Listen to heart ❤️ last week things turn for me especially financially but I am continue with my medical education. Got some things in store #watchme#newbeginnings shoutout to brother @bennyesco for this
The amazing poet, Robert Frost once wrote, “Poetry starts with a lump in the throat.” Well, so does music. It’s a hurting-healing thing. It’s a cry, a scream, a raised fist, a middle finger, it’s a thank-you, a good bye, a lost sentence or momentous redemption....it’s a hurting, healing thing. Writing this EP has been so therapeutic for me. I wrote these songs to a man I had trouble saying goodbye to, and to a woman I had yet to say hello to, but now...she’s sitting in my front room. She’s cooking up soul food in my kitchen and she’s braiding my hair back into a history I had once forgotten. She’s me...like me..with me....to me..she’s the music-the lump in my throat. #First15#comingsoon#6monthcountdown#ep#comingsoon ‼️ #watchme#raleigh#atlanta#poetry#music#love#followme#songwriter#lyricist#rnb
I've been here in Minneapolis now for 6 months and some change.
This past week I opened my first theatre project since the move, made it up North with Mom & Dad for a quick 30 hour "vacation," and had a Very Minneapolis evening with some friends. I am not always happy, but I am content. I am not with my People, but I am building community. I am not yet soaring but I've got a clear runway and a flight plan.
THIS HAS BEEN HARD. I've done a lot of crying, doubting, and recalibrating. I've had to let go of plans and people which I thought were solid. I've had to improvise, make mistakes, learn from them, and keep moving forward. I have a new depth of understanding of the definition of independence. I'm also--slowly--learning the value of interdependence.
This is *not* a post about arrival. Simply sharing the view from this milestone in the journey. Besides, we're only about halfway thru #fearless2018 so there's plenty more pushing of limits and doing of scary shit to come!
Long ago, bad seeds were planted in me. Someone I revered and loved told me many things about myself that were not loving. I beloved those stories about me to be true.
I spent many years blaming them for my circumstances. I was victimized and remained a victim. My life was full of lack, resentment, and blame. It became my identity.
I’ve lived a lot of years chock full of anxiety, paralyzing fear, and depression. My small mind had me convinced that I was a pile of shit, hideous, worthless, and not lovable. Thoughts took me down a rabbit hole. I stayed there a long ass time. There were happy moments here and there, but for the most part I suffered daily.
I took a few yoga classes here and there but didn’t get into it until a few years ago. I would always park in the back of class, watching in fascination what everyone was doing, and do my best to follow along. Was it exercise? It seemed a little weird, but I kept coming back.
I was having a day of crippling anxiety and feeling shitty. I came to class a bit late, and the only spot was in the front, where the teacher was. This was super uncomfortable for me.
Something happened. I started to grasp the breath pattern, and I worked harder. I remember walking out of the class feeling euphoric. Light. Unencumbered. WTF? How did I go from nearly falling apart, to a state elation in 60 minutes?
Now I know. I was forced out of my safe spot. My comfort zone. I experienced mindfulness. Freedom. Liberation. For a period of time, my awareness was placed on breath, and my body. It pulled me away from imaginary time(in my mind) and into the present moment. And because I was not giving the dark thoughts my attention, I began to feel something else. That was my breakthrough class.
I started practicing 5-6 times a week. I was hooked. My life started to change. I still wasn’t sure why. But I just kept showing up.
Then I went to an LLT teacher training. That’s when my life really started to explode. Every day I am a better teacher than the day before. ___
My mission is clear. I bring synchronized breath to the masses. I deliver a revolutionary yogic experience in my classes. Continued in comments.
So today I did one of these screen shot things.. I usually think they’re dumb. But this one hit close to home for me.
This is the truest thing in all areas of life. If you want something? Go out and take it. Don’t let people tell you that you can’t do something. Chase after your dreams. Follow your heart and soul on the Journey it’s leading you down.
Complacency is boring, never settle for a comfortable life because growth never comes from comfort. Get out and chase your dreams.
In another arena, I once had a friend ask me “do you want to be with someone because they didn’t do anything wrong or do you want to be with someone you’re excited about?” There again, if we let complacency win, we don’t.
Complacency doesn’t lead to failure, but it does lead to a damn boring life.
If you needed this today, because honestly strangely enough I did (this and a phone call with my business mentor) then I’m glad to leave it for you. Because no one deserves the purgatory that is complacency. We deserve better. So to tell you what I had to tell myself? Get up off your sad, pathetic butt and go make your dreams come true. Life is happening whether you participate or sit and whine in the corner.. make your days count.
This is a trustworthy example how I behave each time my friends and family make a list of all the reasons why my decisions could turn into life threatening situations with high risk of emotional drama being involved #yesican#watchme and inevitable #picoftheday
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When you have been smashing upper body for a week and your shoulders appear?! 😯 in all seriousness tho, accepting any donations 😂 This week has been by far the shittest however, I am not going to let it get the better of me. Being off work for a week has definitely put a dent into any savings I had for my comp and then today to top it off I needed to buy a brand new tyre and had to use my money that I had aside to pay my passport this week😩😭 All is good tho, I will find a way. On a more positive note I’m able to put weight on my foot again with still a little pain but bearable and swelling has gone down!! Managed to do some leg extensions today and have been doing banded workout for the glutes. Day by Day we will get there!! ✌🏼😌 #watchme @ifbbproleagueoz