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Ahhh ma belle Constance, je t’aime trop trop TROP et je ne veux pas séparer encore ‼️‼️
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This girl pulled off an epic surprise on me, after not seeing for her 11 years. I was so confused and in actual tears. 😭🤭🤗That was so much fun and it was like we were never apart. Shocking? Not at all.
Thank you for making it happen. I LOVE YOU.
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#girlfriendsforlyfe #lexiandlily #gilkeylife #welcometogoodburgerhomeofthegoodburgercanitakeyourorder #thatwaslong #hashtag #hashtag
Ahhh ma belle Constance, je t’aime trop trop TROP et je ne veux pas séparer encore ‼️‼️ • This girl pulled off an epic surprise on me, after not seeing for her 11 years. I was so confused and in actual tears. 😭🤭🤗That was so much fun and it was like we were never apart. Shocking? Not at all. Thank you for making it happen. I LOVE YOU. • #girlfriendsforlyfe  #lexiandlily  #gilkeylife  #welcometogoodburgerhomeofthegoodburgercanitakeyourorder  #thatwaslong  #hashtag  #hashtag 
Well didn’t make it on the trail today, but still got it done. ✅ ✅ ⤵️
Long Slow Distance (LSD) is meant to be long and slow (shocking). However, many people run too fast for this type of training. So if your sucking wind (excessive mouth breathing) 4 miles into 10 mile+ run, ease back. #triathlon #aerobic #run #50k #trailrunning #running #triathlontraining #thatwaslong #fitness #paceandmaintain #exercise
Cleanse DAY 1:
So far so good. Not feeling hungry or deprived. But I feel like day 1 is always easy when it’s filled with excitement. 😋
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I was going to opt out of working out for the three days and do some stretching and yoga, I thought I’d get too hungry if I worked out. But, what can I say? I’m an addict now.. I needed to get moving.. and so I did just that!
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Also, had to take a shot of my pre even though it isn’t “technically” approved on my cleanse. But that’s the ONLY thing I WON’T live without & it won’t tank my results in the cleanse.. it’s just a little powdered motivation to hammer out my workouts.💛💪🏾
#cleanseday1 #needtomove #workout #stayingstrong #feelinggood #alsowhyarentyoudoingthisprogramwithme #thatwaslong #butseriously #athomegym #busylife #worklife #athomegym
Cleanse DAY 1: So far so good. Not feeling hungry or deprived. But I feel like day 1 is always easy when it’s filled with excitement. 😋 . I was going to opt out of working out for the three days and do some stretching and yoga, I thought I’d get too hungry if I worked out. But, what can I say? I’m an addict now.. I needed to get moving.. and so I did just that! 😝 . Also, had to take a shot of my pre even though it isn’t “technically” approved on my cleanse. But that’s the ONLY thing I WON’T live without & it won’t tank my results in the cleanse.. it’s just a little powdered motivation to hammer out my workouts.💛💪🏾 #cleanseday1  #needtomove  #workout  #stayingstrong  #feelinggood  #alsowhyarentyoudoingthisprogramwithme  #thatwaslong  #butseriously  #athomegym  #busylife  #worklife  #athomegym 
And that’s a wrap! Last week, I finished putting on a media event, inviting dignitaries, local digital influencers and of course, the press to kick off another fundraiser. • Last year, I attended this exact event as a guest, specifically as the nonprofit’s digital marketing consultant/strategist. • Time is always a gift and with the right support and determination, anything’s possible. Inside and by myself I am celebrating a wonderful year of growth within my career and I couldn’t be more proud of myself. • Lesson learned: Always be your own number one fan, even when sometimes you’re the hardest on yourself. AND always have the right support around you - friends who keep you accountable and motivated. We all need help and affirmation sometimes, even if we don’t want to admit it.
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Thanks for reading 🤗🤗🤗 #thatwaslong #tootingmyownhorn
And that’s a wrap! Last week, I finished putting on a media event, inviting dignitaries, local digital influencers and of course, the press to kick off another fundraiser. • Last year, I attended this exact event as a guest, specifically as the nonprofit’s digital marketing consultant/strategist. • Time is always a gift and with the right support and determination, anything’s possible. Inside and by myself I am celebrating a wonderful year of growth within my career and I couldn’t be more proud of myself. • Lesson learned: Always be your own number one fan, even when sometimes you’re the hardest on yourself. AND always have the right support around you - friends who keep you accountable and motivated. We all need help and affirmation sometimes, even if we don’t want to admit it. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Thanks for reading 🤗🤗🤗 #thatwaslong  #tootingmyownhorn 
Background: I credit University of Good to @terrycrews. On his YouTube channel he talks about relationship stuff, keys to being disciplined, and workout advice. The most powerful thing, however, was his video on taking action.  In a nutshell, he said that if you have a dream, pursuing it does not have to be some massive singular effort.  You just need to take one little step towards what you want to do. .
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I knew I wanted to help people like me who were struggling with discipline and a lack of self worth, so I took his advice and just started recording things on Snapchat like I was DJ Khaled. I had a lot of friends make fun of me for it (justifiably) but it lead to me coming up with the idea and name for my podcast. .
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Once I had the name, I took one small step again and went and bought a mic stand. Then I bought the mic. Then a computer to record and mix the podcasts.  I took tiny steps just like that, and continue to do so. I have seen the value in taking action manifest itself not only in the creation of this podcast, but in making new friends, and getting into the law school of my dreams. .
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As such, TAKE ACTION is the first core principle of the University of Good, and I hope that you internalize it and use it to make that first step towards whatever goal you have.
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#thatwaslong #motivation #discipline #takeaction #keepgoing #positivity #happiness #focus #effort #hardwork #riseandgrind #mentalhealth #wellness #fitness #dieting #universityofgood #terrycrews
Background: I credit University of Good to @terrycrews. On his YouTube channel he talks about relationship stuff, keys to being disciplined, and workout advice. The most powerful thing, however, was his video on taking action. In a nutshell, he said that if you have a dream, pursuing it does not have to be some massive singular effort. You just need to take one little step towards what you want to do. . . I knew I wanted to help people like me who were struggling with discipline and a lack of self worth, so I took his advice and just started recording things on Snapchat like I was DJ Khaled. I had a lot of friends make fun of me for it (justifiably) but it lead to me coming up with the idea and name for my podcast. . . Once I had the name, I took one small step again and went and bought a mic stand. Then I bought the mic. Then a computer to record and mix the podcasts. I took tiny steps just like that, and continue to do so. I have seen the value in taking action manifest itself not only in the creation of this podcast, but in making new friends, and getting into the law school of my dreams. . . As such, TAKE ACTION is the first core principle of the University of Good, and I hope that you internalize it and use it to make that first step towards whatever goal you have. . . #thatwaslong  #motivation  #discipline  #takeaction  #keepgoing  #positivity  #happiness  #focus  #effort  #hardwork  #riseandgrind  #mentalhealth  #wellness  #fitness  #dieting  #universityofgood  #terrycrews 
Leave the bike in Bonneval-sur-Arc and crutch up the last 13km, it's a well known tradition mate. Highest paved mountain pass in the Alps and still sweating proverbial buckets🤔 I'm done. Off to Milan tomorrow to get pissed👍🏽 #crutchdrop #needswork #preseason #fitness #imnotnormal #thatwaslong #thatwashard #thatswhatshesaid #crutchparty #snowparty #cloudparty #tookawhile #coldeliseran #alps #lonewolf #frexit #ohhelloitaliayouspicygoose
Knock knock - who’s there? 😂⚔️
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. I was born with knock knees and while I was teased in school by kids who called me x-legs (kids are cruel, but that’s for another post 😉)I never saw my different knees as a deformity; in fact I am proud of them because my dad has those same knees... 😍
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. I haven’t thought about my knees until I recently received a request from someone on Instagram to post about how to help with knock knees... i’m no expert and not a doc or physio (and if you’re in pain please go see someone), but as the proud owner of those knees for 42 years I have my opinion🤔
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. I have found that stretching/reducing tension in the groins (adductors), internal rotators (especially the TFL which for me is rather stiff) and hamstrings, as well as strengthening those same myofascial tissues (plus gluteus medius, a key stabilizer of the hips) has helped tremendously, as has taking care of my lower legs and feet (so yeah pretty much the whole lower body, and on a regular basis)🧐💡
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. Will I ever be able to put my feet together before my knees touch? 😂nope (and please don’t ask me🧘‍♀️). Am I in pain? Nope (but I do need to care for myself to stay that way and can feel the difference when I don’t). Can I go about my daily life like cycling, going up and down the stairs, getting out of the car, etc... yep 🚴🏻‍♀️... And you haven’t even seen my wicked Elvis impression 😂🕺
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. Oh too much to say for an insta post and as I get to the end of this I realize I should really write a blog with more information and some research... Coming 🔜 on @themindfulbody.ae 🖋
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. #phew #thatwaslong #yogadubai #cycling #yogaforlife #breathe #themindfulbody #massage #therapeutic #knockknock #kneehealth #blogpostcomingsoon
Knock knock - who’s there? 😂⚔️ . . . I was born with knock knees and while I was teased in school by kids who called me x-legs (kids are cruel, but that’s for another post 😉)I never saw my different knees as a deformity; in fact I am proud of them because my dad has those same knees... 😍 . . . I haven’t thought about my knees until I recently received a request from someone on Instagram to post about how to help with knock knees... i’m no expert and not a doc or physio (and if you’re in pain please go see someone), but as the proud owner of those knees for 42 years I have my opinion🤔 . . . I have found that stretching/reducing tension in the groins (adductors), internal rotators (especially the TFL which for me is rather stiff) and hamstrings, as well as strengthening those same myofascial tissues (plus gluteus medius, a key stabilizer of the hips) has helped tremendously, as has taking care of my lower legs and feet (so yeah pretty much the whole lower body, and on a regular basis)🧐💡 . . . Will I ever be able to put my feet together before my knees touch? 😂nope (and please don’t ask me🧘‍♀️). Am I in pain? Nope (but I do need to care for myself to stay that way and can feel the difference when I don’t). Can I go about my daily life like cycling, going up and down the stairs, getting out of the car, etc... yep 🚴🏻‍♀️... And you haven’t even seen my wicked Elvis impression 😂🕺 . . . Oh too much to say for an insta post and as I get to the end of this I realize I should really write a blog with more information and some research... Coming 🔜 on @themindfulbody.ae 🖋 . . . #phew  #thatwaslong  #yogadubai  #cycling  #yogaforlife  #breathe  #themindfulbody  #massage  #therapeutic  #knockknock  #kneehealth  #blogpostcomingsoon 
WELL DAMN,,,, this is what you call beauty ma dudes.
