I treated myself yesterday and bought lots of new makeup, courtesy of Primark ;), and a massive blue 2xl jumper because I wanna wear it as a dress and feel cute 😌🍬
here's a lil update. Things are fab. I have my ups and downs, granted, but I'm really excited for Christmas. I love the lights and the food and the family time; it's just really magical. I can't wait to run down on Christmas day and see Izzy's face when santa brings her presents ahh it's so adorable and it reminds me so much of being young and naive like that 🌱 but yes, things are very good. ------------------
if anyone ever needs a chat, or someone to help, I'm here, just send me a message 🌸 #recovered
Ya estoy recuperado de la tripa, así que... ¡Por fin puedo volver a comer de todo! 😁 El veterinario le ha dicho a mami que tengo que perder algo más de peso 🤔, pero no pienso dejar de comer mis chuches 🤤 y pedir comida a todo el que se me ponga a tiro 🥺 |•••🐾•••| My tummy is fully recovered, so I can finally eat everything again! 😁 The veterinarian has told mommy that I have to lose some more weight 🤔, but I will not stop eating my treats 🤤 and I still will ask for food to anyone who gets in my way 🥺
We are all pretty proud of our latest community platform build for Recovered Group.
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We are excited to see this brand take flight and to be involved in this life-changing project!
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Sunrise hill session with these ones ❤️ @vonnykwee
I'm back running and it feels SOOO good! Cross fingers all is good so far and haven't lost too much fitness, managed to maintain it with cross training!
I took it easy last week with a 12 k as my long run and now to full ( but still cautious) training plan. Tahura @trailruntahura trail marathon is less than a month away... let's see if the cross training has paid off and I can still race. If I can't, then it's ok.. as long as I am still able to run 🏃 I'm happy!
If you think I'm excited to run again, meet my dogs.. they were ecstatic this morning!
Off to England soon for Xmas, very excited for the running opportunities... oh yeh and to see friends etc. 😂😅Not excited about leaving this beauties thou! ❤️
👏🏻 Never feel guilty for eating the foods you actually want 👏🏻The diet industry has us believing that eating foods like pizza, ice cream, cookies, cake, and even potatoes, is something to feel guilty about.
But why? Why listen to the voices of others when truly only one voice matters.
👆🏻 Yours 👇🏻
Your voice is the only one that matters when it comes to your health.
All too often I even find myself listening to the voices of others (dieters) and begging the question of should I eat this? Or, why did I eat that?
But, then I think long, hard, and go internally into myself, and realize I ate that because I wanted it!
Because I like the taste.
Because I like the way that food makes me feel.
Because although it wasn’t as healthy as cauliflower it is still fuel for my body and mind, plus it lit my soul on fire 🔥 For far too long I listened to the voices of others (dieters) and avoided foods I truly loved 💗 And, it was about time I stopped that. And, you should too!
I’ve had enough cauliflower rice, cauliflower pizza crusts, and zucchini noodles, it’s time I embrace real food (real noodles, real rice, real flour and real pizza crusts) and keep vegetables as vegetables 🤘🏻
Will I still eat vegetables? Heck yeah! But, now my relationship is far more healed with food that I know vegetables are a part of a good meal, not the entire meal itself! This year I got to eat a delicious seitan Turkey for thanksgiving with stuffing, overly sweetened sweet potatoes, a boat-load of gravy, lots of Brussels sprouts, and a giant slice of Apple Kuchen that I enjoyed every second of! Last year, I had a plate of corn, butternut squash, and broccoli and called it Thanksgiving dinner. I wanted sweet potatoes, but carbs are scary so I didn’t 👎🏻 (I’m making up for all those missed sweet potato chances everyday by eating like 20 pounds a week :))
I’ll never go back to that damaged only vegetables place again! It can be hard and mentally challenging sometimes, but in the end, having a healthy relationship with food and my body is so worth it to live a life I can be proud of ❤️ #freedom#happy#healthy#life#eatingdisorder#ditchthediet#diets#dieting#ed#warrior#recovered#fear
I am not a fan of the term meeting makers make it but here are the facts of my life for the last few weeks specifically the last 24hrs. Been having trouble getting my rhythm back since this surgery. Still not at 100% but luckily my feet have been well trained and for that, I am grateful. After a great book study at the house yesterday I was watching Armageddon with my little family and it started raining and I didn’t want to go speak for a sponsee at the Hayward fellowship. “Thanks Self!” I went anyway and the feeling afterward reminded me that I wasn’t speaking for him, I was speaking for me because in sharing the message and hope I’ve been so freely given, I am given a different perspective and freedom that bondage of self. Hit late show last night, then got my ass up early spoke at CFA at 6:30am. Then, went to where it all started in Brentwood at the ECCFH for the 8:30 and saw a bunch of the elders who really demonstrated for me early on what it meant to be a man living by spiritual principles constantly taking action for his recovery by trying to help others. Then hit the newcomer noon mtg at Rockridge. The Daily Reflections from yesterday and today were especially on point. Just what I have been needing to remember my purpose and get back in the groove. #thankyouthankyouthankyou#Godisgood#primarypurpose#fitmyselftobeofmaximumservice#toGodandhiskids#recoveryispossible#RECOVERED#LEGGO#SISEPUEDE#YESWECAN#shaoooooooooooo#gotthatglowback#comeatmelife
Threw together this afternoon snack platter, because I was still hungry and was craving a random mishmash of stuff. 😊 ||pita + smashed avocado + oven roasted turkey + orange slices + cinnamon sautéed apples|| 😋💯 I have a HUGE appetite and I am ALWAYS snacking 🙃 This used to scare me a LOT. I would compare what I was eating to the people around me, and then I would feel guilty for eating more than everyone else. I know, silly right? ☺️ But it’s true. And I think this is something that a lot of people struggle with.
