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Well, I knew as soon as I told you all how awesome my sleep has been that it would be over. Lol. .
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 I tossed and turned all night and really didn't sleep that well, but I'm still going to get on my grind and make progress even if it ends up being not much. .
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That's my life now though, I have to accept that I won't always get everything done that I want to but as long as I don't give up and keep taking them baby steps, I'll get where I want. It just might take me longer and that's ok. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
Well, I knew as soon as I told you all how awesome my sleep has been that it would be over. Lol. . . I tossed and turned all night and really didn't sleep that well, but I'm still going to get on my grind and make progress even if it ends up being not much. . . That's my life now though, I have to accept that I won't always get everything done that I want to but as long as I don't give up and keep taking them baby steps, I'll get where I want. It just might take me longer and that's ok. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
Im completely blown away that my sleep has stayed consistent after running through the 10 capsule course of 10mg cbd and 2mg melatonin. Those things really hit the reset button on my body for sleep.
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 I've been going to bed between 8:30 and 9:30 and getting up between 5am and 6am every night. Which means 8 hrs EVERY night without interruption. .
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This is absolutely huge for me. Before, no matter how tired I was going to sleep it was almost guaranteed that I would wake up many times in pain or having to go to the bathroom. It's been a week since I finished the course and my sleep is still going strong. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam! What cannabis product has helped you the most lately?
Im completely blown away that my sleep has stayed consistent after running through the 10 capsule course of 10mg cbd and 2mg melatonin. Those things really hit the reset button on my body for sleep. . . I've been going to bed between 8:30 and 9:30 and getting up between 5am and 6am every night. Which means 8 hrs EVERY night without interruption. . . This is absolutely huge for me. Before, no matter how tired I was going to sleep it was almost guaranteed that I would wake up many times in pain or having to go to the bathroom. It's been a week since I finished the course and my sleep is still going strong. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam! What cannabis product has helped you the most lately?
I hope you guys have an amazing week. Mine is starting off pretty good. I woke up not feeling like ass just a little tired. Such a big improvement over the last 2 days. I hope it sticks all day today. What are your big goals this week? .
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I'm trying to get through a bunch of minis and get them done as a little Birdy told me the new age of sigmar starter set would be In my life soon, which has 54 new models from games workshop for both of my armies.
I hope you guys have an amazing week. Mine is starting off pretty good. I woke up not feeling like ass just a little tired. Such a big improvement over the last 2 days. I hope it sticks all day today. What are your big goals this week? . . I'm trying to get through a bunch of minis and get them done as a little Birdy told me the new age of sigmar starter set would be In my life soon, which has 54 new models from games workshop for both of my armies.
Happy #shatterday you beautiful people!!! We're going to my brother in law's birthday party today. Looking forward to seeing the fam and relaxing today.
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I still haven't heard back from the doc on my tests yet so hopefully that happens soon. These perpetual holding patterns with my healthcare can really suck sometimes. I miss my corporate health insurance, but my old day job was literally killing me slowly every day. .
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What was the last soul crushing job you've had? Are you still there? .
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I worked as an engineer in the silicon industry for 12 years and had many abusive co-workers and one particularly bad boss that screwed with my career constantly. No matter how hard I worked that job constantly demanded more and more that I give up pieces of myself. It wasn't until my body broke completely that I had the courage to leave that place.
Happy #shatterday  you beautiful people!!! We're going to my brother in law's birthday party today. Looking forward to seeing the fam and relaxing today. . . I still haven't heard back from the doc on my tests yet so hopefully that happens soon. These perpetual holding patterns with my healthcare can really suck sometimes. I miss my corporate health insurance, but my old day job was literally killing me slowly every day. . . What was the last soul crushing job you've had? Are you still there? . . I worked as an engineer in the silicon industry for 12 years and had many abusive co-workers and one particularly bad boss that screwed with my career constantly. No matter how hard I worked that job constantly demanded more and more that I give up pieces of myself. It wasn't until my body broke completely that I had the courage to leave that place.
Good morning instafam!! My joint pain was seriously kicking my ass from the afternoon on yesterday. I should hear from the doc on my tests today and some next steps.
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I'm hopeful for that but maintain low expectations about where it's going. I've been disappointed too many times in my life having unrealistic expectations and I'm determined to not do that to myself anymore. Especially with this medical crap and especially since I still don't have good answers about what's going on with my body. I'm so sick of being in pain all the time. It makes it so hard to focus.
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope your day is awesome and tomorrow is better.
Good morning instafam!! My joint pain was seriously kicking my ass from the afternoon on yesterday. I should hear from the doc on my tests today and some next steps. . . I'm hopeful for that but maintain low expectations about where it's going. I've been disappointed too many times in my life having unrealistic expectations and I'm determined to not do that to myself anymore. Especially with this medical crap and especially since I still don't have good answers about what's going on with my body. I'm so sick of being in pain all the time. It makes it so hard to focus. . . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope your day is awesome and tomorrow is better.
Good morning fam and welcome to #humpday!! I've been moving a lot slower from the afternoon on the last couple of days. My joint pain has been through the roof and I woke up to feeling like I was getting stabbed to death in the guts. I got through my initial tests for the Dr so hopefully I will hear something soon and start figuring something out.
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you have an amazing day, I'm goin to try to paint this morning so we will see how that goes. What are you guys up to today?
Good morning fam and welcome to #humpday !! I've been moving a lot slower from the afternoon on the last couple of days. My joint pain has been through the roof and I woke up to feeling like I was getting stabbed to death in the guts. I got through my initial tests for the Dr so hopefully I will hear something soon and start figuring something out. . . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you have an amazing day, I'm goin to try to paint this morning so we will see how that goes. What are you guys up to today?
Well I finally made it back to the Doctor. He brought up some things that we can look at and so another round of blood draws and stool samples was my fun yesterday. Based on that we have some next steps so we will see what happens.
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 The whole appointment left me pretty hopeful that maybe something can be done to improve my physical situation again. So I'm gonna roll with that for now. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam! What has given you hope today?
Well I finally made it back to the Doctor. He brought up some things that we can look at and so another round of blood draws and stool samples was my fun yesterday. Based on that we have some next steps so we will see what happens. . . The whole appointment left me pretty hopeful that maybe something can be done to improve my physical situation again. So I'm gonna roll with that for now. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam! What has given you hope today?
Happy Father's day!!! Looking forward to a relaxing day catching up on my backlog of minis to paint. I hope you guys have an amazing day and even if you cant spend the day with your Dad, I hope you give him a call and have those important heart to heart talks. I lost those opportunities with Mom when she passed and I dont intend to miss any with Dad while he is still around.
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. What are your Father's Day plans?
Happy Father's day!!! Looking forward to a relaxing day catching up on my backlog of minis to paint. I hope you guys have an amazing day and even if you cant spend the day with your Dad, I hope you give him a call and have those important heart to heart talks. I lost those opportunities with Mom when she passed and I dont intend to miss any with Dad while he is still around. . . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. What are your Father's Day plans?
What is going on fam? I hope your week has started out good. I ended throwing up my morning protein shake yesterday so I don't know if I'm going to drink one this morning or not. It was rough and I'm still recovering in some ways. .
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My Dr appointment is in another week so hopefully I'll get some answers then for my increasingly horrible nausea.
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I hope you guys are having an awesome week, #staypositive, and show the world who you are. Let's do something different today. Comment below one thing you do that helps define who you are. Let's all get to know each other a little better!
What is going on fam? I hope your week has started out good. I ended throwing up my morning protein shake yesterday so I don't know if I'm going to drink one this morning or not. It was rough and I'm still recovering in some ways. . . My Dr appointment is in another week so hopefully I'll get some answers then for my increasingly horrible nausea. . . I hope you guys are having an awesome week, #staypositive , and show the world who you are. Let's do something different today. Comment below one thing you do that helps define who you are. Let's all get to know each other a little better!
I got a 10 pack of Potionz cbd capsules with 10mg of cbd and 2mg of melatonin. Getting good restful sleep has been one of my biggest struggles lately and I'm hoping these will help. I tried the first one last night and I got 8 solid hours and woke up feeling like I actually slept. .
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I'm still not even close to 100% but sleep helps so much. Still, I'm going to try and get some shop time in today. .
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Also, I've decided since this flare has gone on so long and been so rough that I won't be attending @kushmarketplace1 on Wednesday.  The travel will be too much on me unfortunately.  It sucks to miss out on opportunities for my future but my health has to come first. .
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I hope you guys have a fantastic day and a great start to your week, what is next on your agenda?
