Inktober Day 19 // Haddie for @creativekimberly! 🦇 I must have redrawn this one about 4 times, I think this is as good as it’s going to be!
Would you (or your pet/child/friend) like to be spookified for my Inktober project? There are still spaces left! Each portrait requires a $3 donation on Ko-fi (see my main Inktober post or DM me for more details)! 🔮🦇🍂👻
Hoje me vejo vivendo um momento realmente especial, descobrindo que amar vale a pena e que a vida pode ser verdadeiramente feliz. Quero viver este sentimento bonito e ter a certeza que fomos feitos um para o outro. Porque de tudo que descobri ao seu lado, o que me deixa mais feliz e completa, é o fato de poder compartilhar com você parte do que sou e tudo que sinto. Estamos procurando juntos um caminho para seguir e podemos acreditar que tudo será maravilhoso, mas uma coisa você pode ter sempre certeza: qualquer que seja a situação, em todos os momentos estarei sempre ao seu lado.
Eu te amo bb. @gildes12
Today. FAILURE. A friend messaged yesterday sharing their fear of failure and reminding me that success comes with failure and failure is a great development opportunity. The judgment that may come from others (or mostly from ourself) when we fail is a no brainer why we don’t attempt things and as a result we may never know what we are capable of. I have failed plenty and I am better for it. I don’t think I have really had a fear of failure and I link that back to my childhood when I was a competitive swimmer. I went to a swimming school and swimming was my life. I would train, compete, repeat. I didn’t think about failing, I thought about winning and continual improvement. Also, learning piano, set me up with a success mindset. (if only that stuck with me through school and wasn’t creeping in now). The ability to learn to read music, then go through the process of learning to play a piece, with all its variations couldn’t come with a fear of failure. It had to be driven by success. So, I am comfortable with failure, as it provided me with the opportunity to try again and again and again. Through failure we learn and when you hit all the wrong notes on the piano, you go back and do it over and over until you get it right. If I were to focus on those failures, I would never have won swimming medals or played piano in front of people at concerts. As we move into our working life, failure can take on more significance – our livelihood depends on it, so we may be reluctant to give things a go, or contribute to our full potential. I was given some advice years ago and it was this. If you are going to fail, fail gloriously. I remind myself of that anytime I fuck up. At least I had a go, even if it didn’t work out. And I apply that to everything – work, dating, cooking…..life. I don’t fear failure, and if people were to focus on my failings, then they aren’t my people.
Whether I meditate or not is all on me. No one can make you do something good for yourself, and yet at times there is a hesitancy or lack of motivation in my heart. Consistency with myself is my biggest hurdle. Making self care a priority, and truly loving my self unconditionally, without judgement can be a tall order. However, I truly want to grow, and to continue to evolve so I can be a better Mom, wife, friend, and human. I spoke to my Mom recently. We are close, and we have been through a lot together. She told me of a time when she was 14 or so, she would close her room door, and play the The Beach Boys single, In My Room. It’s such a melancholy teenage song! She would turn out the lights, sit in lotus position on her skateboard, and repeat “Om Nommy, Nommy, Nommy” over and over, like a mantra, while that song played. Not sure where she got the Nommy from, but it soothed her. It helped her mentally escape, and to block out whatever painful things were going on in her household at the time. As a young teen, I could be alone in my room for hours, and easily entertain myself. I would write in my diary, listen to music, and close myself off from all that was going on in my household as well. I think we were both searching for a connection to something greater than ourselves, or that might keep us safe from the difficult realities around us. I’m so grateful to know a better way to care for myself as an adult. 💜✨🧘🏾♂️