For real Jin deserves to be famous and he deserves all the attention. When I see anti's talking down to him I honestly get so Freaking Mad. I saw this tweet from an anti saying that he: 1. Can't sing 2. Wasn't pretty 3. His personality is "ungrateful" towards others.Like how can you say that???
1. Listen to Awake, r u deaf?
2. He is the visual of BTS, even idols say that he's pretty. So also people who aren't "fans". Just take sum time to look at his photo's instead of hating, honey.
3. His dad is a CEO, his mom was Miss Korea. He has a restaurant w/ his brother. He got scouted by SM just because of his looks and he never, NEVER, bragged about it. About any of it. He is so freaking humble, we didn't even know all of this. We only found out about some of that a couple weeks ago. HOW is that not humble, you tell me.
THANK U FOR LISTENING NOW APPRECIATE HIM
swipe for the mood btw🙂🕶️ 💫Tags💫
#itsbeauty #dwi #thatwaslong #humbleking #kimseokjin #seokjin #bts #btsjin #tedtalklol #bangtansonyeondan
WELL DAMN,,,, this is what you call beauty ma dudes. For real Jin deserves to be famous and he deserves all the attention. When I see anti's talking down to him I honestly get so Freaking Mad. I saw this tweet from an anti saying that he: 1. Can't sing 2. Wasn't pretty 3. His personality is "ungrateful" towards others.Like how can you say that??? 1. Listen to Awake, r u deaf? 2. He is the visual of BTS, even idols say that he's pretty. So also people who aren't "fans". Just take sum time to look at his photo's instead of hating, honey. 3. His dad is a CEO, his mom was Miss Korea. He has a restaurant w/ his brother. He got scouted by SM just because of his looks and he never, NEVER, bragged about it. About any of it. He is so freaking humble, we didn't even know all of this. We only found out about some of that a couple weeks ago. HOW is that not humble, you tell me. THANK U FOR LISTENING NOW APPRECIATE HIM swipe for the mood btw🙂🕶️ 💫Tags💫 #itsbeauty  #dwi  #thatwaslong  #humbleking  #kimseokjin  #seokjin  #bts  #btsjin  #tedtalklol  #bangtansonyeondan 
“Everyone is fighting a hard battle you know nothing about, please be kind”. {{long, very private/personal post warning}} You wouldn’t know I was suffering in this picture, but I was. The truth is, l’m not as healthy as I wish to be. I’ve hidden a lot and suffered alone for many years. I’ve experienced extremely painful periods for as far back as I can remember. I’d miss school, work and social events because of it. I wouldn’t leave my bed for days because of it. I would avoid interacting at all because of it. It’s not easy to love yourself or others while you’re in pain. It has impacted my life physically, mentally and emotionally. .
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Doctor after doctor wrote off my concerns & masked the symptoms with BC hormones since my early teenage years. It wasn’t until the pain became unbearable that I literally begged a new doctor to do testing to find out what was truly wrong. Finally after a simple noninvasive ultrasound, I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cysts in 2014. They were observed for months with multiple ultrasounds until it continued to grow to the size of a grapefruit (healthy ovaries are almond sized) & was finally surgically removed. During the surgery, extensive scar tissue and adhesions were found and I was also definitively diagnosed with Endometriosis at that time, which explains all that pain for all those years. I’ve since learned, untreated Endo can actually cause cysts 😣. Both of these conditions are incurable, but can be treatable.
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4 years later and the cysts are back in action. I’ll likely have surgery within the next few weeks when I can find a good surgeon I feel safe with, and I’m honestly scared as hell to go through this again. I’m learning that sharing my experience & connecting with people is a much better way to cope than crawling into isolation. Millions of women around the world deal with these issues in varying degrees. Seek help and SPEAK UP. Don’t suffer alone like I have.. keep trying and trying until you find the help you need. 💛 
#thatwaslong #thanksforreading #endometriosis #speakendo #speakup #ovariancyst #pcos #infertility #female #selflove #selfcare #surgerysucks #havefaith #healing #woman #womenshealth #womenempowerment
“Everyone is fighting a hard battle you know nothing about, please be kind”. {{long, very private/personal post warning}} You wouldn’t know I was suffering in this picture, but I was. The truth is, l’m not as healthy as I wish to be. I’ve hidden a lot and suffered alone for many years. I’ve experienced extremely painful periods for as far back as I can remember. I’d miss school, work and social events because of it. I wouldn’t leave my bed for days because of it. I would avoid interacting at all because of it. It’s not easy to love yourself or others while you’re in pain. It has impacted my life physically, mentally and emotionally. . . Doctor after doctor wrote off my concerns & masked the symptoms with BC hormones since my early teenage years. It wasn’t until the pain became unbearable that I literally begged a new doctor to do testing to find out what was truly wrong. Finally after a simple noninvasive ultrasound, I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cysts in 2014. They were observed for months with multiple ultrasounds until it continued to grow to the size of a grapefruit (healthy ovaries are almond sized) & was finally surgically removed. During the surgery, extensive scar tissue and adhesions were found and I was also definitively diagnosed with Endometriosis at that time, which explains all that pain for all those years. I’ve since learned, untreated Endo can actually cause cysts 😣. Both of these conditions are incurable, but can be treatable. . 4 years later and the cysts are back in action. I’ll likely have surgery within the next few weeks when I can find a good surgeon I feel safe with, and I’m honestly scared as hell to go through this again. I’m learning that sharing my experience & connecting with people is a much better way to cope than crawling into isolation. Millions of women around the world deal with these issues in varying degrees. Seek help and SPEAK UP. Don’t suffer alone like I have.. keep trying and trying until you find the help you need. 💛 #thatwaslong  #thanksforreading  #endometriosis  #speakendo  #speakup  #ovariancyst  #pcos  #infertility  #female  #selflove  #selfcare  #surgerysucks  #havefaith  #healing  #woman  #womenshealth  #womenempowerment 
I learned this, at least, by my experiment: that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.

This experience was more than an experiment, I learned and laughed and grew. It was hard and good and tough and worth smiling about even if you think about how many times I gave you a serious look or just didn't give you any response. You guys are funny and sweet and I'm glad I met you and learned with and from you. We were in a good place together and we did good things together; I don't just mean that Sde Eliyahu is a nice or beautiful kibbutz or that learning Hebrew or working the land of Israel is a good thing. We were in a safe environment for growth and learning where there was support and care and we built friendships and that is a good thing. Thank you.
Kind regards, 
Keep in touch 
Gavriel.

If you read all of that and you weren't on the program then at least now you know a little about it and the people I met there. Only a few small things but they are important ones.

#thatwaslong #lotsofwords #truth #quotes #meaning #itsashotashellhere #surfaceofthesun #sweatingevennow #good #nice #beautiful #supoort #care #kibbutzlife #israel #friends #experience #experiment #learn #grow #advice #life
I learned this, at least, by my experiment: that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. This experience was more than an experiment, I learned and laughed and grew. It was hard and good and tough and worth smiling about even if you think about how many times I gave you a serious look or just didn't give you any response. You guys are funny and sweet and I'm glad I met you and learned with and from you. We were in a good place together and we did good things together; I don't just mean that Sde Eliyahu is a nice or beautiful kibbutz or that learning Hebrew or working the land of Israel is a good thing. We were in a safe environment for growth and learning where there was support and care and we built friendships and that is a good thing. Thank you. Kind regards, Keep in touch Gavriel. If you read all of that and you weren't on the program then at least now you know a little about it and the people I met there. Only a few small things but they are important ones. #thatwaslong  #lotsofwords  #truth  #quotes  #meaning  #itsashotashellhere  #surfaceofthesun  #sweatingevennow  #good  #nice  #beautiful  #supoort  #care  #kibbutzlife  #israel  #friends  #experience  #experiment  #learn  #grow  #advice  #life 
Got on top of the middle sister like it's no ones business! 
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#thethreesisters
Drumroll pleeeease..... so there’s  this idea sparked by my cousin @marysecrettks (follow her) to start vlogging my random mom stuff. I loved the idea since I’m on here anyway showing you all my glamorous and amusing life as a stay at home mom💩🤦🏽‍♀️😂. .
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Buuuuut, I dont want to necessarily “vlog” because I’m not tryna edit anything, I most likely won’t brush my hair for the videos (hence the photo choice for this post), and I tend to get the most feedback when my stories are random thoughts 😳😂
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Sooooo, I’ve decided that every Monday I’ll share something on my page (instead of only on my story like in the past) w/the hashtag #MondayMomLife *But, 1st of all I need to see if I’d even have an audience (💀😂) TAG your mom friends so they can follow me & lookout for my 1st #MondayMomLife next week and COMMENT below w/the color shirt you’re wearing & some topic ideas you’d like me to share or expand on (i.e giving a Father’s Day shoutout for more than 1 baby daddy🤷🏽‍♀️😂 or the skin routine I have for my son’s eczema, etc). PS, if you’re wearing the same color shirt as me right now, you’ll get a prize before my #MondayMomLife next week!🦄 K bye!
