#lonesome but #content with getting it all done on time this week, except participation points. #wrote nearly 10,000 words in two days, and was in a #stateofflow last night, though imo the results of my efforts are mixed. The person I am writing for is 😃. I don’t know why it should matter, to be alone or not. I’ve often torn good people from me, though really very few really ever stood with me through the #mire . I had a good childhood, and I have a good family. #humptydumptysatonawall and well, he doesn’t know any more. I said to my therapist that I just need to make enough money to get an #escort maybe three times a week. I think if I just worked, wrote, went to #gradschool and got laid 3 times a week and worked in Dharma practice I would be #morecontent to fill the #emptytimes with #womanships and her #lipsandtongue 💋👅 her #liesoflove at least I won’t be asked to #believe . Give me the girlfriend experience for a few #emptyhours like #prettywoman only a popover to #tjmaxx in a #lyft to buy you some #panties I can tear off you once we arrive to my #tenement a few drops of #lube on my fingers my cock up, I kneel by your beautiful painted face, the tip on your tongue 👅 I reach to play with your #pussy and you tell me you #loveme and I know it’s fake, this horrible desire like quasimoto I’ll make you say you love me, my sweet imagined whore, as I throw a pillow down for your knees, or maybe #interminableserialdating women who get taken out for coffee who then appraise me as I try to... what? Get noted to be fitted into her schedule for more coffee dates. I need to somehow make more $$$ and open up a bookstore/cathouse of library looking brunettes with #niceasses who just #readbooks and #fuck . I suppose my future stories would be almost interesting in this scenario.