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This is from a week ago I think?? Rant time yay I sure like to complain. It helps. I'm just. Depression. It's exhausting. My meds changed and for some reason they gave me the capsules again, and those seriously stress me out to the point where I'm scared to take them at all. Because they Very Easily get stuck in my throat or somewhere and start BURNING 🔥🔥🔥 it hurts ALL DAY and just sucks so bad, that even tho it doesn't happen every time, just the POSSIBILITY of it happening makes me really want to just. Not. Even take the risk 🚫 And it stresses me out, because I need these meds but at the same time I can't take them without fear, and like, I'm anxious now before going to sleep because in the morning I'm gonna have to take the meds again and therefore there's gonna be the risk of getting burned from inside out again 😰 I tried opening the capsules and just taking the inner powder, which did save me from the burning, but then I read about it and the internet says it Might be dangerous, so now I can't do that either 🗣 Gribby's helped me take them with food and extra water, but the anxiety is still there 😵 I'll talk about this next week to the nurse, so hopefully she can get the doctor to PLEASE write me Pills instead of capsules this time jfc 💊 #rant #depression #meds #medicine #stress #anxiety #generalizedanxietydisorder #ptsd #cptsd #ootd #genderless
This is from a week ago I think?? Rant time yay I sure like to complain. It helps. I'm just. Depression. It's exhausting. My meds changed and for some reason they gave me the capsules again, and those seriously stress me out to the point where I'm scared to take them at all. Because they Very Easily get stuck in my throat or somewhere and start BURNING 🔥🔥🔥 it hurts ALL DAY and just sucks so bad, that even tho it doesn't happen every time, just the POSSIBILITY of it happening makes me really want to just. Not. Even take the risk 🚫 And it stresses me out, because I need these meds but at the same time I can't take them without fear, and like, I'm anxious now before going to sleep because in the morning I'm gonna have to take the meds again and therefore there's gonna be the risk of getting burned from inside out again 😰 I tried opening the capsules and just taking the inner powder, which did save me from the burning, but then I read about it and the internet says it Might be dangerous, so now I can't do that either 🗣 Gribby's helped me take them with food and extra water, but the anxiety is still there 😵 I'll talk about this next week to the nurse, so hopefully she can get the doctor to PLEASE write me Pills instead of capsules this time jfc 💊 #rant  #depression  #meds  #medicine  #stress  #anxiety  #generalizedanxietydisorder  #ptsd  #cptsd  #ootd  #genderless 
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A little inspiration from @themarinerapper I deal with PTSD and some days are rougher than others.  It's important to surround yourself with positive people and energy to help pull you through those tough times.  Anyone else dealing with PTSD, Reach Out, you are not alone!
#regrann #inspire #aspiringtoinspire #warveterans #combatveteran #soldier #armedforces #ptsd #ptsdawareness #22aday #suicideprevention #army #marines #airforce #navy #warriorethos #nomanleftbehind
#Repost  @kentrell_theartist with @get_repost ・・・ A little inspiration from @themarinerapper I deal with PTSD and some days are rougher than others. It's important to surround yourself with positive people and energy to help pull you through those tough times. Anyone else dealing with PTSD, Reach Out, you are not alone! #regrann  #inspire  #aspiringtoinspire  #warveterans  #combatveteran  #soldier  #armedforces  #ptsd  #ptsdawareness  #22aday  #suicideprevention  #army  #marines  #airforce  #navy  #warriorethos  #nomanleftbehind 
No one fights alone. No matter your trauma, we are here to fight with you. There is hope, and you will get through this. #ptsd #ptsdyuma #supportgroup #yuma #yumaarizona #noonefightsalone #trauma #survivor #firstresponders #abusesurvivor #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #recovery
Was happy to recieve my 5 yr membership pin from the #Legion today...turned what started to be a realy tough day due to my #ptsd to a really good day!
Was happy to recieve my 5 yr membership pin from the #Legion  today...turned what started to be a realy tough day due to my #ptsd  to a really good day!
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4 years ago, I became disabled from severe mental health battles & was diagnosed with #PTSD & #bipolardisorder with #psychotic features.📋👨🏼‍⚕️✨
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After 10 years of unexplained psychotic-type symptoms {of which I explored in great depths attempting to understand} & 15 years of incurable insomnia {I used to overdose on over the counter sleep aids in desperation}, I was super ultra mega overthetop relieved to be finding answers & HELP for the first time.🌟🙌🏼🌟
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40 doctors & 50 different medications {plus endless combos of medications} later, I was still completely disabled.😵
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From 2014-2018, I struggled with homelessness in Colorado.🚗
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I was diagnosed with #DID #dissociativeidentitydisorder a year & a half ago, & moved to California to live with family 8 months ago after a 3rd assault while battling homelessness.🥀
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I began chiropractic treatment in May 2018 & discovered several dozen partially dislocated bones throughout my body that had been masked with severe dissociation: I didn’t know that being totally numb all over was not healthy.🤕
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While processing 20 years of various Traumas, I have my bones reset several times a week by a PHENOMENAL chiropractor.👨🏻‍⚕️ SO GRATEFUL!!😭🙏🏼✨💝 .
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After repeatedly being failed by doctors for both mental & physical health battles from 2007-2017, including experiencing psychiatric abuse, MY LIFE MISSION BECAME EXTRAORDINARILY CLEAR.😎
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I am attempting to define what it means to live with a dissociative identity while creating tools to successfully live with one. .
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Through the Dissociative Identity Movement, a worldwide mental health advocacy movement, the world will gain awareness about dissociative disorders.
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Through Healing Journey Homeschool, a mental health life coaching program I’m working night & day to create from scratch, the world will gain access to coping resources & a path to self-discovery, personal growth, & deepening self-worth, self-love, & self-care.💝💝💝
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I share intimate daily personal peeks ~ on Instagram of my general healing journey, &~~~CONTINUED IN CAPTION~~~
~~~THE STORY BEHIND THE KRISTIN CHRONICLES~~~ . . . 4 years ago, I became disabled from severe mental health battles & was diagnosed with #PTSD  & #bipolardisorder  with #psychotic  features.📋👨🏼‍⚕️✨ . . . After 10 years of unexplained psychotic-type symptoms {of which I explored in great depths attempting to understand} & 15 years of incurable insomnia {I used to overdose on over the counter sleep aids in desperation}, I was super ultra mega overthetop relieved to be finding answers & HELP for the first time.🌟🙌🏼🌟 . . . Or so I thought.😰 . . . 40 doctors & 50 different medications {plus endless combos of medications} later, I was still completely disabled.😵 . . . From 2014-2018, I struggled with homelessness in Colorado.🚗 . . . I was diagnosed with #DID  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  a year & a half ago, & moved to California to live with family 8 months ago after a 3rd assault while battling homelessness.🥀 . . . I began chiropractic treatment in May 2018 & discovered several dozen partially dislocated bones throughout my body that had been masked with severe dissociation: I didn’t know that being totally numb all over was not healthy.🤕 . . . While processing 20 years of various Traumas, I have my bones reset several times a week by a PHENOMENAL chiropractor.👨🏻‍⚕️ SO GRATEFUL!!😭🙏🏼✨💝 . . . After repeatedly being failed by doctors for both mental & physical health battles from 2007-2017, including experiencing psychiatric abuse, MY LIFE MISSION BECAME EXTRAORDINARILY CLEAR.😎 . . . I am attempting to define what it means to live with a dissociative identity while creating tools to successfully live with one. . . . Through the Dissociative Identity Movement, a worldwide mental health advocacy movement, the world will gain awareness about dissociative disorders. . . . Through Healing Journey Homeschool, a mental health life coaching program I’m working night & day to create from scratch, the world will gain access to coping resources & a path to self-discovery, personal growth, & deepening self-worth, self-love, & self-care.💝💝💝 . . . I share intimate daily personal peeks ~ on Instagram of my general healing journey, &~~~CONTINUED IN CAPTION~~~
This is me. The one in the middle. I use the name Jupiter. And there is a lot to me. Thank you to those who respected my privacy. And fuck you to the piece of shit that didn't respect my privacy. Just know if you are stupid to me, you will be blocked and reported. I'm not afraid of these people anymore.
