on 1/22/2018 i spent the night in a hospital bed because my mental health issues began making me exhibit cardiac symptoms and i began taking wellbutrin SR, wellbutrin is an NDRI and is commonly used to treat depression
one of the major side effects of the drug is weight loss and i have lost 50 lbs in 11 months
my best friend once asked our doctor friend to give her wellbutrin and he said “why do you want that?” she motioned towards me and said “because look at how skinny she is”
the above scenario was harmless playing and it didn’t offend me at all, but the fact of the matter is that my weight loss comes at a price
the weight i have lost comes from a drug that treats unspeakable depression, being unable to do the most basic tasks sometimes, monitoring my life to avoid potential trauma induced flashbacks, self doubting more than you’ll ever fathom
for me, this drug put me in to a state of bipolar mania which means the weight i have lost also comes from spending sprees, cutting myself, having moments of being hysterical
i have days where i am literally fighting for my life because all of this is difficult, it’s ingrained in who i am to wonder if the world would be better without me in it, it’s impossible to imagine anyone seeing me for more than the fact that i am “crazy”
i am a highly functioning adult and i have been working as a nurse for almost a decade, i lead a relatively normal life most of the time, but i will always have to keep my mental health in the back of my mind
yes, this drug has made me “skinny and hot” but the price i pay to be on it is sometimes more than i can afford, don’t wish you were on this drug because it’s made me skinny, don’t wish for any of this, don’t take your mental health for granted
I stopped by a Christmas party on my way home from the hospital tonight. I parked in a dimly lot garage alone. I left alone while the party was still raging carrying this keychain on my way. And that is a true shame.
A shame that we live in a world where this is necessary. Where women few the need to check the reflection in the glass, not to check their lipstick, but to make sure there’s not someone following too close behind. A shame that even though she knows she locked the car, she still checks the back seat before getting in. A fucking shame that ONE in FIVE women will be raped in their lifetime. A shame that most survivors never come forward, and those that do are dismissed or blamed. And a shame that we accept these things as part of our reality. Why is this still a thing? Comprehension is beyond me tonight. .
I think you’ll agree with me when I say-
The power of positive thinking is remarkable.
In fact, the idea that your mind can change your world almost seems too good to be true.
I can assure you, however, that I have experienced AND witnessed the good that focusing on the positive can bring.
But before I get into that, let me ask you a question.
Can you guess what the most successful and happy people think about all day long?
The answer is quite simple…
Healthy, happy people think about what they want, and how to get it, most of the time. In this way developing a positive attitude can truly change your entire life.
When you think and talk about what you want and how to get it, you feel happier and in greater control of your life. When you think about something that makes you happy, your brain actually releases endorphins, which give you a generalized feeling of well-being.
As a result, you develop a positive attitude.
How to Think Positive
Based on many psychological tests, happy people seem to have a special quality that enables them to live a better life than the average.
Can you guess what it is?
It’s the quality of optimism!
The best news about optimism is that it is a learnable quality. That means you can learn how to think positive by taking adopting an optimistic mindset.
By the law of cause and effect, if you do and say what other healthy, happy people with positive attitudes do and say, you will soon feel the same way, get the same results, and enjoy the same experiences that they do.
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I’m back in black! It’s great to be backstage at work again, but the fatigue from going back to a full-time schedule is pretty serious. I’m way behind on laundry, so it was time to bust out this hilarious shirt for my backstage gear tonight. (Side note: I definitely bought this shirt online during chemo, but have absolutely no idea where I purchased it from. CHEMO BRAIN IS REAL, Y’ALL.)
#Repost @demure_lyfe Sis , your work ... is profound. Keep healing our people 💕 ・・・
I have to share this story because I’ve literally been crying since... This is Lashaun... he’s a new apprentice of mine... we met a few months ago and he came in with his then-girlfriend who is a student of mine as well... The moment we saw each other I saw him as a very young child... and I was left confused ... he looked about 10 years old... I thought she was babysitting LOL , I told him that and we were fast friends...it was a instant family connection and I felt like he was like my #child or kid #brother ... Fast forward to today... we’re working together and he shared something with me I had no prior knowledge on... When he was 10 years old... his mother who was only 26 at the time ...drove him and his 3 siblings 5 years, 2 years , 11 months over a local bridge ... and he is the #survivor ... he escaped through a window... I wanted to share with you his source of survival... his movement and #breath ... he’s only 18 years old... this was only 8 short years ago... Look at this young #King ... he’s unbreakable .
