We have had such a great day today. My parents took us out for a fun day together and it was heart warming to see Lyra love so fiercely and freely. I’m grateful for their relationship, it’s very healing for me 🙏🏻✨
Other than that, today I am feeling things much bigger than myself and that’s created a lot of mental and physical discomfort. My sweet husband with his protective hands upon my head has been the only source of peace for me yet. I feel a massive lack of control on my part and I so desperately want to control!! If you didn’t know, a huge character flaw of mine is the desire to control EVERYTHING. I have learned many lessons that have shown me how unnecessary complete control is and I’ve spent years trying to put out that fire. Then there are moments like this that remind me I still need to be bringing buckets of water to the glowing embers or it could flare back up. So maybe this is a reminder to sit back and relax. I don’t need to be in control, I need to surrender and trust. My spirit has been telling me to be still for months now, and I have been ignoring that. And I suppose I’m rambling and probably not making any sense to you but this truly helps me..I’m trying to be genuine here, share my flaws, my thoughts.. I’m human and I suck sometimes and I over worry and over analyze etc etc but I am very aware and ashamed of these flaws and so determined to learn again, and again if I must, that I need to relinquish control. #icandothis I will breathe myself into stillnesss. Relinquish control. Be still. And. Trust. 🙏🏻✨ done ✅❤️ #trusttheprocess#honesty#bestill#humbled#honestmotherhood#womanhood#lifelessons#breathe#randomcaption#rambling
Is it a movie? Is it a play? Is it a kids show? Is it an opera? Is it a dream or is it a true story- @thedeep2018 came to life a few times tonight. The mega talented cast are grappling with all sorts of challenges on this new devised show. We open on Thursday and we’ll work every minute in the lead up to opening the doors. I love this stage- the show takes over this week, it reveals itself and just runs and we have to try to tame it and steer it in the right directions. I’m not sure exactly what we have made yet, but it’s ambitious and exciting and I really really love some moments. #rambling#process#makingsomethingfromnothing#training#learning
I’m Rox, I’m 19, and I have Aspergers (which is on the autism spectrum) and bipolar disorder. I tend to break down and have anxiety and depression to the point it stops me from time to time but that doesn’t always stop me from getting things done. Apparently people think it does. My mental health doesn’t give you a reason to walk over me, to harrass and bully me, or to treat me like shit. If I wanted to be treated that way, I’d go back to middle school. Please respect people with mental health issues or mental disabilites because they deserve just as much respect as everyone else and after this week, it needs to be said. Thank you for listening. ☺️💕 #mentalhealth#aspergers#bipolardisorder#ranting#rambling#willdeletelater
re-learning who I am as a person from the inside out all while becoming a mother and going through really big life changes at the same time is one of the gnarliest experiences I've had in life this far..it's really tested my patience and encourages so much growth, healing, breakdowns/breakthroughs and a whole lot of self love and respect every single day... there's really no words for what I'm going through.. I thought I went through some shit in my past before, nothing compares to this current journey I'm on right now which actuslly feels like the best part of my life. Every year gets better, but I really got serious with my journey when I found out I was going to be a mom. It gets messy dealing with my inner workings and I truly don't even know who I was as a person for several years, but I like where I'm at now. I have so much to be grateful for, I have the perfect little family and life, I'm exactly where I saw myself once as a little kid and it's truly blissful..almost perfect. Dealing with my mind and learning to love myself is the part that makes it fun, cos not everything could be perfect, it would probably get boring. I hope to share some stories someday with you all or eventually be able to open up on here. I once truly thought my story could help some people stuggling in similar situations..sometimes I forget that and want to keep it to myself unintentionally, but you never know who needs to hear your truth. Anyway, I love you all. Hope your day is beautiful. Please pray for California. These fires are intense...🙏📿✨💦
I'm going through minor scales to find a melody I simply want to call "Demon". Something slow and sinister. I'm on the fence with this melody from a G minor scale.
Some people carry around a demon in a bottle. And the funny thing is, you always know whether someone's carrying a bottle if you have one of your own.
EXERCISE or shall we call it moving- I hope I am not sounding preachy with my posts but I did say I would do a little series.Obviously keeping moving is a big part of holistic health. Some people do loads of gym work,classes and sports and cycling, (big well done to you all😊)but many clients struggle to fit exercise into their lifes.I tend to think again small changes can make big differences so start walking everywhere you can and not dawdling along, really go for it! (I try and fit in an hour each day pounding the streets and woods of Harrogate)and I feel that gives everybody of all ages a good basic level of fitness,then ideally I think you need to add in 3-4 sessions a week of 10 minutes high intensity training (if you are very unfit or new to exercise this may just involve very fast walking at first) to increase your heart health and get the lungs working and then some strength work (yes weights, it's fun I promise) to build muscle tone and mass- I definitely feel that as people get older and start losing muscle mass (I am there!) this is so important (and is supported by numerous studies). It is never too late to start but obviously if you are older or have a medical condition you should check with your doctor before going for it!- there are many classes and gyms and beautiful open spaces in Harrogate and trainers with great expert knowledge. I also do some Pilates with Amy at Rise Pilates who is a great teacher and strong believer in a strong back and core. Obviously this is short and sweet overview, but would love to hear how you guys keep active! Get moving!
