#truthtuesday Brought to you by one of my favorite people here in IG, @gun_girl_2211. Everything can be frightening and change isn’t always easy but it’s good. Try new things, open your heart and mind. Don’t let fear cripple you from being where/who you truly want to be in life. Take alllllllll the chances, better to say “that one time when” than ask “what if?” ❤️🤔👍🏼
Our yard might be a major work in progress and it might not quite an NZ flying fox.... but we got a zip line with all the dangers is falling off and impailing yourself on one of the many logs on the ground. #nofear
So....Why am I glowing? This is super long, probably the longest post ever😆 but trust me, you gotta read this!
When I took this picture earlier today, I was reminded of SO MUCH! You know how #facebook reminds you of your #memories ? So, I saw pics from 7 years ago when I got married. So much has transpired... Glory be to God that He has brought me through years of depression, anxiety, repossessions, unconditional love, exciting & fun activities, heartache, infidelity, weight gain and even moments where I was far away from Him so that I could know how much closer I need to be to Him.
I was learning who I was back then and who I am today. God has shown me that you have to grow through what you go through! I’m not posting this to be messy and bash the marriage I was in, I’m not like that. Seasons change. I’m living for God so this message is much bigger than that. I’m sharing this because when I looked at the smile on my face back then and the smile on my face today, God revealed “Fern”. 💖💜💙 I didn’t know fully who I was back then, or my purpose and it’s okay, because what God has for me is for me. I’m overwhelmed with thanks & filled with humility when it comes to my health, my career, my happiness, my growth, & the way that God is using me. So thankful for my thriving business, my relationship with my mom 😍🙏🏽 even the car I drive where some people judge me/put me in a certain category, 🙄 just because I’m a young black woman driving a Mercedes, they don’t know what the struggle was like and it’s okay!
My point is... Sis, people are gonna either celebrate you or hate you when they see you going through your glory. 🙌🏽 They don’t know what you’ve been through, nor is it any of their business! Stay strong, your next level awaits you, trust the process.
I’m on a new level with what God is doing in my life. I’m looking for women who want to grow with me in business, in improving your health, your finances, & your growth- to empower you to walk in your purpose. This post does not apply to everyone, only to the ones that God has assigned me to; so if you know that this applies to you, message me so we can connect. I’m waiting for you. It’s time to level up.
Cuenta regresiva 12 días Nocheeee HALLOWEEN 👻🕸️🎃🎉
20 TONELADAS DE PURA DIVERSIÓN🔈🎉👍 Buena música/Tecnología y Personajes del terror👻🧙♀️🧙♂️🧛♂️🧟♂️🕷️.....En la Noche mas espeluznante del año 🎃🎃
For those of you who are not aware, I badly sprained my ankle during a soccer game a couple Fridays ago. It def could've been worse (like broken), but I've been struggling get around a bit. Haven't had to use this little knee scooter much (although it IS great for a good booty and quad workout), but do def wear the boot whenever I leave the house. 👎
My ankle is actually healing up really nicely (still black and blue with very slight swelling), and I'm hopeful to be out of this damn boot at the end of the week. Even more hopeful to get exercising again, but I'm for sure going to take it slow since I ain't no spring chicken anymore. 🤣
You see, I always wanted to play soccer in my adult life, but never could because of the chance that incidences like this would happen. Working as a bartender, I didn't get paid days off or paid sick days. If I didn't work, I didn't make money. Plain and simple. So, for obvious reasons, I chose to stay out of all contact sports. Plus, my lifestyle in my mid to late 20's didn't necessarily coincide with playing any kind of sport at all. My main sport became bar hooping while drinking as much vodka as possible. Actually surprised that I never sprained my ankle that way. 🤦🏼♀️ My point is that it's just really cool to have a job such as Coaching, which allows me to literally work from the couch while having my foot propped up on pillows so I can elevate and ice it. All I need is my phone and laptop, and we are in business! I don't have to walk anywhere, or commute, and my income isn't affected if I decide to take a day off, which to me, is pretty freaking awesome! 🙌
I'm grateful to be out there playing on the soccer field again as it has always brought me so much joy. I'm also grateful for my life circumstances that make it possible for me to keep going during these bumps in the road. Life is good even when I walk like a gimp. ❤
Recently I was asked the question
"What is it like to be someone like you?. At first I was taken back thinking "Someone like you". At one time those exact words would have set my heart racing and my flight or fight response would kick in, wondering if this is where I need to justify and explain myself and so forth.(so I can fit in and seem normal) However, I just smiled and made a quip about how it is just incredibly wonderful to be different...and it is!