I got a 10 pack of Potionz cbd capsules with 10mg of cbd and 2mg of melatonin. Getting good restful sleep has been one of my biggest struggles lately and I'm hoping these will help. I tried the first one last night and I got 8 solid hours and woke up feeling like I actually slept. . . I'm still not even close to 100% but sleep helps so much. Still, I'm going to try and get some shop time in today. . . Also, I've decided since this flare has gone on so long and been so rough that I won't be attending @kushmarketplace1 on Wednesday. The travel will be too much on me unfortunately. It sucks to miss out on opportunities for my future but my health has to come first. . . I hope you guys have a fantastic day and a great start to your week, what is next on your agenda?
Rocking this wake and bake!! Feeling in a better place mentally today which is good since I still feel like shit. I can't stress enough how important sleep is for your physical and mental health. I definitely feel recharged in those areas today, where on normal days I feel like I only get a 50% charge every night. .
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I'm going to be good to myself and just keep resting. I have a couple errands I need to run so that's my goal for the day. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you have a restful and relaxing day. What are you doing to take it easy today?
Rocking this wake and bake!! Feeling in a better place mentally today which is good since I still feel like shit. I can't stress enough how important sleep is for your physical and mental health. I definitely feel recharged in those areas today, where on normal days I feel like I only get a 50% charge every night. . . I'm going to be good to myself and just keep resting. I have a couple errands I need to run so that's my goal for the day. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you have a restful and relaxing day. What are you doing to take it easy today?
My fuck it day yesterday turned out to be pretty productive until my body told me to in no uncertain terms to knock that shit off.
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But you know what? I'm doing it again today. I'm still out of fucks to give over how bad my body feels and I'm taking advantage until that changes.
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Are you guys interested in me livestreaming my shop time? I will figure out a live setup and do that whenever I'm out there. But only if you guys actually want to see it.
My fuck it day yesterday turned out to be pretty productive until my body told me to in no uncertain terms to knock that shit off. . . But you know what? I'm doing it again today. I'm still out of fucks to give over how bad my body feels and I'm taking advantage until that changes. . . Are you guys interested in me livestreaming my shop time? I will figure out a live setup and do that whenever I'm out there. But only if you guys actually want to see it.
Good freaking morning you beautiful people!!!!! I hope your week has been more productive than mine so far. I got some stuff done yesterday but I still feel like total ass. Oh well baby steps and self care and all that. .
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Seriously though, the new rig design is seriously close to being ready for production. I can't wait to get the test piece made and share some eye candy with you all. It's going to be gorgeous.
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Hit me up if you are in Seattle next Wednesday June 13th for the Kush Marketplace Event. I'll be there all day checking out the industry offerings and doing the influencer thing.
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, have a fantastic day! For my #washinstonians, what #i502producerprocessor or other cannabis retailers do you want to see on here for reviews and giveaways?
Good freaking morning you beautiful people!!!!! I hope your week has been more productive than mine so far. I got some stuff done yesterday but I still feel like total ass. Oh well baby steps and self care and all that. . . Seriously though, the new rig design is seriously close to being ready for production. I can't wait to get the test piece made and share some eye candy with you all. It's going to be gorgeous. . . Hit me up if you are in Seattle next Wednesday June 13th for the Kush Marketplace Event. I'll be there all day checking out the industry offerings and doing the influencer thing. . . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, have a fantastic day! For my #washinstonians , what #i502producerprocessor  or other cannabis retailers do you want to see on here for reviews and giveaways?
I slept super deep last night and actually woke up with some energy. My guts are trying to take it away as fast as possible so we will see how the day goes. .
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I do have an update on the lying and not dying cancer faker we had in our lives for a bit. Karma is a bitch and I have a strong feeling that it's about to come her way full force. The universe always catches up to you when you least expect it and it's good that some of the negative energy she put out there is coming back to her in a big way. It makes me smile at least lol.
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Be careful out there fam! Stay true to yourself and keep those positive vibes rolling. Don't let the liers, fakes, and haters get you down. They all get theirs in the end. When was the last time you saw that delicious karma in action?
I slept super deep last night and actually woke up with some energy. My guts are trying to take it away as fast as possible so we will see how the day goes. . . I do have an update on the lying and not dying cancer faker we had in our lives for a bit. Karma is a bitch and I have a strong feeling that it's about to come her way full force. The universe always catches up to you when you least expect it and it's good that some of the negative energy she put out there is coming back to her in a big way. It makes me smile at least lol. . . Be careful out there fam! Stay true to yourself and keep those positive vibes rolling. Don't let the liers, fakes, and haters get you down. They all get theirs in the end. When was the last time you saw that delicious karma in action?
Good morning fam! I hope you guys have a fantastic start of your week! I'm feeling slightly better and slept most of yesterday.
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I've been having a really hard time eating due to extreme nausea and loss of appetite. So yeah, when I don't feel like I'm going to constantly vomit, I have no desire to eat because it usually results in immediate pain and more time on the toilet.
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It's been my biggest struggle lately and the main reason I'm going back to the doctors. I've lost another 10 lbs over the last 3 months because of this which isn't great since my ribs are already showing.
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It's been hard staying positive but somehow I've managed to stay out of depression land. I know you guys are a big part of that. Your comments and DMs keep me going big time. So thank you for all of your support fam. This week I'm going to be concentrating on kicking off production of my new #designerglass collab and getting the Etsy store opened.  What are your big goals this week?
Good morning fam! I hope you guys have a fantastic start of your week! I'm feeling slightly better and slept most of yesterday. . . I've been having a really hard time eating due to extreme nausea and loss of appetite. So yeah, when I don't feel like I'm going to constantly vomit, I have no desire to eat because it usually results in immediate pain and more time on the toilet. . . It's been my biggest struggle lately and the main reason I'm going back to the doctors. I've lost another 10 lbs over the last 3 months because of this which isn't great since my ribs are already showing. . . It's been hard staying positive but somehow I've managed to stay out of depression land. I know you guys are a big part of that. Your comments and DMs keep me going big time. So thank you for all of your support fam. This week I'm going to be concentrating on kicking off production of my new #designerglass  collab and getting the Etsy store opened. What are your big goals this week?
Well at some point I know I'll wake up feeling better but it's not happening today. I woke up in pain and having to rush to the bathroom. And unlike last night I couldn't get back to sleep after.  Oh well. I'm just going to sit on this couch in limbo another day.
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I keep having to remind myself that these days aren't wasted, my job just changes from doing want I want, to doing what I need. Taking care of myself is a full time job, and I have to allow myself the mental space for that to be ok today. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope your day is bright and filled with progress.
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How are you doing today?
Well at some point I know I'll wake up feeling better but it's not happening today. I woke up in pain and having to rush to the bathroom. And unlike last night I couldn't get back to sleep after. Oh well. I'm just going to sit on this couch in limbo another day. . . I keep having to remind myself that these days aren't wasted, my job just changes from doing want I want, to doing what I need. Taking care of myself is a full time job, and I have to allow myself the mental space for that to be ok today. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope your day is bright and filled with progress. . . How are you doing today?
Well I ended up resting again yesterday and today I woke up to pain in my guts. It's like my body doesn't want me to work. Well, screw that. I'm still going to get shit done even if it's not right away. I still have some things I can do from the couch so today won't go to waste. I hope you guys have an amazing day and don't let those setbacks get you down, tomorrow is another shot at greatness and you can do it!
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, what are you doing to chase that #grind today?
Well I ended up resting again yesterday and today I woke up to pain in my guts. It's like my body doesn't want me to work. Well, screw that. I'm still going to get shit done even if it's not right away. I still have some things I can do from the couch so today won't go to waste. I hope you guys have an amazing day and don't let those setbacks get you down, tomorrow is another shot at greatness and you can do it! . . . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, what are you doing to chase that #grind  today?
I spent most of yesterday down hard, I'm hoping today will be better.  There are so many things I want to work on but can't when I feel this shitty.  Oh well, time to prioritize and get the most important thing done first. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you guys have an amazing day!!
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I still have #bulletpipes #bulletdabbers and #designerglass available for sale, check out the story highlights on my profile and DM me if you want something. .
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I'm also working on the next flash giveaway, which will hopefully be starting soon.  What kinds of things would you guys like to see in future giveaways?
I spent most of yesterday down hard, I'm hoping today will be better. There are so many things I want to work on but can't when I feel this shitty. Oh well, time to prioritize and get the most important thing done first. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you guys have an amazing day!! . . . I still have #bulletpipes  #bulletdabbers  and #designerglass  available for sale, check out the story highlights on my profile and DM me if you want something. . . . I'm also working on the next flash giveaway, which will hopefully be starting soon. What kinds of things would you guys like to see in future giveaways?
I feel like total ass, so it's time to blow some big ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ! I had a great time yesterday hanging out with a long time friend I don't get to see very often. .
