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Morning snack 👏
Half an apple, a tbsp of almond butter and a bag of party rings 🤩🤩
Would definitely recommend almond butter with apples 🤤
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Morning snack 👏 Half an apple, a tbsp of almond butter and a bag of party rings 🤩🤩 Would definitely recommend almond butter with apples 🤤 Hope everyone has a good day! - -
Breakfast :))
2 weetabix 200mls of whole milk a slice of soda bread, a pat of butter & a glass of cranberry juice 💞
Went to bingo last night with my granny and won 20£!!! Restoring my faith in my own luck 💍💍
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Breakfast :)) 2 weetabix 200mls of whole milk a slice of soda bread, a pat of butter & a glass of cranberry juice 💞 Went to bingo last night with my granny and won 20£!!! Restoring my faith in my own luck 💍💍 - #anorexia  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #not1in5  #maudsleymethod  #camhs  #mentalillnessawareness  #healthy  #nourishtoflourish  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #edrecovery  #eattolive  #eattorecover  #minniemaud 
Night snack 💖🤩
A spilt ice cream, Fox’s party rings and an apple 👸
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Night snack 💖🤩 A spilt ice cream, Fox’s party rings and an apple 👸 - -
Dinner x
Wedges, carrots and trout cooked with peppers & garlic 💞
First time trying trout and it just tastes like salmon tbh 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️
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Afternoon snack xx
Feeling really guilty for this as it’s gone over my mental limit for snacks in my head but I’m just trying to tell myself that a day of extra calories just gives me a higher chance of spending Christmas with my family and not at the hospital 💞also the grande bar is the nicest protein bar I’ve had so far so would definitely recommend the fudge brownie grenade bar 💖💘
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Afternoon snack xx Feeling really guilty for this as it’s gone over my mental limit for snacks in my head but I’m just trying to tell myself that a day of extra calories just gives me a higher chance of spending Christmas with my family and not at the hospital 💞also the grande bar is the nicest protein bar I’ve had so far so would definitely recommend the fudge brownie grenade bar 💖💘 - - #anorexia  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #not1in5  #maudsleymethod  #camhs  #mentalillnessawareness  #healthy  #nourishtoflourish  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #edrecovery  #eattolive  #eattorecover  #minniemaud 
Lunch was a ham,laughing cow & red pepper sandwich on THICK!!! nutty bread and cranberry juice. 
Thoughts are really loud today even though I’m only catching up anas convincing me I’m having loads more than I’m supposed to 🙄🤷‍♀️
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Lunch was a ham,laughing cow & red pepper sandwich on THICK!!! nutty bread and cranberry juice. Thoughts are really loud today even though I’m only catching up anas convincing me I’m having loads more than I’m supposed to 🙄🤷‍♀️ - - #anorexia  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #not1in5  #maudsleymethod  #camhs  #mentalillnessawareness  #healthy  #nourishtoflourish  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #edrecovery  #eattolive  #eattorecover  #minniemaud 
Walking.. PTW

I’ve become quite obsessive with my walking and exercise in general recently and it’s massively impacting on my life and I want to get back control, this is me fighting to get my life back💪.
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Walking.. PTW I’ve become quite obsessive with my walking and exercise in general recently and it’s massively impacting on my life and I want to get back control, this is me fighting to get my life back💪. . . . . . . . . .#ed  #edrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #edfam  #recovery  #fooddiary  #anorexiarecovery  #ana  #fuckana  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #edfighter  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny  #plantbased  #crueltyfree  #food  #foodporn  #mentalillness  #not1in5  #inpatient  #outpatientrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recoverywarrior  #iwillbeatthis  #walking  #exercise 
Mid morning snack 🌟🌟
It’s twice as big as my usual snacks but I have to increase today since I missed so much food yesterday, anyways! I rate the noodles a 4/10 like they’re not horrible but I wouldn’t have them again x the milk cake was a 8/10 though it was lovely xx
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Mid morning snack 🌟🌟 It’s twice as big as my usual snacks but I have to increase today since I missed so much food yesterday, anyways! I rate the noodles a 4/10 like they’re not horrible but I wouldn’t have them again x the milk cake was a 8/10 though it was lovely xx - #anorexia  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #not1in5  #maudsleymethod  #camhs  #mentalillnessawareness  #healthy  #nourishtoflourish  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #edrecovery  #eattolive  #eattorecover  #minniemaud 
Breakfast ( I had a bowl of porridge made with whole milk aswell) 
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I had a weigh in yesterday and I maintained even though I’ve been having 3,000 cals a day? Also yesterday me and my family went out for dinner and I ordered a small margarita pizza and ended up crying after one slice 🤦‍♀️ i didn’t think that I would break down because when I ordered it I intended on eating it  but yeah... anyways! Today’s gonna have a lot of increases because I missed my lunch, a fortisip (I have one on top of my meals everyday) and a snack just because me and my family were so busy and by the time I got home it was 8pm and I had to have a make- up dinner. Planning to post all my meals today xx
Breakfast ( I had a bowl of porridge made with whole milk aswell) TW I had a weigh in yesterday and I maintained even though I’ve been having 3,000 cals a day? Also yesterday me and my family went out for dinner and I ordered a small margarita pizza and ended up crying after one slice 🤦‍♀️ i didn’t think that I would break down because when I ordered it I intended on eating it but yeah... anyways! Today’s gonna have a lot of increases because I missed my lunch, a fortisip (I have one on top of my meals everyday) and a snack just because me and my family were so busy and by the time I got home it was 8pm and I had to have a make- up dinner. Planning to post all my meals today xx
Stressing out because I have a chemistry exam on Friday and I feel like I'm gonna fail even tho I know the material because low self esteem and no confidence always override the truth in my brain and yea #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny
Stressing out because I have a chemistry exam on Friday and I feel like I'm gonna fail even tho I know the material because low self esteem and no confidence always override the truth in my brain and yea #edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny 
validation. 
we all need it, wether it is from friends, teachers, parents, doctors, etc, or even our own minds. 
i find that people struggle with being “sick enough”. we often crave the severity of those diagnoses, just one more relapse, etc. 
of course, this isn’t helpful for anyone. mental health problems don’t have a “look”. but of course we need validation, and this is a way of showing the world how sick we are, how much we struggle, if it’s the number of diagnoses, number of hospital admissions, number of psychologists, drugs, near-death experiences we’ve had. 
