You know when you start to think you’ve actually been feeling pretty good lately? A couple less painful days a month. Less Endo belly, less migraines and exhaustion and stress. And then, out of no where, life side swipes you and you’re in a tail spin of excruciating pain and frustration in what feels like an instant? For me, that was today. I’m annoyed with my body. Irritated and mad. Just another obstacle when I was finally feeling “ok” 😥
SUMMER READY.....This is the best time of the year! Jet Ski season, just picked up the beast ready to hit the water and wild out. I keep it smart, scholarly, classy, respectful but a little hood at times. It’s no greater gift than being street smart, and book smart. Putting that SWAGG into the educator role. #getthatdegree#bewhoyouare#switchitup#stillawarrior#godsarmy
I felt myself breaking and it wasn’t a single moment that brought me there... it was too many to sort through... it was small incidents and hurtful situations... it was fear, it was vulnerability, it was disappointment in myself... I wanted to turn life off for a moment, not suicide, but to turn off my thoughts, turn off my hurt, turn of my tears, turn off my anger, I wanted to shut down and I called my family with tears barely able to say I’m having a hard time again... and no one asked what was wrong... everyone asked what did I need and that being the focus helped me get through.
If you have a loved one who battles mental illness be patient try to get them to focus on the current moment, what they need in this second and then the next. My family and friends was okay with what I felt I needed including me wanting to go into the hospital. No judgement, just helping me find the space to get what I needed. •
Emergency appointments with my therapist, sleeping somewhere other than home, painting, keeping my phone away, only talking to those who I trusted and being ok in the space I was in brought me out. I’m thankful and I’m better and when I have a “hard time” again I feel strong in knowing I can heal me with the right tools and transparency.
This is my sister, Alison. As many of you know, she is a breast cancer survivor. She is an incredible representation of strength and grace, and I am so glad that the universe chose me to be her sister.
My sisters are my heroes. ******REPOST****** A tattoo? Really?
Definitely not me. But then again, I didn’t think a lot of things about my life were really “me”. Especially cancer. Even after 4 years, it’s still a part of my daily life. Every time I shower, change clothes or look in the mirror, I see the many battle scars. Every time I pick something up, I feel the tug on reconstructed tissue. Every time I cough or sneeze, or God forbid, throw up, I feel the pinch of manipulated muscles and tendons. Every time there is a twinge of pain or burning in my chest, the worry, anxiety and panic of recurrence floods my mind, even if only for a moment.
But I am learning that while it will always be a part of my story, cancer does not have the power to define me. I am a cancer survivor, yes, even if it comes back. But I am also a wife, mother, sister, daughter, friend, and teacher, as well.
This tattoo is a statement. It is a part of the reclamation of my body. It’s symbolism and location are important to who I am and what I need. The octopus is for my “octopi”, the glorious friends who do this thing called “life” with me. The twisted tentacle represents a cancer ribbon, for the survivor in me. And the arrow is for my soul sisters following me wherever I need them to go. The location is on my upper right chest, over the scar from my mediport.
Now when I look in the mirror, it’s one less scar I see. Instead of a reminder of pain and fear, now I see a symbol of strength, love and resilience.
I took a fascinating art therapy workshop today and loved our experiential component of creating our own warrior headbands! If you know me, you know how much sense it makes that mine looks like a princess crown. #stillawarrior#arttherapy#svanyc
I get angry. I get irritated. I get bitchy. I get down. I cry. I hate myself and the entire world at times. I'll cuss and I'll scream...
But you won't understand because you can't see. There's a battle inside of me. I fight it everyday.
And most of the time? I'm on the losing side.
I just wish you could see.
-Sheila Maria Brady...just me.
#MentalIllness . #Undiagnosed . #StillAWarrior . #AlwaysKeepFighting !
YOUR SCARS ARE WORTH THE CAUSE!
In your attempt to wake up to purpose, the adversary will fight you on all fronts. Stand your ground and resist him at all cost in the power of God"s strength. Fight for purpose even if it will cost you a million scars and bruises. Scars do speak, and yours will speak for you some day. And you know what, they are worth the fight because living for your Maker's purpose is the essence of your life! Do something purposeful today! I salute all warriors in the battlefield! Shalom!
Almost a year ago, a devastating brain aneurysm/stroke devastated my life and the lives of my family! I have made huge strides in my recovery, but I still have such a long road ahead! It's frustrating because I'm not where I need to be right now, but I have to remind myself that I am still here and I'm still a wife and mother to the people that love me and take care of me! I get very emotional because my kids and husband have a lot on their plate and I worry especially about my kids, but I shouldn't. because they are beautiful, healthy and very intelligent people. The girls, in particular, are straight A students and will continue to be. They are kind, loving and caring! I am so proud of all 3 of my kids. Although this experience is tough, it is making them stronger and better people. I am the person I am today because I , also, had to take care of my mother when I was young.#survivor#stillawarrior#lookatwhatICanDo#fuckyeah
Feeling super accomplished! I walked up my front steps to my house! No ramp needed today!!!! This badass Bisch walked up my front steps very successfully and it was witnessed by my husband and three children!!lots of hi-5's, hugs snd kisses when I made it all the way up!! #survivor#stillawarrior#fuckyeah#ididthat
I have onIy seen 2 posts and I'm already like stfu!🙌🏻🤗👌🏻😎✔️✔️👏🏼😜😭😇🤣😉😝😭😭but I said please!?!?!😭🆒😭😭👀 while some people are being annoying I'm over here trying to catch my breath and drink water because I worked hard during my physical therapy session! I push past the pain and push past being tired And I get it done! I literally felt like something Clicked in my brain! I picked up my left foot and placed it on the step and put it back down10 times on both legs! It is harder at times to bring my foot back down so that it lands correctly. My focus is so much better and so is my control of my legs snd feet!#stillawarrior#progress