#ThatWasLong #AlsoBrave #SomeonePlsComment lmaooo 
#Mom #MomLife #MomHack 
#LifeHack #MondayMomLife
#Vlog #Vlogging #Vlogger #MomVlog #DanceMom #Kids
Drumroll pleeeease..... so there’s this idea sparked by my cousin @marysecrettks (follow her) to start vlogging my random mom stuff. I loved the idea since I’m on here anyway showing you all my glamorous and amusing life as a stay at home mom💩🤦🏽‍♀️😂. . . Buuuuut, I dont want to necessarily “vlog” because I’m not tryna edit anything, I most likely won’t brush my hair for the videos (hence the photo choice for this post), and I tend to get the most feedback when my stories are random thoughts 😳😂 . . Sooooo, I’ve decided that every Monday I’ll share something on my page (instead of only on my story like in the past) w/the hashtag #MondayMomLife  *But, 1st of all I need to see if I’d even have an audience (💀😂) TAG your mom friends so they can follow me & lookout for my 1st #MondayMomLife  next week and COMMENT below w/the color shirt you’re wearing & some topic ideas you’d like me to share or expand on (i.e giving a Father’s Day shoutout for more than 1 baby daddy🤷🏽‍♀️😂 or the skin routine I have for my son’s eczema, etc). PS, if you’re wearing the same color shirt as me right now, you’ll get a prize before my #MondayMomLife  next week!🦄 K bye! #ThatWasLong  #AlsoBrave  #SomeonePlsComment  lmaooo #Mom  #MomLife  #MomHack  #LifeHack  #MondayMomLife  #Vlog  #Vlogging  #Vlogger  #MomVlog  #DanceMom  #Kids 
Physical element: Earth. Aka: avocado. Because really, it now looks like the innards of an avocado. That's art for you. In your head it's one thing, then you get it out of that marble filled mess only to have it translate into something else. It's cool. I like avocados. Elements Air and Water will have to wait till my ribs migrate themselves back into their rightful locations, my hands stop cramping and my right eye lid stops twitching. Beading is for young people. Apparently at my age there are ramifications.
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#earth #greans #ombre #fringe #iranoutofbeadsagain #imnotreallythatold #butyeahmyribsarewhack #sometimestheymovesomuchifeellikethereisanelephantsittingonmychest #thatwaslong #handmade #handwoven #creamcityrocks #eatyourveggies
Physical element: Earth. Aka: avocado. Because really, it now looks like the innards of an avocado. That's art for you. In your head it's one thing, then you get it out of that marble filled mess only to have it translate into something else. It's cool. I like avocados. Elements Air and Water will have to wait till my ribs migrate themselves back into their rightful locations, my hands stop cramping and my right eye lid stops twitching. Beading is for young people. Apparently at my age there are ramifications. . .. #earth  #greans  #ombre  #fringe  #iranoutofbeadsagain  #imnotreallythatold  #butyeahmyribsarewhack  #sometimestheymovesomuchifeellikethereisanelephantsittingonmychest  #thatwaslong  #handmade  #handwoven  #creamcityrocks  #eatyourveggies 
It was so peculiar that I wondered on this post when I did because I have been thinking about this a lot lately. I remember who I was when I was a little girl, and how at the core of my identity I still am just the same. I have always loved makeup, music, spooky things, horror movies, fashion, and writing since I was a little girl. Nothing about me has changed. The only things that changed me were the things I've been through from other people who were hurting. Sometimes it makes me quite sad to remember the peer pressures I faced in middle school because I was so innocent and I let people hurt me because I didnt know any better. I have been going back to my core. I am still that little girl. Before all of the trauma, before all of the bad friends, abusive boyfriends and bad decisions...I was just that girl. I was happy and joyous. I wanted to spread it to everybody. I was caring and free. When people were mean to me or did bad things to me it hurt more than it should have because I didnt understand how cruel people are, I was used to being kind and having a kind family. 
I love myself. I wont ever let the little girl inside of me be disappointed again. I want 8 year old me, 12 year old me, 16 year old me to be proud of who I am. Because I am still that little girl and I always will be. I let others hatred and chaos change me. But I am back to my roots and I am settled in. -Britney
#thatwaslong #wowifureadthat #childhood #trauma #change #ptsd #youareimportant #kind #positiveaffirmations #positivevibes #spreadlove #spreadkindness #showlove #goodvibes #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #hypersensitive #selfcare #selflove #selfhelp
It was so peculiar that I wondered on this post when I did because I have been thinking about this a lot lately. I remember who I was when I was a little girl, and how at the core of my identity I still am just the same. I have always loved makeup, music, spooky things, horror movies, fashion, and writing since I was a little girl. Nothing about me has changed. The only things that changed me were the things I've been through from other people who were hurting. Sometimes it makes me quite sad to remember the peer pressures I faced in middle school because I was so innocent and I let people hurt me because I didnt know any better. I have been going back to my core. I am still that little girl. Before all of the trauma, before all of the bad friends, abusive boyfriends and bad decisions...I was just that girl. I was happy and joyous. I wanted to spread it to everybody. I was caring and free. When people were mean to me or did bad things to me it hurt more than it should have because I didnt understand how cruel people are, I was used to being kind and having a kind family. I love myself. I wont ever let the little girl inside of me be disappointed again. I want 8 year old me, 12 year old me, 16 year old me to be proud of who I am. Because I am still that little girl and I always will be. I let others hatred and chaos change me. But I am back to my roots and I am settled in. -Britney #thatwaslong  #wowifureadthat  #childhood  #trauma  #change  #ptsd  #youareimportant  #kind  #positiveaffirmations  #positivevibes  #spreadlove  #spreadkindness  #showlove  #goodvibes  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #depression  #hypersensitive  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfhelp 
Officially made it to Barcelona ! #travel #thatwaslong
When you've been too busy to shave and missed your barber appointment. I tried the whole schedule an appointment and failed. Luckily, I'm his self proclaimed best customer and he's getting me in first thing. Have a fantastic weekend everyone🍋

#thatwaslong #selfiesunday #lovinglife #businesslife #710society #herdnation
Packing and discarding. Holding onto, letting go. The rhythm of leaving a place. Seeing the physical contents empty out and the psychology of the space become crystal clear and bright. I just found this photograph of Betty. She gave it to me years ago. Through a story far too long to share here, we became close friends and traveled through Vietnam together. She was a force, unlike anyone I had ever known. Passionate, smart and caring and fiercely determined. And not always easy. She challenged me and everyone around her in ways that would take me years to understand. Betty helped orchestrate one of the greatest humanitarian events of the Vietnam war. For years she used her holidays and vacation time from her secretarial job in New York City to volunteer her time helping Dr. Tom Dooley care for orphaned children in Saigon. She told me stories that kept me awake at night, of unspeakable tragedies and the suffering that she witnessed in words that my heart has never forgotten. She taught me how to help, how to see. She educated me about the war. She loved both the Vietnamese and Americans, and especially loved the children, the tiniest ones who were orphaned and maimed by the atrocities of war. Just before the fall of Saigon, she helped secure two planes to evacuate over 200 orphans from the An Lac orphanage in Saigon. The first plane crashed over a rice paddy not long over takeoff. The second plane took the children to Columbus, Georgia, where they were eventually all adopted. She often wondered aloud if she should have done it differently. She feared a blood bath, she told me, and did what she felt she had to do to save the children. Her work continued and I was fortunate enough to accompany her many times back to An Lac, the leper villages in Kon Tum, to Pleiku, and to help families affected by Agent Orange. She had an enormous impact on my life and helped expand my heart.  She died in 2015. When I looked at the photo today, I could hear her voice in my mind, so clearly. I wished at that I could talk to her again. To make sure I thanked her for letting me in on part of the journey. The children in Vietnam called her “The angel of Saigon.”
#thankyou🙏🏻
Packing and discarding. Holding onto, letting go. The rhythm of leaving a place. Seeing the physical contents empty out and the psychology of the space become crystal clear and bright. I just found this photograph of Betty. She gave it to me years ago. Through a story far too long to share here, we became close friends and traveled through Vietnam together. She was a force, unlike anyone I had ever known. Passionate, smart and caring and fiercely determined. And not always easy. She challenged me and everyone around her in ways that would take me years to understand. Betty helped orchestrate one of the greatest humanitarian events of the Vietnam war. For years she used her holidays and vacation time from her secretarial job in New York City to volunteer her time helping Dr. Tom Dooley care for orphaned children in Saigon. She told me stories that kept me awake at night, of unspeakable tragedies and the suffering that she witnessed in words that my heart has never forgotten. She taught me how to help, how to see. She educated me about the war. She loved both the Vietnamese and Americans, and especially loved the children, the tiniest ones who were orphaned and maimed by the atrocities of war. Just before the fall of Saigon, she helped secure two planes to evacuate over 200 orphans from the An Lac orphanage in Saigon. The first plane crashed over a rice paddy not long over takeoff. The second plane took the children to Columbus, Georgia, where they were eventually all adopted. She often wondered aloud if she should have done it differently. She feared a blood bath, she told me, and did what she felt she had to do to save the children. Her work continued and I was fortunate enough to accompany her many times back to An Lac, the leper villages in Kon Tum, to Pleiku, and to help families affected by Agent Orange. She had an enormous impact on my life and helped expand my heart. She died in 2015. When I looked at the photo today, I could hear her voice in my mind, so clearly. I wished at that I could talk to her again. To make sure I thanked her for letting me in on part of the journey. The children in Vietnam called her “The angel of Saigon.” #thankyou 🙏🏻
H A P P Y!  B I R T H D A Y!  to my two best friends in the world. Sophomore and Senior—oh god. I love and miss you two to the MOON and I wish I were home celebrating right now.
