Ever get a sense of urgency that you’re gonna jump out of your skin if you don’t just ‘gooo’? Can’t shake that feeling lately. Feels so good to be on the road, but after being parked in (one of my) hometowns for the past week, I’m already overly ready to continue on my journey. A peaceful rejuvenating few days in the woods by my lonesome sounds pretty good right now. All this extroversion lately is taking its toll on me😅 time to recharge. Goodnight👽
I did something for myself today... totally on a whim, totally guilt-free.
When I left my #solidcrew from our #phishcation , instead of driving straight back to Sacramento, I said, "fuck it" and drove over to Emerald Bay. I took myself on a bit too long of a hike for someone whose limbs were danced off over 2 days of epic live music. #worthit I was the only person in those woods. It was almost creepy except that it was glorious.
I ended up at a secluded beach; I said "fuck it" and stripped down to my skivvies; and I swam way out into the middle of the bay. I just floated there for probably close to an hour. It was nothing short of amazing, and I am so glad I did it. I can't even tell you the last time I went swimming or hiking by myself.
On the way back down the mountain into our hot ass valley, I also randomly said "fuck it" and turned off and up a pass to a meadow-y area I am fond of this time of year. I foraged bunches of #elderflower#mullein#yarrow#stjohnswort#firtips and #pinepitch before I stumbled upon a bear den (see my stories!) and promptly ran back to my truck and rolled on home.
It was a damn good day. I needed it. I am so glad I let all the mom guilt and the this-wasnt-planned and the I-don't-even-know-where-I'm-going and the I-really-should-get-home stuff GO and just DID IT. Moms, let's agree to say "fuck it" more often for the sake of our sanity, shall we?
Thanks for your patience as I adventured the past 3 days! I will answer all of your emails and messages and go to the post office with all of your orders tomorrow.
🌊Чтобы встретиться с тобой наедине, нужно проснуться в 4 утра и пройти 40 минут по ещё не успевшему уснуть городу.
🌊Именно в момент, когда кто-то только что ушёл, а спешащие на замену ещё спят, ты бываешь безмятежно спокойно в своём одиночестве.
🌊Встречаю рассвет, чтобы увидеть тебя настоящее- чистое и прозрачное, отражающее солнечные блики, послушать твои рассказы и не перебивать, прикоснуться к твоей глади и вдохнуть полной грудью особый запах морского ветра.
Final tbt when I failed at 385 last year. I didn’t know any better, I wasn’t completely aware of my body, I wasn’t strong enough, and I had to learn and correct my mistakes and weaknesses if I wanted to grow from this.
This is why I compare strength and fitness to life and progress: at the end of the day, when it comes to lifting weights and living life, no coach, teammate, friend, or acquaintance can lift it for you. You have to make the decision to build the courage and knowledge within.
When we step to that bar or on that platform, it’s only you who has the power and will to lift whatever it is that is before you.
This compares to life bc in moments like this where we feel like we have nowhere to turn to, we have own up and take charge of our failed attempts at life and lifts.
We must study, we must invest, we must take and make time for ourselves and be okay with learning from our lessons.
We may often feel alone in instances such as this but whoever said there was anything wrong with moments of solitude?
Keep thriving y’all. Peace.