects with you.. or changes the way you look at something in a positive way.. I'd be over the moon. Enjoy.🖤
"Her erratic cackling
Like static crackling
On an old television screen
Or a radio - out of range"
It's been a rough few days. I let them back in, just to feel the familiar sting. Then, my meds appointment didn't go as well as I'd hoped. The doc wouldn't give me anything for anxiety(which is my biggest problem), and he wrote the wrong script for the antidepressant. So, I have to wait til Monday to sort that out. Buuut, at least I'm making some, albeit very slow, progress.
Show your support for this neurodivergent queer by clicking the link in my bio to purchase your own pieces of my soul sublimated into art. 💚
Surround yourself with people who get you, or genuinely want to! From today no more. No more patience for those wanting to change or challenge my past. No more pleasantries for sprung interventions highlighting faults. No time for those who talk about me rather than to me. No more. Quality over quantity today and everyday!
Thankyou @myptsdofficial for this reminder.
Yeah. I like Ss and Ts. They make pretty sounds. 😝
My grandmother is out of town for a week. So, I'm spending most of my time with my dad. He gets super lonely when she's not around.
I've been making him watch scary movies with me and introducing him to Workaholics. It's been a nice distraction from the crushing weight in my chest(also 40s help). My apologies for a lack in activity, but you fuckers should be used to that by now. 😘
Slow your thoughts down, don’t live in a rush.. feel your center
Go through life untouched.
Wake up to the call, you are here for a purpose
Don’t get caught up in life’s games, the truth will come to the surface
You are here to manifest and live in your highest bliss
Nothing is more important, that you create your own happiness
and tap into your hidden gifts
Life is a short pit stop, for the infinite plan
You are here for the good of all and for the love that you share
Don’t fear the process, just enjoy even if it hurts
Everything you are wanting will come when you aren’t in a search.
✨ #ascension#5thdimension#transformation#poetrycommunity#writersofinstagram#5d#manifestation#alignment#vortex#synchronicity #