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It was super cool and he forced me into a play through of #dokidokiliteratureclub I went in totally blind and was glad I did and glad that I experienced it while in a good place mentally. The game dealt with some heavy subjects (anxiety, depression, etc) so I don't recommend this game if you are struggling in those areas, but otherwise it was one of the most unique and creative concepts for a game I've ever seen.  There are still a thousand things going through my head from my playthrough and I may do a couple more in the future. This game is not what it seems on the surface at all and it's free to play on Steam if you want to check it out.
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Anyhow, I hope you guys are feeling better than me today, and you can get one step closer to your goals! .
What's the last great video game experience you've had?
I feel like total ass, so it's time to blow some big ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ! I had a great time yesterday hanging out with a long time friend I don't get to see very often. . . It was super cool and he forced me into a play through of #dokidokiliteratureclub  I went in totally blind and was glad I did and glad that I experienced it while in a good place mentally. The game dealt with some heavy subjects (anxiety, depression, etc) so I don't recommend this game if you are struggling in those areas, but otherwise it was one of the most unique and creative concepts for a game I've ever seen. There are still a thousand things going through my head from my playthrough and I may do a couple more in the future. This game is not what it seems on the surface at all and it's free to play on Steam if you want to check it out. . . Anyhow, I hope you guys are feeling better than me today, and you can get one step closer to your goals! . What's the last great video game experience you've had?
It's always a great morning when I open my eyes and roll over to say good morning to my lady and pain shoots through every muscle and joint in my body. I didn't do anything strenuous yesterday either, so not sure what's up with that.
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 Anyhoo, one of my good friends is stopping by today to play some games and I'm really looking forward to it even if I have to spend most of the day in a chair.
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I hope you guys have an awesome day! Any special plans for the weekend? โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!
It's always a great morning when I open my eyes and roll over to say good morning to my lady and pain shoots through every muscle and joint in my body. I didn't do anything strenuous yesterday either, so not sure what's up with that. . . . Anyhoo, one of my good friends is stopping by today to play some games and I'm really looking forward to it even if I have to spend most of the day in a chair. . . . I hope you guys have an awesome day! Any special plans for the weekend? โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!
Starting my day off right with some tasty GG #4 BHO from @kibblejunction. For an $11 gram I had my doubts on quality but it is pretty smooth, has that classic GG flavor and gives me the extreme sativa effect good GG has on me. Very impressed, and I think I'll be heading back to @freedom_markets for more!
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Happy Saturday fam!! I woke up in some pain this morning but I have energy again so I'll be able to get some more house projects done today hopefully. My wife reminded me that it was Memorial Day weekend. So I hope today is the start of an awesome extended weekend for you 9-5rs! Any big plans?
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!!!! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™โœŒ๏ธ
Starting my day off right with some tasty GG #4  BHO from @kibblejunction. For an $11 gram I had my doubts on quality but it is pretty smooth, has that classic GG flavor and gives me the extreme sativa effect good GG has on me. Very impressed, and I think I'll be heading back to @freedom_markets for more! . . . Happy Saturday fam!! I woke up in some pain this morning but I have energy again so I'll be able to get some more house projects done today hopefully. My wife reminded me that it was Memorial Day weekend. So I hope today is the start of an awesome extended weekend for you 9-5rs! Any big plans? . . . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!!!! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™โœŒ๏ธ
Ugh, this up and down energy thing is annoying. It is what it is though fam. I'm going to keep doing me anyway. I was already planning on taking the weekend "off" since I have a friend coming over on Sunday and have to clean the gamaing table. But it still sucks. There were a few things I wanted to get done today and now I have to play it by ear and see when I run out of spoons. .
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Anyhoo, any good organic, non gmo, caffeine free suggestions for boosting energy on these slow days? I mean I don't want to push myself but it would be nice to get that little extra done.
Ugh, this up and down energy thing is annoying. It is what it is though fam. I'm going to keep doing me anyway. I was already planning on taking the weekend "off" since I have a friend coming over on Sunday and have to clean the gamaing table. But it still sucks. There were a few things I wanted to get done today and now I have to play it by ear and see when I run out of spoons. . . . Anyhoo, any good organic, non gmo, caffeine free suggestions for boosting energy on these slow days? I mean I don't want to push myself but it would be nice to get that little extra done.
I'm so happy for the man Jolie Olie @customgrow420 being named one of the 100 most influential people in cannabis by @hightimesmagazine. I've been able to meet him a couple of times and he is always an awesome and humble dude in person and he works his ass off to take care of his family. So cool to see achievement come from his grind.
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If it's not clear by now, he has been pretty influential in my life too. I wouldn't even be doing this Instagram thing if I hadn't of started watching his YouTube when I got sick and said "Hey, I can do that too!" .
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you all have an awesome day, who is influential in your life?
I'm so happy for the man Jolie Olie @customgrow420 being named one of the 100 most influential people in cannabis by @hightimesmagazine. I've been able to meet him a couple of times and he is always an awesome and humble dude in person and he works his ass off to take care of his family. So cool to see achievement come from his grind. . . If it's not clear by now, he has been pretty influential in my life too. I wouldn't even be doing this Instagram thing if I hadn't of started watching his YouTube when I got sick and said "Hey, I can do that too!" . . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you all have an awesome day, who is influential in your life?
Good freaking morning fam! Day 2 of waking feeling a little better than the day before, so hopefully that means more shop time and .50 cal flower pipes, did I mention that they hit like steamrollers?
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Anyhoo, these constant ups in downs in my energy are annoying as fuck. I found myself getting really angry yesterday because I felt alright in the morning,but after only an hour or so in the shop my back was aching and my hands were hurting in a way I hadn't experienced before so I had to quit wokring basically at the point that I could really get rolling. So dumb.  I'm so close to achieving my next big goal and shop time is the limiter.
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But that's my reality, if I had kept going yesterday, I probably wouldn't be able to go out there today at all. How do you guys deal with unexpected physical limitations when they pop up at extremely inconvenient times?
Good freaking morning fam! Day 2 of waking feeling a little better than the day before, so hopefully that means more shop time and .50 cal flower pipes, did I mention that they hit like steamrollers? . . . Anyhoo, these constant ups in downs in my energy are annoying as fuck. I found myself getting really angry yesterday because I felt alright in the morning,but after only an hour or so in the shop my back was aching and my hands were hurting in a way I hadn't experienced before so I had to quit wokring basically at the point that I could really get rolling. So dumb. I'm so close to achieving my next big goal and shop time is the limiter. . . But that's my reality, if I had kept going yesterday, I probably wouldn't be able to go out there today at all. How do you guys deal with unexpected physical limitations when they pop up at extremely inconvenient times?
Man, my son's party was fun last night, but it took every ounce of energy I had left to make it the whole 2 hours at the pizza joint, there were 5 other birthday parties going on at the same time! The place was packed with screaming kids, so not my usual nice calm environment. It all worked out though and hanging with the family was fun as hell.
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I'm going to keep resting today and try to get back in the shop tomorrow. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam! How do you destress after the dreaded kids birthday party?
Man, my son's party was fun last night, but it took every ounce of energy I had left to make it the whole 2 hours at the pizza joint, there were 5 other birthday parties going on at the same time! The place was packed with screaming kids, so not my usual nice calm environment. It all worked out though and hanging with the family was fun as hell. . . . I'm going to keep resting today and try to get back in the shop tomorrow. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam! How do you destress after the dreaded kids birthday party?
Not the most fun way to spend a beautiful Sunday afternoon! In severe cramp mode, but it gives me a good opportunity to read this book Iโ€™ve been waiting a while for. #severeibs #megacramps ##obeexperiences
Not the most fun way to spend a beautiful Sunday afternoon! In severe cramp mode, but it gives me a good opportunity to read this book Iโ€™ve been waiting a while for. #severeibs  #megacramps  ##obeexperiences 
Good morning and happy Friday!!! I'm still waking up completely exhausted, but at least I'm not in a lot of pain today. I'm going to take it easy today, we'll have family staying over the weekend for my son's birthday party so I've got to save my spoons for all of that. I'll hopefully be back in the shop on Monday cranking out something new for you guys.
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What are you doing this weekend?
Good morning and happy Friday!!! I'm still waking up completely exhausted, but at least I'm not in a lot of pain today. I'm going to take it easy today, we'll have family staying over the weekend for my son's birthday party so I've got to save my spoons for all of that. I'll hopefully be back in the shop on Monday cranking out something new for you guys. . . . What are you doing this weekend?
Good Morning Instafam!!!!!! Man these double bong hits really make thick ass clouds, don't they? It's also been an awesome way to get my meds in quick lately. I love trying new things because honestly, I have to medicate all day every day and I don't really get the "high" anymore so chasing it doesn't interest me the majority of the time. Finding new, fun ways to smoke that can also get my needed dose in faster is always time well spent. .
