Art journaling can be such a great way to find out what our unconscious has going on. Free association art form can be just grabbing collage materials and see what happens. Have you ever tried it? #artjournal#selfawareness#process
https://www.pscp.tv/w/bnJQ8TF6dkVOT3hHWHBQUWV8MU9kS3JwcUJZZUFKWDjKDMLRtk-j3bQfn-N-GiompJedLCWWQxMaP22DCvlv?t=2s : 8 off or GO to 8 : if #ptsd appears, it goes there & w #rodents on my mind, all the time spent cheering for #mentalillness#lies since it’s #GREED masking as a desire to have a #home for #family ❤️ I let him know what was ESSENTIAL TO HAVE ACCESS TO, that was my family. I have a feeling they’ll start taking vacations together because that was the discussion & another thing “I DIDN’T get...” the stories were to say “...my childhood was...” POOR & how much do you make!? The first time he paid for his parent’s dinner IT was A MOMENT BECAUSE he’d never done that before. The first time he went to a funeral & the “conversation” we had...it’s just starting to bubble up & why I’m finding those safe spaces. 1, 2, 3... make it EZ for permanent safety : because this is #WHERE I first learned #TIME , it gets a thank you #fredrogers#sports#travel#parents : (I am going to figure this out) & I want it #FASTEST so no more “layering” #FEAR
Introducing Boise cast member, Mary Ashley! Join Mary and her cast mates on October 8th in Boise as they share their brave stories. Learn more about Mary and get your tickets to the show by clicking the link in our bio!
Managed to sprain my ankle and I’ve got aaaanother infection. ✅
Life with chronic disease & EDS = constantly exciting.
Still went for a walk and went OUTSIDE today.
Mental health is celebrating the small wins. I can’t eat due to my salivatory gland being fucking destructive so I had a giant @starbucks Pumpkin Spiced Latte. It feels a bit odd having my Autumn fave whilst walking/limping through 27degree heat.... 🙈🙈🙈🍁🍁
Alright, it’s #ThePeoplesNCO and I’m about to bring you all Part 1 of many to the raw history of my #LetsGetHonest failures and triumphs... Let me take you to 2007, I was on my 4th Deployment and was starting to obtain tunnel vision... I couldn’t let my teammates see me weak- #PTSD was like some sort intolerable curse
We had more deployments and my team needed me...the world needed me...my family was breaking, I was fracturing...I was losing this fight “So ask me how I'm coping, and I'll smile and tell you: "I'm just fine"
While down inside I'm screaming till I f$@&ing bleed!! Because when everyone's expendable
And your heart can't take the weight
The last thing that you wish for is the face
Is the face- THE FACE TO FACE THE PAIN!!..” - @parkwaydriveofficial
I can remember ACTUALLY challenging God to a battle of “Am I invincible?...” I couldn’t understand why my life was constantly spared as I struggled with survivor-guilt... How am I worth saving? I keep seeing my friends and other teammates come home in boxes- they were better than me!! Why am I still here... If you’re one of these people- I recommend you seek some help. #MentalHealth and #Wellness may be the focus of September- but it doesn’t stop there.
👁❇️👁IMAGE RP VIA @spiritual.awakening1 👈👈👈🔷🔷🔷
"There are those, however,
that are not frightened of
dropping deep into the
they find therein a
necessary elixir to the
When they encounter
when they press their foreheads against the bark
of a centuries-old tree...
their eyes well with tears
that fall easily to the ground.
The soil needs this water.
Grief is but a gate,
and our tears a kind of key
opening a place of wonder
thats been locked away.
