3 lbs stand between me and a HUGE goal...
Im also chasing a 3 digit loss by April 2019... I gained this weight.
I can and WILL lose this weight.
Finding myself and my confidence after having it just shattered over the last year has been: incredible, exciting, sad, emotional, anger filled, and did I mention emotional?
Being told you aren’t enough by the person who is supposed to support you and realize that you’re human while life is falling apart was a horrific season for me.
Coming back from that has been INSANELY difficult but IMMENSELY satisfying. Why? Because i remembered that God loved me when he didn’t. God comforted me when he turned his back and went to someone else. God encouraged and spoke truth to me when he continued to lie.
I had done everything right—but still found myself hurt— so I leaned in to God’s love and found support from women who motivate me daily. Women who inspire me to push for more. Women who strive to help others daily— my kind of women.
So even though sometimes I settle in and get comfy in the fact that I’ve lost almost 50 lbs, I remember that it isn’t about the number. It’s about all that I am gaining while losing this weight.
And i will never not put myself first again.
Never underestimate the power of a good girl gang 💕
I was talking to a friend the other morning about recognizing when you’re living a moment you know you’ll reminisce on in the future. The kind of moment that you’ll wish you could relive, and when you think about it your soul sparkles. When we were getting team photos the other night, I found myself consciously aware that I was living one of these moments. We were with our photographer taking these individual photos on my iPhone haha and it just hit me how happy I truly was. Being surrounded by beautiful, strong, likeminded friends, freezing together in 30 degree weather wearing tank tops and shorts... I just wanted to keep laughing and living in that moment forever.
I wanted to share this with you in hopes that you’ll look for moments like this in your own life, because they are beautiful. Wishing you all the happiness in the world on this Tuesday babes ✨
“My great hope for us as young women is to start being kinder to ourselves so that we can be kinder to each other. To stop shaming ourselves and other people, ‘too fat, too skinny, too short, too tall, too anything’. There’s a sense that we’re all ‘too’ something and we’re all not enough. This is life. Our bodies change. Our Minds change. Our hearts change.” Emma Stone
With that being said, can we please put an end to body shaming already? .
Since having my second child, I’ve been told that I was too fat, too skinny, looked like I was expecting, had a belly, looked anorexic, should maybe go eat a cheeseburger, etc. .
It needs to STOP 🛑 . Who’s with me?!?
Happy #transformationtuesday (mom of one vs. mom of two)!
Teach me Tuesday.
Ya know.....I used to be a big time perfectionist.
I would NEVER let anyone see me cry, be stressed or not looking perfect.
I had convinced myself that being perfect saved me from scrutiny, ridicule and gossip.
I believed that looking perfect saved me from comments, questions and discussions.....almost like wearing armor.
Boy, was I wrong.
Perfectionistic tendencies impacted my health, not just physically, but also mentally. It has taken many years to stop acquiescing to expectations of others.....yes, my parents fueled this in me bc it validated them, too.
So here are a few truths:.
💚I often times have wildly unrealistic expecations for myself in my business....sometimes it is hard to show the ugly side of being en entrepreneur, including self-doubt, inadequacies and frankly, days when I seriously consider “throwing in” the proverbial towel and running back to my NP job. “the grass is not always greener”.
💚I’ve been married for 15 years, but marriage is WORK. If anyone suggest otherwise, they are LYING. I love the hubs, but we have our moments!.
💚Being a Mom is the MOST amazing gift, so many people are unable to understand the high-highs....and the occasional lows....sometimes I am too worn out to argue with a tween and teen, but I persevere.
💚Even though I am safely in my 40’s, I occ mourn, what I did not appreciate in my younger years.....a rock solid digestion (I could eat it all and it never showed!), really tight skin and abs and less of a need for sleep, LOL!.
💚Occ I wear Spanx.....if you haven’t tried them.....you should. They hide a multi-plicity of flaws!.
💚I now really curtail my list of who I spend time with.....this includes some key family members that bring out more angst in my life than love. I have viciously stopped cultivating friendships if they do not resonate with my key priorities.....
💚I now dream BIG.....there are few, if at all, restrictions on how BIG I can envision my life to be.....who ever knew that a girl from blue collar NJ could end up at one of the biggest baddest medical institutions in the world to study....and re-write her life over and over again....and I’m still standing.