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It's weird to say that there are some days where I'm just bored of smoking and I end up dealing with my symptoms (if it's a normal "good" day) without #medicalcannabis. You can say I'm a sadist but it's the truth, some days I'm just sick and tired of sitting on this couch sucking on a bong, so I just skip it and deal.
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Have you guys ever gotten bored with your medication routine? What did you do to switch it up?
Good Morning Instafam!!!!!! Man these double bong hits really make thick ass clouds, don't they? It's also been an awesome way to get my meds in quick lately. I love trying new things because honestly, I have to medicate all day every day and I don't really get the "high" anymore so chasing it doesn't interest me the majority of the time. Finding new, fun ways to smoke that can also get my needed dose in faster is always time well spent. . . . It's weird to say that there are some days where I'm just bored of smoking and I end up dealing with my symptoms (if it's a normal "good" day) without #medicalcannabis . You can say I'm a sadist but it's the truth, some days I'm just sick and tired of sitting on this couch sucking on a bong, so I just skip it and deal. . . Have you guys ever gotten bored with your medication routine? What did you do to switch it up?
Good morning you beautiful people!! Since so many of you have started following #denofbrokenmen recently, it's time once again to tell you a little about myself.
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I'm a 36 ex big tech engineer, geek and entrepreneur married with an amazing 6 year old train obsessed son. I was diagnosed in 2015 with #severeIBS after massive personal loss and working 100 hrs a week for 6 years straight. Since then I've had to quit my day job, close my personal Paintball business, sell my house and move back in with my Dad. The impact my chronic illness has had on my life has been massive.
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I started my Instagram to document my #dailystruggle with my symptoms, #mentalhealth and daily life. I have had some personal successess overcoming these issues and my goal now is to hopefully inspire and encourage other people going through similar issues that #youarenotalone and that it can get better. .
Recently, I've started flexing my product design muscles again and have started producing my own line of Designer Heady Glass dab rigs and brass hand made pipes.  I'll be launchng an Etsy or some other webstore platform soon so it all has a more legit place to be available for you. And hopefully, one day, I can pay my bills again with these sales.
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Thank you so much for all the love, follows and support recently!!!!๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’“โœŒ๏ธ I'll be launching the next big giveaway at 500 followers and stay on the lookout for flash giveaways. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, have an awesome day! I'm going to go back to bed now.....
Good morning you beautiful people!! Since so many of you have started following #denofbrokenmen  recently, it's time once again to tell you a little about myself. . . I'm a 36 ex big tech engineer, geek and entrepreneur married with an amazing 6 year old train obsessed son. I was diagnosed in 2015 with #severeIBS  after massive personal loss and working 100 hrs a week for 6 years straight. Since then I've had to quit my day job, close my personal Paintball business, sell my house and move back in with my Dad. The impact my chronic illness has had on my life has been massive. . . I started my Instagram to document my #dailystruggle  with my symptoms, #mentalhealth  and daily life. I have had some personal successess overcoming these issues and my goal now is to hopefully inspire and encourage other people going through similar issues that #youarenotalone  and that it can get better. . Recently, I've started flexing my product design muscles again and have started producing my own line of Designer Heady Glass dab rigs and brass hand made pipes. I'll be launchng an Etsy or some other webstore platform soon so it all has a more legit place to be available for you. And hopefully, one day, I can pay my bills again with these sales. . Thank you so much for all the love, follows and support recently!!!!๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’“โœŒ๏ธ I'll be launching the next big giveaway at 500 followers and stay on the lookout for flash giveaways. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, have an awesome day! I'm going to go back to bed now.....
The winner has been chosen by random number generator from the amazing 60 entries we got in the giveaway!!!! .
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And the winner is @instantgram303!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Please DM me with a photo ID to prove you are 21 and your valid shipping address. .
Thank you to everyone who entered and started following me! I hope like my content and stick around! There will be many more giveaways in the future and my next glass design will be coming soon. .
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Speaking of which, if you didn't win and still want one of my Apothecary rigs, hit me up! The first person to scoop one will not only get free shipping but a free hard case as well!
The winner has been chosen by random number generator from the amazing 60 entries we got in the giveaway!!!! . . . And the winner is @instantgram303!!!!!!!!!!!!! . Please DM me with a photo ID to prove you are 21 and your valid shipping address. . Thank you to everyone who entered and started following me! I hope like my content and stick around! There will be many more giveaways in the future and my next glass design will be coming soon. . . . Speaking of which, if you didn't win and still want one of my Apothecary rigs, hit me up! The first person to scoop one will not only get free shipping but a free hard case as well!
Happy Tuesday fam!  I am sooo freaking tired. It's not fair, I slept all night like the last couple of nights but yesterday I woke up tired and today I woke up even more exhausted.  I'm going to take it easy today and just get the hash pipes done, instead of doing that and starting on the next design. It is frustrating trying to figure out my physical limits when they are constantly changing.
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I'll be posting the giveaway winner by noon this today. Thanks you so much to everyone who entered! This has been by far my most successful giveaway and I'm excited to get you guys some more amazing stuff in the future.
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From my chronic illness people, how do balance getting stuff done when your body just randomly decides no? .
I'm trying really hard to just roll with it and be happy with what I already accomplished and get back to the rest as soon as possible.
Happy Tuesday fam! I am sooo freaking tired. It's not fair, I slept all night like the last couple of nights but yesterday I woke up tired and today I woke up even more exhausted. I'm going to take it easy today and just get the hash pipes done, instead of doing that and starting on the next design. It is frustrating trying to figure out my physical limits when they are constantly changing. . . . I'll be posting the giveaway winner by noon this today. Thanks you so much to everyone who entered! This has been by far my most successful giveaway and I'm excited to get you guys some more amazing stuff in the future. . . . From my chronic illness people, how do balance getting stuff done when your body just randomly decides no? . I'm trying really hard to just roll with it and be happy with what I already accomplished and get back to the rest as soon as possible.
Alrighty guys, this is how it's all going down.  You have until 4:20pm Pacific to spread the word and get your entries in. I'll go Live at that time and dab with you all and show off everything in the #giveaway and let you know what time tomorrow that I'll post the winner. .
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I've been so blown away by the response to this giveaway and my #Apothecary Jars.  I can't thank you guys enough for all the love and support!!!! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™โœŒ๏ธ๐Ÿค˜I still have some available if you don't win and still want to pick one up. ๐Ÿ˜˜
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I've got less energy today but I'm still going to try to get some shop time in even if it's not as much as I want. I'm finally learning to listen to the signs that my body needs a rest. So it will be what it is. Hopefully I'll have something cool to show you later. What are your big plans today?
Alrighty guys, this is how it's all going down. You have until 4:20pm Pacific to spread the word and get your entries in. I'll go Live at that time and dab with you all and show off everything in the #giveaway  and let you know what time tomorrow that I'll post the winner. . . . I've been so blown away by the response to this giveaway and my #Apothecary  Jars. I can't thank you guys enough for all the love and support!!!! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™โœŒ๏ธ๐Ÿค˜I still have some available if you don't win and still want to pick one up. ๐Ÿ˜˜ . . . I've got less energy today but I'm still going to try to get some shop time in even if it's not as much as I want. I'm finally learning to listen to the signs that my body needs a rest. So it will be what it is. Hopefully I'll have something cool to show you later. What are your big plans today?
Happy Mother's Day fam!!!! Call your mom, tell her you love her and have a real conversation about what's going on with you both. Keep your family close and a part of your life. You never know when they'll be gone.
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We are giving my wife an empty house for the majority of the day for Mother's Day. She didn't want gifts, she didn't want a big to do, she just wants a quiet and empty  house for a minute. And who can blame her, if you've read #womanwithathousandhats then you know that a day of peace and reflection is not only needed but deserved for my special lady. .
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What are you doing for the Moms in your life today?
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
Happy Mother's Day fam!!!! Call your mom, tell her you love her and have a real conversation about what's going on with you both. Keep your family close and a part of your life. You never know when they'll be gone. . . . We are giving my wife an empty house for the majority of the day for Mother's Day. She didn't want gifts, she didn't want a big to do, she just wants a quiet and empty house for a minute. And who can blame her, if you've read #womanwithathousandhats  then you know that a day of peace and reflection is not only needed but deserved for my special lady. . . What are you doing for the Moms in your life today? . . . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
Wow you guys, I actually slept deep last night and woke up feeling pretty dang good. My hip is still a bit wonky but resting yesterday helped a lot. .
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We are still hovering just under 330 followers, once we hit 330 I'll be adding more beauty to the giveaway!!!! And I still have extra giveaway stuff to cover us every 10 followers until we hit 400. So tell your friends, get your entries in, the #giveaway ends on Monday!