Suddenly we notice a
between the drumming heart
within our chest
and the pulse rising from the ground.” ✨ David Abram ⭕️
🌍HOLDING SPACE FOR GRIEF:: 🔥
🌍 EXPLORE MEDITATION PRACTICE:: 🔥
@boundariesarebeautiful @selfcareissacred @theonenesssolution ⤴️⤴️⤴️
There’s A MESSAGE in your MESS 🙏🏽🙌🏽 It’s okay to be broken, give your brokenness over to God so he can repair you. Keep your head up if you’re in some of your lowest points when you’re back is against the wall. I’ve gone through some of my lowest and darkest points and still going through some but my faith will never waiver. ✨ How do I stay strong in the midst of these trials it’s nothing but God, I’ve lost so many things in this season but I know God has me in a season of planting seeds so I can reap a harvest and share it with the rest of my Queens & Kings ❤️💙
Continuing the conversation about PTSD & healing. I am curious about people’s experiences of therapy, & what let them know this therapy was making a difference. Please share or if you prefer to remain anonymous, you’re welcome to DM, & I can share for you. ••
•• 🚗I remember going to many first sessions with different therapists. Each time I would come out feeling they didn’t get what was going on, they were talking surface stuff... I felt they were saying things that were obvious, & that if I could think those good ways of thinking or do those good ways of behaving, I would be doing them. But I couldn’t. Something was getting in the way, out beyond my conscious desires. I was stuck. I needed someone who had the skills & the map to navigate beyond the unknown place where I was. I needed someone, for the first time in my life, to come find where I was & help me find myself. ••
•• 🕶I remember when I finally found that kind of therapist, I knew in the first session. I could feel she got the unspoken & could help. I felt I could see a light at the end of the tunnel. Relief. I was no longer alone. ••
•• 🚗I also remember it was about after one year later of regular fortnightly therapy; one day walking up for my appointment & freaking out. I couldn’t see her car. A fear rushed through my body, so fast. My fear she has gone & not told me she was leaving. My fears of abandonment washed over me. I went to the door... ••
•• 🕶I thought no one would come after I knocked. She opened the door. Her car was being serviced so it wasn’t parked outside.... I went in & told her my fears. It was only in sharing with her, that she could name back to me, help me realise what had gone on: my fear of not trusting someone. My fear of abandonment. She showed me, & the more I told her my inside thoughts, fears, feelings, mistrust, doubt, & different parts of me... unless I shared my secret self, she couldn’t help all the different parts of me. For the first time in my life I had a safe place. For the first time in my life I had found a place where ALL the different parts of me could all be in the one place at the same time. I could reconnect my disconnected parts.
Today Sir #Cannabis asks #medicalmarijuana user @thehighmindedhippie Jackie the rarity of her conditions and how #medicalcannabis has helped reshape her life 💪🏻
Jackie goes on to say,
“Experiencing #socialanxiety can be crippling. I missed many days of work because my anxiety was so bad. After experiencing sexual abuse and physical abuse at a young age, dealing with #PTSD brings on so many triggers, going out in public, new settings, crowded places, and basic chores are just an obstacle.
If this isn’t enough, my OCD adds to my anxiety. Everything has a place, everything in it’s place. It’s how I deal with all the chaos, and if disrupted, I breakdown emotionally.
Then there’s the dreaded irritable bowel syndrome (IBSD). This consists of excruciating stomach pain for which I lack a comparison and I’ve been in labor, followed by multiple 20 minute trips to the bathroom, lasting up to a week at a time, periodically sending me to the ER. Diet also plays a key role. It takes longer to list what I shouldn’t eat verses what I can. I am pretty much left with a high protein diet, red meat and seafood.
I have been down to 68 pounds because of IBS and I’m only 4 foot 7!
My hot flashes from surgical menopause increased intensity, going on for 2 hours at a time! October 15th 2015 I was diagnosed with stage 0 Colon Cancer at a routine follow up to an endoscopy/colonoscopy. I was only 36, and facing a 5 year death sentence!
Luckily surgery and lifestyle changes were all I needed. I’m in my 3rd year of cancer remission and have one more colonoscopy waiting for me when I reach year 5! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
#CannabisWarrior of the Week Presented by @pennsylvaniacannabisconnection & @sircannabisapparel 🎩🥂
Did you know we have over 70,000 thoughts a day and most of them are the same thoughts??? Think about that for a sec, if you’re having all those thoughts and most of them are NEGATIVE... that’s like living a constant circle of negativity. The good news is... WE CAN CHANGE OUR THOUGHTS. It’s a daily practice that first starts with awareness. Now that you’re #woke catch those thoughts and think of how you can turn a negative into a positive. 😃 I love these words of wisdom posted from @chopracenter
when this young man was 20 years old, he enlisted in the military and went to war. While in combat, his legs were blown off. When he returned home, the life this young man had planned, had come to an abrupt end. The pain from losing two of his limbs was more...(read more on https://victoria-nicodemus.com/2018/09/19/residual-limbs/ ) link in bio.
