Hi. My name is Jessa. Clearly I hate myself because I put things off to the last minute and try really hard to give myself a heart attack.
The one time I need copious amounts of interfacing, and thought I had an ample supply, I have none.
This costume needs to be entirely interfaced for support and right now my stress level is so high I can't even begin to approach the idea of asking my daughter if we can leave the house to get more. I don't blame her, it's Saturday and she's had a rough week.
I have things I can do (hand sewing cuffs and collars, buttons) until I'm able to leave but, right now I'm in full panic mode. Always check your stock before you say "Oh, I'll be fine". Especially when your project is due next weekend.
Still cant shake the little voice from earlier but I'm trying. Surrounding myself with positive vibes and hopefully I can start working out how to fix the problem tomorrow.
I guess while trying to get healthy I also need to learn how to not hate myself. I didnt think I still did but I guess I was wrong
In case you were wondering how much of a fat f💔k I really am. I’m 328 pounds....pretty much represents literally everything I hate about myself. Even when I feel like I’m doing better, I just realize that I’m oh so far away. 👌🏾💀 #fatfuck#fatass#whydoihatemyself
I felt like I had too much of a good time in Korea so I decided to go straight to work the day after my 16 hour journey home, in work tomorrow at half 8, helping my bestie set up her 21st before doing an 8 hour day on Friday before going to said party and then working 12 till 3 on the Saturday before driving up to hull for a christening I'm going to on Sunday before probably a close shift at work on Monday because as I said I felt like I was a bit too happy. Looking forward to this weekend tho if I can stay awake🍻💃
.....guys. Guys. GUYS. THIS FREAKIN DESIGN IS DONE OMG. The last ten hours or so were done on stream; thank you to everyone who kept me company! The entire design was between 60 and 70 hours of work over the course of two weeks. Now to actually put this whole outfit together omg. But first...sleep. Yes, sleep is good. Zzzz....
Starting a @wolverineairsoftofficial #Wraith build, and run into so really weird s#!% with the design of the #KWA#VM4
See the amount of gap between the lower receiver threads and the wraith thread?
Now I'm trying to come up with some creative way to make this build work. #FML#techproblems#airsoft#hpa#whydoihatemyself