She was born wild and curious. A cage is no place for someone like that. “I play with the fire of my own truth,” she told me. “I will burn for what I love.” ~Mia Hollow
I read this quote today and it struck me deeply.
A little over a month ago I resigned from a career I had been in for 14 years. A secure career. A 6-figure career. With benefits, health insurance, and flexible schedule.
But…I was miserable. For so many reasons, I no longer felt valued and no longer felt I was providing value. Not only that, but the stress I endured from this high paying, secure job left me with little to give to my family, my friends, and myself.
I had been contemplating resigning for several months. I knew it was coming. I felt it in my bones. After a while I started putting out feelers. I mentioned the possibility of resigning to some friends and family.
To my surprise, I was met with many fear responses from people in my life. Even some anger. How dare I … resign from such a great job!? What about retirement? Health insurance? That awesome salary! What else will you do!? That is crazy. OH EM GEE JEN.
Resigning to pursue what I love was one of the most simultaneously heartbreaking AND heart-healing decisions I have made in my life.
Quitting a job is not a decision that is available to everyone, and it is not required to have the experience of living your truth. The great thing about each of us is our unique differences, and understanding that we are ultimately responsible for our own happiness.
I will burn for what I love, instead of being burned by what I am told I am supposed to love.
....What will you burn for? .
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💥 Body Maintenance:
🤘 I've been training like an Athlete, and I'll probably get injured like an athlete, with the high volume and frequency of stress.
🌊 Today I decided to undo the damage from months of swings, squats, lunges, etc. I went with the flow: focusing on quads/hips, thoracic spine, ankles and shoulders. These are all areas of mine that are constantly overworked.
⏱️ This is 4 minutes of roughly 20-30 minutes from today. (Sped up 4x, of course)
🧠 The challenge today was to open my body up, minimize the transition time (keep moving), all while trying to maintain structural integrity.
As I practice this, it shall get easier.
My body will move better.
The creative process will grow.
I should be able to adapt to this stimuli, provided that I am CONSISTENT with the process.
🙏 This is my Water.
SO many amazing & talented clients voice their dreams, and then immediately write themselves off by giving excuses and "evidence" from their past. They're afraid of fully going there because they want to stay "real and grounded".
But your most deeply-felt dreams are just as real and legit as anything else you've experienced, because your dreams are a solid part of WHO YOU ARE.
The first big step is to practice suspending your disbelief. Stop being all "logical" for a good moment, and look at what you REALLY want. Get honest about who you really want to be and what you want to do.
And then -- and this is the most important part -- believe that it's fully possible.
My one and only fine ( fine 4 me ) illustration wnich i ever made. I always had problems with realistic manual drawing, painting etc. . So i always looking for unconventional ways of making some visual pieces. I picked my old photo, edited in computer, then printed, painted on this with black ink, then made photo of this, and finally printed. This slalom was worth? Idk. #no13#illustration#print#girl#snow#scarry#sepia#art#unconventional @photoshop #visualpiece#dreams#snowflakes @im.piechowski
There is a fine line between having positive thoughts and suppressing emotion. With all the ...”just think positive thoughts”.....mantras and coaching out there We have become a society afraid and/or ashamed to talk about or express our true feelings. -
This way of dealing with emotions has taught us how to suppress our true feelings and to never actually deal with them. Which creates a society of people who are depressed, addicted, in dysfunctional relationships, and acting out in ways they can’t get in touch with. -
Allowing emotion to be expressed in a safe way allows you to purge and release it. It allows you to actually deal with them! You can’t get rid of something you choose to avoid. I’m all about positive vibes and creating positive intentions for yourself. However you can’t place a bandaid over a cancer and expect it to go away. That shit is gonna rise to the surface again until you actually deal with it!!! -
Anger, Sadness, Pain, Guilt, Shame....are all valid emotions. Allow yourself the freedom to feel! You cannot know joy, happiness, peace....without experiencing its opposite. You are NOT your emotions and anyone who cannot handle all of you...doesn’t belong in your life!
I got married too young. I got married too quickly. I didn’t even know who I was, what I wanted from life, or what I believed exactly. A year and a half into this thing I knew that being in that relationship wasn’t what I wanted but I wasn’t ready to admit it yet. I thought I could just make myself be happy. Make myself like married life. When the truth is that I never wanted to be married. I was miserable and I had done it for all the wrong reasons. I fucked up and my partner deserved someone who wanted the same things as him. That someone couldn’t be me.
I moved back to Portland after a summer in southern Oregon. It was nice to be away but I was lonely and broke and I missed my family. A friend offered to let me stay in her attic. It sounded nice after living in a car. A bed, a roof, a heater, a shower, a Fucking toilet. I left my husband there and came back home. We were still “together” but drifting apart. When I arrived I made a tent with my bed and a tapestry. I sat with my friend and ate peaches out of a jar. I felt safe.
It’s not everyday that you meet people like Kamana Gautam.
So it was a really special day for us in Hyderabad last week. We went to meet her just because we wanted to know a little bit more about her instagram journey or the journey of sharing life in social media.
Little did we know that we were in for a sensorial ride into a beautiful home - a warm welcome by shankar (the husband), a wonderfully special home made lunch of rice, dal and Andhra pickle, stories that took us down the memory lane - traveling from Chandigarh to Delhi to Hyderabad, sharing many powerful moments and silences, sitting around two year old Ekarth and his slightly older sister Vedika- eating, playing and then fighting, a mother breastfeeding her child - all in the middle of our conversation, rather all as a part of our conversation.
By the end of 3 hours, we can only say we surrendered to her spontaneity, zest for life and powerful presence.Thank you Kamana !@mycocktail_life. Real privilege.#lifestories#inspirations#humancentered#openconversations#womenwithpower#passionateaboutlife#theheroinesjourney#mother#storiesofinstagram#human#unconventional#real#journeys