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What are you up to this beautiful Saturday?
Wow you guys, I actually slept deep last night and woke up feeling pretty dang good. My hip is still a bit wonky but resting yesterday helped a lot. . . We are still hovering just under 330 followers, once we hit 330 I'll be adding more beauty to the giveaway!!!! And I still have extra giveaway stuff to cover us every 10 followers until we hit 400. So tell your friends, get your entries in, the #giveaway  ends on Monday! . . What are you up to this beautiful Saturday?
I go for days feeling good & feel back to my normal self, then it hits me like a ton of bricks. It's such a frustrating illness, I had been feeling great, really strict with diet & taken all my tablets & today I feel horrendous ๐Ÿ˜ž I'm back at work & been out the last few nights & it's like my body can't handle it, I sometimes feel about 80! To being so active & now living like this & knowing I'll probably feel ill for a few days now, I can't even face eating tonight I feel so sick, horrendous stomach cramps & fatigue. Sorry for such a negative post but I always want to be honest about my journey! So tonight is a DVD night & hopefully feel better tomorrow โ˜บ
I go for days feeling good & feel back to my normal self, then it hits me like a ton of bricks. It's such a frustrating illness, I had been feeling great, really strict with diet & taken all my tablets & today I feel horrendous ๐Ÿ˜ž I'm back at work & been out the last few nights & it's like my body can't handle it, I sometimes feel about 80! To being so active & now living like this & knowing I'll probably feel ill for a few days now, I can't even face eating tonight I feel so sick, horrendous stomach cramps & fatigue. Sorry for such a negative post but I always want to be honest about my journey! So tonight is a DVD night & hopefully feel better tomorrow โ˜บ
All the travel I've been doing the last couple of weeks has kicked my ass. The new fun thing I'm dealing with is my left hip flares up and feelings like someone is trying to rip it off. It shot pain down my leg the whole train ride home yesterday and to say the least, it wasn't comfortable. It seams to do this every 2-3 days and hurts for a couple of days each time no matter how much I stretch, massage and rub #CBD topicals in.
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Today will be hot baths and laying down for the most part unfortunately, but luckily this new #cannacareer of mine can be done from the couch! Let's keep these numbers going up.  330 followers is the current goal to add more awesomeness to the #giveaway!!!
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What is your severe joint pain care regimen? I'm starting to feel like I need to update mine.
All the travel I've been doing the last couple of weeks has kicked my ass. The new fun thing I'm dealing with is my left hip flares up and feelings like someone is trying to rip it off. It shot pain down my leg the whole train ride home yesterday and to say the least, it wasn't comfortable. It seams to do this every 2-3 days and hurts for a couple of days each time no matter how much I stretch, massage and rub #CBD  topicals in. . . . Today will be hot baths and laying down for the most part unfortunately, but luckily this new #cannacareer  of mine can be done from the couch! Let's keep these numbers going up. 330 followers is the current goal to add more awesomeness to the #giveaway !!! . . . What is your severe joint pain care regimen? I'm starting to feel like I need to update mine.
Man you guys, It feels like I took an actual vacation. And really I did, getting out of the studio and off my couch for a few days was exactly what I needed to recharge that motivation to 200%. I'm going to be hitting the grind hard the next few weeks to bring you guys some amazing new products.  The Apothecary is just the tippy tip of the iceberg fam. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“.
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Stay tuned later today for my new giveaway!!!!!
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What were you beautiful humans up to this weekend?
Man you guys, It feels like I took an actual vacation. And really I did, getting out of the studio and off my couch for a few days was exactly what I needed to recharge that motivation to 200%. I'm going to be hitting the grind hard the next few weeks to bring you guys some amazing new products. The Apothecary is just the tippy tip of the iceberg fam. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“. . . . Stay tuned later today for my new giveaway!!!!! . . . What were you beautiful humans up to this weekend?
I'm doing everything I can, every tool In the toolbox, every trick in the book, to rest and heal in time for my event this weekend and my son's birthday train vacation afterwards. I don't know if I'm going to make it out of the house when I want but I'm trying, I'm doing. I'm not stagnant and im not letting the pain and negative feelings control me today. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. I hope your day brings blessings to your life.
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How about something a little off topic and fun? What is your favorite video game or game genre and why? .
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It's hard for me to nail down my favorite game of all time since I've been pc and console gaming for 30 years now, but I have always been in love with the Baldur's Gate/Icewind Dale series (the remasters do them justice), and the Battletech/MechWarrior, Fallout, Dark Souls and Diablo games are all top of my list with that good ol DnD greatness.
I'm doing everything I can, every tool In the toolbox, every trick in the book, to rest and heal in time for my event this weekend and my son's birthday train vacation afterwards. I don't know if I'm going to make it out of the house when I want but I'm trying, I'm doing. I'm not stagnant and im not letting the pain and negative feelings control me today. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. I hope your day brings blessings to your life. . . . How about something a little off topic and fun? What is your favorite video game or game genre and why? . . . It's hard for me to nail down my favorite game of all time since I've been pc and console gaming for 30 years now, but I have always been in love with the Baldur's Gate/Icewind Dale series (the remasters do them justice), and the Battletech/MechWarrior, Fallout, Dark Souls and Diablo games are all top of my list with that good ol DnD greatness.
The best laid plans of mice and men and all that.  It's hard to describe the emotional toll #chronicillness takes on you. But it is huge and a #dailystruggle for many of us. Every time I build momentum and get stuff going I get sick and have to put 95% of it on pause until I'm better. I'm still moving forward and making progress but it's slow and frustrating.
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It's hard to maintain perspective and focus on the things you want when there is so much pain and hardship on the daily.  How  do you stay motivated during the rough times?
The best laid plans of mice and men and all that. It's hard to describe the emotional toll #chronicillness  takes on you. But it is huge and a #dailystruggle  for many of us. Every time I build momentum and get stuff going I get sick and have to put 95% of it on pause until I'm better. I'm still moving forward and making progress but it's slow and frustrating. . . . It's hard to maintain perspective and focus on the things you want when there is so much pain and hardship on the daily. How do you stay motivated during the rough times?
What is going on you beautiful people? I hope you have an awesome weekend. I'm going to be taking my son to a parks and rec mini fishing derby here In town today with my Bro in law.. It will be awesome to get out of the house for once and spend some quality time. Especially with all the crazy that has been in our lives recently.
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Being chronically ill and balancing my physical and emotional needs with spending quality time with my family can be extremely difficult at times. I have to constantly make decisions about what event or fun thing I can attend and not push myself too hard. Even doing something as small as taking out the garbage can throw all of my plans off for the day.
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 I finally got tired of telling my Son no when I don't feel good so now we spend scheduled time together everyday and it's made it way easier to save spoons for time with my son and on the days when I feel too awful for social life he is way more understanding because he knows that we will hang out together tomorrow.
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What are your strategies for balancing the burdens of chronic illness life with those of your loved ones?
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โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!
What is going on you beautiful people? I hope you have an awesome weekend. I'm going to be taking my son to a parks and rec mini fishing derby here In town today with my Bro in law.. It will be awesome to get out of the house for once and spend some quality time. Especially with all the crazy that has been in our lives recently. . . . Being chronically ill and balancing my physical and emotional needs with spending quality time with my family can be extremely difficult at times. I have to constantly make decisions about what event or fun thing I can attend and not push myself too hard. Even doing something as small as taking out the garbage can throw all of my plans off for the day. . . . I finally got tired of telling my Son no when I don't feel good so now we spend scheduled time together everyday and it's made it way easier to save spoons for time with my son and on the days when I feel too awful for social life he is way more understanding because he knows that we will hang out together tomorrow. . . . What are your strategies for balancing the burdens of chronic illness life with those of your loved ones? . โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!
Man life is weird, no matter how fast our country moves towards #legalization there are still a vast majority of the public with no acceptance. Its still an uphill battle but one lead by #peace, #healing and #positivity. We will get there in the end, I firmly believe that. The medical benefits are too great to ignore and no one ever died smoking too much weed or too big of a dab while people die from alcohol poisoning every day thinking they can down a 1/5th in 15 minutes and expect to live.  So let's keep spreading that #peaceandlove and change some minds for the better. .
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What your best talking point for cannabis legalization? Let's pull together some good ones we can all use to open people's minds one fact at a time.
Man life is weird, no matter how fast our country moves towards #legalization  there are still a vast majority of the public with no acceptance. Its still an uphill battle but one lead by #peace , #healing  and #positivity . We will get there in the end, I firmly believe that. The medical benefits are too great to ignore and no one ever died smoking too much weed or too big of a dab while people die from alcohol poisoning every day thinking they can down a 1/5th in 15 minutes and expect to live. So let's keep spreading that #peaceandlove  and change some minds for the better. . . . What your best talking point for cannabis legalization? Let's pull together some good ones we can all use to open people's minds one fact at a time.
