I had the incredible opportunity and HONOR to be around AMAZING humans this weekend whose hearts and souls ALL want to make a difference in this World!! A group of people who want to HEAL THE UNNECESSARY pain, suffering and disease - YES DISEASE - that has become so rampant in our World and more specifically in OUR country!! Yes ESPECIALLY in OUR COUNTRY!!🇺🇸 I cannot unhear what I heard this weekend!! I cannot turn the other cheek or make believe it’s not true!! I can NO longer think that that’s for OTHERS to take care of because I think there’s nothing I can do about it!! I CAN NOT and WILL NOT continue to bury my head in the sand because “I am only one little person who can’t change the way things are!!” I CANNOT AND WILL NOT!!! I AM MAD!! I AM SOOOO incredibly ANGRY!! I am SOOOO filled with sorrow and hurt that tears CANNOT be contained!! And BECAUSE of this anger and this resentment and this fury... I have decided to lock arms with these magnificently brilliant, incredibly caring, healing individuals!! 🌟
I will NO LONGER STAND for hearing more and more of my loved ones who fall victims to heart disease, diabetes, autism, cancer, stroke, dementia or the slew of other diseases that have become so common place these days in our country!!! I learned something this weekend!! I learned A LOT actually!! About myself, about my potential, about contribution but most importantly about how MUCH MORE power WE have than we think in this fight!! I learned that I AM STEPPING UP!! I learned that I CAN DO something about what I see is wrong!! I learned I WILL contribute to the change I want to see!!! ✨🌎✨
#staytunedformore#thankyouforreading#notokaywiththis#angry#nomorepain#changeisneeded#togetherwecan#togetherwemust#rise#makeadifference#stepup and #riseup#mondaytruth#thisisjovanna 😘
Hey Cherubs, I’ve received a couple of emails asking for copies of the summer reading packet...and it’s making me think some of you may be missing your packets as well. Here’s the link to the summer reading page - you can find all summer reading requirements and copies of the assignments there!
Long post alert 🚨 ...
I’ve passed the denial phase & the anger phase. Denial was more like shock because it all happened so fast. One day I was pregnant and the other I wasn’t. But anger, that one took its time and is slowly letting go. I had a few outbursts and moments where I felt like I could actually punch someone in the face. The hardest part has been processing my anger with God. It’s hard when your life reality goes against your theology. I’ve thought about Job & his conversations with God for weeks now. Still 6 weeks have passed where I just don’t want to talk to him or listen to what he has to say. @aida_cruz_611 told me that just because I don’t want to listen doesn’t mean God will stop speaking, which only infuriated me lol. I just wish he’d leave me alone for a bit. So on Tuesday I took a long drive and I knew God wanted to speak to me so I turned off the music and listened. And he said, “There's no shadow I won't light up
Mountain I won't climb up
coming after you.
There's no wall I won't kick down,
Lie I won't tear down,
Coming after you.” His love is drawing me out this anger. Depression is not much of an easier stage but I know I’ll get to Acceptance & that’s where I believe I’ll be able to hope and dream again.
This scene in Harry Potter always stuck with me because it's a lighthearted nod to the difference between male and female emotional intelligence and maturity. Hermione was talking about all of the different emotions Cho Chang must be feeling - conflicted over Cedric vs. Harry, sad about what happened to Cedric, guilty about liking Harry, worrying about what others think, etc.
In our society, males are discouraged from being in tune with their emotions. Being vulnerable is seen as weak. Opening up about your deepest and darkest emotional burdens and traumas is one big nope. And the more emotions you have, the weaker you must be.
The more I've practiced looking #inward , the more I've been able to distinguish the subtle differences between varying emotions. When I was younger, if I was angry, I was just angry. If I was sad, I was just sad. Like Ron, how can someone feel all these different types of emotions at once?! Over the years I've been able to get to a place where I'm better able to distinguish (and communicate) the nuances of my emotions: angry splits into frustrated, irritated, vexed; sad breaks into disappointed, hopeless, disheartened.
This seems incredibly basic. But given that I've never dealt with my emotions in a healthy way or ever learned to (and many of us don't), it has taken awhile for me to get comfortable doing it. In the past, all I knew how to do was go to sleep and push any negative emotion aside and ignore it - hoping that I'd wake up feeling differently the next day. Like hitting the restart button on a computer. Of course, the problem with that is our memory doesn't function quite like RAM.