i just want to take this time to tell you: you are valid, your struggle is valid. i know how much you’ve struggled, how hard it is to cope with mental health issues and/or trauma. your struggle is not invalidated by recovery. being healthy does not mean you are not suffering. not “looking like” you have a problem does not mean it isn’t there. i see you. you are valid.-🌱
validation. we all need it, wether it is from friends, teachers, parents, doctors, etc, or even our own minds. i find that people struggle with being “sick enough”. we often crave the severity of those diagnoses, just one more relapse, etc. of course, this isn’t helpful for anyone. mental health problems don’t have a “look”. but of course we need validation, and this is a way of showing the world how sick we are, how much we struggle, if it’s the number of diagnoses, number of hospital admissions, number of psychologists, drugs, near-death experiences we’ve had. i just want to take this time to tell you: you are valid, your struggle is valid. i know how much you’ve struggled, how hard it is to cope with mental health issues and/or trauma. your struggle is not invalidated by recovery. being healthy does not mean you are not suffering. not “looking like” you have a problem does not mean it isn’t there. i see you. you are valid.-🌱
Hi! This salad is so pretty! I had a club meeting tonight and I got nominated to be the secretary which doesn't seem like a big deal but like it made really happy that someone wants me to be part of the club board. Also I had a cupcake which is a huge #recoverywin because 1) huge fear food 2) unplanned. And it was DELICIOUS. #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny
Hi! This salad is so pretty! I had a club meeting tonight and I got nominated to be the secretary which doesn't seem like a big deal but like it made really happy that someone wants me to be part of the club board. Also I had a cupcake which is a huge #recoverywin  because 1) huge fear food 2) unplanned. And it was DELICIOUS. #edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny 
Today I ate over 1000kcal in cookies. Extreme hunger:
This morning I had my usual breakfast (porridge) although I did not feel hungry at all. About three hours later while at my internship I started to crave the cookies I was preparing for the actors. I pushed through the voice telling me to restrict and allowed myself some.💪🏽 But after enjoying about four cookies I could not stop craving them. I knew giving in to the cravings was the only way to get rid of them, so I took some more. And more. And more. I wanted to stop, not because I wanted to restrict, but because I knew I'd had more than enough. But I couldn't, the craving just wouldn't stop! Eventually, the cookie bag was empty and I had no other choice than to stop. 🤷🏼‍♀️
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I'm really torn right now, because on one hand I tried to listen to my cravings and I enjoyed the cookies which I'm proud of. On the other hand I felt like a bottomless pit and I can't seem to control myself. Once I start to eat something I crave I can't stop until it's empty. Same happened at my night snack yesterday... 🤷🏼‍♀️ I am ashamed for my insatiable hunger and the amount of cookies I had...
It also makes me feel so invalid, like how can I eat tons of sugary cookies but be afraid to eat pasta? This is so confusing and I honestly don't know what to do to stop this feeling of never getting enough... Any advice would be appreciated! 🌪️
I pushed myself to get something for lunch afterwards because I knew my body needed something savory and restricting would have just upped my hunger even more...
Also I am, in no way, saying that eating over 1000kcal of cookies or sweets is bad if you want it. For me it was just really difficult, because I really wanted to stop but couldn't... I hope this makes sense, sorry for the rambling. 
Stay strong lovelies, your cravings are meant to be heard. 
Love, Lisa😘
#edrecovery #recoveryisnotlinear #extremehunger
Today I ate over 1000kcal in cookies. Extreme hunger: This morning I had my usual breakfast (porridge) although I did not feel hungry at all. About three hours later while at my internship I started to crave the cookies I was preparing for the actors. I pushed through the voice telling me to restrict and allowed myself some.💪🏽 But after enjoying about four cookies I could not stop craving them. I knew giving in to the cravings was the only way to get rid of them, so I took some more. And more. And more. I wanted to stop, not because I wanted to restrict, but because I knew I'd had more than enough. But I couldn't, the craving just wouldn't stop! Eventually, the cookie bag was empty and I had no other choice than to stop. 🤷🏼‍♀️ 🌪️ I'm really torn right now, because on one hand I tried to listen to my cravings and I enjoyed the cookies which I'm proud of. On the other hand I felt like a bottomless pit and I can't seem to control myself. Once I start to eat something I crave I can't stop until it's empty. Same happened at my night snack yesterday... 🤷🏼‍♀️ I am ashamed for my insatiable hunger and the amount of cookies I had... It also makes me feel so invalid, like how can I eat tons of sugary cookies but be afraid to eat pasta? This is so confusing and I honestly don't know what to do to stop this feeling of never getting enough... Any advice would be appreciated! 🌪️ I pushed myself to get something for lunch afterwards because I knew my body needed something savory and restricting would have just upped my hunger even more... Also I am, in no way, saying that eating over 1000kcal of cookies or sweets is bad if you want it. For me it was just really difficult, because I really wanted to stop but couldn't... I hope this makes sense, sorry for the rambling. Stay strong lovelies, your cravings are meant to be heard. Love, Lisa😘 #edrecovery  #recoveryisnotlinear  #extremehunger 
Not the most appetizing looking snack but oh well 💁‍♀️💁‍♀️ a tablespoon of almond butter and an apple xx  I already had a bit of the apple before I took the picture btw xx
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Literally this just made my day because being in college you don't expect your professors to care individually about their students. I feel so loved! But uh I think I  can ace this assignment haha #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny
Literally this just made my day because being in college you don't expect your professors to care individually about their students. I feel so loved! But uh I think I can ace this assignment haha #edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny 
Night snack 🤤🌟🌟
A full tub of vanilla bean @halotopuk #pintparty  I had this as my night snack Because I missed one of my snacks and needed to make up the cals so I went for one of these 🤩 I made my dad go into the supermarket to get me one on the way home from the bistro we went to lmaooo he was quite surprised when I offered to have the whole tub for my night snack even though it was the same amount of cals he suggested 🤦‍♀️ but anyways, I hope everyone has had a good day!!
