We’ve all experienced loss in some way shape or form. Whether it’s a friend/family member dying, your significant other leaving you, a pet being missing, whatever it may be it.is.painful. I’ve always been incredibly open about my struggles on this platform with the hope of reaching someone else and helping them feel less lonely in their similar time of need. As you can tell by the direction of this, I also am experiencing all of the ups and downs of loss in a couple different ways. I’ve just recently had someone incredibly close to me pass away due to health complications, coupled with heartbreak, along with the anniversary of a good friend’s suicide. All of this came crashing in on me with the same 9 days. I’m not looking for condolences or pity. The other day Mia told me that I just need to let myself feel all of these emotions. To stop invalidating my own feelings. The one thing holding me back picking up and starting back on my trail was just that. -I. Need. To. Feel.-
I didn’t allow myself to roll with the full brute force of that wave of emotion. I built a wall so high that the water just pooled up waiting for the dam to just break, but it’s important to let it break. You can only keep a problem at bay for so long before you have to face it. Let yourself hurt. The pain of loss may never fully go away, and as cliché as it is, with time you will heal.
A tiny, tiny bubble: where does MAGIC in my 2018 appear now? I wonder because it is my word for the year. But to be honest, there's no need, or at least no urge, to wonder! There IS an all-penetrating glimmer, not so specific, it's just an overall vibration.
On my last afternoon in Málaga, I attended a yoga session by the bay, in an area called Paseo del Muelle Uno. The sunset hues would burst out wide in the sky while we do "inhalar" and "exhalar" during our poses. The language spoken was Spanish, everyone was living here after all, except for the foreign girl who insisted she needed to be in the class. I would take it, regardless not being able to speak the language. And I would let go of the need to understand from the mind. Instead follow the flow, as someone had advised me once. Abandon the need to know, instead just ~know~ as the next pose comes, as the next breathing takes place. There was something different - it was not that I was somewhere on the Costa del Sol (Coast of the Sun) of the Mediterranean, it wasn't that the yoga session was in Spanish. Something had loosened, so the moment had felt infinitely free. It was (is)...MAGIC. The session rooted me to the ground, and I was in the dimension wherever I was, I was there with whoever I was with, and the following days would be...lived. And loved.
My feet would warm, my socks wet from the drizzle would dry. My eyes would close from too much brightness. I would stare at the passersby and life would make sense because there is no need to smother for life's sense. Later on, the yoga class beside Farola de Málaga would begin. The teacher would roll out her words in Spanish and time & space would be fluid and the sky would be painted in purple and pumpkin. The Earth's presence would equally be my presence.
Later on, I would meet a Malagueña friend of a friend I had met in Myanmar. I would meet her friends too. And I would love them. We would drink tinto verano and eat cheap food and the whole of me would feel how good it is to dance in España. Or how good it is to just dance.
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Saçlarımız çok komik. Şükür ki sıfıra vurdurmamışlar. Tırnaklarımda oje var😮 Hayvanları hep çok seviyoruz. O yıllar biraz sıkarak seviyoruz. Eh birbirimizi de çok sevdiğimizi düşünüyorum🤗 @burcu.basal 90’s❤️
One of the most special moments of this trip: the sunset at Knapp’s Castle! The drive up the mountains to get here is very strenuous, but the views 💛! And that’s a wrap for Santa Barbara! A new blog post is coming up later today with more details on everything we explored over here, stay tuned!
Now follow us to our next destination: Solvang 🇩🇰!
Um dos momentos mais especiais dessa viagem: o por do sol em Knapp’s Castle. Achei a estrada de terra que leva até aqui bem sinistra, mas a vista lá de cima 💛!
Ainda hoje mais tarde vou colocar um post no blog com tudo que vimos aqui em Santa Barbara, fiquem ligados, vou avisar no stories!
Agora venham comigo para o próximo destino: Solvang 🇩🇰!