Demure Lyfe is for this type of growth and healing... THIS is why I do what I do.
Music by Daniel Caesar - We Find Love find full video on Demure Lyfe’s Facebook page... the smile he shares at the end is worth switching platforms.
This should be viral. #demurelyfe#healing#blackboyjoy#keepgoing#tagafriend#healingtraumas#wefindlove#danielcaesar @danielcaesar @theellenshow @oprah #viralvideos#goviral#viral#taichi#qigong#shamanicdance#indigenous#thisisamerica
Trailer of documentary film "Survivor"
Fourteen years ago the tsunami hit the coast of Aceh and left a memory that has became a tsunami tourism site in the Lampulo, Banda Aceh, the Ship above the House.
Bundiyah binti Sahan, commonly known as Wak Kolak is one of 59 people who survived the tsunami in 2004 because of the ship. Her story on how she survived the tsunami, her activity before tsunami, and her daily activity after tsunami are the story of this documentary.
This is the second Survivor Story submitted to #TheSurvivorTreeProject . Transcribing this anonymous young woman’s story truly took me on a journey... She detailed five different encounters at the hands of five different men, and not once was there a hint anger or rage or vengeance coloring her story- only a need for someone to listen to her voice and believe her. She finished her essay with a powerful plea: two words “HEAR ME.” I do hear you, Survivor. I believe you. You are so many things: kind, compassionate, powerful, curious, intelligent, beautiful, empathetic... and so much more. This community is going to change the world. What happened to you is not the way things are, but the way things WERE. The way things WILL BE is up to us; and let me tell you- WE’VE GOT THIS. That, I’m sure of. •
I had the opportunity to exchange a few messages with this woman, and her heart is SO big. We discussed the concept and importance of grief in all of its stages, as well as the ideas of catharsis and closure. Then she expressed concern for me and my wellbeing as it might be affected by internalizing all of these stories. I was honest with her and told her that I was worried about the effect it might have on my anxiety and cPTSD, but then she gave me a wonderful gift that I will hold so dear through this process of creating The Survivor Tree: she told me that with each story I transcribe I don’t have to feel heartbroken- because through this work, survivors are healing. The power over these stories is evolving. And I have kept that with me which each story I’ve transcribed after that. I can never thank you enough for that, Survivor. ✨🌱 Click the link in my bio if others would like to contribute your story. #survivor#believesurvivors#believewomen#believeblackwomen#rapesurvivor#thesurvivortreeproject#metoo#timesup#endrapeculture#metoomovement
First Richard from @traveltramp_uk used his drone to capture this amazing shot of Katanhawan Big island.
You can see the beach on the right side of the island which they used for the TV Show, Survivor: Caramoan.
Only a part of the island was used for the shows.
On the left side of the island, which is where we visited is where the locals live.
The island reminds me a lot of Jamaica.
It's quite hot on the island, but you have lots of shade and of course the ocean.
Fishing is the main source of income here. Its amazing to see hpw many fishing hooks the ladies have to sort.
Its not easy to get here.
A flight to Manila then another to Legazpi on Cebu Pacific or Philippine Airlines, then a 3-hour drive to the port, then a 1.5 hour high speed boat ride to the resort, Tugawe Cove and then another 30 minutes fishing boat ride to the island.