Man it's been a weird week. I can't talk about a lot of it for various reasons but I will say that life is nuts and weird and strange and sometimes shitty.  I love you all and hope you do something wonderful today.
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Ok guys, what's the weirdest thing that's ever happened to you? I'm in the midst of mine and the level of bizarre keeps rising.
Man it's been a weird week. I can't talk about a lot of it for various reasons but I will say that life is nuts and weird and strange and sometimes shitty. I love you all and hope you do something wonderful today. . . . Ok guys, what's the weirdest thing that's ever happened to you? I'm in the midst of mine and the level of bizarre keeps rising.
Man, life has gotten so busy for me lately. I'm getting my hands into all kinds of interesting projects and my power of choice for my future has never been greater.  I'm finding new opportunities every day to bring you guys some exciting stuff and hopefully start supporting my family with an income again.
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One of the hardest battles I've fought since getting sick is losing the ability to financially support my family. This is a big deal for the breadwinner in any relationship. It destroyed my self worth as a husband and father and it's taken a long time to get back. .
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So here is the Tuesday question of the day,  If you supported your family before getting sick, how did you deal with that loss of purpose and negative feelings afterwards?
Man, life has gotten so busy for me lately. I'm getting my hands into all kinds of interesting projects and my power of choice for my future has never been greater. I'm finding new opportunities every day to bring you guys some exciting stuff and hopefully start supporting my family with an income again. . . . One of the hardest battles I've fought since getting sick is losing the ability to financially support my family. This is a big deal for the breadwinner in any relationship. It destroyed my self worth as a husband and father and it's taken a long time to get back. . . . So here is the Tuesday question of the day, If you supported your family before getting sick, how did you deal with that loss of purpose and negative feelings afterwards?
I hope you all have an amazing day! The wife and I reviewed our schedule last night and the next 3 weeks are going to be nuts. I have no idea where I'm going to get the energy for all of it. But I'm going to sure give it a shot. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!!!
I hope you all have an amazing day! The wife and I reviewed our schedule last night and the next 3 weeks are going to be nuts. I have no idea where I'm going to get the energy for all of it. But I'm going to sure give it a shot. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!!!
It has been really rough the last couple of days. My pain levels, nausea and other less savory symptoms have been going ham on me. Chronic illness is a 24/7 struggle. It can make it very hard for people to understand what you are going through.
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I've had people develop secret grudges against me because they think I'm shunning them when I have to decide for every outing or family gathering if the energy I have to spend to attend is worth it.  Socializing, watching people happily consuming food and drink I can no longer eat and often having to go hungry as their is usually not enough stuff I can eat is extremely taxing on me emotionally and physically. It's hard to explain once they reach that point that it's not personal I just don't have enough return on investment to go to every function and outing.
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So along that thread, i need some advice.
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What is your best strategy for dealing with your loved ones when they have a hard time understanding your chronic illness needs?
It has been really rough the last couple of days. My pain levels, nausea and other less savory symptoms have been going ham on me. Chronic illness is a 24/7 struggle. It can make it very hard for people to understand what you are going through. . . . I've had people develop secret grudges against me because they think I'm shunning them when I have to decide for every outing or family gathering if the energy I have to spend to attend is worth it. Socializing, watching people happily consuming food and drink I can no longer eat and often having to go hungry as their is usually not enough stuff I can eat is extremely taxing on me emotionally and physically. It's hard to explain once they reach that point that it's not personal I just don't have enough return on investment to go to every function and outing. . . . So along that thread, i need some advice. . What is your best strategy for dealing with your loved ones when they have a hard time understanding your chronic illness needs?
Happy Friday you wonderful people!! We cracked 290 yesterday!!!! Just a reminder at 300 followers I'll be kicking off my biggest #giveaway yet with some special contributions from @mitzelglass & @the_glass_wizard, along with the silicone flower bong and a complete setup of one of my Designer Apothecary Jars. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
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Today, let's share our best pain management strategies. For me, super hot baths with Epsom salts do wonders for my full body joint and gut pain. What are your best tips for managing chronic pain aside from medicating?
Happy Friday you wonderful people!! We cracked 290 yesterday!!!! Just a reminder at 300 followers I'll be kicking off my biggest #giveaway  yet with some special contributions from @mitzelglass & @the_glass_wizard, along with the silicone flower bong and a complete setup of one of my Designer Apothecary Jars. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. . . . Today, let's share our best pain management strategies. For me, super hot baths with Epsom salts do wonders for my full body joint and gut pain. What are your best tips for managing chronic pain aside from medicating?
I told you guys even simple colds can screw me over hard and today I woke up to that being true. I feeling absolutely awful this morning. Days like today are one of the main reasons I started this account. To document my continuing hardships with my chronic illness. You guys have become a HUGE bonus to this whole thing. I appreciate every one of my followers and I hope you guys can find the time and energy to make something of yourselves today no matter what obstacles are in your way.
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I need some cheering up today so tell me your favorite "dad" joke! I'll kick it off....
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Why did the big cat always win at poker?
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Because he was a Cheetah.
I told you guys even simple colds can screw me over hard and today I woke up to that being true. I feeling absolutely awful this morning. Days like today are one of the main reasons I started this account. To document my continuing hardships with my chronic illness. You guys have become a HUGE bonus to this whole thing. I appreciate every one of my followers and I hope you guys can find the time and energy to make something of yourselves today no matter what obstacles are in your way. . . . I need some cheering up today so tell me your favorite "dad" joke! I'll kick it off.... . . . Why did the big cat always win at poker? . Because he was a Cheetah.
Good morning fam! I hope you all have an amazing day! I've got some alternate responsibilities again today but that's life. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!
Good morning fam! I hope you all have an amazing day! I've got some alternate responsibilities again today but that's life. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!
It's been kind of a heavy week around here. The wife and kid are sick and I've got to pick up some of her responsibilities today. But that's ok, there is always tomorrow. .
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The best laid plans of mice and men and all that. Sometimes no matter how hard we try to plan and be prepared for what needs to be done any given day, roadblocks and hiccups can throw all of that out of the window.  When this happens I switch gears, take car of things and then get pick back up where I left off when I can. How do you deal with unexpected changes to your plans?
It's been kind of a heavy week around here. The wife and kid are sick and I've got to pick up some of her responsibilities today. But that's ok, there is always tomorrow. . . . The best laid plans of mice and men and all that. Sometimes no matter how hard we try to plan and be prepared for what needs to be done any given day, roadblocks and hiccups can throw all of that out of the window. When this happens I switch gears, take car of things and then get pick back up where I left off when I can. How do you deal with unexpected changes to your plans?
God morning fam!!!! I'm not feeling too hot this morning but I'm going to get meds in and get my ass to work.  I hope you all have an amazing day! .
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We face challenges every day marching towards our goals and ensuring they stay goals and on target and don't slip back to just being dreams. For me, everyday I wake up feeling awful is my first big challenge to overcome. What is the biggest challenge you are currently facing and how are you going to overcome it?
God morning fam!!!! I'm not feeling too hot this morning but I'm going to get meds in and get my ass to work. I hope you all have an amazing day! . . . We face challenges every day marching towards our goals and ensuring they stay goals and on target and don't slip back to just being dreams. For me, everyday I wake up feeling awful is my first big challenge to overcome. What is the biggest challenge you are currently facing and how are you going to overcome it?
Not feeling super great today but it's the normal after eating a holiday meal kind of not great. Still, I am going to continue taking it easy today and hit this grind hard tomorrow. .
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 Don't forget to take care of yourself today. Self care is the thing that often goes out the window first when we get too caught up in life. Which is ridiculous because it's one if the most important aspects of maintaining a healthy being. We cant share our love and light with the world if we are the ones holding us back. What are you going to do to take care of yourself today?
Not feeling super great today but it's the normal after eating a holiday meal kind of not great. Still, I am going to continue taking it easy today and hit this grind hard tomorrow. . . . Don't forget to take care of yourself today. Self care is the thing that often goes out the window first when we get too caught up in life. Which is ridiculous because it's one if the most important aspects of maintaining a healthy being. We cant share our love and light with the world if we are the ones holding us back. What are you going to do to take care of yourself today?
Good morning instafam!!! I started feeling poopy yeasterday but meds and lots of sleep later I'm doing pretty good right now.  Every day can be a struggle juggling  my medical needs and my desire  to hit this grind even harder. What are you struggling with today?
Good morning instafam!!! I started feeling poopy yeasterday but meds and lots of sleep later I'm doing pretty good right now. Every day can be a struggle juggling my medical needs and my desire to hit this grind even harder. What are you struggling with today?