If you hit restart without finding out why you have to hit restart in the first place, you'll find yourself reliving the same situations (and the same emotions) over and over again.
I'm glad that all of this is gradually changing - what it means to be strong, vulnerable, a "man" and the increased focus on self-care, self-awareness, emotional intelligence and looking inward. #TheEmotionalRangeOfATeaspoon#HermioneIsAlwaysRight#BeVulnerable#ThankYouForReading
As I've gotten older, I've realized more and more the difference between personality and character, and how big a role each plays at different stages of a relationship and as that relationship deepens.
Personality is more 'on the surface' stuff - it's the initial commonalities that bring two people together: similar interests, similar taste in music and movies, backgrounds, hobbies, introversion vs. extroversion, etc. But as we learn more about the other person, character starts to reveal itself.
Character goes much, much deeper and it's essentially who we are underneath. It's the beliefs, values and principles that we live by, that ultimately determine who we are, what we say and what we do in any given situation. It determines whether we do the right thing or not; whether we'll return a lost wallet, and whether or not we expect a reward for returning it. It determines whether we lie to hide or lie to self-promote; how likely we'll place our own needs, wants and priorities over someone else's, and what the reasons are for doing that. It determines what we're willing to fight for and where we draw the line. It determines the subtle nuances of how each of us define concepts like love, security, duty, and honor.
I'm fortunate to be married to my best friend. Personality brought me and her together. And ever since we've met, I've learned so much about her character, and in that process, it's helped me learn about mine, how the two have always been similar, and the subtle, yet powerful ways in which the two have come together over time. #CharacterMatters#ThankYouForReading
Mau lanjut bahas tentang undertone ya kak..
Seperti yang sudah dibhas sebelumnya, undertone penting untuk pemilihan warna yang cocok untuk kita dan ini juga berlaku untuk makeup.
Misalnya pemilihan warna blush atau foundation.
1. warmtone mengandung undertone yang cenderung yellow/kuning/gold jadi untuk pemilihan blush bisa pilih warna coral/peach supaya kelihatan natural. Sedangkan Foundation yang cocok silakan pilih yg memiliki based warna kuning. Jangan sampek salah yaa. Kak ros pernah beli cushion yang based warnanya cenderung netral/putih dan taraaaaa hahahaha kelihatan nggak natural banget..
2. Cooltones mengandung undertone yang cenderung reddish/blue/pink. Jadi blush yang cocok itu warna rosy/pink, sedangkan foundation pilihlah yg berbasis warna pink atau netral. Ini akan kelihatan lebih natural dan nggak kayak makek topeng ups.
Sekalian nginetin juga, kalian kalau pakai makeup juga jngan berlebihan intinya biar kelihatan lebih fresh. Berlebihanya di depan suami ajalah bagi yang bersuami yang belum yaaa tunggu sampai bersuami. Hahaahha
Terimakasih sudah membaca kuliah siang ini.
This is my Mom and my Dad (at prom?). I have no memory of my father and apparently since I had no male figure in my life that means I have no say in how a man should behave.
I had the most insightful conversation today with someone who was on the other side of the political spectrum as myself and we agreed on one thing...we are failing each other miserably as humans.
I find that a lot of the males that attack me always react with "what would your Dad say?". I'm done putting other people's opinions first because that means I'm putting myself second. My family may think I'm strange and selfish but I know the end result will be worth it. 💙What is NOT an option is quitting now💙
I wanna talk a lil about fried food today. 🍟🍩 #realtalk (I type with an eye roll 🙄)
I don’t often mention my eating disorder/calorie counting obsession, which I’ve struggled with on & off for a few years. BUT... I used to be super afraid of fried stuff. Like, if I ate a plate of French fries it was a rare, rare occasion. But traveling SE Asia for 8 months, I ate out every meal and had no idea how much oil I was consuming (but I could safely assume it was a lot), and had to pretty much gtf over it. All the greasy stir fry, curry, fried rice... I ate a lot of super oily stuff, which I thought would negatively affect me (aka make me gain weight), but it didn’t.
Not really sure what the point of this post is... but I guess I just want to say that oily food ain’t always bad.
You (I) don’t need to be scared. You can eat the deep fried spring roll and maintain your weight. You can eat the giant plate of fried noodles and carry on. You can put more than a teaspoon of oil in your stir fry and— yes— be absolutely OK. In fact, you might be happier for it.
