“You’re afraid you have no talent. You’re afraid you’ll be rejected or criticized or ridiculed or misunderstood or—worst of all—ignored. You’re afraid there’s no market for your creativity, and therefore no point in pursuing it. You’re afraid somebody else already did it better. You’re afraid everybody else already did it better. You’re afraid somebody will steal your ideas, so it’s safer to keep them hidden forever in the dark. You’re afraid you won’t be taken seriously. You’re afraid your work isn’t politically, emotionally, or artistically important enough to change anyone’s life. You’re afraid your dreams are embarrassing. You’re afraid that someday you’ll look back on your creative endeavors as having been a giant waste of time, effort, and money. You’re afraid you don’t have the right kind of discipline. You’re afraid you don’t have the right kind of work space, or financial freedom, or empty hours in which to focus on invention or exploration. You’re afraid you don’t have the right kind of training or degree...You’re afraid of being exposed as a hack, or a fool, or a dilettante, or a narcissist. You’re afraid of upsetting your family with what you may reveal. You’re afraid of what your peers and coworkers will say if you express your personal truth aloud. You’re afraid of unleashing your innermost demons, and you really don’t want to encounter your innermost demons.”
My thoughts on this composition: Elizabeth Gilbert is a living legend in the writing world and she’s really revealed herself here in this quote. We often destroy ourselves. Self-doubt is an instant inferno if it’s not put out. I used “Yo-u’re A-fraid” and broke down this down into four syllables to use as the motif. I kept the high repetition of the words used in the quote and just did the same exact thing in the piece of music. Then I thought about how there’s an element of “running away” from yourself that Elizabeth is implying. So I inserted a middle section which features a falling progression and finished into the low end of the piano. Giving the mood a heavy finish.
#shardsoflife Day 70
Title: You’re afraid
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One of the records of my life. It's actually quite funny how whenever I take a step back from jazz I start thinking that somehow Kind Of Blue is almost too legendary that it could actually be that good. That it's somehow corny to say Kind Of Blue is one of The Jazz Albums for me.
But then I put the record on and as the first notes from Paul Chambers's bass and Bil Evans's piano start flowing...I remember. Oh do I remember. I get shivers through my body. It's like the love of my life softly kissing me on my neck. That kind of shivers.
Music so divine. So easy. So soft and beautiful. So sexy.
P.s. And that Wynton Kelly solo on Freddie Freeloader! Any pianist who has not learnt that solo? 🙂