When I first started out as a therapist I saw many sexual abuse surivivors. The lasting impact of #trauma on the body and brain is no joke.
When we #listen , #validate , and stand in #solidarity with #victims of #abuse , we allow whole #communities to #heal and #rise .
I think of the long #journey @taranajaneen has been on. I heard her speak this year and her message is that #reclaiming love is also part of the journey. We forget that #love is the exclaimation point at the end of grief and anger.
To #survivors everywhere who courageously rise, a deep bow. We are growing our capacity t9 listen in the deep to give you sustenance on your journey.
Sidewalk Talk Founder
** LONG PERSONAL POST**
Mental health awareness week!! Let’s take a moment to be raw and real. Mental health is nothing I’m not used to. I hide a lot of my shit from the world because I don’t want pity. 2018 really can go fuck itself, I have had enough of it. Lots don’t know what’s going on and some do, for those who been there for me and listen to me, you know who you are and I know who you are, thank you. For the rest that turn a blind eye it’s okay, I forgive you, hell im sure I pushed you away. I get told not to be ashamed of this or hide it.. Here it is, I deal with #depression , #anxiety , #PTSD , and #suicidal thoughts. I just started meds to help balance the serotonin in my brain, because my depression was too far gone.. I was at the point of taking my own life, I was done, I want the pain gone. Some people reached out and saw the red flags, others didn’t want too or maybe they were to scared to bring it up, its fine I forgive you, it’s not an easy topic.
The death of my mother well let’s be honest really both my parents, I yet haven’t grieved either of them.. my ever haunting past that haunts me day in and day out, the failing of a relationships that I have messed up everything in... failing as a partner slowly watching my marriage fail and pushing away the ones I love, because mental health is powerful and consuming..I’m still struggling with it all but I’m getting help that I believe I need. Anyways enough about my shit!! Don’t be ashamed or scared to talk to me. I’m always here to listen, hell I might just need someone to talk to myself that day. We all have a demon and all are fighting our own battles in our head.#mentalhealthawareness
I try very hard to live by this. I tend to take it easy on my bad days. Less social media, less interaction with people, the phone gets put down, I don't answer phone calls or messages unless I have to, I drink A LOT of tea, sometimes I go outside & just breathe for awhile trying to clear my head, sometimes I stay in bed most of the day. I mainly just try to avoid anything I feel is going to cause stress or drama. And we all know how easy it is to become stressed, frustrated, & overwhelmed on our bad days. Unfortunately, my 'break' from the world always results in people asking me why I'm mad at them again no matter how many times I tell them I've just been busy 😴. There's nothing wrong if your 'being busy' means taking care of yourself. The rest of the world can wait 😊. #mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#mentalillness#ptsd#ptsdawareness#cptsd#bpd#depression#anxiety#bipolar#did#schizophrenia#panicdisorder#mentalhealthisimportant
Sometimes we judge too quickly. We all do at some point. A woman checked in this afternoon. "Hot, so hot". "Difficult place to locate". When re-entering "Ugggh" as if my presence wasn't welcoming.
Thinking our interactions wouldn't be pleasant it was simple enough to avoid further conversation. "Traveling Europe?" Interestingly she wasn't asking from the same perspective as many others have done so in my travels but objectively requiring a yes or no response. "Euros, they're weighing my bag down" and she dug in her bag and handed them over.
It was then more noticeable there hadn't been, and would not be, any eye contact during exchanges.
Having studied psychology and coincidentally taking in the Curious Incident of The Dog In The Nighttime just last week, this woman is somewhere on the spectrum albeit highly functioning.
A friendly reminder to not judge too quickly.