Not the usual post...picture wise, the words are the usual ;) I never had a strong desire to self care during college... my idea of self care was ONLY going to the gym. I worked 3 jobs, volunteered (actually volunteering..not this “put it on my resume and never go” BS) at five places while fucking up some of my grades during dual programs. I wouldn’t notice I was stressed out until ~ one example ~ I dropped my stack of textbooks in the parking lot and started bawling. And I would think...why am I crying?!? Oh I must be past my limit....
I bet your first conclusion is...Eve, it’s cause you were doing way too much.. no. I completely disagree, I love being busy and it brings me zero joy to sit around all day. No, I found out the real problem. Self care not only means taking care of your body...and your mind...but more specifically the people you hang with. I hung out with a lot of assholes. People who told me every chance they could that I would never succeed, and I should quit before my predicted failure. It was a daily battle trying to scrape off their negativity that stuck like tar on to my joy, inner strength and self worth - I still have some left over tar that I am working on.
Todays self care regimen involves zero tolerance of hanging out with people who are not Team Eve. Not spending quality time with people I do not want to hang out with. Not wasting my time with meaningless relationships. It is NOT worth it. It is never worth compromising your own joy and self worth to be around ass holes.
With the right crew, you can achieve your dreams, you can succeed at anything ♥️
Visual arts was the first craft that I learned.
Introduced to me by my dad.
Honed due to my brother's teachings.
And expanded by watching Neil Buchanan at Art Attack.
Alas, I never perfected the craft. Thus, I look in awe at the work of other artists, knowing that I could do what they can if I just practiced and trained. But, I do not have the perseverance and dedication to learn more.
Art is just not pure talent. No matter how gifted or ungifted you may be, training is need to make what is raw shine. Like how a diamond, with its natural beauty, needs to burn to really show its perfection.
Like what they say, talo ng masipag ang magaling.
To all my fellow artists, continue working and practicing even if it gets tedious. Don't follow my footsteps.
Shoutout to all artists, you are awesome.