Super grateful that my travels helped me realize this 🙏🙏
Tagged for #15factsaboutme by Kimmycakes, Sarah, Kass, Pattie, and Catalina, and a number #sds tags that have piled up so I’m multitasking here. 🤓Some things here from #AMA question feature I had on my story a while back and the rest is just random stuff. 🤷🏻♀️ •
Thanks #ketofam for sharing with and supporting me in my beautiful, ridiculous, extra, messy and emotional life. 💓🙏🏼
Love you guys, T. xo
1. I believe happiness is a choice. Do what makes you happy. ☺️Surround yourself positive, life-affirming people. 😇Stop comparing yourself to others. When life gets hard, know that YOU are the one that is going to get you through it. 💪🏻🤗
2. Before starting keto July 2017, I always felt tired, hungry, and often anxious. 😳 I’ve lost 30 pounds and healed my relationship with food. I usually #IFOMAD , and often #carnivore . Now in maintenance, I continue this WOE because I love the way it makes me feel. #ketophoria 🌈#foodfreedom 🙌🏼
3. I’m a girly girl. I love pink, florals, makeup heels and dresses (with pockets!).💋👗👠 4. My mom is one of my biggest inspirations. She embodies HOPE and FAITH. 🕊 She taught me to find the good in people. Always look for the silver lining. Always #chooselove . I hope to do the same for my daughters. 😇👵🏼❤️👩🏻👧🏻👧🏻 @ketojeeplife
5. My favourite Korean food is lettuce wraps with caulirice, bulgogi, hot pepper paste. 🇰🇷😋 @kita.eats.keto
6. My dream vacation would be to the Maldives. Stay in a water bungalow on stilts and ride a bicycle to breakfast. 🏝🚲 Off the grid. No WiFi. Nothing to do all day but flake. 😎 @ketonedmom
7. I’m smart.. but also clueless... and clumsy. My daughters call me a space cadet. I break something, forget something, lose something, get lost, say something wrong, or hurt myself at least once a day. 🤡👩🏻🚀 #spazzsisters @manuelafung
8. Worst part of this year: my bf’s father passing. FYI, the current treatment of diabetes sucks big ass hairy ball sacks. 🤬 @keto_sionmom 💞@ketocoffeeamy 💞Best part of this year: turning 50... and loving it. ❤️💃🏻 @ketokass85
9. If cuddling was an Olympic sport, I’d be a Gold medalist. 🥇🤗 #lovelanguage#teamwordstouchtime @thereluctanttrainer •
Am I afraid of failing,
Do I wish for old feelings,
or brand new beginnings?
Can I raise up a glass
and receive sweet vibrations?
Will I give into all-too familiar temptations?...
The fears I have buried
to the core of the planet,
‘less I dig up in doubt
all the seeds that I’ve planted
If growth is too fast
then they won’t understand it
but if life has its limits,
my faith must be candid
edit + Poem: Yah
I will never stop being fascinated and bewildered by the act of construction - from conceiving the idea, all the way through to physically building the structure. Bridges, buildings, monuments - grandiose or not. They all leave me with a sense of awe. And don’t even get me started on construction in times long past. My mind boggles.
This is shadow work for me. I know. Folks say don’t post your shadow.
I know that I am supposed to update my phone right now. But I’d rather take my phone with me to see the sunrise. I never want to miss one again. 💕🐺🤹🏼♀️🐌🕷🐛🦋🕸 📭📬📫📪🛥⁉️ this is a series of emojis on my iPhone 10.
Lol. Silly. Shadow work. Hallucinations. Delusions. They are normal. It’s ok. You don’t have to hashtag.
they are using hashtags.
so are we.
New post up on the NEW site!! Few tweaks still needed but overall complete! What a feat!
I remember watching a movie as a young girl with a message that has stayed with me all of my life. Or maybe it just pinned what I already knew to be a truth to my mind. I have always loved music, it has shaped me, taught me, opened me, moved me, given me solace and hope, lifted me up and knocked the air straight from my lungs. Music, to me, is more like breathing. It is a constant, a necessity, a love of my life.
In this movie, there is a constant flow of beautiful sounds as two people fall in love despite the resistance to in the beginning. There is a harmony that grows as the relationship does. When the two are forced apart, silence consumes the theater. I remember saying to my step-mom, "It is too quiet now that he is gone." To which she replied, "That is the point." At that young age, right then and there, I recognized that the emptiness to our ears reflected the missing piece of her heart. ::Also noting, I have been a hopeless romantic at heart all of my life, clearly, so I decided to stop apologizing for it:: I knew that love and music went hand and hand for me. That the lyrics and melodies would paint the memories of lovers past and ignite with unrelenting sounds with someone new. Music in its daily dose to my ears and in to the depths of my soul was and is as important as every other thing this body consumes to remain alive. It is also in every single beat of self-love in this heart of mine.