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This is me. The one in the middle. I use the name Jupiter. And there is a lot to me. Thank you to those who respected my privacy. And fuck you to the piece of shit that didn't respect my privacy. Just know if you are stupid to me, you will be blocked and reported. I'm not afraid of these people anymore. .. .. .. {Tags: #rapesurvivor  #sexualassult  #survivor  #nightmare  #pain  #sick  #chronicillness  #chronicpain  #ptsd  #depressed  #angry  #anxiety  #lgbtq  #nonbinary  #gay  #pansexual  #chronicillness  #chronicpain  #spoonie  #spoonielife  #undiagnosed  #shadowspoonies  #me  #thisisme  #respect  #respectme  }
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More Crisis requires More Crisis Responders! Police, Fire, Medical, EMT, Mental Health, Chaplains and volunteer disaster responders were part of #ICISF group crisis intervention certification in Orlando. Want to find out where you can join a crisis response team to help with critical incidents like #hurricanemichael ? visit www.NVOAD.org or www.ICISF.org and discover how you can get equipped to make a difference. #crisis #crisisresponse #PTSD #criticalincident #firstresponders #psychology #mentalhealthresponse #mentalhealth #groupcrisis #icisf #internationalcriticalincidentstressfoundation #pulse #orlandounited #orlandostrong
More Crisis requires More Crisis Responders! Police, Fire, Medical, EMT, Mental Health, Chaplains and volunteer disaster responders were part of #ICISF  group crisis intervention certification in Orlando. Want to find out where you can join a crisis response team to help with critical incidents like #hurricanemichael  ? visit www.NVOAD.org or www.ICISF.org and discover how you can get equipped to make a difference. #crisis  #crisisresponse  #PTSD  #criticalincident  #firstresponders  #psychology  #mentalhealthresponse  #mentalhealth  #groupcrisis  #icisf  #internationalcriticalincidentstressfoundation  #pulse  #orlandounited  #orlandostrong 
Completed the relay for life, it was really rough and I'm glad its over. My legs feel horrible and my heart is off the hook, it gave me a headache. My legs and hands are numbish tingly. I'm completely drained. I'm gonna try to get a dog soon, gonna look into breeders and shelters more. I can't keep doing this.
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Completed the relay for life, it was really rough and I'm glad its over. My legs feel horrible and my heart is off the hook, it gave me a headache. My legs and hands are numbish tingly. I'm completely drained. I'm gonna try to get a dog soon, gonna look into breeders and shelters more. I can't keep doing this. ___________________________ 🌹Follow our shop!🌹 @medical_mess_gear ___________________________ 🐾Follow our pawtners!! 🐾 @piper_the_sdit @servicepupthunder @gabbythebrave @service.animal.police ___________________________ Tags #servicedog  #servicedogintraining  #workingdog  #medicalalert  #medicalalertdog  #servicedogsofig  #workingdogsofinstagram  #workingdogs  #medicalalertservicedog  #dog  #dogtraining  #doggear  #illness  #furforacure  #servicedogteam  #dogsofinstagram  #assistancedog  #spoonie  #bipolar  #hypoglycemia  #hypoglycemic  #PTSD  #GAD  #servicedoghandler  #sdit  #servicedoggear  #ESA  #GSD  #gsdofinstagram  #relayforlife 
Ugly as hell pull but back in the six plate club after coming out of my coma. So happy to have 585 moving again!!
Ugly as hell pull but back in the six plate club after coming out of my coma. So happy to have 585 moving again!!
FlaminGO FOR IT... a message surely for this ninja out and about... and for exposure therapy... thanks nice cafe Xx

#mentalillnessrecovery #recoveryninja #coffeetable #anxiety #depression #ocdrecovery #innerninja #walklikeaninja #exposuretherapy #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #therapy #mood #flamingofan #flamingoforit #putthatfootdown #writingaboutmentalhealth #fearlessfemme
Dabtime!!! Hope all of you are having a wonderful Shatterday! Dabbing Super Sour Tangie!
Dabtime!!! Hope all of you are having a wonderful Shatterday! Dabbing Super Sour Tangie!
För mig och mitt tillfrisknande är den feministiska analysen är viktigt redskap. Den får mig att förstå och ifrågasätta varför jag har vissa beteenden och tankegångar. Varför vissa saker känns så otroligt mycket viktigare än de egentligen är. Dessutom fungerar den på sätt och vis som ett skydd och ett försvar. 
När man har #ptsd kan man säga att ens larmsystem som ska varna vid fara har gått sönder. Det kan gå igång helt oväntat i princip när som helst. Detta gör att man går runt i konstant väntan på nästa fara och att man ibland har svårt att avgöra om något är farligt eller inte. Där har den feministiska analysen varit till stor hjälp. Dels för att jag kan slappna av lite och tänka att jag vet mer än jag gjorde när jag utsattes för det jag utsattes för. Men också för att jag vet att jag har en större chans att se igenom män som inte har ett empatiskt, jämställt och ärligt uppsåt i relationer med mig. Jag har en starkare känsla för mitt egenvärde och en sundare syn på ansvarsfördelning idag. Men för att detta ska fungera krävs det att den är med mig hela tiden, i alla situationer och relationer och det är TRÖTTSAMT! Inte på grund av den utan på grund av samhällsstrukturen. Det är svårare att vara genuint glad. Det är svårare att ha trevligt. Det är svårare att hitta något att titta på/lyssna på/läsa utan att hela tiden fundera på vilka sanningar det befäster och hur det påverkar helheten. Och det är väldigt väldigt ensamt emellan åt. 