My challenge to you today is to Stop.The.Comparison. Eat according to YOUR hunger, not anybody else’s. Food is a gift and we all need different amounts of it. There is no need to be afraid. Listen to your bodies, yo.❤️ Love you guys! 😘 hope you are having a fabulous Monday 👊🏻
When you’re struggling with food and body image, very rarely is the actual problem at hand the food or your body. These kinds of concerns go much deeper than the plate in front of you or the reflection looking back at you in the mirror. However, it can feel so much easier to say you’re afraid of the cupcake or the stretch marks or the weight changes or the cellulite than it is to address the roots of your struggles, whatever they may be.
Don’t get me wrong, there was a point in my life where food was terrifying. Where the thought of eating a cupcake was debilitating. However, when you’re stuck thinking that it’s about the food, you will never get to the bottom of what’s really happening under it all. When my sessions stopped focusing on food and started focusing on what the roots of my eating disorder were, I was able to actually get past why the food was bothering me in the first place. I was able to stop placing the blame on food and my body and start taking action for the deeper issues I was facing, like trauma, anxiety, and depression.
Yes, eating disorders are *technically* about food and body, however, deep down, they aren’t. Challenge yourself to dig deeper. Challenge yourself to discover what’s actually going on inside when you’re afraid of the food on your plate or the body you’re looking at in the mirror. Challenge yourself to just eat the damn cupcake so that you can figure out what’s really scaring you and what the problem really is, because, I promise you, it’s not actually the cupcake causing the problem at all.
These photos actually make me cry. But also they make me realize how far I have come ❤
It takes alot to share this with you guys! But I guess alot of you don't know why or how come I got into my industry of work - health, fitness & wellness 🙏
12 years ago I was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
An illness that debilitates your whole body with muscle fatigue, extreme tiredness, fatigue, digestive problems, weight loss, concentration loss, adrenal fatigue etc. Etc. Etc.... the list goes on!!!
From being a bubbly, independent, intelligent and full of life young girl 💖 I was left to being bed ridden 24/7. I was unable to do anything. I was sleeping more than 17 hours a day. Even taking two steps was a complete struggle. My family had to help me do everything.
The whole point of this post is to show you that we all have had lows in our lives. This time in my life was actually one of the hardest things I and my body had to go through. At times I didn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. But eventually I did 💙
In this time, I learnt so much about myself. It actually made me become such a strong person. Where I feel I can tackle anything now! .
One day when I was lying in bed, so fatigued from this illness, I made two dreams and goals for myself 🌟🌟
NUMBER ONE - to run a Full Marathon when I was better... so last year I ran TWO!!! 🏃♀️🏃♀️ They were two very emotional and special runs for me 💖
NUMBER TWO - was to always help OTHERS. To help everyone I ever met. The people that don't feel like they fit in, people that need motivation, support, kindness and love. And to help other people achieve their goals and dreams.
I want to thank my close family and friends ❤ who today know how far I have come!
And I wouldn't have changed anything. The struggles just have driven me so much to help others 🙏 It also has made me live my life to the fullest every day now!
If you have taken the time to read this... I thank you very much 💙 It means so much to me x x
A colleague today asked me how I “stay in such good shape.”
I have to admit- this totally struck me.
My response? I said “honestly- I eat whatever I want and don’t do anything to manipulate my body.”
It then dawned on me that I sounded like one of those assholes who says “I’m just genetically blessed to be able to eat what I want.” You know. That skinny friend that eats pasta while you’re across the table eating shreds of lettuce.