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Honor Charlotte, my FGF, you’ve been with my cat these past few weeks and I am SO THANKFUL, what would I do without you? Through my, “Oops I did it again”-s and my chicken cakes, I don’t have a clue how you’ve dealt with me for so long. Smile and nod right?? I love you and your stars, your obsession with Elon Musk, and your drive to accomplish anything. I can’t wait to get home to celebrate with you and Brie!!
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Cam, my mom (or my cameroon macaroon), I’m an hour late because you’re having the time of your life in NYC (and you met @christyaltomare YAY)! Thanks for exposing me to so many different types of music—who knew Fidlar could be such a bop? I love you and your vintage shopping, your mom-abilities, and your carefree smile. Have lots fun at Fordham (don’t die), and be home soon!!
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#thatwaslong #sorrynotsorry #behappy #happybirthday
H A P P Y! B I R T H D A Y! to my two best friends in the world. Sophomore and Senior—oh god. I love and miss you two to the MOON and I wish I were home celebrating right now. ••• Honor Charlotte, my FGF, you’ve been with my cat these past few weeks and I am SO THANKFUL, what would I do without you? Through my, “Oops I did it again”-s and my chicken cakes, I don’t have a clue how you’ve dealt with me for so long. Smile and nod right?? I love you and your stars, your obsession with Elon Musk, and your drive to accomplish anything. I can’t wait to get home to celebrate with you and Brie!! ••• Cam, my mom (or my cameroon macaroon), I’m an hour late because you’re having the time of your life in NYC (and you met @christyaltomare YAY)! Thanks for exposing me to so many different types of music—who knew Fidlar could be such a bop? I love you and your vintage shopping, your mom-abilities, and your carefree smile. Have lots fun at Fordham (don’t die), and be home soon!! ••• #thatwaslong  #sorrynotsorry  #behappy  #happybirthday 
Get you a dad who takes candid photos of you on your car •
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So normally I’m not a huge fan of sharing or “showing-off” online, or making my captions longer than some cheesy quote, however, I think this time around I’ll make an exception. 
For the past 7 weeks, I’ve been spending my summer restoring and rebuilding a 2004 Jeep Wrangler, and I thought I would share some of the experience. 
We bought the car after it had been in an accident, destroying the fenders, grill and hood, bending the frame, and knocking the engine off its mounts. The second photo is what the jeep looked like before I started. 
I started by completely stripping out the seats and interior to replace the carpet with a painted truck bed liner.
Then I youtubed my way into learning how the dashboard went together, since when we got the car every piece of the interior was in a pile in the passenger seat. 
Next, my Dad engineered a way into straightening the frame using a bottle jack (thanks dad) and we were able to add the front bumper. 
Over the next few weeks, we did a combination of big projects like buying a green hood and fenders from the junkyard, completely sanding them down, and having it painted, and countless little projects that just kept popping up like adjusting the third brake light so the spare would fit and replacing the track bar. 
My favorite parts came next, which were adding new suspension, tires, lift kit and body armor. 
And after all this hard work, today I can happily say that my jeep passed smog tests, and that i can (finally) (almost) successfully drive a stick shift. 
This has been such an awesome experience for me, and I am so grateful that I’ve had this opportunity. I’m so excited for the knowledge that I’ve gained and I’m very proud of myself for the work that I’ve done (and i can now say that I’m familiar with all the employees at the junkyard and auto parts stores in my areas) 
I also wanted to include a huge thank you to my dad for helping me and teaching me through out this process (and let’s be honest, supplying the funds) and to my mom for being okay with this and thinking it’s cool (because come on, we bought a car on craigslist)
#thatwaslong #jeep
Get you a dad who takes candid photos of you on your car • • So normally I’m not a huge fan of sharing or “showing-off” online, or making my captions longer than some cheesy quote, however, I think this time around I’ll make an exception. For the past 7 weeks, I’ve been spending my summer restoring and rebuilding a 2004 Jeep Wrangler, and I thought I would share some of the experience. We bought the car after it had been in an accident, destroying the fenders, grill and hood, bending the frame, and knocking the engine off its mounts. The second photo is what the jeep looked like before I started. I started by completely stripping out the seats and interior to replace the carpet with a painted truck bed liner. Then I youtubed my way into learning how the dashboard went together, since when we got the car every piece of the interior was in a pile in the passenger seat. Next, my Dad engineered a way into straightening the frame using a bottle jack (thanks dad) and we were able to add the front bumper. Over the next few weeks, we did a combination of big projects like buying a green hood and fenders from the junkyard, completely sanding them down, and having it painted, and countless little projects that just kept popping up like adjusting the third brake light so the spare would fit and replacing the track bar. My favorite parts came next, which were adding new suspension, tires, lift kit and body armor. And after all this hard work, today I can happily say that my jeep passed smog tests, and that i can (finally) (almost) successfully drive a stick shift. This has been such an awesome experience for me, and I am so grateful that I’ve had this opportunity. I’m so excited for the knowledge that I’ve gained and I’m very proud of myself for the work that I’ve done (and i can now say that I’m familiar with all the employees at the junkyard and auto parts stores in my areas) I also wanted to include a huge thank you to my dad for helping me and teaching me through out this process (and let’s be honest, supplying the funds) and to my mom for being okay with this and thinking it’s cool (because come on, we bought a car on craigslist) #thatwaslong  #jeep 
Now I’ve got to put it out there because it’s been cause for discussion the last few days and if I don’t I will scream. (It also explains quiet patches) 
So recently, more than normal, I’ve been struggling with my inner voice. With seeing social media, people on tv and even in the street. 
Living with an eating disorder is hard. Even when you’re not harming you’re always hurting. I know I’ve put on weight and I haven’t punished myself for over a year and I’m so proud of that. But it doesn’t mean I’m not hurting every day. 
Every post I see. Every photo I find. every ripple of skin or fat on my body I catch a glimpse of. 
It tears at me inside. It breaks a piece of my self worth and I hate that every day I bite back the urge to punish myself for enjoying food a little too much maybe. 
But should I? Why should I be doing this to myself? Why was that 14 year old girl made to feel that punishing herself for eating was the only way to go. Why, 15 years later do I still feel the same way about my body as I did then. 
I don’t ever want my girls to feel this way but the rate that social media and society is going I am in no doubt that they will as well have some depth of body shaming tainting their minds. 
Surely our sons and daughters deserve to grow up and feel the best about themselves. About their minds and bodies. That their paths are their paths and no one should make them feel like they’re worth any less for any decision they decide to do with their lives. 
After 15 years I’m now having to rebuild my teeth. It could be worse but it’s still not fun. 15 years later, I still don’t look in the mirror and feel happy with what I see. And 15 years later I still have to make that daily decision to keep my food down. 
I hate living this way. I can’t express that enough. 
So even those people that don’t look like they have an ed because of the way they currently look doesn’t mean they aren’t fighting a massively hard battle. Because, they probably are fighting the hardest one they’ve ever faced. 
I really wish we can burn every body shaming social media post or news article and start lifting people up. Start promoting healthy self worth, Self esteem and self confidence!
Now I’ve got to put it out there because it’s been cause for discussion the last few days and if I don’t I will scream. (It also explains quiet patches) So recently, more than normal, I’ve been struggling with my inner voice. With seeing social media, people on tv and even in the street. Living with an eating disorder is hard. Even when you’re not harming you’re always hurting. I know I’ve put on weight and I haven’t punished myself for over a year and I’m so proud of that. But it doesn’t mean I’m not hurting every day. Every post I see. Every photo I find. every ripple of skin or fat on my body I catch a glimpse of. It tears at me inside. It breaks a piece of my self worth and I hate that every day I bite back the urge to punish myself for enjoying food a little too much maybe. But should I? Why should I be doing this to myself? Why was that 14 year old girl made to feel that punishing herself for eating was the only way to go. Why, 15 years later do I still feel the same way about my body as I did then. I don’t ever want my girls to feel this way but the rate that social media and society is going I am in no doubt that they will as well have some depth of body shaming tainting their minds. Surely our sons and daughters deserve to grow up and feel the best about themselves. About their minds and bodies. That their paths are their paths and no one should make them feel like they’re worth any less for any decision they decide to do with their lives. After 15 years I’m now having to rebuild my teeth. It could be worse but it’s still not fun. 15 years later, I still don’t look in the mirror and feel happy with what I see. And 15 years later I still have to make that daily decision to keep my food down. I hate living this way. I can’t express that enough. So even those people that don’t look like they have an ed because of the way they currently look doesn’t mean they aren’t fighting a massively hard battle. Because, they probably are fighting the hardest one they’ve ever faced. I really wish we can burn every body shaming social media post or news article and start lifting people up. Start promoting healthy self worth, Self esteem and self confidence!
I love you so God damn much @shamwhich I can't wait to be your wife. 