Good morning instafam!!! I greatly appreciate all the likes, comments and DMs you guys have been blowing up my feed with. You guys are fucking legends and your kind words really motivate me to do more and be more. For all of my new followers, welcome!
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A little bit about me: I'm 36, married with an awesome 5 yr old son. I was diagnosed with severe IBS in 2015 after many extremely stressful years in a high end tech job as well as a massive loss of family and friends from the end of 2013 throughout 2014. (About 14 in all between mine and my wife's families.) Since I became I'll, I have had to quit my day job, close my side business in painyball, sell my house and move back in with my father here in Longview.  It's been a rough journey but I'm still moving forward no matter what. .
Now I would like to know something about you guys. What's the hardest thing you've ever been through? And how have you changed since? Change is inevitable when we face life altering challenges.
Good morning instafam!!! I greatly appreciate all the likes, comments and DMs you guys have been blowing up my feed with. You guys are fucking legends and your kind words really motivate me to do more and be more. For all of my new followers, welcome! . A little bit about me: I'm 36, married with an awesome 5 yr old son. I was diagnosed with severe IBS in 2015 after many extremely stressful years in a high end tech job as well as a massive loss of family and friends from the end of 2013 throughout 2014. (About 14 in all between mine and my wife's families.) Since I became I'll, I have had to quit my day job, close my side business in painyball, sell my house and move back in with my father here in Longview. It's been a rough journey but I'm still moving forward no matter what. . Now I would like to know something about you guys. What's the hardest thing you've ever been through? And how have you changed since? Change is inevitable when we face life altering challenges.
Not feeling super great this morning but definitely better than most.  I'll be shooting and doing audio for the first episode of a new podcast today.  It starts May 1st and it's called Skirts and Words. It stars my beautiful wife @kawaii_times_author & the lovely owner of @vaultbooksandbrew Jennifer.
Not feeling super great this morning but definitely better than most. I'll be shooting and doing audio for the first episode of a new podcast today. It starts May 1st and it's called Skirts and Words. It stars my beautiful wife @kawaii_times_author & the lovely owner of @vaultbooksandbrew Jennifer.
Hey guys, just wanted to let you know that these 2 amazing paintball gun dabber pendants are available for sale.  If you want one hit me up in the DMs or my email. They are 100% American made art glass and were a joint design project between myself and @mitzelglass. I'm going to start doing these projects to help support the channel and the content I bring you all on a daily basis. As well as help promote some amazing glass artist's in the industry.
Hey guys, just wanted to let you know that these 2 amazing paintball gun dabber pendants are available for sale. If you want one hit me up in the DMs or my email. They are 100% American made art glass and were a joint design project between myself and @mitzelglass. I'm going to start doing these projects to help support the channel and the content I bring you all on a daily basis. As well as help promote some amazing glass artist's in the industry.
Good freaking morning instafam!!!!!!! We are now in the home stretch.  My big announcement is coming either Monday or Tuesday next week!  Sorry for the long wait and multiple teases but I'm a stickler for certain things and when I'm happy you will be too. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, stay on that grind!
Good freaking morning instafam!!!!!!! We are now in the home stretch. My big announcement is coming either Monday or Tuesday next week! Sorry for the long wait and multiple teases but I'm a stickler for certain things and when I'm happy you will be too. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, stay on that grind!
Good Sunday morning fam!!! This months @dailyhighclub box is of the hook!  The Dr Greenthumb pill steamroller hits surprisingly smooth and I'm impressed with the @herbsaver grinder. Stay tuned for the unboxing video soon and some reviews down the road. Sleep has returned to me that last couple of nights and I'm feeling pretty dang decent today.  I hope you all have an amazing day. My next big project announcement will hopefully be ready by the end of this week. Cheers!
Good Sunday morning fam!!! This months @dailyhighclub box is of the hook! The Dr Greenthumb pill steamroller hits surprisingly smooth and I'm impressed with the @herbsaver grinder. Stay tuned for the unboxing video soon and some reviews down the road. Sleep has returned to me that last couple of nights and I'm feeling pretty dang decent today. I hope you all have an amazing day. My next big project announcement will hopefully be ready by the end of this week. Cheers!
Good morning fam, I hope you all have an awesome weekend. I'll be floating around nanocon here in Longview tomorrow. What are your weekend plans?
Good morning fam, I hope you all have an awesome weekend. I'll be floating around nanocon here in Longview tomorrow. What are your weekend plans?
Man, I tossed and turned all night, kept waking up hot and uncomfortable. My body was NOT happy and the result was less than 4hrs of sleep.  But that's ok, I'll just take an extra nap today and stay on this grind.  I'll have some big announcements coming in the next couple of weeks and I can barely contain my excitement. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you are ready for some next level shit.
Man, I tossed and turned all night, kept waking up hot and uncomfortable. My body was NOT happy and the result was less than 4hrs of sleep. But that's ok, I'll just take an extra nap today and stay on this grind. I'll have some big announcements coming in the next couple of weeks and I can barely contain my excitement. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, I hope you are ready for some next level shit.
I hope you guys have an awesome day. I'm just sitting here on a full night's wondering what to do with myself today.  Luckily I ordered some parts and they should be here today so I can finally finish my auto phantom project. What are you up to today?
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#420 #wakeandbake #i502 #710community #denofbrokenmen #severeibs #feelinggood #spooniegonewild #smokinjsllc #jssmokespot #shatter #dab #fabegg
Ugh another day feeling poopy. I'm fairly impressed with myself as I got a lot of physical work done this week. More than usual before my body started rebelling. So that's a big positive as usually I can only do one day of physical stuff before going down hard. Definitely gives me some hope for the future. Just have to get done feeling crappy and rock the next good day I have. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, there is always something positive to focus on if you know where to look.
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#420 #cannabiscommunity #severeibs #spoonie #denofbrokenmen #smokinjsllc #jssmokespot #thisisreallife #710society #kief #superbowl #chronicpain
Ugh another day feeling poopy. I'm fairly impressed with myself as I got a lot of physical work done this week. More than usual before my body started rebelling. So that's a big positive as usually I can only do one day of physical stuff before going down hard. Definitely gives me some hope for the future. Just have to get done feeling crappy and rock the next good day I have. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, there is always something positive to focus on if you know where to look. . . . #420  #cannabiscommunity  #severeibs  #spoonie  #denofbrokenmen  #smokinjsllc  #jssmokespot  #thisisreallife  #710society  #kief  #superbowl  #chronicpain 
Happy Thursday you beautiful people!!! Getting more work done and still feeling halfway decent. I'm pretty tired this morning so I'm gonna slow down a bit today. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!!! .
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#420 #i502 #denofbrokenmen #severeibs #staymedicatedmyfriends #peaceandlove #medicalcannabis #cbd #kief #superbowl #bong #amgglass #budbayglass #smokinjsllc #jssmokespot
Happy #humpday you beautiful people.  The big project I'm working on is moving forward and I will hopefully have something awesome to show you guys in the next week or two. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!!! I hope you have an awesome day!!!
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#peaceandlove #positivevibes #sorespoonie #denofbrokenmen #i502 #medicalcannabis #medicated #severeibs  #staymedicatedmyfriends #dab #wax #bong #waterpipe #pnwstoners #dailydabbers #fueledbythc
Who's got #acaseofthemondays? Not this guy, I had decent sleep and am continuing to feel a little better every day coming out of this last flare. I'm looking forward to getting some stuff done today. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!!!!
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#spoonie #denofbrokenmen #i502 #420 #710community #dailydabbers #pnwstoners #medicated #chronicallyill #severeibs #cbdworks #cbd #dab #marijuanacommunity
I hope you all got better sleep than me. I feel awful this morning which sucks extra because I started feeling better yesterday afternoon.  Oh well that's life with chronic illness. Doing my best to stay positive and focused on this project I'm working on.  It's very exciting and I can't wait to share it with you all. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
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#chronicillness #spoonie #severeibs #i502 #medicalcannabis ##420society #710community #denofbrokenmen #mandmtechglass #smokinjsllc #wakeandbake #sleepisoverrated #positivevibes
I hope you all got better sleep than me. I feel awful this morning which sucks extra because I started feeling better yesterday afternoon. Oh well that's life with chronic illness. Doing my best to stay positive and focused on this project I'm working on. It's very exciting and I can't wait to share it with you all. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. . . . #chronicillness  #spoonie  #severeibs  #i502  #medicalcannabis  ##420society  #710community  #denofbrokenmen  #mandmtechglass  #smokinjsllc  #wakeandbake  #sleepisoverrated  #positivevibes 
Well poop, literally. I woke up to lots of toilet time and some other fun syptoms. But hey screw that noise. I'm going back to sleep and going to try this day again. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. .