Men det är också viktigt och stärkande. I alla fall när analysen inte nödvändigtvis måste göras precis när resten av jaget har gått och lagt sig och ska sova. Jag behöver mer systerskap i mitt liv. Godnatt #ptsd #feminism
För mig och mitt tillfrisknande är den feministiska analysen är viktigt redskap. Den får mig att förstå och ifrågasätta varför jag har vissa beteenden och tankegångar. Varför vissa saker känns så otroligt mycket viktigare än de egentligen är. Dessutom fungerar den på sätt och vis som ett skydd och ett försvar. När man har #ptsd  kan man säga att ens larmsystem som ska varna vid fara har gått sönder. Det kan gå igång helt oväntat i princip när som helst. Detta gör att man går runt i konstant väntan på nästa fara och att man ibland har svårt att avgöra om något är farligt eller inte. Där har den feministiska analysen varit till stor hjälp. Dels för att jag kan slappna av lite och tänka att jag vet mer än jag gjorde när jag utsattes för det jag utsattes för. Men också för att jag vet att jag har en större chans att se igenom män som inte har ett empatiskt, jämställt och ärligt uppsåt i relationer med mig. Jag har en starkare känsla för mitt egenvärde och en sundare syn på ansvarsfördelning idag. Men för att detta ska fungera krävs det att den är med mig hela tiden, i alla situationer och relationer och det är TRÖTTSAMT! Inte på grund av den utan på grund av samhällsstrukturen. Det är svårare att vara genuint glad. Det är svårare att ha trevligt. Det är svårare att hitta något att titta på/lyssna på/läsa utan att hela tiden fundera på vilka sanningar det befäster och hur det påverkar helheten. Och det är väldigt väldigt ensamt emellan åt. Men det är också viktigt och stärkande. I alla fall när analysen inte nödvändigtvis måste göras precis när resten av jaget har gått och lagt sig och ska sova. Jag behöver mer systerskap i mitt liv. Godnatt #ptsd  #feminism 
If this speaks to you, Repeat after me: -
"I am the Universe (Source/Energy/Higher Power) expressing itself as a human being for just a little while. -
So today I choose to be the best version of me I can possibly be!"
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#connectionsrestored #universe #expressing #humanbeing #human #being #alittlewhile #bestversionofyourself #best #you #empowered #believe #belief #coach #mentor #ptsd #trauma #addictions #💖 #village #community
If this speaks to you, Repeat after me: - "I am the Universe (Source/Energy/Higher Power) expressing itself as a human being for just a little while. - So today I choose to be the best version of me I can possibly be!" - Live today empowered and free!💖🌟 - I believe in you. - #connectionsrestored  #universe  #expressing  #humanbeing  #human  #being  #alittlewhile  #bestversionofyourself  #best  #you  #empowered  #believe  #belief  #coach  #mentor  #ptsd  #trauma  #addictions  #💖 #village  #community 
Some people say I have too much to say. I would (and sometimes still) stay quiet to please people. But that's changing. ---- If you thought I was too loud, I'm getting louder.
If you thought I was scared, I'm getting braver.
If you thought I would always comply, meet the rebel.
If you thought I wasn't smart enough, I'm about to disappoint you.
If you thought I wasn't pretty, well I don't care what you think. 
To please everyone, all the time means possibly disappointing yourself most of the time. You can't please everyone babe.😉 #feminist #feminism #intersectionalfeminism #equality #mentalillness #mentalhealth #anxiety #woc #poc #race #lgbtq #depression #trauma #rapesurvivor #rapeculture #harassment #selfcare #bopo #bodypositive #body #race #effyourbeautystandards #ptsd #blackgirlmagic #courage #brave #strong #worthy #loud #girlpower
Some people say I have too much to say. I would (and sometimes still) stay quiet to please people. But that's changing. ---- If you thought I was too loud, I'm getting louder. If you thought I was scared, I'm getting braver. If you thought I would always comply, meet the rebel. If you thought I wasn't smart enough, I'm about to disappoint you. If you thought I wasn't pretty, well I don't care what you think. To please everyone, all the time means possibly disappointing yourself most of the time. You can't please everyone babe.😉 #feminist  #feminism  #intersectionalfeminism  #equality  #mentalillness  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #woc  #poc  #race  #lgbtq  #depression  #trauma  #rapesurvivor  #rapeculture  #harassment  #selfcare  #bopo  #bodypositive  #body  #race  #effyourbeautystandards  #ptsd  #blackgirlmagic  #courage  #brave  #strong  #worthy  #loud  #girlpower 
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Another wonderful FREE SOUTH SIDE YOGA class @kusanyacafe hosted by @igrowchicago guided today by me @ea_the_wholistic_artist from @spaceenglewood We did my new fav “Well Rounded” Sequence a lil of everything breathing surrendering balancing inverting and just simply woosah-ing. A beautiful class representative of the world I want to live in. All colors all levels all sizes loving life while supporting each other and growing together. And yes then we eat ... my fav a spicy breakfast burrito followed by fresh cookies and caramel latte...
#trisoulyoga #wellnesspreneur #yogaoffthemat #blackgirlyoga #blackgirlmagic #yoga #yogini #massagetherapist #drummer #djembefola #percussionist #chicago #supportlocal #ladyboss #stress #depression #ptsd #eczema #wholisticartist #motivationalspeaker #everydaywellnessforeverydaypeople #englewood #igrowchicagofamily🌻 #myownbeat #blackbusiness #hoodwellness
Another wonderful FREE SOUTH SIDE YOGA class @kusanyacafe hosted by @igrowchicago guided today by me @ea_the_wholistic_artist from @spaceenglewood We did my new fav “Well Rounded” Sequence a lil of everything breathing surrendering balancing inverting and just simply woosah-ing. A beautiful class representative of the world I want to live in. All colors all levels all sizes loving life while supporting each other and growing together. And yes then we eat ... my fav a spicy breakfast burrito followed by fresh cookies and caramel latte... #trisoulyoga  #wellnesspreneur  #yogaoffthemat  #blackgirlyoga  #blackgirlmagic  #yoga  #yogini  #massagetherapist  #drummer  #djembefola  #percussionist  #chicago  #supportlocal  #ladyboss  #stress  #depression  #ptsd  #eczema  #wholisticartist  #motivationalspeaker  #everydaywellnessforeverydaypeople  #englewood  #igrowchicagofamily 🌻 #myownbeat  #blackbusiness  #hoodwellness 
People ask me how I do it, or even better, why I do it. Especially on a month when I've taken on a bunch of new stuff. In the last 6 months I've adopted a 3rd kid, signed up to be parent council president, backup childcare coordinator for the school council, taken on driving 3 kids to school every day, and now I've adopted a bearded dragon. On top of the crazy that my house already is. 2 cats. 2 dogs. 2 snails. 2 special needs kids, and 1 crazy but lovable teenager. I think I've finally figured out why. In therapy it took a hell of a time to out what my 'normal' or 'happy" looks like. We accidentally found that 3 weeks ago. It's taken a hell of a lot of work. But I'm not scared to do things that give me that happy feeling. My kids (even the ones I didn't give birth to) my husband, my animals, my reptile, my snails, give me that happy feeling. While my routine consists of constant on the go scheduling and caring. It drives  me. I may not have a career, or any formal training.  But on days where I'm not fighting with the voices in my head I have a blast making sure everything is fed, watered, loved, clean and happy. One day when everything is older and more independent I might try something new. But for now I'm just going to stay home with my house and see what I can grow it into. #anxiety #depression #ptsd #dissociationdisorder #mentalhealth #lovemylife #mostdays #itsoktohavebaddays #selfcare
People ask me how I do it, or even better, why I do it. Especially on a month when I've taken on a bunch of new stuff. In the last 6 months I've adopted a 3rd kid, signed up to be parent council president, backup childcare coordinator for the school council, taken on driving 3 kids to school every day, and now I've adopted a bearded dragon. On top of the crazy that my house already is. 2 cats. 2 dogs. 2 snails. 2 special needs kids, and 1 crazy but lovable teenager. I think I've finally figured out why. In therapy it took a hell of a time to out what my 'normal' or 'happy" looks like. We accidentally found that 3 weeks ago. It's taken a hell of a lot of work. But I'm not scared to do things that give me that happy feeling. My kids (even the ones I didn't give birth to) my husband, my animals, my reptile, my snails, give me that happy feeling. While my routine consists of constant on the go scheduling and caring. It drives me. I may not have a career, or any formal training. But on days where I'm not fighting with the voices in my head I have a blast making sure everything is fed, watered, loved, clean and happy. One day when everything is older and more independent I might try something new. But for now I'm just going to stay home with my house and see what I can grow it into. #anxiety  #depression  #ptsd  #dissociationdisorder  #mentalhealth  #lovemylife  #mostdays  #itsoktohavebaddays  #selfcare 
Feeling completely hopeless isolated from real world . Always alone always afraid no fight no hope no light. Just darkness

#depression #ptsd #cptsd #crisis #sadness #loneliness #hopelessness #isolated #nostrength #alone #invisible #lies #invisibleillness #abi #tbi #goingblind
“There’s a clear disconnect. It happens at a unique time for everyone. Whenever it happens, it’s distinct. A crisp break. A dedicated mental switch.