#bridetobe #love #dashpointstatepark #briergohl #vintagering #maytwentyfithtwothousandnineteen #thatwaslong #foreverindever #iloveyou #wedding #misstomrs #beach
What’s better than a picture on the summit? A picture of you in front of the summit! #thatwaslong
What’s better than a picture on the summit? A picture of you in front of the summit! #thatwaslong 
Ghosting our way around the island yesterday on the Tokoloshe. Photo by @_jamestomlinson_ @fast40class @roundtheislandrace #smashtag #thatwaslong
Ghosting our way around the island yesterday on the Tokoloshe. Photo by @_jamestomlinson_ @fast40class @roundtheislandrace #smashtag  #thatwaslong 
✨Let’s hike around the lake - ok - how far is it ?- ummm about 2 miles.... Huh....um....... Oops I mean 5 miles kids - Did I say 5 miles? 😬 #hiking #liar #judgementfailure #thatwaslong #hikingwithkids #lake #beauty #optoutside #beon12 #lookatthat #funanyway #instagramaz #instagramaz_water
LoLo it's your birthday shuga and that's rich!! Because of everything behind what a natural eye can see, YOU are so very wealthy. Your heart is gold: your yearning for knowledge and wisdom is deep, your well that you pull from to love well those you love, and give to those in need is never ending, yet you seek to evolve more and more each day into the woman you were created to be. Thankful for your life. Thankful there are places you can find peace in the midst of what can be a doggy dog world. And I pray that this year & every bday ahead you'll do like your big sis (yes I'm older than you😜) and age gracefully. "Like the wine from the vine baaaby this fruit gets better with age". #vintage #dang #thatwaslong #shudajustsangasong #uknow #imawriteabook #luhu #birthdaygirl @tasiasword HAPPY BIRTHDAY from me and Noa!!
LoLo it's your birthday shuga and that's rich!! Because of everything behind what a natural eye can see, YOU are so very wealthy. Your heart is gold: your yearning for knowledge and wisdom is deep, your well that you pull from to love well those you love, and give to those in need is never ending, yet you seek to evolve more and more each day into the woman you were created to be. Thankful for your life. Thankful there are places you can find peace in the midst of what can be a doggy dog world. And I pray that this year & every bday ahead you'll do like your big sis (yes I'm older than you😜) and age gracefully. "Like the wine from the vine baaaby this fruit gets better with age". #vintage  #dang  #thatwaslong  #shudajustsangasong  #uknow  #imawriteabook  #luhu  #birthdaygirl  @tasiasword HAPPY BIRTHDAY from me and Noa!!
Toto, I've a feeling we're not in Kansas anymore 🐕 ✈ 🇬🇧 #electrician #onholiday #upsidedown #downsideup #fused #longhaulflight #madeit #thatwaslong #london #uk #nz
It’s funny how having one goal actually has multiple ingredients and then turns out to fulfil five times more goals than just the one that you thought you had.
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 Like, for example, the vain / fanciful one I had when I got started in March really sorting my food and heavy lifting out, which was “I guess I want abs.”
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I’ve cut my bodyfat by about 7% and gained muscle, and now on a good morning with the right lighting (😆) I’m beginning to see abs. Which is nuts. I NEVER thought I’d get there. I only had ‘em once before, which was after months of unhealthily restrictive eating. Whereas I got here by being KIND to myself. How the eff did that work?? .
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But yeah. As things stand now - my digestion and GI health could win prizes, whereas when I started out it was cringingly bad. My skin has cleared up from the blotchy red patchiness it was developing. My core stability has soared - I can do about ten different advanced yoga postures that weren’t remotely possible months back. My ENERGY is indecent. I’m more productive in work. I’m a better friend, I’m a better girlfriend, I’m more patient, more calm, more reflective. I take failures better. I have more patience. I’ve developed a really chronic salmon habit. (Does that count as good?) .
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My body image doesn’t occupy me every five seconds the way it did when I was eating and drinking badly. Like - yeah, abs - but my MIND. Like woah. It strikes me that before, I felt like I had no control over my body, the options were exhaustion and restriction or heaviness and anxiety. I have a sense of certainty and confidence in myself now that goes way beyond abdominal muscle. And that’s what is so vastly more valuable. I’ll shut up now. . #thatwaslong #smallbutmighty #vanfitfam #fightme
It’s funny how having one goal actually has multiple ingredients and then turns out to fulfil five times more goals than just the one that you thought you had. . . . Like, for example, the vain / fanciful one I had when I got started in March really sorting my food and heavy lifting out, which was “I guess I want abs.” . . . I’ve cut my bodyfat by about 7% and gained muscle, and now on a good morning with the right lighting (😆) I’m beginning to see abs. Which is nuts. I NEVER thought I’d get there. I only had ‘em once before, which was after months of unhealthily restrictive eating. Whereas I got here by being KIND to myself. How the eff did that work?? . . . But yeah. As things stand now - my digestion and GI health could win prizes, whereas when I started out it was cringingly bad. My skin has cleared up from the blotchy red patchiness it was developing. My core stability has soared - I can do about ten different advanced yoga postures that weren’t remotely possible months back. My ENERGY is indecent. I’m more productive in work. I’m a better friend, I’m a better girlfriend, I’m more patient, more calm, more reflective. I take failures better. I have more patience. I’ve developed a really chronic salmon habit. (Does that count as good?) . . . My body image doesn’t occupy me every five seconds the way it did when I was eating and drinking badly. Like - yeah, abs - but my MIND. Like woah. It strikes me that before, I felt like I had no control over my body, the options were exhaustion and restriction or heaviness and anxiety. I have a sense of certainty and confidence in myself now that goes way beyond abdominal muscle. And that’s what is so vastly more valuable. I’ll shut up now. . #thatwaslong  #smallbutmighty  #vanfitfam  #fightme 
FFEMALE FEATURE SATURDAY: @theforeverexpat .
A little bit bout myself! My name is R.C. Which stands for Rekya-Cordelia cause my mom wanted me to fail kindergarten. I was born in the states then, at 6 months old my mom took me back to west Africa (Abidjan, Côte d’Ivoire) where I lived until I was 8, and where I learned French, my first language (coucou les Français 👋🏿)at 8 I moved back to states, first to Maryland, then to West Virginia where I was ALWAYS the only black person... alwaaaayyyysssss.... my mom started an international company and was out of the country a lot so she relinquished her parental rights and 6 months out of the year I lived with a southern, white, Catholic Deacon’s family (so If you follow me and i post a pic of a white person and say “my sister” don’t be alarmed!) so after getting my BAs in WV (and moving to London for six months) I worked in Virginia. I later moved to Boston for my Masters in international business... and THEN with two bachelors and a masters I waited tables... I decided this wasn’t for me and gave myself two months to sublet my apartment  and put all my belongings in storage and buy a oneway ticket to Côte d’Ivoire where it all started ❤️ I’m currently in Lome, Togo visiting my mother and will be going back to Côte d’Ivoire, then Ghana, then South Africa and Egypt... so follow me for some more crazynesssss ❤️ T #femalefeature #thisgirlcan #fem2 #girlgang #lifteachotherup #wanderlostcampaigner #thatwaslong #mybad #blackblogger #blackandabroad #femmefatale #melanated #blackisbeautiful #africanqueen
FFEMALE FEATURE SATURDAY: @theforeverexpat . A little bit bout myself! My name is R.C. Which stands for Rekya-Cordelia cause my mom wanted me to fail kindergarten. I was born in the states then, at 6 months old my mom took me back to west Africa (Abidjan, Côte d’Ivoire) where I lived until I was 8, and where I learned French, my first language (coucou les Français 👋🏿)at 8 I moved back to states, first to Maryland, then to West Virginia where I was ALWAYS the only black person... alwaaaayyyysssss.... my mom started an international company and was out of the country a lot so she relinquished her parental rights and 6 months out of the year I lived with a southern, white, Catholic Deacon’s family (so If you follow me and i post a pic of a white person and say “my sister” don’t be alarmed!) so after getting my BAs in WV (and moving to London for six months) I worked in Virginia. I later moved to Boston for my Masters in international business... and THEN with two bachelors and a masters I waited tables... I decided this wasn’t for me and gave myself two months to sublet my apartment and put all my belongings in storage and buy a oneway ticket to Côte d’Ivoire where it all started ❤️ I’m currently in Lome, Togo visiting my mother and will be going back to Côte d’Ivoire, then Ghana, then South Africa and Egypt... so follow me for some more crazynesssss ❤️ T #femalefeature  #thisgirlcan  #fem2  #girlgang  #lifteachotherup  #wanderlostcampaigner  #thatwaslong  #mybad  #blackblogger  #blackandabroad  #femmefatale  #melanated  #blackisbeautiful  #africanqueen 
Finally touched down in Queenstown 36 hours after leaving the house ✈️ just got to try and get the suitcase of food through customs without being questioned... #newzealand #flying #qantas #milfordsound #maybenotmilfordsound #standardaeroplanephoto #thatwaslong
Why yes, first day back to work after carpal tunnel surgery and I decided to plant some BLACK WALNUT when I got home! Couple notes... 1) I was “careful” with my hand, but this was still dumb and too early to do stuff. 2) I have like zero space and thus these will probably never grow to timber grade. 3) Yes, it’s a little late in the season for bare root planting. 4) I heart Black Walnut and will be content to enjoy my Charlie Brown trees that will probably never produce nuts or lumber. 5) I love the Evergreen state, but as a woodworker, am envious of you whose forests are filled with more deciduous than coniferous.🌲 🌳 #ThatWasLong #haventpostedinawhile
Why yes, first day back to work after carpal tunnel surgery and I decided to plant some BLACK WALNUT when I got home! Couple notes... 1) I was “careful” with my hand, but this was still dumb and too early to do stuff. 2) I have like zero space and thus these will probably never grow to timber grade. 3) Yes, it’s a little late in the season for bare root planting. 4) I heart Black Walnut and will be content to enjoy my Charlie Brown trees that will probably never produce nuts or lumber. 5) I love the Evergreen state, but as a woodworker, am envious of you whose forests are filled with more deciduous than coniferous.🌲 🌳 #ThatWasLong  #haventpostedinawhile 
Might have got her a tad lost this time #wheresthegps #dontfollowme #thatwaslong
I chose to do some backgrounds with simple animations so I don't have to spend too much time on this project. Well, I might've made a slight miscalculation...