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Night snack 🤤🌟🌟 A full tub of vanilla bean @halotopuk #pintparty  I had this as my night snack Because I missed one of my snacks and needed to make up the cals so I went for one of these 🤩 I made my dad go into the supermarket to get me one on the way home from the bistro we went to lmaooo he was quite surprised when I offered to have the whole tub for my night snack even though it was the same amount of cals he suggested 🤦‍♀️ but anyways, I hope everyone has had a good day!! -
Sorry for being inactive I've been pretty busy. I had a great weekend with my boyfriend and we made pumpkin pancakes yesterday morning. Last night he cooked us up some salmon and veggies and man was it so good. I'm so lucky to have him. I was having a hard time and he literally wouldn't let me go until I told him exactly what was wrong and then he gave me a talk and it helped a lot. So don't be afraid to reach out for help #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny
Sorry for being inactive I've been pretty busy. I had a great weekend with my boyfriend and we made pumpkin pancakes yesterday morning. Last night he cooked us up some salmon and veggies and man was it so good. I'm so lucky to have him. I was having a hard time and he literally wouldn't let me go until I told him exactly what was wrong and then he gave me a talk and it helped a lot. So don't be afraid to reach out for help #edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny 
Dinner! Wanted to challenge myself with dinner tonight so the best way to do that was to go out for it! I got gammon with pineapple and mash and I scribbled out what I ended up not eating, I found the salad a struggle because it had dressing on it so I only had the lettuce at the bottom but still a huge win 💪💪💪 I would never usually have butter in my potatoes but I battled through very proud of myself !! -
Dinner! Wanted to challenge myself with dinner tonight so the best way to do that was to go out for it! I got gammon with pineapple and mash and I scribbled out what I ended up not eating, I found the salad a struggle because it had dressing on it so I only had the lettuce at the bottom but still a huge win 💪💪💪 I would never usually have butter in my potatoes but I battled through very proud of myself !! -
This weekend was quite overwhelming food wise. I was afraid too eat TOO LITTLE, as my mom was eyeing my every movement around food while visiting our grandparents this weekend. It makes me feel trapped and then I often end up eating TOO MUCH, which both my parents like to comment on (ex: "you put too much topping on your too thick porridge, that third slice of cake was too much")🙄 I feel so MISUNDERSTOOD by them, because they don't realise how hurtful these words are to someone struggling with an restrictive eating disorder...
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Anyways, I still promised myself I wouldn't purge while at my grandparents. It was hard, really hard, but guess what? I did it! 🎉
I managed to stay purge free even tho one night I was physically sick because I made porridge with cinnamon that was best before 2012 (not recommendable lol, had stomach cramps the whole night😂)
I did not want to miss out on all the delicious stuff my grandmas baked so I overcame the voice and had fruit pie, apple pie, chocolate tarte, waffles, ice cream, Whipped cream, cookies... All the good stuff. I gave myself permission to eat and enjoy it and tried to suppress the disordered voice in my head. Although it was scary and a fight with myself at and after every meal, I made it! And I'm kinda proud of that? ✨
➡️So just poppin in to tell you it is more than OK to allow yourself to eat and enjoy it and don't give a shit about what others say about your food choices! Do what makes you happy, and if that means 4 slices of cake or a porridge topped with chocolate, cookies and Nutella, then eat the damn cake and porridge 😍 AND no need to feel guilty! In recovery there is no such thing as "too much food"! Your body needs all the energy it can get to get back to a normal metabolism.⬅️
I hope you had a good weekend! Love, Lisa 😘
#edrecovery #edwarrior #recovery #selflove
This weekend was quite overwhelming food wise. I was afraid too eat TOO LITTLE, as my mom was eyeing my every movement around food while visiting our grandparents this weekend. It makes me feel trapped and then I often end up eating TOO MUCH, which both my parents like to comment on (ex: "you put too much topping on your too thick porridge, that third slice of cake was too much")🙄 I feel so MISUNDERSTOOD by them, because they don't realise how hurtful these words are to someone struggling with an restrictive eating disorder... 🌪️ Anyways, I still promised myself I wouldn't purge while at my grandparents. It was hard, really hard, but guess what? I did it! 🎉 I managed to stay purge free even tho one night I was physically sick because I made porridge with cinnamon that was best before 2012 (not recommendable lol, had stomach cramps the whole night😂) I did not want to miss out on all the delicious stuff my grandmas baked so I overcame the voice and had fruit pie, apple pie, chocolate tarte, waffles, ice cream, Whipped cream, cookies... All the good stuff. I gave myself permission to eat and enjoy it and tried to suppress the disordered voice in my head. Although it was scary and a fight with myself at and after every meal, I made it! And I'm kinda proud of that? ✨ ➡️So just poppin in to tell you it is more than OK to allow yourself to eat and enjoy it and don't give a shit about what others say about your food choices! Do what makes you happy, and if that means 4 slices of cake or a porridge topped with chocolate, cookies and Nutella, then eat the damn cake and porridge 😍 AND no need to feel guilty! In recovery there is no such thing as "too much food"! Your body needs all the energy it can get to get back to a normal metabolism.⬅️ I hope you had a good weekend! Love, Lisa 😘 #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #recovery  #selflove 
Afternoon snack x
Was only meant to have a slice of bread with the laughing cow  but I maintained at my weigh in so my dad wanted me to increase so I had a petit filous with it,,it was a struggle but I had it !!
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Afternoon snack x Was only meant to have a slice of bread with the laughing cow but I maintained at my weigh in so my dad wanted me to increase so I had a petit filous with it,,it was a struggle but I had it !! - #anorexia  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #not1in5  #maudsleymethod  #camhs  #mentalillnessawareness  #healthy  #nourishtoflourish  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #edrecovery  #eattolive  #eattorecover  #minniemaud 
Hey guys! I forgot to take a picture of my breakfast today until the end 🤦‍♀️ but I had 2 weetabix, 200mls of milk, a slice of toast w/ butter and an apple! My dad wants to try Minnie maud recovery, has anyone tried it? I want to but my ed keeps making me change my mind 🙄🙄 also I Hope everyone has a good day !!