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You let go. Blocking all emotions. You think nothing of your kid growing up without you. You think nothing of leaving your wife alone.
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Your buddy smiles at you across the bird. Nervous, excited. Looking around. Half the dudes are racked out in an ambien induced haze. We are home. This is my family. That is the switch.
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I said goodbye expecting not to come back. I returned, several times. Turning that switch off can potentially kill us. If only temporary, with more trips around the corner. Another deployment. That’s a good thing, that’s what we wanted. We were selfish. - 
The responsibilities of seemingly mundane pieces of life add up. The stress stacks. Your wife doesn’t get it. Your kid is innocent. What I should be able to handle, I cannot. That’s where the whiskey comes in. Lubricating my transition back to reality, or was war reality?
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Nothing can protect them from the disease. Once you experience this, nothing in life satisfies as much. My buddies didn’t come back. The deployments trickled. The tempo slowed. My friends are killing themselves. The medical solution is therapy and pills.
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There is no solution to this disease, but there are methods to resolve symptoms. Some are better than others. Connect. Find yourself. Find someone. Find a new passion. -
I struggle daily, knowing even success cannot be compared to purpose.”
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New purpose. Positive Network. Positive Environment. 
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“There’s a clear disconnect. It happens at a unique time for everyone. Whenever it happens, it’s distinct. A crisp break. A dedicated mental switch. - You let go. Blocking all emotions. You think nothing of your kid growing up without you. You think nothing of leaving your wife alone. - Your buddy smiles at you across the bird. Nervous, excited. Looking around. Half the dudes are racked out in an ambien induced haze. We are home. This is my family. That is the switch. - I said goodbye expecting not to come back. I returned, several times. Turning that switch off can potentially kill us. If only temporary, with more trips around the corner. Another deployment. That’s a good thing, that’s what we wanted. We were selfish. - The responsibilities of seemingly mundane pieces of life add up. The stress stacks. Your wife doesn’t get it. Your kid is innocent. What I should be able to handle, I cannot. That’s where the whiskey comes in. Lubricating my transition back to reality, or was war reality? - Nothing can protect them from the disease. Once you experience this, nothing in life satisfies as much. My buddies didn’t come back. The deployments trickled. The tempo slowed. My friends are killing themselves. The medical solution is therapy and pills. - There is no solution to this disease, but there are methods to resolve symptoms. Some are better than others. Connect. Find yourself. Find someone. Find a new passion. - I struggle daily, knowing even success cannot be compared to purpose.” - New purpose. Positive Network. Positive Environment. www.uncanna.blog #UnCanna  #UnCannaCBD 
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜
Lot of Love 💜💜💜
Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜
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💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜 Lot of Love 💜💜💜 Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜 #fibromyalgia  #chronicpain  #chronicillness  #anxiety  #spoonie  #ptsd  #chronicfatigue  #health  #pain  #wellness  #arthritis  #invisibleillness  #fibromyalgiawarrior  #fibromyalgiaawareness  #chronicfatiguesyndrome  #healthylifestyle  #lupus  #wellbeing  #painrelief  #fibromyalgiafacts  #strength  #pregnancy  #fibro  #cbd  #fibrowarrior  #motivation  #fibrostrong  #chronicallyfabulous  #liveyourbestlife  #bhfyp  #lupus 
Come at me you fucking bitch. I'm not scared of you. Fucking fight me. I dare you. Come at me. Just fucking text me tell me whete to meet you bitch. ..
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There is this one spot, in Joshua Tree,
behind Balanced Rock, that captivates me every single time I sneak back to it. And I sneak back to it a lot. For most of my life time in nature has had a profound effect on my stress levels, my creativity, my sanity. I am retuned to myself again and again when spending even an hour in a vast open landscape. So I incorporate nature into every day - even when I’m in big cities traveling for work. It’s that important to my wellbeing and I’ve learned to prioritize it.
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And now there’s some definitive proof, from two different studies, that shows conclusively how powerful nature can be for healing. To wit: “In both studies, awe was the only element that predicted whether people would feel less stressed and more ‘healed.’ Further, awe was the only emotion directly associated with nature. People would find contentment with their job, or gratitude from a stranger’s kind act, or joy at watching a favored sports team win—but only exposure to nature could induce awe. Only awe could predict whether people get better [from PTSD]. There was no such relationship with other emotions. On the second study, we sent out online surveys that the subjects filled out every night for 14 days, and they also wrote narratives on the positive events of each day. We coded for different emotional responses, and on days when people wrote about experiencing nature, they showed extremely elevated levels of awe. There would be other positive emotions, but those always seemed to be maximized by awe. It’s basically like you come across an ancient redwood, and awe essentially stops the brain and allows the expression of other positive emotions.”
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I’ve linked to both studies in my bio. You know what to do: go get you some healing nature-awe pronto.