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#study #building #illustration #dailyillustration #dailyartwork #digitalart #digitalillustration #fun #messy #background #dailypostchallenge #dailypost #balcony #tv #artist #render #light #dayandnight #tests #bluesky #waiting #cheap #animation #timemanagement #thatwaslong #perspective #building #grain
I chose to do some backgrounds with simple animations so I don't have to spend too much time on this project. Well, I might've made a slight miscalculation... . . . . . #study  #building  #illustration  #dailyillustration  #dailyartwork  #digitalart  #digitalillustration  #fun  #messy  #background  #dailypostchallenge  #dailypost  #balcony  #tv  #artist  #render  #light  #dayandnight  #tests  #bluesky  #waiting  #cheap  #animation  #timemanagement  #thatwaslong  #perspective  #building  #grain 
Feeling 🤘🏾-after that 1st place  pro women podium finish at the big brushy enduro-part of the Arkansas enduro series!  The stages were fast!  Avoiding those sniper rocks at high speed-a test of not only fitness, but of endurance!  Congrats to my fellow competitors (friends) ya’all the best!! Good times with old friends and new friends alike!  Huge shoutout to @mrkouper 🧦for coaching me and supporting me-being a mama-he holds down the fort ALOT!  My trusty ol @trekbikes for getting me to that finish line in one piece!  And my friends back home- specially @ibisdee  @carmenator76  @mel_e_mel2 -my sisters-Always encouraging me and mentoring me on the gnar!  Thanks to all the sponsors and organizers of this top notch event!  Who’s ready for the next one??!!! 🙋🏽‍♀️Cant wait!!! Bella Vista is July 22-part of the @arkansas_enduro_series ! .
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#enduro #mtb #trekbikes #ladydudeskc #imashorty #arkansasenduroseries #timeforanewbike #haleywasgonnaletmetakeherbiketothepodium #lol #everyonewasamazing #racing #sohot #iworkedhard #bestpeanutbutterjellyyoulleverhave #ageaintnothingbutanumber #stillgotit #needbikesponsor #thatwaslong 😍❤️🤷🏽‍♀️
Feeling 🤘🏾-after that 1st place pro women podium finish at the big brushy enduro-part of the Arkansas enduro series! The stages were fast! Avoiding those sniper rocks at high speed-a test of not only fitness, but of endurance! Congrats to my fellow competitors (friends) ya’all the best!! Good times with old friends and new friends alike! Huge shoutout to @mrkouper 🧦for coaching me and supporting me-being a mama-he holds down the fort ALOT! My trusty ol @trekbikes for getting me to that finish line in one piece! And my friends back home- specially @ibisdee @carmenator76 @mel_e_mel2 -my sisters-Always encouraging me and mentoring me on the gnar! Thanks to all the sponsors and organizers of this top notch event! Who’s ready for the next one??!!! 🙋🏽‍♀️Cant wait!!! Bella Vista is July 22-part of the @arkansas_enduro_series ! . . . #enduro  #mtb  #trekbikes  #ladydudeskc  #imashorty  #arkansasenduroseries  #timeforanewbike  #haleywasgonnaletmetakeherbiketothepodium  #lol  #everyonewasamazing  #racing  #sohot  #iworkedhard  #bestpeanutbutterjellyyoulleverhave  #ageaintnothingbutanumber  #stillgotit  #needbikesponsor  #thatwaslong  😍❤️🤷🏽‍♀️
Themewear DONE!!! Little sneak peek, come on show day at @safonline to see it all in action 🧚🏼‍♀️👠👙 What a relief! Took me way more time than expected given my rusty craft skills but made it...spread over 3 days 😂🤣 #themewear #crafting #thatwaslong #noexperience #flower #feminine #glamour #fitnessmodel #bikini #show #routine #fitness #training #competition #fitnesscompetition #bikinicompetitor #prep #20daysout #omg #dreamingofdonuts #andpizza #restaurant #challenge #laststretch #focus #determination #mindset
Themewear DONE!!! Little sneak peek, come on show day at @safonline to see it all in action 🧚🏼‍♀️👠👙 What a relief! Took me way more time than expected given my rusty craft skills but made it...spread over 3 days 😂🤣 #themewear  #crafting  #thatwaslong  #noexperience  #flower  #feminine  #glamour  #fitnessmodel  #bikini  #show  #routine  #fitness  #training  #competition  #fitnesscompetition  #bikinicompetitor  #prep  #20daysout  #omg  #dreamingofdonuts  #andpizza  #restaurant  #challenge  #laststretch  #focus  #determination  #mindset 
D24-Favorite MV
This MV is the greatest MV in history, and if u decline that I will find u and beat ur a -
:) #Hello #Dontmindme #Justchilling #Withmyspinebreaker #Andthesecutedorks #Howtobeglasses101 #Wowza #WHOAIliketeenageasianboyswhoareolderthanmetotallynotweird #thatwaslong #InstaGood #Instalike #Deadontheinside #Hai #Urmumgae #HOROLOLO #2018 #May #L4L #l4l #like4like
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I don’t understand how people invite demons and shit into their house hell no, tf u think this is?  Ok I’m sleep deprived goodnight. #byebye #sleepy #goodnight #memes #meme #lol #haha #laugh #nobodycares #no #nothanks #nope #holy #itstoolate #ineedsleep #help #helpme #doesanyonereadthese #thatwaslong #ihatemyself #asdfg #mood #relateable #relate #relateablememes #relatable #icanrelate #imnothereforit #yeet #yeetmemes
I need sleep😭 * * * * * * * I don’t understand how people invite demons and shit into their house hell no, tf u think this is? Ok I’m sleep deprived goodnight. #byebye  #sleepy  #goodnight  #memes  #meme  #lol  #haha  #laugh  #nobodycares  #no  #nothanks  #nope  #holy  #itstoolate  #ineedsleep  #help  #helpme  #doesanyonereadthese  #thatwaslong  #ihatemyself  #asdfg  #mood  #relateable  #relate  #relateablememes  #relatable  #icanrelate  #imnothereforit  #yeet  #yeetmemes 
A study of melody and volume. Also known as, I’m messing around in the studio to get into the creative flow. #danielledance #armflow #hugodiaz #chacarera #yesimdoingacontemporaryfusionthingtochacarera #thatwaslong #contemporaryfusionbellydance #contemporaryfusion #blackdancer #blackbellydancer #blackfusionbellydancer
Happy 10 months to baby cakes!! I’m trying to figure out how I can make the next 2 months be the slowest months ever. It might be impossible since she’s always on the go. Today was rough, her two top teeth are coming in and naps were so off. It felt like 2 days in one that ended with an early bedtime of 6:15pm. She did surprise us today with standing up on her own without any support and finding a better balance to not fall. #thatwaslong #isthislivejournal
Happy 10 months to baby cakes!! I’m trying to figure out how I can make the next 2 months be the slowest months ever. It might be impossible since she’s always on the go. Today was rough, her two top teeth are coming in and naps were so off. It felt like 2 days in one that ended with an early bedtime of 6:15pm. She did surprise us today with standing up on her own without any support and finding a better balance to not fall. #thatwaslong  #isthislivejournal 
Met up and hung out with @haleydasovich Such a nice person! Cool as well! Worth the long drive just to meet up with her 🤗 #DGAF #itsbettertoaskforforgivenessthantoaskforpermission #thatwaslong 😂🤗😉🙅‍♀️📷
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This makes me want to die more than usual😊 
#memedump #dump #random #weird #idk #idc #funnymemes #funny #lol #haha #memesdaily #relateablememes #relateablememes #true #whatever #sociallyawkward #cringe #nobodycares #talkingtomyself #dopeopleevencare #woah #thatwaslong #itsaschoolnight #ihaveaconcerttomorrow #imgonnadie #everyonehatesme #goodnight #seeya #byebye #desperate why do I even bother.
A random collection of shit I found on my phone. • • • • • This makes me want to die more than usual😊 #memedump  #dump  #random  #weird  #idk  #idc  #funnymemes  #funny  #lol  #haha  #memesdaily  #relateablememes  #relateablememes  #true  #whatever  #sociallyawkward  #cringe  #nobodycares  #talkingtomyself  #dopeopleevencare  #woah  #thatwaslong  #itsaschoolnight  #ihaveaconcerttomorrow  #imgonnadie  #everyonehatesme  #goodnight  #seeya  #byebye  #desperate  why do I even bother.
i used to be in corbyn’s lane when i first found out about them.
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#likethispostbecausecorbynisasweetheart #thatwaslong #corbyn #besson #corbynbesson #wdw #whydontwe #nerd #corbynbessonedit #corbynedits #corbynwhydontwe #corbynbessonwhydontwe #corbynbessonwdw #corbynwdw #corbynwdwedit
this picture is of me riding on the back of a dump truck on the way to a soccer game a few villages over from Neply. I was SO happy and excited and just loving the exact moment I was in. it was all so simple. 
I think so much of that feeling came from the fact that wifi was so scarce and access to things like instagram or facebook were few and far between. it’s way too easy to get sucked into those holes and feel the pressure that social media inherently puts on. and for me, SO easy to start comparing and judging and wishing I was doing or being something that i’m not. at its worst, for me, it’s a total joy sucker. 