Hey. Casual. Just two cancer survivors hanging out in their favorite place, a used book store. With free books. Did you know that @positivelykay_ has been one of my closest friends through post treatment life? @instagram connected us. Then we took the leap and went full text. And I haven’t stopped texting her since
And the texts have been life saving. Someone who gets it. Who lets me go full cancer and doesn’t make me feel like I need to change the subject. Who laughs at my joint pain jokes. Who tells me I can feel beautiful again. Who brings me to tears with her pep talks and hilarity
What a privilege to be able to sit and talk for hours. Or maybe watch @greysabc for hours. To just laugh and be with my friend irl. It’s amazing. The internet can be a weird place, but when we say we’ve found a community on here, we truly have. An absolutely lovely one. #thanksinternet
Bark bark (hello)! Welcome to my Instagram! I am Mickey Mantle Morris. I also go by MickeyMoo, Micker or FlufferMickMuffin. Here’s a little about me
-I love KONG balls
-I need lots of walks
-I have been hit by a car #survivor
-I also have eaten rat poisoning, had a tumor on my head, cut my nose on a knife and had a ton of Godiva chocolate (the good chocolate)
-I am extremely spoiled and loved by my family
-I love baseball and am named after Mickey Mantle (Go Yankees)! I am looking forward to posting and talking to my fans!
Dec 15th! 💖 🙏☀️🌙⭐️ .
Today I am “technically 2 years in remission. 3 more years to go until I can say I am “Cancer Free”
2 years ago today I lost a part of myself that I never knew would mean so much to a woman. I lost both my breasts. I had these photos done before going into surgery. As I knew I’d never be the same. It’s been a huge emotional letting go, coming to terms with and accepting. But, on this day Dec 15th I also removed something that almost took my life.
I battled with knowing if it was the right choice... We have to remember that usually choices are made with the information we have at that time. If I was to do it again, I’d do it different. but there is nothing useful in going back in any way and many opinions. .
I am here. Living. Breathing. I did what I did in a moment of not taking any chances, I did it for one reason only for our daughter, Snow.
Many may not understand this but the grief has not been about image. It’s far deeper it’s been about never being able to nurse again.. and worrying was this less healthy and harder on my system then any doctor, nurse or professional ever discussed with me.
It’s been about taking steps back... then more steps forward. Trying to live in the moment but also awaiting this day today. When you get Cancer you pray to reach your 2 year mark. So today is the day I made it!
When you reach your 2 year, there is a bit lesser chance of a reoccurrence. Triple negative breast cancer usually comes back with a vengeance sooner then later. I still really don’t know why I have made it at such an advance stage 3b.. when I’ve watched many friends I’ve met through this journey pass away that I thought were good.
Thank you life for making it through all that I have. I’m proud of you body, mind and spirit. I love you for your flaws, your scars and most of all your strength to be able to navigate some how through it all and never giving up even when I’ve wanted to many times.
Thank you to all that have shown their support and love over these years.
Life can be beautiful and hard. I post these as always a reminded how quickly life can change. 💕 #breastcancer#survivor
Love is more than thoughts and words. If someone keeps hurting you, consider whether you feel loved by them, or if they’re just TELLING YOU they love you. You decide who you keep in your life. Make room for real love.
I’ve always admired the lonely warrior women, from sailor moon to Buffy the idea of balancing strength and femininity an amazing concept. This one is called “I am the teeth”
Enjoy all my warrior women out there trying to kick ass and being beautiful while doing it.
When you look at me what do you see? Do you see me beyond my beauty?
That I’m more beyond my thighs and my hips, my caramel skin and soft kissed lips. .
My long dark hair and almond brown eyes. Beyond the way that some parts tend to rise. .
If you took a look deeper you’d see a heart; A heart that has many battle scars. .
Would you see that there once was a time I no longer wanted to be alive? How I grew tired of my heart trying to survive?
That from years ago my scars began. And it seems through the years it would happen again and again. .
But at my lowest point Someone spoke to me and said, “My child on earth is where you need to be. .
For when I created you in your mother’s womb, I already knew today I was going to speak to you. .
To tell you to dry your eyes and listen here. For I have so much more in store for you my dear. .
I know the path I’ve given you hasn’t always been green. But when I created you, I was creating a queen. .
As a queen, you must be strong and have no fear and you must fight but, that does not mean you won’t cry tears at night. .
See the beauty I created is not seen with the eyes. The beauty I created lies deep within you, inside. .
You are still turning out to be the woman I want you to be. But what I ask of you is do not lose faith in Me.” .
So, again I ask, when you look at me now what do you see? Do you see me beyond the exterior beauty?
Never underestimate the battles never spoken because of God you’d never know I was previously broken. .
God spoke to me and told me to rise. So here I am today more beautiful than what you see with your eyes!
~Angel M. Gibson~