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Stunning 📷 of my favorite spot: @artifactuprising
There is this one spot, in Joshua Tree, behind Balanced Rock, that captivates me every single time I sneak back to it. And I sneak back to it a lot. For most of my life time in nature has had a profound effect on my stress levels, my creativity, my sanity. I am retuned to myself again and again when spending even an hour in a vast open landscape. So I incorporate nature into every day - even when I’m in big cities traveling for work. It’s that important to my wellbeing and I’ve learned to prioritize it. . . And now there’s some definitive proof, from two different studies, that shows conclusively how powerful nature can be for healing. To wit: “In both studies, awe was the only element that predicted whether people would feel less stressed and more ‘healed.’ Further, awe was the only emotion directly associated with nature. People would find contentment with their job, or gratitude from a stranger’s kind act, or joy at watching a favored sports team win—but only exposure to nature could induce awe. Only awe could predict whether people get better [from PTSD]. There was no such relationship with other emotions. On the second study, we sent out online surveys that the subjects filled out every night for 14 days, and they also wrote narratives on the positive events of each day. We coded for different emotional responses, and on days when people wrote about experiencing nature, they showed extremely elevated levels of awe. There would be other positive emotions, but those always seemed to be maximized by awe. It’s basically like you come across an ancient redwood, and awe essentially stops the brain and allows the expression of other positive emotions.” . . I’ve linked to both studies in my bio. You know what to do: go get you some healing nature-awe pronto. . . Stunning 📷 of my favorite spot: @artifactuprising
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜
Lot of Love 💜💜💜
Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜
#fibromyalgia #chronicpain #chronicillness #anxiety #spoonie #ptsd #chronicfatigue #health #pain #wellness #arthritis #invisibleillness #fibromyalgiawarrior #fibromyalgiaawareness #chronicfatiguesyndrome #healthylifestyle #lupus #wellbeing #painrelief #fibromyalgiafacts #strength #pregnancy #fibro #cbd #fibrowarrior #motivation #fibrostrong #chronicallyfabulous #liveyourbestlife #bhfyp #lupus
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜 Lot of Love 💜💜💜 Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜 #fibromyalgia  #chronicpain  #chronicillness  #anxiety  #spoonie  #ptsd  #chronicfatigue  #health  #pain  #wellness  #arthritis  #invisibleillness  #fibromyalgiawarrior  #fibromyalgiaawareness  #chronicfatiguesyndrome  #healthylifestyle  #lupus  #wellbeing  #painrelief  #fibromyalgiafacts  #strength  #pregnancy  #fibro  #cbd  #fibrowarrior  #motivation  #fibrostrong  #chronicallyfabulous  #liveyourbestlife  #bhfyp  #lupus 
Being a dad has made me stronger as my kids and partner are all that I love for. I started #wowmentalhealth earlier this year when I was at my all time low. I was so damaged mentally and physically. Through connecting with you guys I’ve established relationships with some really cool people and from all over the world. I am so grateful that you guys follow, not because of fame, or the amount of followers I have, but it’s 1000+ of you who are spreading awareness, jumping on board, and supporting a very good thing. Whether it’s bipolar, depression, anxiety, adhd,  schizophrenia, psychosis, autism, Aspergers, suicide awareness, social anxiety, or my biggest killer PTSD and Tourette’s, you are here helping me, supporting me. And I will always be here for you guys also. If you could tag me or wow in a post to reach out to more people it would really help spread this message a lot quicker. Together we become one, and mental health shall be a more touched on subject. DO NOT SUFFER IN SILENCE. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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#mentalhealth #adhd #ptsd #anxiety #socialanxiety #bipolar #personalitydisorder #trauma #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthwarrior #traumatic #Manicdepression #mentalhealthambassador #childabuse #depression #childneglect #endthestigma #invisibleillness #mindfulness #beyou #life #blogger #mentalhealthblogger #selfharm #depressed #wowmentalhealth #quotes #pain #follow #help
Being a dad has made me stronger as my kids and partner are all that I love for. I started #wowmentalhealth  earlier this year when I was at my all time low. I was so damaged mentally and physically. Through connecting with you guys I’ve established relationships with some really cool people and from all over the world. I am so grateful that you guys follow, not because of fame, or the amount of followers I have, but it’s 1000+ of you who are spreading awareness, jumping on board, and supporting a very good thing. Whether it’s bipolar, depression, anxiety, adhd, schizophrenia, psychosis, autism, Aspergers, suicide awareness, social anxiety, or my biggest killer PTSD and Tourette’s, you are here helping me, supporting me. And I will always be here for you guys also. If you could tag me or wow in a post to reach out to more people it would really help spread this message a lot quicker. Together we become one, and mental health shall be a more touched on subject. DO NOT SUFFER IN SILENCE. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ . . #mentalhealth  #adhd  #ptsd  #anxiety  #socialanxiety  #bipolar  #personalitydisorder  #trauma  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthwarrior  #traumatic  #Manicdepression  #mentalhealthambassador  #childabuse  #depression  #childneglect  #endthestigma  #invisibleillness  #mindfulness  #beyou  #life  #blogger  #mentalhealthblogger  #selfharm  #depressed  #wowmentalhealth  #quotes  #pain  #follow  #help 
Check out @naginis_den Dude is wearing 3 different themed capes
1. Harry Potter : all Hogwarts houses.
2. Star Wars
3. Sea Shell Shimmer 
Go place orders with @naginis_den •
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Follow our Pawtners
@gunner.the.service.doodle 
@servicedog_rayla_and_loki 
@direwolfintraining 
@naginis_den 
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#fibromyalgia #chronicillness #dogsofinstagram #puppylove #model #dog #dogs #puppies #puppy #puppiesofinstagram #goldendoodle #golden #doodle #doodledog #goldendoodlesofinstagram #goldendoodle #doodle #sd #sdit #servicedog #servicedogs #servicedogintraining #spoonie #chronicpain #ptsd #anxiety #noncombat #mce #mylove #workingdog #servicedogsofinstagram
Check out @naginis_den Dude is wearing 3 different themed capes 1. Harry Potter : all Hogwarts houses. 2. Star Wars 3. Sea Shell Shimmer Go place orders with @naginis_den • • Follow our Pawtners @gunner.the.service.doodle @servicedog_rayla_and_loki @direwolfintraining @naginis_den @pawstrip @geopetric • • #fibromyalgia  #chronicillness  #dogsofinstagram  #puppylove  #model  #dog  #dogs  #puppies  #puppy  #puppiesofinstagram  #goldendoodle  #golden  #doodle  #doodledog  #goldendoodlesofinstagram  #goldendoodle  #doodle  #sd  #sdit  #servicedog  #servicedogs  #servicedogintraining  #spoonie  #chronicpain  #ptsd  #anxiety  #noncombat  #mce  #mylove  #workingdog  #servicedogsofinstagram 
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜
Lot of Love 💜💜💜
Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜
#fibromyalgia #chronicpain #chronicillness #anxiety #spoonie #ptsd #chronicfatigue #health #pain #wellness #arthritis #invisibleillness #fibromyalgiawarrior #fibromyalgiaawareness #chronicfatiguesyndrome #healthylifestyle #lupus #wellbeing #painrelief #fibromyalgiafacts #strength #pregnancy #fibro #cbd #fibrowarrior #motivation #fibrostrong #chronicallyfabulous #liveyourbestlife #bhfyp #lupus
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜 Lot of Love 💜💜💜 Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜 #fibromyalgia  #chronicpain  #chronicillness  #anxiety  #spoonie  #ptsd  #chronicfatigue  #health  #pain  #wellness  #arthritis  #invisibleillness  #fibromyalgiawarrior  #fibromyalgiaawareness  #chronicfatiguesyndrome  #healthylifestyle  #lupus  #wellbeing  #painrelief  #fibromyalgiafacts  #strength  #pregnancy  #fibro  #cbd  #fibrowarrior  #motivation  #fibrostrong  #chronicallyfabulous  #liveyourbestlife  #bhfyp  #lupus 
Heading down to Tulum, Mexico for a week with a head full of doubt and a heart full of regret. Would graciously receive any prayers and guidance you all could send my way. Time and forgiveness has the power to heal all mistakes. Here’s to personal reflection and a paradigm shift...
