...and just like all the other paintings I’ve begun.. but never quite finished. I too am a work in progress.. and as I started typing this elaborate ass vulnerable message... just so that you’d know what I was feeling last night.. I started to explain that this isn’t in any way to depict my current relationship. But to reflect the state of my heart when I begin to revisit/reflect on past relationships, both with others and myself. And I used to be sooooo fucking heavy. But sometimes, that extra weight you need to lose isn’t ON your body.. sometimes it’s a clouded mind or that of a heavy heart.. and if not dealt with or nurtured probably.. you will only get heavier. I read a quote this morning that said.. “The simple secret of happiness. Whatever you are doing, don't let past move your mind; don't let future disturb you. Because the past is no more, and the future is not yet. To live in the memories, to live in the imagination, is to live in the non-existential. And when you are living in the non-existential, you are missing that which is existential. Naturally you will be miserable, because you will miss your whole life." — Osho
I realize that in order for me to continue to evolve I will have to continue to shed myself if this weight... I can not be a light and hold on to much darkness. So with this... I found my release.
I realized today how much my life reflects in my art. Sometimes... I’ll manifest this incredible idea.. and when I’m done getting it out in that moment.. I’ll swear I’m “done”. But after weeks, months, and sometimes even years go by of me being able to see what I’ve manifested... over time... I begin to criticize it. Think about all the things I could and should have done differently and eventually end up wanting to change every single thing about it.
And much like these paintings...
I see myself everyday and all the things I wish I would and could have done differently. I see all the things I want to change. I see all the work that still needs to be done.
We evolve every day b.
You’re always gonna be your greatest masterpiece... 🖤 #theblackmushroom
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