VOICES IN MY HEAD 👽
what I mean by that: I like to make up an image. All my illnesses are little persons and they are sitting in my head 👾 they got there due to different situations and problems over the years... so during the really bad times these persons scream at me. ED "you’re so fat when I eat this and that you will just get worse" "to many calories" Depression: "failure" "burden" "why are u even trying? You’re worthless and just everything you do is not enough" "you will never ever be enough" and all other mental health illnesses would say thinks like this. During my worst days these voices were so loud that you can’t hear anything else. And you get so sick and tired that you just want to silence these voices by suicide or when u harm yourself they’re not so heavy. But since suicide is a long term solution for temporary problems...well here is what I try. Dim the voices. That’s so hard, so incredible painful but so worthy. For me there were situations and people who helped to bring them down and the rest was my job. You can get so caught up with these voices. And they will never leave completely but what you can do is try not to listen and get a realistic mindset over certain things. When you can’t do that on your own - what is perfectly fine - go search for help and yes I know that is even harder and especially when you are in denial but you’re sick. And that’s ok you deserve to get well!! So why wait or feel not sick enough? It’s your turn to get better too! When you come to realize that you are not your sickness you’re one step in the right direction. What you can now do? Pay attention at your triggers. What causes these voices to get louder? When you find that out - don’t pull these triggers but also step away from them! And when voices are getting louder- try not to listen! Get distraction. Whatever is the right thing to do for yourself! And never forget: no matter how many reasons there might be why, there are always more why not!!! 💪🏼 keep fighting 🍀
The Kensmil and Keoni Show continues tomorrow. If you have time check out the two games I called today: 1. Cuba vs St. Vincent 2. Suriname vs Barbados. Both games are posted for your viewing pleasure on the FIBA YouTube channel. Tomorrow Gavin and are calling the semi-finals of the 2018 Women's Caribbean Cup. I received an awesome compliment today. A local basketball fan said he muted the Dutch-language TV broadcast to bring up our English commentary on YouTube. That's the modern version of watching a game on TV with the radio broadcast on in the background. Watch and listen as Gavin had to physically restrain me from rushing the court after a bad call by the officials. #broadcastlife#hoops#caribbeanvibes#wnba#FIBA#Suriname#voices#stvincent#barbados#cuba
Ive been hesitating on posting this because I have the sense that I’ve put into a form something sickening, something sacred, something subversive, something too provocative, something too honest and too painful. I’ve been feeling this way in response to other art lately including recently at the 9-11 memorial in NYC which, to me, seems to eternally memorialize a sense of falling into oblivion. I’m not sure if I’m in a dark place. Actually I’m positive I’m in a dark place living in the United States, a place where the systems of power are again choosing the wrong side of history. May the subversive voices collect and raise. Amplify each other. Amplify #compassion#humanity#love#life#equality#poc#voices#intersectionalfeminism#provocativeart#fiberart also if anyone has a perspective as to why this creation is #right ” or “wrong”, I want to hear it. #endslavery#facehistory
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Madam Habibah lovingly serves a delicious helping of family solidarity every Hari Raya in Kampong Kitchen and her grandson Azrie is determined to ensure that the family recipe lives on.
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Always be open to perspectives that open your mind or challenge your belief system. It’s always the people who refuse to challenge their own belief system that cause the most trouble. Narrow minded thinkers do things like shoot people for wearing a certain color without knowing the victim had nothing else to wear that day. Narrow minded thinkers damn good helpful people to hell because they choose to live differently out of happiness and health. Hearing the limits other people put on themselves and the world around them can give you the reason why they would never have the discipline or time to follow whatever rules you feel your “stalkers” have. Hearing other people’s views may be scary and bothering but the more possibilities that exist in your belief system than the more possibilities you have to become the person you want to be. Stay grounded stay safe #bewithpeople#buildtrust#livewithcompassion p.s #godzilla is the coolest thing ever.
I'm feeling extremely thrilled and grateful to God. My 4th Novel - VOICES - It's here! The RELEASE DATE is 2nd July 2018, but you can Pre-order the kindle e-book NOW on Amazon https://amzn.to/2JR3uVs. (Link in Bio)
Chapter One is available for free on my Website - www.dupeolorunjo.com So you can start reading right away.
Watch this space for more details on the Paperback Copies and delivery in Lagos.
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