@brandonmillsofficial 📷: @pixelatedmagic 
@swimmingwithbears
Heading down to Tulum, Mexico for a week with a head full of doubt and a heart full of regret. Would graciously receive any prayers and guidance you all could send my way. Time and forgiveness has the power to heal all mistakes. Here’s to personal reflection and a paradigm shift... @brandonmillsofficial 📷: @pixelatedmagic @swimmingwithbears
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜
Lot of Love 💜💜💜
Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜
#fibromyalgia #chronicpain #chronicillness #anxiety #spoonie #ptsd #chronicfatigue #health #pain #wellness #arthritis #invisibleillness #fibromyalgiawarrior #fibromyalgiaawareness #chronicfatiguesyndrome #healthylifestyle #lupus #wellbeing #painrelief #fibromyalgiafacts #strength #pregnancy #fibro #cbd #fibrowarrior #motivation #fibrostrong #chronicallyfabulous #liveyourbestlife #bhfyp #lupus
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜 Lot of Love 💜💜💜 Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜 #fibromyalgia  #chronicpain  #chronicillness  #anxiety  #spoonie  #ptsd  #chronicfatigue  #health  #pain  #wellness  #arthritis  #invisibleillness  #fibromyalgiawarrior  #fibromyalgiaawareness  #chronicfatiguesyndrome  #healthylifestyle  #lupus  #wellbeing  #painrelief  #fibromyalgiafacts  #strength  #pregnancy  #fibro  #cbd  #fibrowarrior  #motivation  #fibrostrong  #chronicallyfabulous  #liveyourbestlife  #bhfyp  #lupus 
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜
Lot of Love 💜💜💜
Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜
#fibromyalgia #chronicpain #chronicillness #anxiety #spoonie #ptsd #chronicfatigue #health #pain #wellness #arthritis #invisibleillness #fibromyalgiawarrior #fibromyalgiaawareness #chronicfatiguesyndrome #healthylifestyle #lupus #wellbeing #painrelief #fibromyalgiafacts #strength #pregnancy #fibro #cbd #fibrowarrior #motivation #fibrostrong #chronicallyfabulous #liveyourbestlife #bhfyp #lupus
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜 Lot of Love 💜💜💜 Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜 #fibromyalgia  #chronicpain  #chronicillness  #anxiety  #spoonie  #ptsd  #chronicfatigue  #health  #pain  #wellness  #arthritis  #invisibleillness  #fibromyalgiawarrior  #fibromyalgiaawareness  #chronicfatiguesyndrome  #healthylifestyle  #lupus  #wellbeing  #painrelief  #fibromyalgiafacts  #strength  #pregnancy  #fibro  #cbd  #fibrowarrior  #motivation  #fibrostrong  #chronicallyfabulous  #liveyourbestlife  #bhfyp  #lupus 
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜
Lot of Love 💜💜💜
Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜
#fibromyalgia #chronicpain #chronicillness #anxiety #spoonie #ptsd #chronicfatigue #health #pain #wellness #arthritis #invisibleillness #fibromyalgiawarrior #fibromyalgiaawareness #chronicfatiguesyndrome #healthylifestyle #lupus #wellbeing #painrelief #fibromyalgiafacts #strength #pregnancy #fibro #cbd #fibrowarrior #motivation #fibrostrong #chronicallyfabulous #liveyourbestlife #bhfyp #lupus
💜💜💜 Love you fibromite family warrios.. You are the real warriors 💜💜 Lot of Love 💜💜💜 Please share and tag your fibro warriors 💜💜 #fibromyalgia  #chronicpain  #chronicillness  #anxiety  #spoonie  #ptsd  #chronicfatigue  #health  #pain  #wellness  #arthritis  #invisibleillness  #fibromyalgiawarrior  #fibromyalgiaawareness  #chronicfatiguesyndrome  #healthylifestyle  #lupus  #wellbeing  #painrelief  #fibromyalgiafacts  #strength  #pregnancy  #fibro  #cbd  #fibrowarrior  #motivation  #fibrostrong  #chronicallyfabulous  #liveyourbestlife  #bhfyp  #lupus 
Hurting someone can be as easy as throwing a stone in the sea. But do you have any idea how deep that stone can go?
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#behappy #dreams #gaylife #gay #pride #norway #getinspired #itsgettingbetter #meditation #depressed #healing #instagood #pride #rainbow #happytears #goodfeeling #goodlife #night #mood #beyourself #lensball #ptsd
The warmth of every single ray of sunshine, reminds me that there is bright hope buried within my dark soul..... #PTSD #mystorymyjourney #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdsucks #ptsdawareness #domesticviolenceawareness #ptsdrecovery
Ive tried forever getting out on my own. ~°~
Ive tried forever getting out on my own. ~°~
What I love about the ‘chuck it’ is I can give Yoshi a really good workout but it doesn’t over stress my physically. So David takes him for a nice walk in the morning and in the afternoon I throw the ball for him.  #servicedogs #servicedogintraining #ptsd #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdawareness #ptsdrecovery #anxiety #worldoflabs #blacklab #blacklabs #blacklabrador #fibromyalgia #worldoflabs #nutrience #nutriencepet #erminskinvet #betterthanhome #redogtrainingsolutions
#petsmart #petsmartdogtraining
What I love about the ‘chuck it’ is I can give Yoshi a really good workout but it doesn’t over stress my physically. So David takes him for a nice walk in the morning and in the afternoon I throw the ball for him. #servicedogs  #servicedogintraining  #ptsd  #ptsdsurvivor  #ptsdawareness  #ptsdrecovery  #anxiety  #worldoflabs  #blacklab  #blacklabs  #blacklabrador  #fibromyalgia  #worldoflabs  #nutrience  #nutriencepet  #erminskinvet  #betterthanhome  #redogtrainingsolutions  #petsmart  #petsmartdogtraining 
why does everyone unfollow me .. I stg EVERYONEEEE LEAVEEEEES ☹️🔫☹️🔫☹️🔫☹️😔☹️🔫
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#depression #anxiety #sad #mentalhealth #love #suicide #depressed #mentalillness #sadness #memes #mentalhealthawareness #alone #quotes #depressionquotes #help #broken #funny #anorexia #lonely #dankmemes #meme #like #eatingdisorder #ptsd #tumblr #xxxtentacion #selfcare #cry #aesthetic #bhfyp
While on my 6 mike walk, I had some time to reflect. I was looking at my shadow as the warm sun hugged me and I realized even my shadows’ fat jiggles. All of the fat, cellulite, stretch marks, and pain are no longer open wounds but healing scars rather. Soon they will be fully healed battle scars that I can embrace. They remind me of the eating disorders I have left behind, the darkness of depression I have walked through and made it to the light, and they remind me of the strength I have within myself to battle any physical or mental war that approaches me. I am truly the happiest I have ever been and I am so grateful for life and everything it holds for me. #mentalhealth #depression #bipolar #anxiety #ptsd #anorexia #bulimia #weightlossjourney #pcos #life #grateful #suicidalideation #obstaclesareopportunities #happy #blessed #readyforanything #inittowinit #innerstrength #loveyourself #selfcare #positivity #walking #health #wellness #battlescars #warrior
While on my 6 mike walk, I had some time to reflect. I was looking at my shadow as the warm sun hugged me and I realized even my shadows’ fat jiggles. All of the fat, cellulite, stretch marks, and pain are no longer open wounds but healing scars rather. Soon they will be fully healed battle scars that I can embrace. They remind me of the eating disorders I have left behind, the darkness of depression I have walked through and made it to the light, and they remind me of the strength I have within myself to battle any physical or mental war that approaches me. I am truly the happiest I have ever been and I am so grateful for life and everything it holds for me. #mentalhealth  #depression  #bipolar  #anxiety  #ptsd  #anorexia  #bulimia  #weightlossjourney  #pcos  #life  #grateful  #suicidalideation  #obstaclesareopportunities  #happy  #blessed  #readyforanything  #inittowinit  #innerstrength  #loveyourself  #selfcare  #positivity  #walking  #health  #wellness  #battlescars  #warrior 
