Hey InstaFam! It’s me, Nikki Vee! I just wanted to let you know: I LOVE YOU and THANK YOU! Life is full of all sorts of good, bad, ugly and everything in between - but love and tribe is the glue that helps keeps all this chaotic bliss together. I am so grateful for each and every one of you. Thank you for sharing your light, living your light, being a light for others. You do not go unnoticed and you are so freaking important. I am so blessed to have you, your experience, your wisdom in my life, in what ever way, shape or form you have arrived and in some cases, drifted away. Thank you from the very deepest caves of my heart. In the times we are currently living, I’ve realized now more than ever how important it is to have an open heart, to put worries, embarrassments and fears aside and step fully into living a life of love. We can do this together. We ARE doing it. I’m right beside you, hand in hand. Let’s Care Bear stare the shit out of the evils in this world, together. Love, no matter what, will always win. 💗🙏🏻✨
#powerandlight#thislittlelightofmine#uuageneralassembly#uuaga2018 leaving KCMO tomorrow with a lot to unpack around my privilege ((and fully ready to do so)) and how I am called to greater activism. It's time to heal up and show up, and I'm starting with me. Friends, do yourselves a favor and tune into the link in my bio. #brittanypacknett#warelecture @mspackyetti ❤️💥💥💥💥❤️
.:. .:. .:. 2nd photo reposted from @wildmysticwoman with @get_repost
White people often ask how they can ‘help’ when it comes to anti-racism. As if racism is something external and unconnected to whiteness. As if it is a condition that is automatically tied to being a person of colour. That question in and of itself - ‘what can I do to help?’ - shows that you don’t understand what racism is and how you are upholding it.
We don’t need your ‘help’. We don’t need you to save us. We don’t need any favours from you. And we’re not interested in any performative allyship, paternalistic charity or self-serving ‘activism’. We are good. What we need is for you to reconnect with your humanity. For you to unpack and heal your own racism. For you to challenge your systems and institutions, and to hold each other accountable to doing better. For you to stop weaponising your privilege. For you to start telling the truth. For you to share resources. For you to use your voice. For you to fight for justice.
We don’t need your ‘help’. We need your humanity.
Learning to not take things personal is still until today, one of the hardest things for me to do. Why? Because although I do not stop and think about other people’s opinions, I still care about my people and I’ve noticed there is a fine line between the “I care” and the “I don’t care”, when you realize that people you care for don’t care about you... I struggle and I’m learning to understand that that is not my problem and learning to let go... it feels good to listen to positive affirmations and to be me and my inner voice who reminds me of my worth and being mindful about not allowing other people define it for me.
It’s hard to behave like a wise adult, it’s hard to not get stuck in sticky situations but it’s also so heart filling when you know that people that do love you, love you for being you. 🙏🏼 Thank you for that. I’m grateful and appreciate your presence in my life. I do not take for granted the fact that you care and appreciate all the love and amazing vibes and blessings sent our way in the past days with our Abe’s announcement. One day at a time. 🌟 #shinningbright#thislittlelightofmine#imgonnaletitshine#letitshine#onedayatatime#youdoyou#knowyourworth
#ThisLittleLightOfMine#ImGonnaLetHimShine 🖤 23:06:03 ... The day they told me he'd died. The day I died too. At least a part of me did. It took me years to recognise the symptoms. The days where all the air leaves my body. Days where my heart can't beat. Days my brain simply cannot function. Days it feels like hot dry stone in my mouth when someone asks me if I am "ok". The ache is crippling and unrelenting. But then he was a huge section of my life's tapestry. Interwoven and wonderful. A piece of me. It feels incredibly unsatisfying that it takes only a minute to list the essential facts and stats about him. The hardest being; he's dead. Not just his loss but that being dead now counts as a part of who he is. I think that's why people have such a hard time talking to us about our children, because they see their living status as their essence? He is so much more than that. He's a miracle. A blessing. A beam of light so strong it illuminates your entire soul. He's a lifetime of fluttery movements. An electric fizz of joy. A supersonic warmth radiating a thousand suns. He is my son. He is loved.
And there will always be something raw about losing him, a part that doesn’t heal. There is no way around that. But perhaps the bereaved mother reaches a place of unwanted but hard-won power. A strength and resolve and incendiary desire to fight for him; for Bradley’s legacy. He isn't here now but he was here. He existed. Not for long but still here. Still loved. Still born. It is said that "if even a single person remembers you. Then maybe, you never really die at all." I'll always remember you bubs.
And if I could have a dream come true,
I’d wish for yesterday and for you.
I Love you son. Always. xxx
#HappyBirthday#Son#Remembrance#RememberingHim#ILoveYou#Always#Stillborn#STILLBorn#StillBornStillLoved#StillAMama#AngelMama#BabyLoss#BabyLove #💙 #SayTheirNames#PregnancyAndInfantLoss#CountTheKicks
You reached down my throat and tore away my voice.
Dismembering my sense of self.
I had all the pieces but couldn't fathom the arrangement and fell broken. *******
#lyrics from a new
Healing from trauma takes time, these are some ideas that have helped guide my process:
Your experiences ARE important to your story, still, do not let your past dictate your future.
Intentionally seek your own truth, and let others live theirs.
Learn, grow, and be honest(especially with yourself). Try to stay open and love unconditionally.
Do not allow toxic people to poison your life.
Metal sculpture by unknown artist in Everett, WA. Please tag the artist if you know who made that amazing flower #skeleton .