SO, i’m saying no and i’m saying I want all the joy and I want to be present and I want  to be a part of the moments i’m a part of. I don’t want to pose for insta posts or spend so much time creating and recreating stories. I want to BE HERE. fully present. in every moment. so, i’m signing outta here for a while. have a beautiful and fun summer!!! #thatwaslong #adios
this picture is of me riding on the back of a dump truck on the way to a soccer game a few villages over from Neply. I was SO happy and excited and just loving the exact moment I was in. it was all so simple. I think so much of that feeling came from the fact that wifi was so scarce and access to things like instagram or facebook were few and far between. it’s way too easy to get sucked into those holes and feel the pressure that social media inherently puts on. and for me, SO easy to start comparing and judging and wishing I was doing or being something that i’m not. at its worst, for me, it’s a total joy sucker. SO, i’m saying no and i’m saying I want all the joy and I want to be present and I want to be a part of the moments i’m a part of. I don’t want to pose for insta posts or spend so much time creating and recreating stories. I want to BE HERE. fully present. in every moment. so, i’m signing outta here for a while. have a beautiful and fun summer!!! #thatwaslong  #adios 
First workout post comp and it feels so good to be back 💪🏽🏋🏻‍♀️
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#letsgo #thejourneycontinues #imback #thatwaslong #nomorerestdays #happytobehere #gymmotivation #gymfam #fitnesslife #cantkeepmeaway #lateralraises #crunches
It's been a while...
I know i haven't been posting for a while. I've had a serious case of art block and my finals. I'll be able to post regularly in a few weeks after the finals. Sorry!

#art #artoninstagram #artblock #yourartspace #dobbythedemigod #artist #artstuff #watercolor #acrylic #painting #coldpressed #girl #bun #messybun #brunette #eye #eyes #messyhair #messyhairdontcare #sweater #hashtagsarestupidbutiamgonnahashtaganyway #thatwaslong
My collection grows
My collection grows
IMPORTANT MESSAGE! Well kinda. 
First, thanks for tuning into our live stream and watching Catdad climb the porch fence and almost die. 
Second, on July 1st Catmom and Catdad are officially taking over our merchandise website from @beatrixandmidge. We can't thank them enough. We really can't. That means we will (hopefully) have fresh new merch. As you guys know all our profits go right back into to making fundraisers and donations to local shelters! We have a ton of ideas, but we'd like to hear from YOU... The ones who have made all of this possible in the first place. Instagram isn't the best for having an all out discussion so if you want to throw down some ideas, head over to our Facebook. Search for good ol' BenBenCatCat! 
Seriously... We want to know what you want to see from us.
Our goal is "to leave this world better than we found it" - Bill Nye
#benbencatcat #phew #thatwaslong #timeforpizza #didyouguysseethelivefeedandhowidontlistentocatdad #likeever #healmostdiedtoo #itwasfunny #noben #itwasnotfunny #whowouldfeedyou #yourehopeless #cantfendforyourself #ideatyoudad #cats #catsofig #catsofinstagram #catstagram #cats_of_instagram
IMPORTANT MESSAGE! Well kinda. First, thanks for tuning into our live stream and watching Catdad climb the porch fence and almost die. Second, on July 1st Catmom and Catdad are officially taking over our merchandise website from @beatrixandmidge. We can't thank them enough. We really can't. That means we will (hopefully) have fresh new merch. As you guys know all our profits go right back into to making fundraisers and donations to local shelters! We have a ton of ideas, but we'd like to hear from YOU... The ones who have made all of this possible in the first place. Instagram isn't the best for having an all out discussion so if you want to throw down some ideas, head over to our Facebook. Search for good ol' BenBenCatCat! Seriously... We want to know what you want to see from us. Our goal is "to leave this world better than we found it" - Bill Nye #benbencatcat  #phew  #thatwaslong  #timeforpizza  #didyouguysseethelivefeedandhowidontlistentocatdad  #likeever  #healmostdiedtoo  #itwasfunny  #noben  #itwasnotfunny  #whowouldfeedyou  #yourehopeless  #cantfendforyourself  #ideatyoudad  #cats  #catsofig  #catsofinstagram  #catstagram  #cats_of_instagram 
“Dreams die hard and we watch them erode. But we cannot be denied, the fire inside.” - Seger
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When I was a little girl I wanted to be a model (print). My mom tried to support that dream, but her other half is a narcissistic controlling psychopath (no, I’m not being cheeky)... let’s just say many of the things I had interest in, as a child/young adult, weren’t always acknowledged or followed through. Little known fact, I have been signed to a few different agencies (not at the same time. And we found out fast which ones were scam artists). I was pursued by one in NYC, but I was underage and they wanted to meet face to face... well, that visit never happened. So, that’s that. Other circumstances came into play and I never finished being able to chase that dream (circumstances like somewhere to live at 18 — reference narcissistic controlling psychopath from above).
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So I have all these sides from different shoots that were never put to use (basically). Photos that were taken to build my portfolio and comp cards (never followed through) and well... uh, models can’t get work with out some sort of comp card - at least back then they were pretty much mandatory.
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Now I enjoy being on the other end of the camera. It’s always interesting how things turn out. Maybe it happened this way for a reason. I mean, technically I’m too short for the industry anyway nor did/do I live in/near the hub of the modeling industry - NYC, Miami, LA,... and now, well I’m no where near that size these days (and most days I don’t even feel pretty anymore). C’est la vie.
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Now to decide what to do with them... take time to scan them right or stick them back in the file... 🧐
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35mm color slides, scanned with an ancient film flatbed scanner. Not high res or careful attention to detail. Color temp was all over the place, so converted to B&W. 
No reference for the photographer or HMAs
Edited: LR, CS6, #Alienskin #alienskinexposure7
Charlotte, NC
Circa: December 2001 (17 yo)
Note: it was literally freezing outside that day.
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#throwback #throwbackthursday #2001 #model #photoshoot #charlottenc #film #life #portraits #tbt #photo #winter #memories #blackandwhite #bnw #scanned #slides #mysocalledlife
“Dreams die hard and we watch them erode. But we cannot be denied, the fire inside.” - Seger • When I was a little girl I wanted to be a model (print). My mom tried to support that dream, but her other half is a narcissistic controlling psychopath (no, I’m not being cheeky)... let’s just say many of the things I had interest in, as a child/young adult, weren’t always acknowledged or followed through. Little known fact, I have been signed to a few different agencies (not at the same time. And we found out fast which ones were scam artists). I was pursued by one in NYC, but I was underage and they wanted to meet face to face... well, that visit never happened. So, that’s that. Other circumstances came into play and I never finished being able to chase that dream (circumstances like somewhere to live at 18 — reference narcissistic controlling psychopath from above). • So I have all these sides from different shoots that were never put to use (basically). Photos that were taken to build my portfolio and comp cards (never followed through) and well... uh, models can’t get work with out some sort of comp card - at least back then they were pretty much mandatory. • Now I enjoy being on the other end of the camera. It’s always interesting how things turn out. Maybe it happened this way for a reason. I mean, technically I’m too short for the industry anyway nor did/do I live in/near the hub of the modeling industry - NYC, Miami, LA,... and now, well I’m no where near that size these days (and most days I don’t even feel pretty anymore). C’est la vie. • Now to decide what to do with them... take time to scan them right or stick them back in the file... 🧐 • 35mm color slides, scanned with an ancient film flatbed scanner. Not high res or careful attention to detail. Color temp was all over the place, so converted to B&W. No reference for the photographer or HMAs Edited: LR, CS6, #Alienskin  #alienskinexposure7  Charlotte, NC Circa: December 2001 (17 yo) Note: it was literally freezing outside that day. • #throwback  #throwbackthursday  #2001  #model  #photoshoot  #charlottenc  #film  #life  #portraits  #tbt  #photo  #winter  #memories  #blackandwhite  #bnw  #scanned  #slides  #mysocalledlife 
It’s cold, it’s rainy and it’s dumb 👎🏽 So muffins we shall make!
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#thatwaslong
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#momlife
#fitgirlfriendly
Everyone always comments on my long nails. I’m like, take it up with her 💅🏻 #divanails 
#dogs #manicure #mumsaysitsanightmaretocutmynailsherself #thatwaslong
飛行機に乗って東京レコードマーケットに来てくれた。ターンテーブルと同じ歳!23歳の若いシンガポールのレコード屋の店員さん。ありがとう🙏🙏🙏 。#dealer #fromsingapore #diggers #recordadventure #turntabletokyo #neverstop #neverending #recordshop #keepondigging #23yearsold #sameage #23years #thatwaslong 今日は残念だったけど また明日!
Love this view every morning, so many memories from this . #lookslikeapicturebutitsnitapictureitsjustsoamazing #thatwaslong #imdone
You could have my heart or we can share it like the last slice 🍕
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Being on a diet and feeling guilty about eating certain things is hard…..TRUST, same here lol. But thats why IF is something that works for me.
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IF is not a Diet, it technically doesn’t limit you to what you should be eating….Intermittent fasting is an eating pattern…a window for eating.
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So, did eat this whole Pizza alone? You Bet! That’s because I worked out fasted & I knew that eating this pizza would still keep me in a caloric deficit.