Just wanted to show the live results in the past couple weeks by doing #microneedling the lines on my forehead are diminishing and the @perriconemd Brightening Serum along with @theordinaryco results are impressive. I also switch up my nightly moisturizer with @tatcha overnight memory serum and @algenist I have added retinol, algurinic acid and hyaluronic acid I switch up between the week and have stayed out of the sun and continued a daily routine of all The Ordinary line and lots of water and protein. #esthetician #Licensed #skincare #aginginreverse #againstallodds #changemylife #forever I am #stillplussize and #stillfighting I will never stop fighting, I will never stop #chosingme #iamworthit #iambeautiful #different #changed #worthit #embraceyourself #knowyourworth #bethechange #believer #different #changed #onedayatatime #depressionsucks #suicideawareness #mentalhealth #PTSD #survivor #WANTOINSPIRE
Just wanted to show the live results in the past couple weeks by doing #microneedling  the lines on my forehead are diminishing and the @perriconemd Brightening Serum along with @theordinaryco results are impressive. I also switch up my nightly moisturizer with @tatcha overnight memory serum and @algenist I have added retinol, algurinic acid and hyaluronic acid I switch up between the week and have stayed out of the sun and continued a daily routine of all The Ordinary line and lots of water and protein. #esthetician  #Licensed  #skincare  #aginginreverse  #againstallodds  #changemylife  #forever  I am #stillplussize  and #stillfighting  I will never stop fighting, I will never stop #chosingme  #iamworthit  #iambeautiful  #different  #changed  #worthit  #embraceyourself  #knowyourworth  #bethechange  #believer  #different  #changed  #onedayatatime  #depressionsucks  #suicideawareness  #mentalhealth  #PTSD  #survivor  #WANTOINSPIRE 
I’ve only been in iop for two days and it’s so much more difficult than I anticipated. My social anxiety and ptsd are raging - it might sound stupid, but I didn’t realize just how much I’ve been using my eating disorder to manage my ptsd symptoms. I keep comparing to the last time I was here and how much easier it felt, but I know that things are different this time because a lot has happened over the last few months. I’m participating a lot more this time around, which I thought would mean I’d be better at completing meals and snacks too, but my effort in groups isn’t translating to eating. I’m trying my best though, and am actually willing to listen and learn, which wasn’t the case before. Even though things are hard and I’m so overwhelmed, I’m really relieved and grateful to have more support. I feel less alone than I have in a long time. #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anxiety #ptsd
I’ve only been in iop for two days and it’s so much more difficult than I anticipated. My social anxiety and ptsd are raging - it might sound stupid, but I didn’t realize just how much I’ve been using my eating disorder to manage my ptsd symptoms. I keep comparing to the last time I was here and how much easier it felt, but I know that things are different this time because a lot has happened over the last few months. I’m participating a lot more this time around, which I thought would mean I’d be better at completing meals and snacks too, but my effort in groups isn’t translating to eating. I’m trying my best though, and am actually willing to listen and learn, which wasn’t the case before. Even though things are hard and I’m so overwhelmed, I’m really relieved and grateful to have more support. I feel less alone than I have in a long time. #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anxiety  #ptsd 
This weeks #poemperweek is about the many ups and downs we go through in the recovery journey. #poem #poetry 🌿
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[image description: Jess’ hand is placed over the corner of a note pad featuring a poem. The poem reads: “a foetus, a seed, an egg; Longing to believe. A child, a sapling, a chick; Hoping for tomorrow. A teen, a flower, a bird; Struggling to breathe. In crisis, wilting, starving; Begging for a crumb. A foetus, a seed, an egg; Trying to start again.”]
This weeks #poemperweek  is about the many ups and downs we go through in the recovery journey. #poem  #poetry  🌿 . [image description: Jess’ hand is placed over the corner of a note pad featuring a poem. The poem reads: “a foetus, a seed, an egg; Longing to believe. A child, a sapling, a chick; Hoping for tomorrow. A teen, a flower, a bird; Struggling to breathe. In crisis, wilting, starving; Begging for a crumb. A foetus, a seed, an egg; Trying to start again.”]
Bored so why not practice a new skill? I tried to finger-spell Riddick and Rottweiler, and do the signs for black & tan dog. How did I do? #asl #beginner #americansignlanguage #tasktrained #ptsd #servicedog #respectthevest  #posttraumaticstressdisorder #panicdisorder #adjustmentdisorder #endthestigma #rottweiler #rottie #rottweilersofinstagram #dogtraining #mentalhealth
Peace what we all wish for the world to discover.
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.#military #sacrifice #veteran  #country  #patriot #uspatriot  #weapons #rifle #kcco #merica  #guns #chriskyle #ninelineapparel #frogman #neverquit #sof #pt #ptsd #cct #rangers #tacp #liberty #rltw #marines #lltb #OEF #dtom #freedom #USA
Thought I'd do a quick "outside vs inside" exercise...
Currently having a lot of anxiety and wanting to just hide and stay home and feeling insecure about my breakouts and my skin and being bloated and and and and and
Yet we can choose to smile and "put on" a face. I've chosen to show you both, cus I think its important to remember what you see on the outside isn't always what someone is actually feeling like. Be kind as you never know who might be truly feeling broken underneath the filters.
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#mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #PTSD #recovery #bodyimage #realtalk #bekind #overwhelmed #itsokaynottobeokay
Thought I'd do a quick "outside vs inside" exercise... Currently having a lot of anxiety and wanting to just hide and stay home and feeling insecure about my breakouts and my skin and being bloated and and and and and Yet we can choose to smile and "put on" a face. I've chosen to show you both, cus I think its important to remember what you see on the outside isn't always what someone is actually feeling like. Be kind as you never know who might be truly feeling broken underneath the filters. 💜 #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #depression  #anxiety  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #PTSD  #recovery  #bodyimage  #realtalk  #bekind  #overwhelmed  #itsokaynottobeokay 
“You don’t have to control your thoughts. You just have to stop letting them control you.” ~Dan Millman
This is something I have to remind myself of daily, multiple times a day. As someone who personally copes with the effects of Complex PTSD, I know what it's like to feel as if you're taking your last breathes when panic attacks set in. I have had to cancel and reschedule shoots, appointments,  plans anything you can think of bc of my condition. It doesn't always stop me from living my life. This  image taken by David H Photography is a prime example of the calm after the storm. This was taken 4 hours after my panic attack set in. It's amazing how well the pain is hidden. I just want this to serve as a reminder that it may be uncomfortable,  but so is growth. 