What happened to Monday? Now, this is actually the title of a movie where a character is named Monday. More than the potential of the story or the star cast, it was, obviously, the title that piqued curiousity because we always tend to have a tricky relationship with Monday. Don't we? Therefore, here is the list for this week:
1. Buy your favorite fruits on Sunday and pack a box of it for Monday. Having fruits on Monday morning gives us a shortlived confidence that life is on track.
2. If you get random tout calls which describes shares, insurance policies, credit cards and loans as golden eggs laid by goose, then run fast in the opposite direction. This is just a sweep search for losers and scapegoats at bad times.
3. Don't describe your whole fun weekend to your colleagues. If they ask about your weekend, all they expect to hear is, 'Fun' or 'Slept the whole time'. Don't aggravate the yawn they were trying to tame from the time they stepped into the cubicle.
4. When you go to the theaters, you indirectly encourage the crew of that particular movie. Choose wisely. If you are careless in choosing the movie to be watched in the big screen, you are just pumping money into the hands of the people who in turn make more bad movies. It will be a vicious loop.
5. Lastly, share funny memes, especially, on Mondays.
welcome to my passion of making people happy through entertainment and building confidence in those I encounter.
It’s exciting to think of the possibilities of this rabbit hole type journey.
I don’t know if I quite relate to Alice at this point. But maybe the mad hatter.
I’m feeling quite content and curious in the confusion and chaos.
So welcome to the tea party young Alice.
“You’re already late, you know”
I can't fully articulate how amazing it was to see @jcpmcs at the Filmore this past week, but I'll try.
It's 4th of July, 2007, summer before freshman year of highschool. My cousin @ehoody19 gave me a mixtape and it was great- Taking Back Sunday, Coheed and Cambria, Brand New, and more. But Motion City Soundtrack hooked me with "The Future Freaks Me Out" and they hooked me good. They had a rockin' sound, fun, catchy lyrics, counterpoint in the vocals, and a lead singer with a crazy set of pipes!
These guys were the soundtrack of my high school years, with Justin's voice giving me descriptions of life that I connected with long before I started to find my own. His voice present through many a bus ride, workout, and evenings learning to play guitar and sing. Heck, I even did an English project intertwining themes in Hamlet with "Skin and Bones".
Besides being fun, Justin can bring lyrical and emotional depth to a song with a healthy dose of relatability. If you've never listened to MCS listen to the album "Even If It Kills Me" and the title track which closes it out. I feel my heart tearing at the seams full of pain and hope every time, cause even though I haven't gone through what he was dealing with when he wrote it, it's still applicable. This visceral connection places MCS on my cd shelf right next to The Beatles and Jack Johnson.
MCS had their farewell tour and I never got to see them live. Bummer. But life goes on, a few years pass, and Justin comes out with "In The Drink". It's new and different; old flavor still present, yet fresh, infused with new experiences and seasons of life. I dig it, buy a ticket hours before the show and enjoy every minute of it. The new album, the old songs, the humorous ramblings between sets, standing right up front leaning against the rail, singing along with the speakers thumping sonic waves through my chest.
I've rambled on quite a bit, but when I get down to it it was kinda surreal. The voice and crazy hair that I had listened to for so long put on a great show, and was great to meet after. Keep it up man, you're great at what you do!
I could write about you and life for ages... hopefully time speeds up to the good days. As much as the struggle makes me want to fold I never will, I’m here till the fuckin wheels fall off and all that shit , I can stand my ground and say I know I love well && whoever doubts it can get fucked. Karma is real , good or bad ; it all comes back around.. so watch yourselves never let someone catch u slippin & sit back stay in your lane. Life’s a state of perception , in which we all make of it. #dt#confusing#life#art#rambling#fml#tbh#spam#lovehate#poetry#edgarallanpoe#poe#vocab#shittytext#dontcopyPLEASE#hashtag
It’s so hard sometimes not to let our anxiety “cut our legs”
I resigned from my job, it was an awful environment and I was almost finishing my contract and some new opportunities presented themselves... I would lie if I said I’m not nervous about it, one way to be less anxious, for me, is routine. knowing that mine will completely change leaves me in a nervous breakdown. I’m a shift worker now, which leaves me with plenty time to go to my own country to be with my family and to do other things like travelling a bit and all. I’m starting a new job, hopefully, and I’ll have a monday to friday sort of roster, I’m nervous about it.. super nervous.. but I want to try it, actually I want to try other things besides nursing but I’m always so nervous I won’t be good at it that I never do... last year I had a great opportunity and I thrown it out of the window cause I was afraid!!! How ridiculous is that... I pray for a day I won’t let the fear and anxiety dominate me!!! It controls so much of my life at times in more ways than one!!! #rambling#blablabla