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What works for you guys? I’m always curious to hear about different eating patterns that works for other people! LMK 🌸 #priworkout #girlswhofast
You could have my heart or we can share it like the last slice 🍕 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Being on a diet and feeling guilty about eating certain things is hard…..TRUST, same here lol. But thats why IF is something that works for me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ IF is not a Diet, it technically doesn’t limit you to what you should be eating….Intermittent fasting is an eating pattern…a window for eating. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ With that said, it doesn’t mean you can eat like shit during your eating window…SUCKS I know, I tried it. lol but it simply limits your time for eating (less time to eat during the day usually means you’ll be too full to consumer OVER calories). ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ So, did eat this whole Pizza alone? You Bet! That’s because I worked out fasted & I knew that eating this pizza would still keep me in a caloric deficit. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Intermittent fasting, counting macros etc. won’t make you lose the weight - all these will help, but the bottom line in losing the extra fat/weight is being in a caloric deficit aka eating less while burning more. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ What works for you guys? I’m always curious to hear about different eating patterns that works for other people! LMK 🌸 #priworkout  #girlswhofast 
Playing with my ohuhu markers. I still need to start figuring out how blending works. But I also need to figure out how drawing people works... oh well it's still lots of fun to play with the colors. 
#ohuhumarkers #StillFiguringArtOut #IUsedTheOhuhuFineLinerAndBrushTipForTheOutlines
#ThatWasLong
I'm bored today my gallery is stuffed so I'm just gonna post a bunch and also he looks so goooooooooooooooooooooooooodddd like hello I'm trying to survive here so could you not?
#yoongi #minyoongi #suga #minsugageniusjjangjjangmanbboongbboong #thatwaslong
6 years ago.

Saturday 21st of April, 2012 - Grand Rex, Paris. 
The start of a Universe; The Avengers Marathon. 
One day to revisit the MCU Phase 1 OGs, 11 hours of movies and junk food, ending by the awaited European preview of The Avengers. 
Nobody knew what to expect. You could feel the electricity in the cinema. People were shouting, laughing, praying to the godliness of Joss Whedon. 
And then the title card. The silence. The high pitch noises. The cheers. The claps. At the end of it all, when all expectations were met, here he was: Thanos.

As we left the cinema, we knew it was a special day! 
We had witnessed a true storytelling tour de force, more than just a popcorn movie, it was a revolution of the genre and the start of an adventure. 
6 years have now passed. 12 additional movies. An unstable phase 2 with lots of ups and downs. Phase 3 is now on a roll and the MCU "voices" are stronger than ever. 
Through the years, and dare I say it, my twenties, we have grown with those characters, those heroes; we have understood their struggle and saw their humanity. 
Not only have we been entertained by the movie magic, borderline psychedelic sometimes, but beyond that, the movies have helped lead discussions on inclusion and diversity in our more than ever pop culture driven society, 
Feel good movies with the right messages

So, as we are entering the climactic part of Phase 3, I can only wonder... What comes next?
Are we back as spectators to that time 6 years ago when we didn't know what to expect? Or should we know better now that we have settled in that decade long relationship?

What will the Infinity war movies bring? 
Will we court Death? 
I can feel that electricity again and for the rest, I guess, only time will tell... #wow #thatwaslong #nerd #rant #movies #mcu  #marvel #avengers #infinitywar #bringiton #pleasedonotdisappoint #russosbrothers #itsmorethanmoviestome #from20to30 #ifyoureadthisyouhavemyeternalrespect #loveandmarshmallows
6 years ago. Saturday 21st of April, 2012 - Grand Rex, Paris. The start of a Universe; The Avengers Marathon. One day to revisit the MCU Phase 1 OGs, 11 hours of movies and junk food, ending by the awaited European preview of The Avengers. Nobody knew what to expect. You could feel the electricity in the cinema. People were shouting, laughing, praying to the godliness of Joss Whedon. And then the title card. The silence. The high pitch noises. The cheers. The claps. At the end of it all, when all expectations were met, here he was: Thanos. As we left the cinema, we knew it was a special day! We had witnessed a true storytelling tour de force, more than just a popcorn movie, it was a revolution of the genre and the start of an adventure. 6 years have now passed. 12 additional movies. An unstable phase 2 with lots of ups and downs. Phase 3 is now on a roll and the MCU "voices" are stronger than ever. Through the years, and dare I say it, my twenties, we have grown with those characters, those heroes; we have understood their struggle and saw their humanity. Not only have we been entertained by the movie magic, borderline psychedelic sometimes, but beyond that, the movies have helped lead discussions on inclusion and diversity in our more than ever pop culture driven society, Feel good movies with the right messages So, as we are entering the climactic part of Phase 3, I can only wonder... What comes next? Are we back as spectators to that time 6 years ago when we didn't know what to expect? Or should we know better now that we have settled in that decade long relationship? What will the Infinity war movies bring? Will we court Death? I can feel that electricity again and for the rest, I guess, only time will tell... #wow  #thatwaslong  #nerd  #rant  #movies  #mcu  #marvel  #avengers  #infinitywar  #bringiton  #pleasedonotdisappoint  #russosbrothers  #itsmorethanmoviestome  #from20to30  #ifyoureadthisyouhavemyeternalrespect  #loveandmarshmallows 
Did the Granite Mountain Hot Shots memorial hike. I cannot imagine hiking those hills with 50 lbs packs on in 100+ degree weather. Very cool hike. #AZ #Hiking #granitemountainhotshots #donebeforenoon #thatwaslong #shortlegsarentmeanttohike #backtocrossfit
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#decal #vinyl #youtube #advertise #icanalsodonothersocialmediaplatforms #thatwaslong #thatswhatdshesaid #anyonewantathatswhatshesaiddecal
There’s a Travis County Sheriff up in the mix now, as well… this is literally the entrance to the ramp I take to *start* going north… My goal for my last trip until July (besides #Sedona & #LasVegas , with boarding school sweetheart @jimmyraymays … Then to #SanDiego , to try to say goodbye to Bokonon… I doubt it’ll help, but I rented a dope ass Airbnb... Almost the exact location his ashes are, which is also the very location we hung out a lot while we were there... it couldn’t hurt. anyway, I’m going to wake up in San Diego on Friday, 4/20 (Believe it or not, that really was a coincidence…), and head to #LosAngeles to eat my high school friend’s friend’s yummy-feel-goods, then Saturday I’m visiting a friend I met on the bus in the fifth grade, and his wife, and she is the coolest thing ever… So that starts happening this Saturday night, late, when we hit the road from Longview, Texas to Sedona!) #ParenthesesMuch  So besides that #RoadTrip , this is my last run for work to Kansas City… I’m pretty sure I’m taking The toll road in Oklahoma that runs along Route 66… So I can take all those pictures of things I’ve seen, but haven’t stopped for, “because I’ll just do it next time…” #ThereYouHaveIt #ThatWasLong #Procrastination I #LastMinuteLisa
There’s a Travis County Sheriff up in the mix now, as well… this is literally the entrance to the ramp I take to *start* going north… My goal for my last trip until July (besides #Sedona  & #LasVegas  , with boarding school sweetheart @jimmyraymays … Then to #SanDiego  , to try to say goodbye to Bokonon… I doubt it’ll help, but I rented a dope ass Airbnb... Almost the exact location his ashes are, which is also the very location we hung out a lot while we were there... it couldn’t hurt. anyway, I’m going to wake up in San Diego on Friday, 4/20 (Believe it or not, that really was a coincidence…), and head to #LosAngeles  to eat my high school friend’s friend’s yummy-feel-goods, then Saturday I’m visiting a friend I met on the bus in the fifth grade, and his wife, and she is the coolest thing ever… So that starts happening this Saturday night, late, when we hit the road from Longview, Texas to Sedona!) #ParenthesesMuch  So besides that #RoadTrip  , this is my last run for work to Kansas City… I’m pretty sure I’m taking The toll road in Oklahoma that runs along Route 66… So I can take all those pictures of things I’ve seen, but haven’t stopped for, “because I’ll just do it next time…” #ThereYouHaveIt  #ThatWasLong  #Procrastination  I #LastMinuteLisa 
We spent an intense 3 hours in counseling today. We went for marriage help (no crisis: tune up), but it ended up being transformative to/for me personally. As in “ummm, I think everything is different now. WHAT IN THE FRACK JUST HAPPENED?”
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These 2 people who had never met me (it was a married couple working with us)—in such a small amount of time—pinpointed, communicated and corrected some major flaws in my core beliefs of myself/others/god; ones that Jesse and I have both tried to address many times before, but were too close to and emotional about make any real headway. They 100% blew my mind and showed me things about myself that I would’ve SWORN weren’t there.
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I love counseling and think all humans need it, but I still resisted going when Jesse suggested it. I think something in me knew that it needed healing, but that it was gonna hurt and be hard, and fought like hell to escape that pain.
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Here’s to choosing hard and painful as payment for living real and deep. Don’t believe the lie that easy and comfortable is making you or your life better in any way. Easy and painless masquerade as peace but are parasites of our time and relationships.
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You can trust my advice: I’ve known this stuff for like 5 hours already.
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We spent an intense 3 hours in counseling today. We went for marriage help (no crisis: tune up), but it ended up being transformative to/for me personally. As in “ummm, I think everything is different now. WHAT IN THE FRACK JUST HAPPENED?” . These 2 people who had never met me (it was a married couple working with us)—in such a small amount of time—pinpointed, communicated and corrected some major flaws in my core beliefs of myself/others/god; ones that Jesse and I have both tried to address many times before, but were too close to and emotional about make any real headway. They 100% blew my mind and showed me things about myself that I would’ve SWORN weren’t there. . I love counseling and think all humans need it, but I still resisted going when Jesse suggested it. I think something in me knew that it needed healing, but that it was gonna hurt and be hard, and fought like hell to escape that pain. . Here’s to choosing hard and painful as payment for living real and deep. Don’t believe the lie that easy and comfortable is making you or your life better in any way. Easy and painless masquerade as peace but are parasites of our time and relationships. . You can trust my advice: I’ve known this stuff for like 5 hours already. ——————— #ThatWasLong  #EsoEsLoQueDiceEl  #GetYourHeartsButtKickedRegularly