I try not to get too in depth on here,but i got out of a very toxic and bad marriage.And i tried and tired to allow that person access to his child and time,and over and over again they did not take advantage of that access.And now that person has chosen instead of accepting responsibility of his life to go as far away as possible from his child and rely on someone else.
Apart from this making me very angry and upset,my point is don't ever expect anything from a person other than what they have always shown you to be.Learn that lesson early and save yourself the grief.
🌿【#Healing and release : #metoo shadow】😢😨
I just had a scary nightmare about a pervert kept msg and talked face to face to me that he wanna rape me,
Since I removed totally fb msg app don't wanna see his disguisting msg,
I feel regret in the past one more year I ever so naive to launch #morelovetaiwan 💓 #art action while the most tricky pervert picked up on me then during my #mybodyisatemple workshop and ....
I really need to reveal this coz it's so bad that kind of perverts exist they are not honestly support my #equalmarriage or #lgbtqia friendly action,
They just want first freehug from me, secondly how is the sex experience of #lesbain and #bisexual woman, took advantage of my compassion to human being and repeatedly abusive sexual harassement.
Love is with, and should be with #boundary ,
This kind of bad experience may dust my art action , but
I think I should become a person more prepared for any evil disguisting possibility coz I have my body to protect, my sereign life to protect,
And most of all these perverts could do this to other woman or transgender woman in LGBTQIA...
WELL ANGRL CARD kind of release my stress, I will try to rearrange my life after all these tough issues, and.... I will be continue my action on internet with Love and Healing as before I wish,
Since myself also gain new power and confidence by doing this, all your like or support sometimes make me shy but sincerely you are the reason make me keep going on ....
I am strong. But my strength is not unending. I am not indestructible. I depend on and lean on my faith to get me through good days and bad. ⠀
I recommend to anyone looking for answers to turn to god and find strength in scripture. We need to find a way to strengthen ourselves in the Lord. Do you cry out to Him and ask for strength when you are weak? I know for me, I find a great hope in scripture. I hold onto it for dear life and then I begin to worship. ⠀
Remember you are strong, and you are not alone.⠀
I turned 31 this year, & it’s hard to admit that until recently I was ruled by fear. Such an ugly feeling that can sneak its way into every aspect of life. Trauma, abuse, & instability from even before I was born created a state of alertness, tension, & nervousness that does not let you relax for even a second... you’re always expecting and ready for the worst. Always guarded & weary, fatigued from the strain. You feel helpless, trapped, and overwhelmed.. so much that basic little daily things can become too much to handle.
I’m so grateful to be free of those shackles finally and be excited to live more fully, presently, and abundantly. I’m still working through releasing old programming and patterns but I finally am done being a victim & allowing my life to be held hostage.
That’s not to say I don’t ever feel fear! It’s just that when I do, I observe it, recognize it, bless it & release it. I just kindly send it on it’s way because it doesn’t belong to me & does not serve me. I am too aware of myself, my strength, my power, my limitlessness, my potential to succumb. I let myself feel the fear and then I go ahead & move on with my life, following my instincts & trusting that I’m safe & supported.
I’ve always been a badass boss, warrior, champion, goddess... I just didn’t always acknowledge, believe, or honor it. Nor did I allow myself the full expression of this fierce badassery within. I’m done with hiding or dimming my light. I’m totally open & vulnerable and I afraid of being my best me and living my best life. My hope is that others can feel empowered to do the same. This post is for all the brave souls, whether struggling or winning, who keep showing up for yourself and others despite negative emotions that challenge you. I see you! Keep doing your thing! We are in this together! 💪🏽 @bold.and.bountiful
What do you see when you look in the mirror? I'm going to be frank! I not only see what I've overcome, an abundance of life, personal accomplishments, I also see death! I left a lot off this mirror. There are times when I look in the mirror and because of resemblance I reflect on what a family member went through. I'm completely okay with this. I understand how this can be a negative at times but I also know when we embrace death we appreciate life! This acknowledgment allows me to use my vessel in ways some can't. I'm sorry but I won't always use proper time management and if you walked in my shoes you probably wouldn't either. Life experiences have me believing time isn't always on our side so it's hard for me to wait on things I can make happen now! It's your birthright to live, just like it's your birthright to die!