We picked strawberries today 🍓 the warm air literally smelt of sweet, strawberry goodness. Now we have so many we don't know what to do with them, so thinking caps on for what we can make with them? Trifle, cheesecake, or just plain old strawberries and cream?
It never ceases to amaze me how quick we are to make snap judgments about someone after seeing only a tiny glimpse into their life.
We all do it.
We're really good at assuming the worst about someone even when we only know a tiny bit of their story. Maybe ESPECIALLY when we only know a tiny bit of their story.
So will you try a little experiment with me today?
When you find yourself annoyed with someone- maybe they cut you off in traffic, maybe their kid did something to your kid, maybe they said something mind-numbingly stupid on Facebook- whatever it happens to be, would you fill the gaps with grace today?
Take the tiny part of their story that you know and fill in all the gaps around it with grace instead of criticism.
Assume the best instead of the worst.
You may be dead wrong. Maybe they really are the biggest jerk in the world.
But that doesn't matter. Because filling the gaps with grace may not change the other person, but it will definitely change you.
You are the sunshine of my life!
Your smile lights up the world! .
Learning to love as I have learned to love you, I can’t help but think how important it is for everyone to realize God looks at them the way a mother looks at her children .
No, I don’t think my baby is perfect, but I love him because of his imperfections and the beauty of his spirit. He will always belong. Just as each of us always belongs.
God has given us innate dignity. We are all worthy of love and belonging. If your blood family doesn’t know how to show you that love, know God always does, and there are kind hearted people out there who love God and who are ready to welcome you.
Everybody is beautiful, everybody has dreams to fulfill, everyone has a purpose. .
Look into the light for inspiration of what makes your soul rejoice and aligns with Love ❤️ .
If you feel lost, look towards Love and begin to walk even if you can’t see it all panning clearly... take a chance, and enjoy the ride...and at the end of the day at least you’ll know you were brave.
Ready to glow? This weekend I am dog sitting my daughters’ dogs. My oldest lovely is getting married and this is the “bachelorette weekend”. This is Smokey. She belongs to the bride. This sweet girl NEVER stops moving. She wanders gracefully around the backyard and through the gardens. Instead of intently searching like my Finley, Smokey seems to be just appreciating. No urgency. It’s a peaceful , non-stop slow wander. Some days I am Fin, frantically searching for that something. But then other days I’m a bit Smokey. Just on a peaceful wander . I’m spending today with 5 dogs so peaceful might be out of the question 😎
How’s your Saturday glowing?
It started with a conversation about ice cream in the ice cream aisle. The arty handiwork is that of our magnificent @brianmichaelhoffman whom I adore and you would adore too if you ever get to meet him. Neither of us bought ice cream by the way. #icecream#thislittlelightofmine
It was a very long day for me and my boy. We left home at 6:15 am to drop Jacob at the vet for his surgical biopsy. I got a call around noon that he was out of surgery and doing well, and I could pick him up after 4. I got there at 4, hoping to avoid rush hour when we left, but we weren't on our way until 5:30. He's got to wear an e-collar to protect his foot, he needed a different type of litter, and I have to put painkillers under his tongue. Hell, I was ready to take his pain meds myself! He was banging into everything in his collar and his shaved and stitched and misshapen foot looks scary. It's hard being a pet parent! Jacob thanks everyone for the good wishes. #jacobindustries#thislittlelightofmine#felvcats#adoptdontshop#amcny#animalmedicalcenter#miraclecat
🎼”This little light light of mine...I’m gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine...”🎼
And boy, did the little light inside this beautiful young hero shine oh so bright when her good buddy Spidey came to hang out with her for a bit during his visit to Sutter Children's Center in Sacramento, CA earlier today. It’s easy to see that whenever Spider-Man is around, there is lots of fun to be had, stories and smiles to share, and a friendship unlike any other. The kind of bright light that shines from inside the little heroes we meet is in comparison to none. Their light has the most special way of shining into our hearts and into all those who surround them; it’s such an amazing and beautiful thing. And what’s even more incredible and even more amazing, is the power of their light, which instantly renews our spirits and gives us life when we are feeling weak. It humbles us and brings us great joy to say we had another epically heroic and fun hospital visit today. Thank you heroes and thank you Sutter Children’s staff for an inspiring, warm, and bright visit and one webtastic start to the weekend!
3 MONTHS! 3 whole months of this little lady looking at me like we share this special secret that no one else knows. Ruthie June, we simply cannot get enough of you. All we ask is that you slow down on the growing thing, okay? 🐘✨🧡 #RuthieJune#ThisLittleLightOfMine
I'll be the first person to convince you to follow a path that resonates with you or that makes you happy. #truthbetold , I sometimes (well, a lot of the time) don't do that for myself...I don't tell myself enough times to go for what I want. It's something I'm working on day by day and some days are a whole lot easier than others, whilst other days I'd rather just not even entertain such grand thoughts of becoming truly more of who I am meant to be on my terms. Why? Because how dare I be so bold enough to even dream half the dreams I do and hold as much hope in my heart as I do. #workinprogress ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀A few weeks ago an opportunity presented itself and I didn't think twice about it before I took that chance. It's been a great journey with this team thus far and I look forward to the future. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Thrilled and proud that #mysunshine and I are part of the #IndaloNubianNaturals family. 💛🙏🏽 #aboutmy2018#thislittlelightofmine#myflowerchild#IndaloNubianNaturalsAmbassador#newadventures#naturalhair ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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