There are songs that have changed my life. The three minutes and twenty seconds that passed marking a line of before and after. The resonation of words that match my emotions and sounds that match my feelings - that is music to me. The crushing anguish in a tired voice, the surmountable joy in a free and easy line, the ability for the sound to travel to my bones and through my body is also exactly what I want my love to feel like. To envelop me and dance through the waves of my vulnerable heart.
So, when I hear music when I am with you, I know.
Here is real life after an abusive relationship.
This is an everyday, even every minute, and definitely most situations occurrence.
Self doubt, blame, judgement... we don’t need it from anyone else because we are harder on ourselves then you ever could be.
We question and wonder if there is any single thing we could have done, breaking our backs and our spirits in the process, to please the abuser knowing that no matter what, we were going to get the bad either way. We fought to stay and make it work, we leave and face the world alone, we lose both ways. And at the end of it all, we think “this is my fault” they said this is what I deserve.
Whether in words or actions, often both.
The physical damage heals, the emotional and mental battles we face even years later.
NO ONE who says they love you, should hurt you. Read that again! They should not belittle you or doubt you, they shouldn’t bring out the worst in you and then blame you for your unhinged being. They shouldn’t leave marks on the skin or on your heart.
More than all of that damage done though, is the doubt we maintain in ourselves. Even clear of the situation, at times our voice mimics theirs until we are bleeding all over again. The wake of their behavior creating a disastrous trail of who we used to be.
Meanwhile the abuser loses no sleep, their menacing ways unfaltering.
When these times leave you in pieces battling to go on, remember the facts. Remember that love should not hurt.
Remember that you are not alone and that there is hope available.
There is peace again, on the other side.
Happy Anniversary to us!! One year ago today we decided to share this #bh90210reunion script! Our following grew more than we ever thought and we’ve had the best time sharing with you. Follow along again as we repost scenes for new readers!We hope the reunion staring @torispelling and @jenniegarth will take our cues and right the wrongs of the final seasons 💜#letsmakeithappen#thankyouforreading#oneyearanniversary#90210forever
Repost from @90210reunion @TopRankRepost #TopRankRepost "Beverly Hills, 90210: Reunion" is intended to be a 90-minute special geared towards the die-hard fans of the original series, featuring all of the primary beloved cast members. We hope to pique your interest - tell your friends, fellow fans, and follow along with us! We welcome feedback, comments, and healthy debate 🏝😎🏄🏻🍔 #bh90210reunion#90210forever#letsmakeithappen#90210movie
*Cough Cough* Just a few words... All i gotta say is THANK YOU. A thank you to all my family, friends, supporters, social media buddies, new pals and most importantly my EVERYTHING @ccmozo who made all the pieces complete for my jigsaw. Just an example of how teamwork really does make the dreamwork. This has truly been the best JULY season i have ever had. We have linked up the family together again just like the old days creating everlasting memories (especially for the young ones). It started with 28 strong at Clacton On Sea as we stayed down there in a hotel for 2 nights enjoying the good weather, stoney beach but overall beautiful settings. I was suprised with a birthday cake and traditional bday song at our chosen restaurant in the evening. Lovely! 3rd July my birthday day itself I was treated to a lovely meal at the exquisite Sexy Fish by my better half in Mayfair including a bday cake with a candle lol.
Then just 5 days later, we had arranged an intimate sit down calvery meal at Trent Park prior to the birthday party starting with my family (with mum, my 2nd to none Step Dad and mainly the auntys and uncle's this time) again more for memories and a feel of connection. Then finally "Our Time" in the beautiful state of Fort Lauderdale for 2 weeks which topped off an amazing end to my milestone birthday celebration. Damn i am loved and still humbled by my blessings. Heres to the future 🙏🏾❤ #TBT#ClactonOnSea#SexyFish#TheStatement#Florida#CancerianBoy#July2018#CleanHeart#MilestoneYear#BiogOver#ThankYouForReading#BeAsLuckyAsMe#Everblessed#TheStatement40 🎂🎈🤸🏾♀️🍾🌞🎉