Maybe that friend does genetically break down calories faster but that doesn’t mean she is “blessed.”
But anyway- back to the topic at hand. This colleague.
I was on a mission to explain myself. explain how life used to look like and how it currently looks. I was then brought back to why unicorns are so prevalent today.
Everyone thinks they are a unicorn. It’s that mentality of “oh that may work for you but that won’t work for me.”
But here’s the thing. I can almost guarantee (and you know I rarely guarantee anything) that if you’re questioning whether true intuitive eating will work for you, the answer is yes because it is a birth right to be an intuitive eater.
I don’t “stay in shape” I allow my body to be where it wants to be. In this moment. My good friend @feedmerecovery said it best. Body acceptance is right here. Right now.
So in response to my colleague “complimenting” me on the fact that I “never gain weight.” It’s ok that you said that. I know it’s societal influencing. But know that my body fluctuates the appropriate amount it should, which it only does so because I have healed my relationship to food, movement, eating and most importantly my body.
So to anyone who is convinced they cannot trust there mind or body to tell it to stop eating. To those who don’t believe they will ever stop gaining. To those who hear that abusive voice in their head. Just give it a shot. Trust yourself. Learn about the process. Contact specialists. Purchase books like health at every size and intuitive eating.
Stop fearing the idea of “letting yourself go” and start embracing letting yourself free. #recoveryeeeats
Home for Christmas and it feels so good. I know I haven’t posted in a hot minute but I just couldn’t be bothered tbh. Hopefully the break will do me some good and I’ll be more motivated (maybe not, who knows 🤷🏻♀️). Anyways, these persimmon baked oats were BOMB and so my baked oats obsession lives on
Many people who have a drinking problem, have an excuse as to why they drink. If you had my problems etc, you would drink too. They use alcohol as a coping mechanism to deal wife life. The actuality is that they choose to drink. Every time you pick up a drink, you are making a choice.
and maybe life challenges you sometimes, maybe the dark days that bring you to your knees are so necessary to make you realize how beautiful life can actually be.
maybe you need to feel like everything is falling apart to grow even stronger and to appreciate the happy days even more.
(it will always get better✌🌼)
HOW, can you become your happiest best self? 💘
don’t EVER care what anyone else thinks about you or judges you on what you choose to do with your life.
simple as that 👏🏼
don’t ever let anyone’s judgments about you or YOUR fear of judgment from others stop you from doing anything you love,
stop you from being you,
stop you from making your own decisions,
stop you from doing what you want with your life,
stop you from doing whatever it is that makes you happy ✨🌞
do it for yourself & do it with love 💛
happy monday!! love to all of you!
At Banyan, we take pride in celebrating our staff. Instagram world, meet Tom! Tom's journey to Banyan Treatment Center started on December 21st, 2013 when he found recovery for the first time. As a direct result of finding recovery, he pursued his passion for empowering and helping others find and sustain theirs too. He started working in the behavioral health field after resigning from the corporate world. He obtained and holds a full certification as an ARISE family interventionist and began his career consulting for a non-profit organization on Long Island. Throughout his career, Tom's been known for giving back to the recovery community especially with his work as co-creator of the project "I Am Not Anonymous,” whose content was nominated for a local Emmy Award in 2016. His effort to humanize recovery in the public eye further earned recognition from the director of the White House Office of National Drug Control Policy. His story has been published in a book by Noah BenShea, "Great Recovery Quotes and Stories to Inspire Great Healing." As a former Regional Vice President of Business Development for another treatment, he brings a great wealth of experience to Banyan. .
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I love eggs 😍 they are so fast and easy and there are so many different ways to make them. Also, eggs are one of the few foods that actually keep me full in the morning, which is a bonus 😉👏 Off to do a workout, then spending the day Christmas shopping with the girls. ❤️ Also having some friends over tonight for pizza and games. Christmas break is the best 🙌 it’s going to be good Monday👌😍 what are you guys up to today? - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - #dEATS —> (makes: 9 egg muffins)
•line muffin tin with sliced deli turkey
•scramble together 6 eggs
•add onions and whatever else you want into the egg mixture (I recommend spinach, cheese, pepper, zucchini, etc.) •evenly distribute between the 9 tins
•bake at 350 for approx. 25 mins (until firm)
Happy Monday!! 😘
already had lunch which was a big vegetable pan with kidney beans and vegan stripes today😋.
I will finally get my blood results today and to be honest I am very nervous.. I just hope that I get to know what's going on with my body because I just can't stand that anymore😓.
Anyway only three more days to go, so looking forward to christmas and everything😍🎄