My #topnine2018 included some kick ass tattoos by amazing artists. It included shaving my damn head and not looking back. It included a cancer diagnosis and kicking its ass! What could be better. Here’s to 2019! #survivor#cancersurvivor#kidneycancer
Do what u might. Give me the silent treatment, slander me, post all your passive-aggressive vomit on as many social media sites to your pleasure, you can discount me, you can pretend my family and I don’t exist, you can speak badly of me, you can justify your own narcissistic behavior, you can pretend you are the ambassador of peace when your messages are actually full of hate. u can do it all. But know, it will not change the truth, it will not change what happened to me (or you), it won’t change who I am or who so many know me to be. Know that I am no longer afraid of you excluding me, of your threats and slander attempts, of you trying to convince others to also hurt me. I know and speak the truth. The harder you try to silence me, the stronger my voice becomes. #survivor#survivorempowerment#siblingabuse#toxicfamilymembers#befree#speakyourtruth#silentnomore#wellness#metoo#gaslighting#smearcampaign#healthylife
Can’t believe 2018 is almost over. I’ll always remember 2018 because it’s the year I took my life back. It’s been one of the most challenging years of my life but also the most rewarding. God willing, 2019 will continue to be a great year full of self love, forgiveness and love. I want to travel the world. I want to run a marathon...even though I hate running I just want to push myself to do it.
If I had known that I would come out on the other side of talking about my traumas as a better person. I would have done it long ago. The truth was...I was afraid. Afraid that I would fall apart...afraid that I would make things worse...I always had this notion that having a mental breakdown was a luxury I couldn’t afford as a single mom. But my heart, my mouth, my mind...needed to release that toxic energy that was manifesting itself in my life in such a negative way.
I’m proud of myself for pushing past the pain-physically and mentally.
If you met me before 11/14/2017, you probably don’t really know me. How could you though? I didn’t even know me.
I’m at a place in my life where I’m just grateful and proud and full of love.
If you read this and you’re not happy with your life whether it’s losing weight or feeling depressed, or just feeling like you have no purpose...make small changes. Drink water. Do yoga. Stretch. Focus on one part of yourself until you find self love and then you’ll find yourself wanting no less than love and that seed of change you planted will bring more change.
Most importantly, forgive. It doesn’t mean you have to tell them...it damn sure doesn’t mean you have to be best friends. Your heart will feel lighter.
Lastly, forgive yourself. No matter what you did. You’re still here and your past is in the past which means you’re supposed to be here...not your past.
You deserve to be happy. Only you can make that happen but you have to fight for your happiness. The good news is, you’re a fighter.
Now go be a light in the world. ✌🏼
Why do I let people like this affect me so deeply? Because I know he represents countless thousands of others who also believe that rapists are just boys being boys, who also think that pedophiles just don't know any better, that women deserve to be victimized and who fundamentally refuse to support non-white creators but swear they "have black friends". Trash. Just trash. I let this guy get away with a lot, I would tell myself that he just said these things to get me riled up, that he didn't really believe them. But that's almost worse than if he believed it. Because he knew that I was a survivor of sexual abuse and he would still say these things to me. He's the same guy who attacked my mom earlier this year. Words cannot describe the fuck shit this ass hole put me through. Someday I will make a video, but not right now. I need to heal from this shit for a while. Moral of the story, it doesn't matter how long you've known someone or if you think they can change, if they're hurting you, leave. If they try to come after you and hurt you for leaving them, go to the authorities. Period.
Lord I want to thank you for the life you have blessed me with an allowing me to see another day...it may not be always trouble free or a life without challenges but I am grateful for those obstacles an trails because it made me whom I am today HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🎉🎁💪🏾💅🏾👑 #survivor
All creatures in the universe except humans, stay within their boundaries and rules of nature. It is only the human that goes beyond that and contaminates its limits and even self written rules. That regret and pretermit the human as visionary and supercilious.
Those of us who are "survivors" own our journey and relish in the idea of being celebrated.