I found out my weight today for the first time in over 4 years. Or is it 5? I went to a new primary care physician and I told them what I always do when they want to measure that number: I have a history of eating disorders, I’m in recovery, you can weigh me but don’t let me know the number. For 4 (or 5?) years it worked. Not once did a physician violate that trust. Until today. I had the discussion with both the nurse and the primary care physician and they emphatically acknowledged my request. After a great appointment, the office manager handed me the after visit summary as I left and on the top of the page in bold text was the number. I looked away so fast it was like I was staring into the sun. I was surprised - maybe shocked? - and upset. I tore up the paper and dropped it in the trash on the way to my car without looking at it a second time. And then I started fuming. About the number, but also about the situation.
I texted my best friend who I knew would understand and then I called the physician’s office to tell them what happened. 4-5 years ago I would have broken in half. Today, I made a healthy lunch, reached out to friends for support, and am making time to play a sport that always reminds me of how capable my body is regardless of its size.
My body is no different than it was this morning when I loved it and I am worth no more or less now than I was in the moments before I saw that number. At a time of year when messages of restriction and weight loss are abundant, I share this to affirm to you that a number is just that, and to affirm to myself the same. ❤️ ••• 📸 @remrunner (“Overcomer” bag from @remrunner via @thefreylife)
#WokeCharlotte spitting some unsavory facts about the Art Market... The Divine Feminine is the creative force of the universe: we take external ingredients and create life within us. Women are the ultimate Artists!!! 🎨🏆💪🏼
The Wait Is Over
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I pull up with no hood attached, & a Backwood lit Pistons pushing heavy underneath the full moon Drippin paint off of a spoon, into the crack and grooves inside her mind Then I'm off, I pull up, then pull off I'm pushin pedals in the dark I'm ridin fast real far, yeah I don't know, where to even go but I'm still goin there Gas on E but that don't matter 🌐
Aura of the city, everything that I came for In a carry-on, I carry on like a wave board Handing work to whoever like if my aim's gone Fly murder forever like "get your name Lord" Devil wears Prada, Hitler wears Hermes I be in Celine with your queen going burlesque Either that or Supreme, I'm supremely the deity Crowned off the point how I weave where the needle be And it's leaving legendary if it come to me Rep means everything, mine means luxury And we Tryna turn bread like Harpo Talking Marlo with a Partlow arms fold
Social Expression; the tone in which you talk to someone or your facial expression when you communicate with someone.
I'm a junior in college wrapping up this semester about to be a senior and From the frustration of my peers & fellow class mates it's evident this system was design to fail you & take all of your money rewarding you with a $70,000+ Piece of paper & debt. The education, corrections, political & agricultural systems are corrupt. Yet no one wants to mobilize cause we're separated by religion, nationality, sports team, music preference anything that they can create as a distraction to keep you stupid & unaware of the societal issues . I drew some shit that everyone could relate to anime, suicidal tendencies, witnessing false propaganda and corruption by law enforcement & military officials
School taught me 4 things:
1: White People are crazy & the center for all the fucked Up shit *shut the fuck up before you comment your hate we all know you're in the wrong I love most of y'all but the other half suck.
2: how to properly cheat
3: how to get drugs on the internet
4: know your worth
Sasuke: No other anime character has captivated me like Sasuke since a jit until shippuden ended it was crazy watching a sad boy grow up in a story & relating so much to a manga character it's been fun messing with every medium getting back to the basics is always fun especially burning shit 🖌🖍✒️🖋📝🔥
My life consist of making art, meeting rappers, & selling drugs what a life right shout out one of my personal favorites @goodmusicgroupofficial 's own @1cyhitheprynce for showing love to my art and pulling up 🔥🔥🙏🏽 Young prince with the soul of Napoleon I see art like I know the custodian
Ever want something so bad for a long time ? That's how it was with out these. Thank you to @yung_bummer for letting me get these off his hands first time wearing love this damn sneaker. "On DoomsDay..." 📸: @milolee11
Burn something me and my friends fried Spicy chicken sandwich, some burgers and French fries And my cherry slushie, that's red as my friends eyes So god damn high I fell asleep in my friends ride, shit I'm fucked up, but these the days I live for For every J I smoke I fuck a bitch I'm a nympho I wouldn't trade this for a million bucks My best friends, my blunts, and my chucks, what's up?
This my man's @dylantimesfive I wouldn't be here without a lot of people pushing and guiding me I ain't changed I just cut a lot of you off recently I dropped the bullshit and got to what I know am good @ now it's my time.
Listening to "Sky is the Limit" on my Walkman Thinking if Biggie can make it through it, man then I can Dope-boy swag I always wanted that But my persona was always more of that Arthur Ashe But no love for the son of a commuter Who was a radio head and okay at them computers At the post office It's funny how you smoke niggas then you start coffins All my people need throat lozenge My fear is dead Ambition drove the hearse
They only see you how they wanna see you Til you make them see you in some other way I'm trippin' off the other day Cause God knows what these white kids say and do Dude you're not not racist cause The Wire's in your Netflix queue Subtle racism It's hard to pin it cause you'd only understand If you were me for just a minute
Who would have thought out of all the fucking people we knew in high school that in the end my best group of friends would be these fucks @ianmarone , @ceezhippy & @joshdavisx was in the car sleeping but it's good to be home 🙏🏽😎 successful road trip and this summer was 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
All we really have is memories shout out everyone who killed Queens City Festival @corykendrix @surellz @iampovi @catchlungs1 @dylantimesfive @doobie_newton @doobienewton @trevrichhd @imnotmars @yasimuse & etc Y'all killed it
I made this because I believe art and imagery can explain more then words can : grind up late nights grinding through my tissue
This world that we live in is gentle yet sad, fun yet sorrowful, strong yet ephemeral... ...but as long as you're alive, something good is bound to happen. I'm sure of it.
"True to herself", "True to myself". We all have our own personal image that's dictated by others, one that's always off the mark. We wish to remain true to ourselves, but who gets to decide who we are as people? When our image never goes hand-in-hand with reality, where can we find something genuine? Where can we find our true self
Song : @fnglfe ; Fountain Of Youth
#Kotd : De La Soul DA.I.S.Y. Age Sbs
Told her we speak in native tongues I don't need any girl nor do I need a hoe
As long as my de la soul stay gold
Girls come a dime a dozen they come and go like the death of a flower pedal My destiny of love is brought to an apex
Sex is a mere molecule
In this world of love that I have for you
It's true 🌼🌷🌻🌹💐