#growth #recovery #mentalhealth #ptsd #ptsdawareness #ptsdadvocate #traumadisorder #modelforacause #vamodel #model #photography #professionalmodel #jeans #buttondownshirt #fall #fashion #tattooedmodel #inkedmodel #freelance #smile #change #changeiscoming #starontherise #lawofattraction #byanymeans
“You don’t have to control your thoughts. You just have to stop letting them control you.” ~Dan Millman This is something I have to remind myself of daily, multiple times a day. As someone who personally copes with the effects of Complex PTSD, I know what it's like to feel as if you're taking your last breathes when panic attacks set in. I have had to cancel and reschedule shoots, appointments, plans anything you can think of bc of my condition. It doesn't always stop me from living my life. This image taken by David H Photography is a prime example of the calm after the storm. This was taken 4 hours after my panic attack set in. It's amazing how well the pain is hidden. I just want this to serve as a reminder that it may be uncomfortable, but so is growth. #growth  #recovery  #mentalhealth  #ptsd  #ptsdawareness  #ptsdadvocate  #traumadisorder  #modelforacause  #vamodel  #model  #photography  #professionalmodel  #jeans  #buttondownshirt  #fall  #fashion  #tattooedmodel  #inkedmodel  #freelance  #smile  #change  #changeiscoming  #starontherise  #lawofattraction  #byanymeans 
😭😭 My Life 😭😭 .
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😭😭 My Life 😭😭 . . 💋💋
Thank you to everyone who made the BtG Horsey Halloween Party so much fun!
Thank you to everyone who made the BtG Horsey Halloween Party so much fun!
Thank you to everyone who made the BtG Horsey Halloween Party so much fun!
Thank you to everyone who made the BtG Horsey Halloween Party so much fun!
Best Horsey Halloween Party EVER!!!!!!!!
Best Horsey Halloween Party EVER!!!!!!!!
Thank you to everyone who made the BtG Horsey Halloween Party so much fun!
Thank you to everyone who made the BtG Horsey Halloween Party so much fun!
When your hubby knows that the solution to a bad mood is a good listening session and some amazing Chinese food 😊 Feeling better! Thank you all for support! It truly means a lot! #besthusband #bestlistener #bestdecisionmaker #mysupport #support #myeverything #hardday #moodyday #mentaldisorders #mentaldisorderawareness #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bipolar #ptsd #posttraumaticstressdisorder #anxiety #anxietydisorder #mentalhealth #fightthestigma #htown #houston #texas
When your hubby knows that the solution to a bad mood is a good listening session and some amazing Chinese food 😊 Feeling better! Thank you all for support! It truly means a lot! #besthusband  #bestlistener  #bestdecisionmaker  #mysupport  #support  #myeverything  #hardday  #moodyday  #mentaldisorders  #mentaldisorderawareness  #mentalhealthawareness  #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bipolar  #ptsd  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #anxiety  #anxietydisorder  #mentalhealth  #fightthestigma  #htown  #houston  #texas 
Sometimes beauty is in the simplicity of things. .
Sometimes it's hard to find simplicity in anything at all.
Sometimes everyday seems like a struggle 
And sometimes you struggle with everything.

Even the smallest of tasks, become so complicated that they feel unable to complete. Those days, are the hardest. Those days, you really have to mentally make a list of why you are doing this. Why you are fighting and what you are gaining from it.
Eventhough everything seems out of reach and eventhough it can sometimes feel unbearable to even breathe, you have to move forward. Eventhough some days, you only take a small step or maybe stand completely still, you have to keep moving, in the long run. You have to pick yourself up, eventhough it seems like the hardest battle, you will ever fight.
#keepfighting 
Sober #soberoctober #sobriety #anxiety #ocd #ptsd #mentalillness #innerstrength #naturelover #naturelovers #nature #naturephotography #photography #butterfly #butterflies #mating #bluesky #sky #cloud #clouds #animal #animals #animalphotography #animalsofinstagram #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #staystrong #fightback #innerpeace #recovery
Sometimes beauty is in the simplicity of things. . Sometimes it's hard to find simplicity in anything at all. Sometimes everyday seems like a struggle And sometimes you struggle with everything. Even the smallest of tasks, become so complicated that they feel unable to complete. Those days, are the hardest. Those days, you really have to mentally make a list of why you are doing this. Why you are fighting and what you are gaining from it. Eventhough everything seems out of reach and eventhough it can sometimes feel unbearable to even breathe, you have to move forward. Eventhough some days, you only take a small step or maybe stand completely still, you have to keep moving, in the long run. You have to pick yourself up, eventhough it seems like the hardest battle, you will ever fight. #keepfighting  Sober #soberoctober  #sobriety  #anxiety  #ocd  #ptsd  #mentalillness  #innerstrength  #naturelover  #naturelovers  #nature  #naturephotography  #photography  #butterfly  #butterflies  #mating  #bluesky  #sky  #cloud  #clouds  #animal  #animals  #animalphotography  #animalsofinstagram  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #staystrong  #fightback  #innerpeace  #recovery 
Some nights, a sky like this, just makes the black in your life brighten. The magic of it, is so majestic and the whole immense beauty of mixed nuances light up the darkness, and makes it less scary.

#night #nightphotography #nightsky #sky #cloud #clouds #sunset #city #cityphotography #sober #soberoctober #sobriety #alcoholic #nature #naturelover #naturelovers #naturephotography #photography #anxiety #ocd #beautiful #beautifulnature #ptsd #alcoholic #copenhagen #cph #cphbynight #copenhagenbynight
Some nights, a sky like this, just makes the black in your life brighten. The magic of it, is so majestic and the whole immense beauty of mixed nuances light up the darkness, and makes it less scary. #night  #nightphotography  #nightsky  #sky  #cloud  #clouds  #sunset  #city  #cityphotography  #sober  #soberoctober  #sobriety  #alcoholic  #nature  #naturelover  #naturelovers  #naturephotography  #photography  #anxiety  #ocd  #beautiful  #beautifulnature  #ptsd  #alcoholic  #copenhagen  #cph  #cphbynight  #copenhagenbynight 
Back to Basics
I really recommend things like this. The Ocean is so therapeutic, and it really calms my mind, in a way, that nothing else can. Walking barefoot, and feeling nature, is so healing. .
#barefoot #feet #sandals #sand #beach #ocean #waves #nature #naturelover #naturelovers #naturephotography #photography #recovery #peaceofmind #peaceful #stillness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #calm #sober #sobriety #mentalillness #anxiety #ptsd #ocd #alcoholic
Back to Basics I really recommend things like this. The Ocean is so therapeutic, and it really calms my mind, in a way, that nothing else can. Walking barefoot, and feeling nature, is so healing. . #barefoot  #feet  #sandals  #sand  #beach  #ocean  #waves  #nature  #naturelover  #naturelovers  #naturephotography  #photography  #recovery  #peaceofmind  #peaceful  #stillness  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #calm  #sober  #sobriety  #mentalillness  #anxiety  #ptsd  #ocd  #alcoholic