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#anorexia #recovery #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #not1in5 #maudsleymethod #camhs #mentalillnessawareness #healthy #nourishtoflourish #edwarrior #strongnotskinny #edrecovery #eattolive #eattorecover #minniemaud
Hey guys! I forgot to take a picture of my breakfast today until the end 🤦‍♀️ but I had 2 weetabix, 200mls of milk, a slice of toast w/ butter and an apple! My dad wants to try Minnie maud recovery, has anyone tried it? I want to but my ed keeps making me change my mind 🙄🙄 also I Hope everyone has a good day !! - - #anorexia  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #not1in5  #maudsleymethod  #camhs  #mentalillnessawareness  #healthy  #nourishtoflourish  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #edrecovery  #eattolive  #eattorecover  #minniemaud 
My last meal in inpatient for hopefully forever !! 💪💪
Vegetarian quiche, Boiled potatoes, Cauliflower & Ice Cream
The ice cream in hospital is lowkey the best food they have 🤤🤤
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Also, This is my first post! I’ve decided to just take the plunge and make a recovery account even though I’m very afraid of people I know finding it so I’m just going to stay anon for a while... but anyways! I’M 14 and got diagnosed with anorexia on the 10/04/18  and have been inpatient 3 times sadly :/ but never again!!! Also If anyone ever wants to talk you can always dm me :)))
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My last meal in inpatient for hopefully forever !! 💪💪 Vegetarian quiche, Boiled potatoes, Cauliflower & Ice Cream The ice cream in hospital is lowkey the best food they have 🤤🤤 - Also, This is my first post! I’ve decided to just take the plunge and make a recovery account even though I’m very afraid of people I know finding it so I’m just going to stay anon for a while... but anyways! I’M 14 and got diagnosed with anorexia on the 10/04/18 and have been inpatient 3 times sadly :/ but never again!!! Also If anyone ever wants to talk you can always dm me :))) - - #anorexia  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #not1in5  #maudsleymethod  #camhs  #mentalillnessawareness  #healthy  #nourishtoflourish  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #edrecovery  #eattolive  #eattorecover  #minniemaud 
Lunch out with my parents yesterday, we all had the same which made it easier, it felt good to do something so spontaneously :)
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Lunch out with my parents yesterday, we all had the same which made it easier, it felt good to do something so spontaneously :) . . . . . . . . . . .#ed  #edrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #edfam  #recovery  #fooddiary  #anorexiarecovery  #ana  #fuckana  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #edfighter  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny  #plantbased  #crueltyfree  #food  #foodporn  #mentalillness  #not1in5  #inpatient  #outpatientrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recoverywarrior  #iwillbeatthis  @cafe.nero #lunch 
Swipe for amazing close ups —> I challenged myself to a savory lunch today and it was so filling and good. It was an boiled egg, a beetroot burger, salad, cucumber, tomatoes and mushrooms. 
TW update 
You all know I am struggling a lot with living with my mother and all my other symptoms are getting worse.. I am relapsing into Ana’s arms again, loosing weight, def harming and breaking down in school as well as my depression is just getting worse and worse for every hour I am with my mom.. I just want to move out, to an institution or a foster home or something.. ~
#beatinganorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #freedom #food #anorexia #prorecovery #bodypositivity #bodypositive #not1in5 #depression #OCD #anxiety #selfharmrecovery
Swipe for amazing close ups —> I challenged myself to a savory lunch today and it was so filling and good. It was an boiled egg, a beetroot burger, salad, cucumber, tomatoes and mushrooms. TW update You all know I am struggling a lot with living with my mother and all my other symptoms are getting worse.. I am relapsing into Ana’s arms again, loosing weight, def harming and breaking down in school as well as my depression is just getting worse and worse for every hour I am with my mom.. I just want to move out, to an institution or a foster home or something.. ~ #beatinganorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #freedom  #food  #anorexia  #prorecovery  #bodypositivity  #bodypositive  #not1in5  #depression  #OCD  #anxiety  #selfharmrecovery 
Good afternoon beautifuls! Lunch today was a repeat of yesterday because it was super yummy. I had a chicken, avocado, and spinach sandwich on a bun (white!) with a glass of milk, some unmeasured peanut butter, and a banana 🍌! I hope that you all are having a lovely weekend :) #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #anarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bravery #lunch #foodismedicine #foodisfuel #allfoodisgoodfood #morethananumber #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalhealth #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #nourishthyself #not1in5 #healthynotskinny #boobsnotbones #antiana #prorecovery #recoveryoverrelapse #recoverywarrior #edwarrior #edfighter #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible
Good afternoon beautifuls! Lunch today was a repeat of yesterday because it was super yummy. I had a chicken, avocado, and spinach sandwich on a bun (white!) with a glass of milk, some unmeasured peanut butter, and a banana 🍌! I hope that you all are having a lovely weekend :) #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #anarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bravery  #lunch  #foodismedicine  #foodisfuel  #allfoodisgoodfood  #morethananumber  #mentalillnessrecovery  #mentalhealth  #nourishtoflourish  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishthyself  #not1in5  #healthynotskinny  #boobsnotbones  #antiana  #prorecovery  #recoveryoverrelapse  #recoverywarrior  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible 
My best friend left me.
She told me she doesn't want to spend time with me anymore.
History repeats itself.
I am not good enough. 
But this time it really is my fault:
I am relapsing back into my eating disorder more than I want to admit.
My best friend noticed.
When I first recovered earlier this year she was the one who stood by me every step of the way and supported me with everything she had.
But this time she can't help me.
She's worn out and she's done with this bullshit. She has her own history of an eating disorder and it's too much for her to take this on again.
She is graduating high school this year, she has lots of stress, she has her own problems to worry about.
She has to concentrate on herself and I support that in any way I can. 
I want her to not have to worry about me!
So she pulled the breaks. She's distancing herself from me and if that's what helps her and makes her feel better, then I am not the one to beg her to stay.
Sometimes you have to let those you love go.
It hurts.
She still loves me.
I still love her.
But right now I do more harm to her than good.
I want her to be happy.
So I'm letting her go.
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It hurts because this is completely on me! She is not weak or whiny, she's not a bad friend. I am the one who failed. My eating disorder is consuming me more and more every day and I am too weak to resist. I have scheduled a new psychiatrist appointment already because I know I need some kind of support again (although I feel so pathetic).
My eating disorder has ruined my most important friendship.
Before I don't get better, nothing will change.
➡️Our eating disorders want to rip our lives apart and see us slowly die.