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#420 #710 #i502 #wakeandbake #staymedicatedmyfriends #spoonie #debofbrokenmen #severeibs #dab #wax #positivevibes #cbd #dailystruggle #dailydabbers #smokinjsllc #amgglass #budbayglass
Good early ass morning instafam!!! This flare has been the worst one I've had in months.  I've been so nautious that not even cbd and Indica together are knocking it out 100% it's been bad enough that I've hardly eaten the last couple of days and it's starting to wear on me. I know from experience that this is temporary but it still sucks ass. All I can do is rest and hope for a better day tomorrow. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, be grateful for what you've got, it might be gone tomorrow.
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#420 #beingsicksucks #denofbrokenmen #710community #cbd #severeibs #oil #wax #dab #wakeandbake #hope #thisshitistemporary #peaceandlove #positivevibes #i502
Good early ass morning instafam!!! This flare has been the worst one I've had in months. I've been so nautious that not even cbd and Indica together are knocking it out 100% it's been bad enough that I've hardly eaten the last couple of days and it's starting to wear on me. I know from experience that this is temporary but it still sucks ass. All I can do is rest and hope for a better day tomorrow. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, be grateful for what you've got, it might be gone tomorrow. . . . #420  #beingsicksucks  #denofbrokenmen  #710community  #cbd  #severeibs  #oil  #wax  #dab  #wakeandbake  #hope  #thisshitistemporary  #peaceandlove  #positivevibes  #i502 
Still not doing the best but got a second full night's sleep in a row. So that's something.  I spent most of yesterday sleeping on the couch and wasn't able to get DnD going. But today is a new day and we're going to make it happen. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!
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#spoonie #severeibs #chronicallyill #medicalcannabis #denofbrokenmen #dailyhighclub #staymedicatedmyfriends #dabsociety #dailydabbers #fueledbythc #treeperc #dab #shatter #keepmovingforward
Good morning fam!!!!!!! I got a full night's sleep and feeling better in some ways today.  I'm still having gut issues that are worse than normal but my body doesn't ache as much today. Have a great day guys!
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#420society #710community #severeibs #spoonie #sundayfunday #mitzelglass #dinorig #dab #wax #shatter #denofbrokenmen #fueledbythc #staymedicatedmyfriends #medicalcannabis #dailydabbers #i502
Let's go day 3 waking up early as fuck and in pain. Let me tell you something guys, after a while this shit becomes "normal". And it has for me. Now the old me would be depressed by that thought but today it means that I'm used to it and I can more easily accept the bad days because I focus all of my energy on the good ones. I've gone through so much in the last 4 years but my greatest lessons are that even though I've spent a lot of time broken I'm a much stronger person now than I was before. And secondly, perspective is one of the most powerful tools we have as people. Try to look at things a little different today, open your mind to new ideas and you just might surprise yourself. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
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#debofbrokenmen #unstopable #spoonie #medicated #fueledbythc #710community #dailydabbers #cannabis #smokinjsllc #amgglass #budbayglass #severeibs #meltybowl #i502 #rightupthemiddle
Let's go day 3 waking up early as fuck and in pain. Let me tell you something guys, after a while this shit becomes "normal". And it has for me. Now the old me would be depressed by that thought but today it means that I'm used to it and I can more easily accept the bad days because I focus all of my energy on the good ones. I've gone through so much in the last 4 years but my greatest lessons are that even though I've spent a lot of time broken I'm a much stronger person now than I was before. And secondly, perspective is one of the most powerful tools we have as people. Try to look at things a little different today, open your mind to new ideas and you just might surprise yourself. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. . . . #debofbrokenmen  #unstopable  #spoonie  #medicated  #fueledbythc  #710community  #dailydabbers  #cannabis  #smokinjsllc  #amgglass  #budbayglass  #severeibs  #meltybowl  #i502  #rightupthemiddle 
I'm sick as hell today so DAB DWARF IS BACK BITCHES!!!!!! Lol, in all seriousness, I've been feeling a lot worse since I've been up and I needed a big dab and a nap. Have a great rest of your day guys!
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#spoonie #chronicallyill #severeibs #ifeellikeshit #flaresarebullshit #naptime #dabporn #710society #fueledbythc #denofbrokenmen #i502 #dabdwarf #oil #slabdab #chemdogog #shatter #smokeweedeveryday #dailyhighclub
Some beauty shots of February's @dailyhighclub box.  I'll be doing full video unboxing and reviews of these awesome bits of kit starting with March's box. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam!!!!
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#dailyhighclub #denofbrokenmen #unboxingsarecoming #customgrow420 #customwife #i502 #medicalcannabis #spoonie #severeibs #imflaringbutmovingforward #peaceandlove #positivevibes #weedporn
Getting that Tuesday wake and bake going.  Still not feeling awesome and for once sleep hasn't been an issue.  I'm hoping my @dailyhighclub box will show up today. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam, what are your big plans for today?
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#i502 #denofbrokenmen #severeibs #medicalcannabis #cbd #marijuanacommunity #710society #amgglass #smokinjsllc #butyoudontlooksick  #wemovingforward 
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Happy Monday instafam!!!!!! I'm feeling a little better than yesterday but I can still tell I'm in a flare.  The previous one lasted almost 9 days so here's hoping it doesn't last that long this time. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
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#spoonie #caseofthemondays #medicalcannabis #denofbrokenmen  #severeibs #i502 #smokinjsllc #mandmtechglass #710community #dab #wax #recycler #medicated #chronicillness #cbdworks
Just hit some of this @dabstractdropswa White Widow. It's a 70% 50/50 thc/cbd shatter that's easy to handle with a tasty set of terpenes. Bonus is that mix really kicks the shit out of my symptoms. I'm feeling much better after that dab for sure.  Going to hit it again and chill. Thanks @papastevedobm for the share and support!
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#cbdworks #medicalmarijuana #denofbrokenmen #i502 #dabstract #cbd #whitewidow #terpenes #severeibs #spoonie #rightupthemiddle #medicated #staymedicatedmyfriends #dab #shatter
Just hit some of this @dabstractdropswa White Widow. It's a 70% 50/50 thc/cbd shatter that's easy to handle with a tasty set of terpenes. Bonus is that mix really kicks the shit out of my symptoms. I'm feeling much better after that dab for sure. Going to hit it again and chill. Thanks @papastevedobm for the share and support! . . . #cbdworks  #medicalmarijuana  #denofbrokenmen  #i502  #dabstract  #cbd  #whitewidow  #terpenes  #severeibs  #spoonie  #rightupthemiddle  #medicated  #staymedicatedmyfriends  #dab  #shatter 
Getting that wake and bake on hard this morning.  I woke up just after 4 in a metric ass ton of pain.  My body really sucks sometimes and today is no exception. Oh well, it just means it's time to rest and get better.  Have a great day guys and stay medicated. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam.
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#420life #spoonie #medicalcannabis #severeibs #butyoudontlooksick #denofbrokenmen #smokinjsllc #amgglass #budbayglass #bong #cbd #i502 #thckeepsmealive #positivevibes #peaceandlove
Getting that wake and bake on hard this morning. I woke up just after 4 in a metric ass ton of pain. My body really sucks sometimes and today is no exception. Oh well, it just means it's time to rest and get better. Have a great day guys and stay medicated. โ˜ฎ๏ธ and ๐Ÿ’“ fam. . . . #420life  #spoonie  #medicalcannabis  #severeibs  #butyoudontlooksick  #denofbrokenmen  #smokinjsllc  #amgglass  #budbayglass  #bong  #cbd  #i502  #thckeepsmealive  #positivevibes  #peaceandlove 
Join me and many others to stand together with the #leaftalk movement to support patients who need medical marijuana to help them prevent the spread of cancer cells, control epileptic seizures, slow the progression of Alzheimer's, cope with chronic pain, PTSD, deal with anxiety...you name it! Follow @marijuanadoctors to learn more about the benefits of medical marijuana & show some support by posting your own selfie and get behind this cause with us.
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#cannabiscures #marijuanadoctors #medicalcannabis #medicalmarijuana #cannabiseducation #denofbrokenmen #severeibs #fellowspoonie
Join me and many others to stand together with the #leaftalk  movement to support patients who need medical marijuana to help them prevent the spread of cancer cells, control epileptic seizures, slow the progression of Alzheimer's, cope with chronic pain, PTSD, deal with anxiety...you name it! Follow @marijuanadoctors to learn more about the benefits of medical marijuana & show some support by posting your own selfie and get behind this cause with us. . . . #cannabiscures  #marijuanadoctors  #medicalcannabis  #medicalmarijuana  #cannabiseducation  #denofbrokenmen  #severeibs  #fellowspoonie