So, go out
Who's ready for #TransformationTuesday ? ahhh my favorite day of the week 😄 ok LONG post: I've been a gym goer since 2014; had a working knowledge of how to perform exercises; would power through heavy weights for 3x5; all while sucking down mocha frappa-sugar laden drinks with the thought process that there's an extra shot of expresso in there- I need it. It's ok if I partake in BOGO Chili's long islands with my ex- this shift sucked I need it. Or those damn Texas cheese fries. But it's ok, I lift. Meanwhile my weight continued to balloon & my self-esteem plummeted. Idk why I couldn't see "diet" was my problem back then...maybe because I was too focused on other things. Trying not to stress out too much as a newbie floor nurse, then as a newbie ICU nurse. Trying to uplift my ex's spirits as his weight also piled on with nursing school & when he finally tasted the stress of the first year of bedside nursing (did I put on sympathy weight?) Meanwhile, I was being called chunky, lazy, and in the end me not going hard in the gym/being lazy was one of the reasons why he wanted a breakup. Leo's thrive on compliments...which I never received or maybe once in a blue moon- no "you look beautiful" or "You're so pretty" even in my leaner stages. And man was I even more depressed. But "diet" is MORE than just what you eat- it's what you listen to, WHO you hang around with, WHO you let influence you. I wholly believed July 2018 was the end of my world. I couldn't see past all the stages of grief & back again 😅 I was a hot mess at the time of the breakup & I wish I were more petty back then 😂 I had every right. Especially after bending over backwards to save a failing relationship, walking on eggshells, doing everything he wanted, trying to uplift his depression while ignoring my own. But that experience ended up being the catalyst for me to regain my self-confidence, self-love, self-worth. To be happy! ☉And when I started to embrace that...my outer shell began to reflect how I felt inside 💕 so #SorryNotSorry for posting gym selfies and muscle/torso baring pics of myself. it's been 3 or 4 years since I've been able to post a full-body pic. 💪Thanks for reading! 💜
OH. MY. GOSH!! I've been GIDDY holding back this HUGE NEWS! It's time to SPILL THE BEANS!!
Our team is hosting the most EPIC...the BIGGEST...the most FUN CHALLENGE EVER! This is a 90 day challenge that will have us FITTER 😁 (not fatter)! We will tackle 2 workout programs, learn how to fuel our bods with food💃, AND we are giving away 🎉21 GIFTS🎉 in DECEMBER! .
This group is designed to finish this year at our best and KEEP GOING into the New Year and all the way through Valentine's Day! I want you to have LESS STRESS for Christmas🎄, ROCK the little black dress for New Year's EVE 🔥and feel confident and sexy for your Valentine's day fun.💕
Here's what's going down! 👉🏼 3 Day Cleanse to have a clean slate and drop the bloat right after Turkey day. No worries about Gma's casserole this year.
👉🏼 We are gonna CRUSH two workout programs together!
👉🏼 We have 21 days of GIFT GIVING for our group in December! 🎁 (Because I LOVE GIFTS and love gifting people!)
👉🏼 A weekly menu & grocery list will be sent to your inbox each Friday if you are on HD!
👉🏼 Everyone who completes the 90 day challenge and shares their results in our private group will win a super cute Tank Top (or a manly t-shirt for the Dad Bods who are Ready to Rock the RAD BODS!) 🤣
👉🏼 Your own private cheering section in our accountability group where you are LOVED, EMPOWERED and INSPIRED to be the best you!
OH - did I forget? EVERYTHING is on super sale (think Black Friday for an entire month 😁) for No Excuses November. .
I FEEL LIKE OPRAH!!! "You get a rad bod! And YOU get a rad bod!" 🤣
We start the week after Thanksgiving!
No Mama Jeans under the tree this year -- The best gift ever is feeling sexy, strong & confident in your skin!
I only have 10 spots left to fill. Raise your 🤚🏼if you want the deets.
it’s painful for me to admit it.
but you need to know you're not alone.
my nights used to be spent binging
praying and hoping that no one would wake up
and hear the bags of candy & chips rustling.
my alarm would go off a few hours later
and I would feel DRAINED.
so sluggish and SHAMEFUL.
wtf is wrong with me?
why do i keep repeating this harmful behavior?
why am i self sabatoging?
i struggled with food abusing on & off for a DECADE
before I finally found COMPLETE freedom.
i felt like a slave to food 😔
food would literally dictate my every decision.
i would obsess & fantasize about it
i would be irritable & self absorbed simply because i felt so uncomfortable in clothes & my own skin.
my mood & energy levels were labile due to a steady stream of junk food, alcohol, etc.
it caused a LOT of stress in my relationships.
i put my poor body through the ringer. 😫😰 BUT
NOW: 😍🤩 i have found FOOD FREEDOM.
i have DITCHED DIETING, forever.
i eat what i want, when i want. with no regrets.
i don't hide in shame or secrets anymore.
i experience abundant & full life.
i want to guide YOU through that transformation. 😍🙌🏽 DM me saying "i'm ready" for more info 😘♥️ 👏🏽 (& fun fact - you’ll never FEEL fully ready, but let the pain of where you are PROPEL you into taking that first leap !!) * drop me your favorite food emoji in the comments * 😋
Ephesians 4:21-24: Since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him, throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception. Instead, let the Spirit RENEW your thoughts and attitudes. Put on your NEW nature, created to be LIKE GOD - truly righteous and holy. ♥️#youareloved#investinyourself#foodismedicine#vulnerabilityisstrength#progressoverperfection#liveauthentic#bingeeatingrecovery
No 🐭 on these shoulders, too many traps.
I crack myself up.