They are not our friends. They are our enemies.⬅️
Please seek help and get better. No matter how hard it seems. I'm sorry for the negativity but I'm honest and I don't know what to do anymore... Love, Lisa
My best friend left me. She told me she doesn't want to spend time with me anymore. History repeats itself. I am not good enough. But this time it really is my fault: I am relapsing back into my eating disorder more than I want to admit. My best friend noticed. When I first recovered earlier this year she was the one who stood by me every step of the way and supported me with everything she had. But this time she can't help me. She's worn out and she's done with this bullshit. She has her own history of an eating disorder and it's too much for her to take this on again. She is graduating high school this year, she has lots of stress, she has her own problems to worry about. She has to concentrate on herself and I support that in any way I can. I want her to not have to worry about me! So she pulled the breaks. She's distancing herself from me and if that's what helps her and makes her feel better, then I am not the one to beg her to stay. Sometimes you have to let those you love go. It hurts. She still loves me. I still love her. But right now I do more harm to her than good. I want her to be happy. So I'm letting her go. 🌪️ It hurts because this is completely on me! She is not weak or whiny, she's not a bad friend. I am the one who failed. My eating disorder is consuming me more and more every day and I am too weak to resist. I have scheduled a new psychiatrist appointment already because I know I need some kind of support again (although I feel so pathetic). My eating disorder has ruined my most important friendship. Before I don't get better, nothing will change. ➡️Our eating disorders want to rip our lives apart and see us slowly die. They are not our friends. They are our enemies.⬅️ Please seek help and get better. No matter how hard it seems. I'm sorry for the negativity but I'm honest and I don't know what to do anymore... Love, Lisa
Breakfast this morning was my very cakey biscoff porridge!!
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I added some biscoff biscuits and some spread, some cinnamon and some toffee flavour drops !
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I topped it with some peanut butter and it was so delicious!!
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Don't forget to have a wonderful day everybody!❤😊
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Breakfast this morning was my very cakey biscoff porridge!! . I added some biscoff biscuits and some spread, some cinnamon and some toffee flavour drops ! . I topped it with some peanut butter and it was so delicious!! . Don't forget to have a wonderful day everybody!❤😊 . . . . . . . . . . . . . #recovery  #snack  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #fuckana  #foodphotography  #foodporn  #melty  #delicious  #anarecovery  #food  #amazing  #minniemaud  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #edsoldier  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder  #keepfighting  #staystrong  #breakfast  #dinner  #snacking  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #not1in5  #iamnot1in5 
OMG SHE IS STILL ALIVE! 
I’m only joking guys I’m actually very happy and on the good side of recovery:) I am currently on my record of recovery I have been out of hospital for 9 weeks! I know this is like small but for me it’s a big deal because I have come so far from not eating at all to having an appetite and getting angry when I haven’t had food. This is what life is about, being happy and just pushing it away and moving on. Wow that makes it sound so easy but trust me it is hella hard and the ed community will agree with me. But anyway, I’m so happy to be recovering and I feel the benefit, leave some positive messages for each other. I will reply 💋💋💋
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(🍃this is a homemade banana🍌 bread cake and trust me it’s amazing. The nuts🥜🌰 and dates🍇 added to the cake makes it crunchy and so satisfying when hot🍑🍃
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OMG SHE IS STILL ALIVE! I’m only joking guys I’m actually very happy and on the good side of recovery:) I am currently on my record of recovery I have been out of hospital for 9 weeks! I know this is like small but for me it’s a big deal because I have come so far from not eating at all to having an appetite and getting angry when I haven’t had food. This is what life is about, being happy and just pushing it away and moving on. Wow that makes it sound so easy but trust me it is hella hard and the ed community will agree with me. But anyway, I’m so happy to be recovering and I feel the benefit, leave some positive messages for each other. I will reply 💋💋💋 • • • (🍃this is a homemade banana🍌 bread cake and trust me it’s amazing. The nuts🥜🌰 and dates🍇 added to the cake makes it crunchy and so satisfying when hot🍑🍃 • • • #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #not1in5  #foodie  #foodblogger  #vegan  #veganism  #healthyrecipes  #healthyfoodshare  #anorexialife  #happyvibes  #positivity  #aesthetic  #food  #strongnotskinny  #foodlover  #prorecovery  #loveyourself  #life  #aesthetic  #banana  #bananabread  #healthfood 
Posting late but lunch was eaten in my chem lecture today because I was so busy. I had two tutoring groups today then a makeup for my lab. Now I'm on my way home and it's SNOWING#edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny
Posting late but lunch was eaten in my chem lecture today because I was so busy. I had two tutoring groups today then a makeup for my lab. Now I'm on my way home and it's SNOWING#edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny 
Mommmm can I please have some....😟lol he has his own ice cream treat so don’t feel too bad for that puppy dog face😆❤️night snack last night-I’m diggin the classic vanilla bean 😋
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Mommmm can I please have some....😟lol he has his own ice cream treat so don’t feel too bad for that puppy dog face😆❤️night snack last night-I’m diggin the classic vanilla bean 😋 . . #selflove  #selfcare  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #disorderedeating  #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody  #vegetarian  #fightforfreedom  #iamincontrol  #fightforlife  #iamincharge  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #bodypositive  #believeinyourself  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #morethananumber  #honoryourhunger  #edfighter  #loveyourself  #not1in5  #vanilla  #doggo  #pup  #love  #icecream 
Dinner was multigrain oatmeal, a banana that was like a foot long lol, pb, cinnamon, and maple😋today was difficult and my dad was like screaming at my mom when she came home from work and I had to eat this fast and then we were rushing to be on time and this guy almost hit our car on the way and I just got very overwhelmed and had a bit of a meltdown in the car, BUT we turned the evening around 😊👍🏻and we made it to the Christmas lights opening walk with Ricky!!!! He literally had soooo much fun haha smiling the whole time greeting everyone and sniffing all the other dogs😆and we met Santa 🎅🏻 haha I love my dog so much he truly is my emotional support animal ❤️❤️Recover so you have the energy to do the think you love and walk 2 miles without feeling like ur gonna pass out!❤️#recoveryisworthit .
