It's only after the longest conversation, that I realised I needed a break to be happy.
Monday, 17 December
As my sister says so often, I have pent up feelings. Most of us do. Most days they stay that way. Pent up.
Some days someone (maybe your sister...very likely your sister.) Says something and a flood of emotions come pouring out. Emotions that you had long forgotten you felt and continued to feel. You just numbed yourself.
That's what I did. I numbed myself.
I didn't know the pent up rage that welled up in me.
The stutters of words and sentences you hate to utter. Because at that moment I knew it was true.
I need to escape the confines of my own mind. Atleast for a while. Because if I don't. Well...I wish I could say something dramatic here...but ... frankly I don't know. I just don't think it would be for the best. But now. I'm too used to this method of dealing with things. The method of not dealing with it at all.
How do I express. Damn this is the stupidest letter by far.
EN: this elegant dress by @arzukarastudio is up on Practical Queen AP today. Link to the story is up in BIO 💋
RU: сегодня на Practical Queen AP это элегантное платье от @arzukarastudio Русская версия истории уже на rupracticalqueenap.com 💋 #practicalqueenap#arzukara