Though I have to admit it took me many, many years to figure out "Someone like me". I have to honestly say at one time I asked those exact same questions of myself, because I wanted to be just like everyone else around me...normal. I did not want to feel, see, hear, and know the things I did about people, or the environment I was in. Or why a friend's grandmother was following me around, when I knew she had passed many years before.
Being normal meant you can be around any form of confrontation, without not just the words but the energy actually physically deeply and painfully hurting you..Being normal meant not absorbing, holding and keeping other people's pain, feelings, emotions as if they were my own.
Being normal meant not having an overblown sense of responsibility to every living thing around you. Being normal meant not being plagued by whispered messages by invisible messengers.
Moreover, being normal meant your not easily overwhelmed or stimulated to the point you become a recluse and hide from society who didn't get "Someone like you ", and its impact on all your highly sensitive intuitive nature we were born with.. Hell, after all these years I can now honestly answer, what is it like to be me...and yes I am not normal, but proud of my badges I have earned because walking through the muck of my internal and external world was worth it. I found the courage to 'feel' and go deeply into fear and the dark shadows of self.
I have learned and earned my deep-seated abilities and the knowledge on how best to use them. To let things flow more smoothly in my life, and in doing so it increases my spiritual awareness, my sense of connection, even my own health... more in comments
#transformationtuesday . This coming Friday will mark my 9 month anniversary on HRT but since today is Tuesday I wanted to speak on something specific that was on my mind today. Living a full life compared to living half of a life. Before my transition began I was living half of a life. Meaning on the outside the average person would have thought that I was OK but living a life filled with confusion, self doubt, self hatred and loathing, lies and sadness is not a full existence. I was selling my self short of full experiences because of Fear! Fear kept my truth in the shadows. Fear oppressed my true personality and Fear controlled my basic day to day activities to where it became almost too much to bare and that is what living half of a life is like for me. For me it was as though I was living but in shackles and chains permanently connected to fear and sadness and thank the universe I found the strength to break those chains and set myself free with true love, truth and courage. Once I found out the power of those three beautiful things I began to learn what living a full life meant for me. No more sadness, no more lies, no more hiding, no more fear of truth and revelations. Allowing others to truly get to know the real me, allowing others to see and feel my truth has unlocked a happiness inside me that I never knew was there and IAMSOGRATEFUL to all of my true friends and family for allowing my life to blossom and for giving me the encouragement to find my courage and for loving me in order for me to understand how to begin to love me. I thank you. So on this transformation Tuesday I say to everyone that is reading and seeing this post, live a full life, do you, be you and show your true colors, let them shine through and let’s all kick Fears ass together!!!
Love and kindness to all
Notice my former face is a half life lived and now I live the full life I deserve as do we all!
Loving myself 💋 Love yourselves because I love you #transformationtuesday#transgender#nofear#nosadness#nomorelies#fulllife#transisbeautiful#wewillnotbesilent#wewillnotbeerased#mtftransgender#love#courageous#courage#strength#nomorehalflife
Hey, Aletheia! Check out this special message from our immensely talented Operations Director Steve Cabral about this week's Family Conversation on Care.
We've all been through hurts and pains, sometimes even harms caused by the ones we love the most. What do we do with those pains? Does God care about them? If so, how do we surrender those pains to Him so that He can care for and minister to our souls?
These questions and many more will be addressed at the Family Conversation on Wednesday, October 24th at 6:30pm in the YMCA Theatre! Tag a friend to invite them or to shout them out if they've shown you God's care recently!