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#bodypositive #believeinyourself #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #morethananumber #honoryourhunger #treatyoself #loveyourself #not1in5 #christmas #lights #oatmeal #dog #walk
Dinner was multigrain oatmeal, a banana that was like a foot long lol, pb, cinnamon, and maple😋today was difficult and my dad was like screaming at my mom when she came home from work and I had to eat this fast and then we were rushing to be on time and this guy almost hit our car on the way and I just got very overwhelmed and had a bit of a meltdown in the car, BUT we turned the evening around 😊👍🏻and we made it to the Christmas lights opening walk with Ricky!!!! He literally had soooo much fun haha smiling the whole time greeting everyone and sniffing all the other dogs😆and we met Santa 🎅🏻 haha I love my dog so much he truly is my emotional support animal ❤️❤️Recover so you have the energy to do the think you love and walk 2 miles without feeling like ur gonna pass out!❤️#recoveryisworthit  . . #selflove  #selfcare  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #disorderedeating  #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody  #vegetarian  #fightforfreedom  #iamincontrol  #fightforlife  #iamincharge  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #bodypositive  #believeinyourself  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #morethananumber  #honoryourhunger  #treatyoself  #loveyourself  #not1in5  #christmas  #lights  #oatmeal  #dog  #walk 
Today’s my first big #fearfoodfriday 🍴 eggs 🍳 slightly scared, but super prepared 💪🏼
Today’s my first big #fearfoodfriday  🍴 eggs 🍳 slightly scared, but super prepared 💪🏼
Good morning beautifuls! I'm super happy this morning because I woke up to snow ❄. Does anyone else have snow today? I ate my breakfast in front of the window just to watch the flurries fall! I had a yogurt, blueberry, granola, and chia seed bowl with a glass of milk. I even had more yogurt than it said to on the container. And yes, I know that I need to stop measuring food. But it was still a win for me to have a bigger serving size. Because it feels wrong, like I shouldn't be doing that, because a container says not to. It sounds a little silly when I look at it that way! Have a wonderful day everyone and enjoy the snow if you have it ❄#edwarrior #edfighter #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #anorexiarecovery #breakfast #eatingdisorderrecovery #morethananumber #nourishnotpunish #nourishtoflourish #nourishthyself #not1in5 #healthynotskinny #foodismedicine #foodisfuel #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalhealth #recoveryoverrelapse #antiana #prorecovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoverywarrior #yogurtbowl #blueberries #bravery #strongnotskinny #strength #boobsnotbones
Good morning beautifuls! I'm super happy this morning because I woke up to snow ❄. Does anyone else have snow today? I ate my breakfast in front of the window just to watch the flurries fall! I had a yogurt, blueberry, granola, and chia seed bowl with a glass of milk. I even had more yogurt than it said to on the container. And yes, I know that I need to stop measuring food. But it was still a win for me to have a bigger serving size. Because it feels wrong, like I shouldn't be doing that, because a container says not to. It sounds a little silly when I look at it that way! Have a wonderful day everyone and enjoy the snow if you have it ❄#edwarrior  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #anorexiarecovery  #breakfast  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #morethananumber  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishtoflourish  #nourishthyself  #not1in5  #healthynotskinny  #foodismedicine  #foodisfuel  #mentalillnessrecovery  #mentalhealth  #recoveryoverrelapse  #antiana  #prorecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recoverywarrior  #yogurtbowl  #blueberries  #bravery  #strongnotskinny  #strength  #boobsnotbones 
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For breakfast I had porridge topped with 2 white kinder Buenos and some peanut butter !
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Normally for chocolate I would opt for milk or dark chocolate but I've made an exception for Buenos because the white ones are so good!!
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My exams start next week and I feel so unprepared for them ! I need to do a lot of studying over the weekend!.
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Yum! . For breakfast I had porridge topped with 2 white kinder Buenos and some peanut butter ! . Normally for chocolate I would opt for milk or dark chocolate but I've made an exception for Buenos because the white ones are so good!! . My exams start next week and I feel so unprepared for them ! I need to do a lot of studying over the weekend!. . Have a wonderful day everyone!! . . . . . . . . . . . #recovery  #snack  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #fuckana  #foodphotography  #foodporn  #melty  #delicious  #anarecovery  #food  #amazing  #minniemaud  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #edsoldier  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder  #keepfighting  #staystrong  #breakfast  #dinner  #snacking  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #not1in5  #iamnot1in5 
Maybe you feel prickly and touchy, difficult to be with, but the people who love you will stick around because you're worth it
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Hi everyone! Dinner tonight was super yummy 😋 I had cooked Broccoli, soy milk, and what I think was called Greek Strata. It was like a pastry with feta cheese, spinach, and onion on the inside. Wow was it good!- It was however scary because I've already had cheese today, as you can tell from my breakfast, but scary is good. Because the more that we face foods and rules that scare us, the easier they'll be the next time until we try them.Until eventually, the ED voice is as quiet as possible. That make take many months, years, or what seems like forever but the sooner the better. I'm tired of battling everytime I go to eat. There was literally nothing in that dining hall that was safe, it all broke some kind of food rule or the food itself was "off limits." So after a battle I got myself to have this, and I'm glad that I did. I was diagnosed in January 2016. I've been fighting this disorder for almost three years, and I'm still scared to eat a brownie. I still can't workout without doing cardio. I'm still scared to eat foods that I don't know the calorie content of. And I'm still struggling not to relapse. Things have to change! It's time to start kicking Ana to the curb and start my real journey towards freedom. I hope that everyone else has had a good day! Keep being brave beautifuls! <3 #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #bravery #dinner #foodismedicine #foodisfuel #fuckanorexia #fuckana #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #antiana #morethananumber #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalhealth #strength #nourishnotpunish #nourishthyself #nourishtoflourish #not1in5 #healthynotskinny #boobsnotbones #recoveryoverrelapse #recoverywarrior #recoveryispossible #allfoodisgoodfood #edfighter #edwarrior
Hi everyone! Dinner tonight was super yummy 😋 I had cooked Broccoli, soy milk, and what I think was called Greek Strata. It was like a pastry with feta cheese, spinach, and onion on the inside. Wow was it good!- It was however scary because I've already had cheese today, as you can tell from my breakfast, but scary is good. Because the more that we face foods and rules that scare us, the easier they'll be the next time until we try them.Until eventually, the ED voice is as quiet as possible. That make take many months, years, or what seems like forever but the sooner the better. I'm tired of battling everytime I go to eat. There was literally nothing in that dining hall that was safe, it all broke some kind of food rule or the food itself was "off limits." So after a battle I got myself to have this, and I'm glad that I did. I was diagnosed in January 2016. I've been fighting this disorder for almost three years, and I'm still scared to eat a brownie. I still can't workout without doing cardio. I'm still scared to eat foods that I don't know the calorie content of. And I'm still struggling not to relapse. Things have to change! It's time to start kicking Ana to the curb and start my real journey towards freedom. I hope that everyone else has had a good day! Keep being brave beautifuls! <3 #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #bravery  #dinner  #foodismedicine  #foodisfuel  #fuckanorexia  #fuckana  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #antiana  #morethananumber  #mentalillnessrecovery  #mentalhealth  #strength  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishthyself  #nourishtoflourish  #not1in5  #healthynotskinny  #boobsnotbones  #recoveryoverrelapse  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryispossible  #allfoodisgoodfood  #edfighter  #edwarrior 