Any who, I’m not sure if it was the entire pepperoni 🍕 I had last night as my cheat meal or the three days I took off to give my body a much needed rest, but I killed my shoulder workout and cardio tonight. RIP 💀💪🏼
Happy Monday people of Instagram! Today was a hard day for me to scrounge up the motivation to go to the gym, but I did it! I took advantage of one of the free workouts @1stphorm supplied me with for the #transphormationchallenge since I didn’t feel like coming up with my own workout 🤷🏻♀️ Here it is:
Seated leg extension: 4 sets of 8-10
Straight leg deadlifts: 4 sets of 8-10
Leg press (I did inverted for a challenge): 3 sets of 25-30
Back Squats: 4 sets 8-10. Increase the weight with each set.
Walking lunges: 4 sets of 8-10
Finish with five minutes of HIIT cardio.
Even though I didn’t feel like doing it today, my workout still got done. I didn’t give myself an excuse. The only person who is going to change you, is you.
Video and editing creds to @aeral1sk
#gymtherapy#mondayworkout#legdayworkout#nightshiftnurse#nursesdayoff#motivation 💪 #duespaid#nurseswholift#fitnurse
It’s 1UP O’CLOCK!!! Happy to finally announce that I’m officially part of the @1upnutrition team! I’m super excited to be a part of a kickass brand and a team full of awesome athletes. Since I started lifting, it’s always been one of the brands I’ve looked up to 😍
My staples are the whey & isolate proteins (coconut ice cream & chocolate respectively), HER BCAA’s and pre-workout!
For all your purchases, use my code “CATE” for 20% off.
***HINT: they’re having an additional 10% off plus free shipping on the entire website right NOW*** If you have any questions about any of the products, I’d be more than happy to answer them ☺️
Happy Monday Babes! ✨
Hope you like my troll doll hair 😂
I did my workout at 8am this morning, which let’s point out is a very normal hour! Haha but I just could not get my body to cooperate. It was being slow and moving into all the wrong positions, but I got it done! Now it’s time to refocus and get ready to hit 95% this week for both snatch and clean and jerk.
Outfit from @savage_barbell shorts are called lemon drop and I get so many compliments on them! Use the code Tory15 to save some $ on yours 💚💛💚 #savagebarbell#teamsavage
Day 56. Motivation Monday. Back to the am grind today as I’m back to day shift. Working a DDNN ( Day 0700-1900, Night 1900-0700 rotation) which is nice as it’s four days on then four off. Rocked out some am cardio today which I’m really proud of myself for, why you ask. Well, for those who don’t know I have Celiac disease and I am lactose intolerant which means I cannot eat gluten, or selective dairy, which means sometimes when I roll the dice I pay for it. Ground Prime Turkey breast with rosemary extract from Maple Leaf not gluten free. Which sucks! As when I do eat gluten I get nasty gastrointestinal issues (too detailed and personal to share), feel horrible and get heartburn as I wait for all of it to pass. It also mucks up all my absorption, and metabolism and puts me behind in training. So the restrictive diet is something I’m super used to, and don’t mind as a happy tummy is a happy Melly. Complete and utter melt down last night and this am I was crying during cardio. So yes I did rock out my am cardio despite feeling like garbage, did make it to work, and every meal is egg whites and veggies until I can get more meat. So Uber frustrating. It’s so debilitating at times and also challenging for my coach as my diet has to be so regimented and switching up bcaas or anything like that sets me backwards. Anyways, no selfies today as I’m rocking a buddha gluten belly and extra 6 pounds of water for now. 😭😭😭 So a throwback to a fierce photo of myself to cheer myself up and motivate me to stay on track mentally, physically and emotionally. Hope everyone is enjoying their long weekend Monday. Fuck you hidden gluten, seriously gluten in ground turkey fml 🤦🏼♀️. Ground turkey anyone? #fitnurse#nurseswholift#ernurselife 🚑🏥💊💉❤️ #travelnurselife#travellinggymrat#blondehairdontcare#motivationmonday#fiercewomen#bossbabe#toquelife#princessforaday#queeneveryday#lovingmyselffirst#happytummyhappyme#celiacdiseaseawareness#restingbitchface#dowhatsetsyoursoulonfire 🔥 #dreambigger#shinebrightlikeadiamond 💎 #lovingmyselffirst
Happy Monday everyone 🤗
Time to start of the week right, get your exercise in! 🏋🏻♀️🚴🏻♀️🏊🏻♀️🧘🏻♀️
Exercise is currently helping me cope with situations at work, it’s really helping me prevent burnout and giving me a great balance.
If you can’t get to a gym just try walking! 🚶🏻♀️🚶🏻♀️🚶🏻♀️🚶🏻♀️🚶🏻♀️🚶🏻♀️🚶🏻♀️
From helping you lose weight and de-stress to lowering your blood pressure and reducing your risk of many chronic diseases—going for regular walks is one of the best and easiest things you can do for your health.
Only been getting in about 3 days a week the past couple weeks due to twerking so much, gotta make that $$$. Work has been so crazy recently that my workouts have been my stress reliever. Had a bad shift the other day and I was quickly reminded that life is precious and to not stress the little things. Tell your love ones you love them any chance you get. •
That is all, happy Friday eve & enjoy this beautiful weather! #workoutmotivation#lululemon#buffbunny#adidas#livefit#fitlife#girlswholift#lifestyle#nurseswholift#fitspo