A smokey San Luis Valley. This is a photo of the San Juans taken from Valley View Hot Springs (Orient Land Trust) in the Sangre de Cristos. Warm springs actually. I took a single photo. The west is on fire.
I hadn’t been here in a while. I left in the middle of the night. From 1975 until 2012 I used to visit two or three times a year. They’ve ruined what used to be maybe my favorite spot on earth. At one time their mission was to preserve this beautiful area. It’s all about money now. Overdeveloped. Modernized. T-shirts. Too many campsites and structures. Campground hosts. Booked to capacity and way overcrowded. E-coli alert. Can’t drink the water. I wasn’t about to get in the pools which looked like human stews. This fragile environment can’t withstand this many people. They should have kept it membership only and limited the numbers. My last visit.
Good place to go if you want to walk around naked, I guess.
I'm learning balance in some of the most beautiful ways.
Today I did a review of my July goals, which was basically to launch Pussy Church while allowing my intuition and spirit to lead. Of course, there were details in that, like make a sales page and do the marketing and create the videos and so forth.
But what I was most struck by in doing this review was how much I actually DIDN'T do in July, and yet how I 100% completed my goal. Not perfectly. But I did it.
In July I spent more days sick than I spent well. And in that sickness, I didn't do much. I laid around a lot, drank a ton of ginger tea, hacked out my lungs and ate some soup. I whined to my partner and I slept alone. I barely had energy for much of anything.
I spent at least half of my Pussy Church launch sick. And then I spent 3 days at the hot springs.
AND... I STILL completed my goals! I launched Pussy Church and am now in the most beautiful container with 25 incredible humans doing the deepest work I know any humans to do. Planetary healing. Transformations in consciousness. Coming home to body, heart and soul.
I'm telling you this because I've spent SO MUCH of my life in a constant push and struggle, and I'm guessing you may have, too. Don't get me wrong, I had a shit load of struggle in July, but what I didn't have as much was the push. In fact, instead of punishing myself for being down and out and pushing myself to get shit done, I just let myself have it. I watched more TV in July then I've watched all year. And I went on the hot springs vacation when I felt like I "shouldn't" or "couldn't." I see so many women trying to achieve. It's how we learned to receive love. Our worth based on DOING.
I am so grateful for the shift to base my worth on how I am BEING in the world. And letting my DOING come from there.
You can, too.
I got me a fiancé! I knew the day our eyes met that I was going to marry her !
I was waiting for the perfect moment to pop the question while we were on our trip in Colorado! She said yes 🤙🏻
Thanks for the memories and hospitality: @mageetah, #valleyviewhotsprings , @theavettbrothers, @redrocksamphitheater, @elisarosemountain, #waldencolorado , @capucinnejewelry!
I am beyond excited to share my life with my Bella. I will promise to always put a smile on your face!
Soaking early morning at Valley View Hot Springs. It was quite peaceful. There was nobody else around unlike last night when it was quite packed. This is just one of the several pools you can soak in. The top pool definitely has the best view but it was quite a steep hike. Yesterday we thought it was just really dusty but apparently there was a fire somewhere on the other side of the valley so it was just a lot of smoke which actually made sunset quite spectacular!