Ugh I love this soup so much! It's called Chicken Bianca and basically it's soup version of chicken Alfredo and it's so creamy. All last fall when I was in school I would always look at this and want it but I was too scared because I was restricting severely and it was out of my "budget" but man I was missing out! #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny
Ugh I love this soup so much! It's called Chicken Bianca and basically it's soup version of chicken Alfredo and it's so creamy. All last fall when I was in school I would always look at this and want it but I was too scared because I was restricting severely and it was out of my "budget" but man I was missing out! #edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny 
Good morning! This melon was really hard so kinda disappointing. I have a nutritionist appointment today and a weight check so thats akways anxiety proboking. But...It's almost the weekend so that's really exciting! Hope you have a great day. #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny
Good morning! This melon was really hard so kinda disappointing. I have a nutritionist appointment today and a weight check so thats akways anxiety proboking. But...It's almost the weekend so that's really exciting! Hope you have a great day. #edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny 
Real food, real protein 🌿 so happy I found these little protein bars, not only do they taste good & give me a nice amount of protein, they also give me that boost of energy before I work out 🏋🏻‍♀️ #getjimmywithit
Real food, real protein 🌿 so happy I found these little protein bars, not only do they taste good & give me a nice amount of protein, they also give me that boost of energy before I work out 🏋🏻‍♀️ #getjimmywithit 
Ah I got back to my dorm and my roommate surprised me with this mug and hot coco! I'm so happy small acts of kindness can really make a huge impact. Right before I came to the room I had gone to the counseling center where I was told they weren't taking new patients and was in a really low mood but now I'm really grateful. Now it's my turn to do an act of kindness. What's your way of showing you care? #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edrecovery #edawareness #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #anawarrior #edwarrior #anawho #anarecovery #anaawareness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #healthynothungry #strongnotskinny #fuckana #countblessingnotcalories #2fab4ana #not1in5 #healthyisthenewskinny #kindness #smallactsofkindness #godisgood
Ah I got back to my dorm and my roommate surprised me with this mug and hot coco! I'm so happy small acts of kindness can really make a huge impact. Right before I came to the room I had gone to the counseling center where I was told they weren't taking new patients and was in a really low mood but now I'm really grateful. Now it's my turn to do an act of kindness. What's your way of showing you care? #edfamily  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edrecovery  #edawareness  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #anorexiaawareness  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #anawho  #anarecovery  #anaawareness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #healthynothungry  #strongnotskinny  #fuckana  #countblessingnotcalories  #2fab4ana  #not1in5  #healthyisthenewskinny  #kindness  #smallactsofkindness  #godisgood 
Afternoon snack was grapes, baby carrots, and some pretzels 🥨 #yum 😋Went to therapy again today just really need the extra support and reassurance right now and that’s okay honestly❤️
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#bodypositive #believeinyourself #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #morethananumber #honoryourhunger #treatyoself #loveyourself #not1in5 #noslackingonsnacking #fuckana #edfighter #beatana #vegan
Afternoon snack was grapes, baby carrots, and some pretzels 🥨 #yum  😋Went to therapy again today just really need the extra support and reassurance right now and that’s okay honestly❤️ . . #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #disorderedeating  #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody  #vegetarian  #fightforfreedom  #iamincontrol  #fightforlife  #iamincharge  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #bodypositive  #believeinyourself  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #morethananumber  #honoryourhunger  #treatyoself  #loveyourself  #not1in5  #noslackingonsnacking  #fuckana  #edfighter  #beatana  #vegan 
Brekkie was a Clif Bar I liked this flavor a lot-clif bars were one of my common breakfasts my pre ed favs cause they are quick and tasty and I can’t stomach much in the mornings
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#bodypositive #believeinyourself #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #morethananumber #honoryourhunger #treatyoself #loveyourself #not1in5 @clifbar #yummy #oatmealraisin #recovery #fighter
Brekkie was a Clif Bar I liked this flavor a lot-clif bars were one of my common breakfasts my pre ed favs cause they are quick and tasty and I can’t stomach much in the mornings . . #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #disorderedeating  #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody  #vegetarian  #fightforfreedom  #iamincontrol  #fightforlife  #iamincharge  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #bodypositive  #believeinyourself  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #morethananumber  #honoryourhunger  #treatyoself  #loveyourself  #not1in5  @clifbar #yummy  #oatmealraisin  #recovery  #fighter 
Wholly sheeeet this salad was so good lol dinner was 50/50 blend lettuce, a tin of chickpeas, sunflower seeds, dried cranberries, raspberry vinaigrette, AND HALF AN AVOCADO!🥑avocado is a huge fear food for me. Fats scare me loads but this was tasty and nourishing and I’m proud of myself!👍🏻😁
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#bodypositive #believeinyourself #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #morethananumber #honoryourhunger #treatyoself #loveyourself #not1in5 #avocado #salad #vegan #healthyfats
Wholly sheeeet this salad was so good lol dinner was 50/50 blend lettuce, a tin of chickpeas, sunflower seeds, dried cranberries, raspberry vinaigrette, AND HALF AN AVOCADO!🥑avocado is a huge fear food for me. Fats scare me loads but this was tasty and nourishing and I’m proud of myself!👍🏻😁 . . #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #disorderedeating  #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody  #vegetarian  #fightforfreedom  #iamincontrol  #fightforlife  #iamincharge  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #bodypositive  #believeinyourself  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #morethananumber  #honoryourhunger  #treatyoself  #loveyourself  #not1in5  #avocado  #salad  #vegan  #healthyfats 
Morning snack after the gym-nothing excessive DW we are just incorporating some exercise to help with depression-help produce serotonin as I have MTHFR mutation and it’s hard for my body to absorb serotonin on its own
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#bodypositive #believeinyourself #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #morethananumber #honoryourhunger #treatyoself #loveyourself #not1in5 #depression #recovery #exercise #mthfr
Morning snack after the gym-nothing excessive DW we are just incorporating some exercise to help with depression-help produce serotonin as I have MTHFR mutation and it’s hard for my body to absorb serotonin on its own . . #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #disorderedeating  #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody  #vegetarian  #fightforfreedom  #iamincontrol  #fightforlife  #iamincharge  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #bodypositive  #believeinyourself  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #morethananumber  #honoryourhunger  #treatyoself  #loveyourself  #not1in5  #depression  #recovery  #exercise  #mthfr 
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For breakfast I had some @kodiakcakes pancakes topped with some galaxy spread, a kinder happy hippo and 2 milky way crispy rolls!
