So sis is actually really happy??? I’ve been in a relationship (another one, yes) and he’s amazing. Every time he looks at me my heart flutters. He’s- I want him to be forever. UgH😩😩. I feel comfortable doing sexual things (which hasn’t happened before) AND I can be myself around him? I can TEL L HIM H OW I FEEL? I love him so much. Idk. I’m so happy. It’s weird. I’m friends with ashexx again so that’s nice. I’m scared of losing her and I’m still hurt but it’s alright. I don’t really know what to say since I’m happy and I usually post when Somethings wrong. I don’t know. I’m getting my ears pierced soon?? That’s cool. •
💔I’ve been clean for;; almost 2 months 💔
been feeling rather calm for the rest of the day until mum came home in the evening that's when I remembered that she said she'll talk to dad bc of weigh in. idk if she did but I can ask her tmrw. it was so hard for me to concentrate on studying simply the thought of weigh in tmrw or talking to dad about it made me anxious. that's why I didn't study much today but I found a lot of comfort in my current read. as basically always anxiety is probably gonna keep my up all night and then I'll have really early breakie yikes. after a good workout and stretches the #kimchibokkeumbap was a little comforting at least and for some reason I find eating w chopsticks and out of this bowl w chinese caligraphy makes eating more enjoyable
What do you mean you and mom are getting divorced...?..
Its been 9 years....9 years and you finally found the one...she makes you happy....me happy...lil sis and mimi happy...you even had a baby with her....and you two are leaving eachother.....
You have to be joking right.....?...
After this long....you let me get attached
...you let me call her mom....and now....now you two are just gonna break it all up just like that....?....
You cant..... #vent#divorce
Quien no sabe gobernar su casa con experiencia y madurez, es como una persona vieja que se siente como un niño a los 16; porque para ser un hombre de bien se necesita tener bien puesto en este mundo los pies, debe sostener los muros y también la pared, la roca y el cimiento es el, al igual como un edificio de mil pies, pues todo lo soporta y todo recae en el, ya sea que caiga o se levante otra vez, todo dependerá de él!#Jovick#Vent "
this is very personal but i decided
to share bc i just rlly want let it out !
honestly still this year i’ve been going
through so many things which lead
to a ton sadness. all my friends and family (especially my friends) they are ppl
who i respect and love but honestly
they’ve hurt me so much i can’t
even explain. and other ppl at my
school including my friends say i’m rude
i can’t blame them but im trying rlly hard
change over the summer. it just hurts me inside bc they don’t understand what i’m going through. cus i, scared to let out my feelings but here i am. having a fake smiles mOsT of the time, it hurts. my friends and family both leave me out of things. they act like i’m a toy honestly. it’s like i’m not even human, that i don’t have feelings😪. ugh i don’t know what i’m doing here
in life i cry so much over ppl who i love but who don’t respect me not all my friends tho. school starting as well and i have
anxiety. my friends just say it’s just school
but they will never understand what i’m going through.
-❕all i’m going to say this that i’m trying so so so hard to change and try to make ppl
like me but it just don’t work. ppl just hate me and it makes me heartbroken😔 . everyone just breaks me especially ppl who r close or friends uhsjsksmms.
i cried over writing this i’m such skkskskks😭 sorry for wasting ur time if you’ve made it this far. ty for reading ig and i hope u understand what i’m going through:(
i had a rlly traumatic dream last night and idk where it came from but it rlly upset me,,
!! TRIGGER WARNING !!
basically to sum it up, everyone had to die except for one person and all the deaths were rlly graphic and the first death was this boy who hung himself and he'd cut all his arms n legs and some of his face so blood was just pouring out of him n he was crying and we made eye contact as he died and like it was so detailed n graphic i was sobbing sm, then another girl got electrocuted, a boy got stabbed repeatedly to death by his gf and she had no expression and he was like begging her to stop until he died and then the girl got stabbed but also tried to drown herself and i had to kill her but then everything reset but i remembered everything and they were all fine but they didn't know what happened so i couldn't tell them. i don't wanna go into too much detail about it because it was so triggering and upsetting i woke up sobbing :,(
but like the mad thing is that nothing triggered it, i had a bit of a mood drop yesterday but it was over fairly quickly so it couldn't have been that. i've been so good recently like i've thought about hurting myself once but then shook it off and i've been super happy the rest of the time ? idk :,,(
this is the first rlLy bad dream i've had in a while :(