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Ok I'm going to be honest here, possible TW so if you get triggered PLEASE DO NOT READ
well I've started restricting again. I know it doesn't look like it because I eat like a horse for breakfast. I've started to purge up my breakfast in school because I'm fat. I want to be at my lowest weight. I can't keep binging everyday and becoming fatter. I need to stop eating.
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Anyways, I hope you all have a wonderful day!!❤😊
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. For breakfast I had some @kodiakcakes pancakes topped with some galaxy spread, a kinder happy hippo and 2 milky way crispy rolls! . Ok I'm going to be honest here, possible TW so if you get triggered PLEASE DO NOT READ well I've started restricting again. I know it doesn't look like it because I eat like a horse for breakfast. I've started to purge up my breakfast in school because I'm fat. I want to be at my lowest weight. I can't keep binging everyday and becoming fatter. I need to stop eating. TWE . Anyways, I hope you all have a wonderful day!!❤😊 . . . . . . . . . . . #recovery  #snack  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #fuckana  #foodphotography  #foodporn  #melty  #delicious  #anarecovery  #food  #amazing  #minniemaud  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #edsoldier  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder  #keepfighting  #staystrong  #breakfast  #dinner  #snacking  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #not1in5  #iamnot1in5 
Breakfast yesterday...yea u read that right JULIA ATE BREAKFAST😮😁❤️💪🏻guys I feel like I’m steering with my eyes closed and I’m terrified but ultimately I AM IN CONTROL! And I am trusting my body and having faith that these scary steps will lead back that little girl I know is still inside me begging to be set free. I find it hard to care for myself at all and feel much better just caring and giving my energy to others especially my loved ones, so I’ve put it in a different perspective and think if you are a babysitter, a teacher, a coach, a mother or a father you are someone’s guardian and a child is relying on you to guide them and keep them safe. YOU are your body’s guardian. Your body is counting on you to feed it, to nourish it, to give it time and take places, to go on adventures, to have fuel and sustained energy, to unconditionally love and care for it like you would a defenseless child. Our bodies are confused and I just think I’m gonna strive to give it the healthy long life it deserves❤️😚love all u lil buttons stay strong!
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#bodypositive #believeinyourself #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #morethananumber #honoryourhunger #treatyoself #loveyourself #not1in5 #youareworthy #motivation #recovery #strength
Breakfast yesterday...yea u read that right JULIA ATE BREAKFAST😮😁❤️💪🏻guys I feel like I’m steering with my eyes closed and I’m terrified but ultimately I AM IN CONTROL! And I am trusting my body and having faith that these scary steps will lead back that little girl I know is still inside me begging to be set free. I find it hard to care for myself at all and feel much better just caring and giving my energy to others especially my loved ones, so I’ve put it in a different perspective and think if you are a babysitter, a teacher, a coach, a mother or a father you are someone’s guardian and a child is relying on you to guide them and keep them safe. YOU are your body’s guardian. Your body is counting on you to feed it, to nourish it, to give it time and take places, to go on adventures, to have fuel and sustained energy, to unconditionally love and care for it like you would a defenseless child. Our bodies are confused and I just think I’m gonna strive to give it the healthy long life it deserves❤️😚love all u lil buttons stay strong! . . #selflove  #selfcare  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #disorderedeating  #disorderedeatingrecovery  #nourishyourbody  #vegetarian  #fightforfreedom  #iamincontrol  #fightforlife  #iamincharge  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #bodypositive  #believeinyourself  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #morethananumber  #honoryourhunger  #treatyoself  #loveyourself  #not1in5  #youareworthy  #motivation  #recovery  #strength 
Good afternoon beautifuls! For afternoon snack I tried a lemon zest 🍋 Luna bar that was super good, I'd highly recommended it! As well as an apple 🍎. The past few days have been tough! -PTW- 
I've listened to my eating disorder a lot because it's been extremely loud. I've gotten myself back into the healthy weight range that my previous treatment team set out for me but it's still super hard to do what I need to; I feel like I just need some help. I have an appointment booked with a therapist but that's not until the 29th. But I'm going to keep doing my best and let the struggles remind me just of how much this illness sucks and why we all need to beat this! I don't want this disorder the rest of my life!! #edfighter #edwarrior #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #nourishnotpunish #nourishtoflourish #foodismedicine #foodisfuel #nourishthyself #anarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #bravery #not1in5 #recoveryoverrelapse #recoveryispossible #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #snack #lunabar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalillnessrecovery #antiana #prorecovery #fuckana #fuckanorexia
Good afternoon beautifuls! For afternoon snack I tried a lemon zest 🍋 Luna bar that was super good, I'd highly recommended it! As well as an apple 🍎. The past few days have been tough! -PTW- I've listened to my eating disorder a lot because it's been extremely loud. I've gotten myself back into the healthy weight range that my previous treatment team set out for me but it's still super hard to do what I need to; I feel like I just need some help. I have an appointment booked with a therapist but that's not until the 29th. But I'm going to keep doing my best and let the struggles remind me just of how much this illness sucks and why we all need to beat this! I don't want this disorder the rest of my life!! #edfighter  #edwarrior  #eatittobeatit  #healthynotskinny  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishtoflourish  #foodismedicine  #foodisfuel  #nourishthyself  #anarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #bravery  #not1in5  #recoveryoverrelapse  #recoveryispossible  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #snack  #lunabar  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalillnessrecovery  #antiana  #prorecovery  #fuckana  #fuckanorexia 
aaaaaah so today was terrible but tomorrow I'm having a day off school because I'm going to the doctors ffs kms
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