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Is there a rule somewhere stating....mom's are not allowed to have long hot showers without interruption??? 🤔 .
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Here we go AGAIN (my post from Friday)....it's my day off, house to myself, and had a productive day planned out...all of which involves the use of water. .
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The time comes to crush a HIIT workout and than take peaceful shower. Finish that workout and the dang alarm on the back of the house is going off (means I can't use water). Are you freaking kidding me!!! WTH! 🤦 .
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I did get one load of laundry ran tho before it went off. But.....that shower! Is it too much for us mom's to ask for? 🤷 Ugh!
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Is there a rule somewhere stating....mom's are not allowed to have long hot showers without interruption??? 🤔 . . Here we go AGAIN (my post from Friday)....it's my day off, house to myself, and had a productive day planned out...all of which involves the use of water. . . The time comes to crush a HIIT workout and than take peaceful shower. Finish that workout and the dang alarm on the back of the house is going off (means I can't use water). Are you freaking kidding me!!! WTH! 🤦 . . I did get one load of laundry ran tho before it went off. But.....that shower! Is it too much for us mom's to ask for? 🤷 Ugh! . . . #momlife  #momswhostruggle  #strugglingmom  #momswithanxiety  #goals  #waterplease  #forreal  #workingmom  #fitness  #homeworkouts  #cardio  #weighttraining  #weightloss  #musclegain  #life  #catmom  #dogmom  #midwestmom  #midwest  #momsofinstagram  #momof4  #boymom  #girlmom  #thestruggleisreal  #lifeasamom  #motherhood  #tiredasamother 
My life use to look way different 3 years than it does now. .
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I was this girl ⬇️
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 I hated my body and tried anything and everything (that I knew of at the time) to have the body I wanted to live in. I did gym membership after gym membership...cuz maybe it was the gym I was going to so I might get results if I tried a different gym, I talked my hubs into home machines that got used a hand full of times, I did the quick fixes that promised results but didn't work, I bought the DVDs off the store shelf only to follow it the first week, slowly fizzle out the 2nd week, and by the 3rd week it was collecting dust. I went threw yo yo diets, cutting out carbs, restricting foods groups, not eating enough. 🤦
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. ⬆️⬆️ I was miserable! My metabolism got so messed up. I became negative, I hated my body even more... because nothing worked, I had no energy and absolutely no confidence in myself. My health was on downward spiral (diabetes and cholesterol). I was at the lowest point in my life. 😔
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Then I became this girl ⬇️ .
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👉I was about to give up. I'm a mom of 4...so maybe this is just the way I am and the way I will stay.
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But, I decided to give myself one. more. shot. I was so skeptical after all of that ☝️. My mindset was "this isn't going to work either...why am I wasting more money". How is this group of strangers going to help me. .
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Well, the day came for my online challenge to start. I didn't even want to participate (skeptical and negative). But I did anyway. I mean I paid for it, I better at least give it a try. .
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👉You guys! I was so wrong. Having that group of strangers making sure I show up everyday to better myself, and cheer me on during those days of struggle to get the things done, and to make sure I'm not self sabotaging my hard work with poor food choices. Plus sharing recipes and check-ins with pictures of dinner plates helped me take control of my eating habits. And the best part....the mindset shift. 🙌
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My life use to look way different 3 years than it does now. . . I was this girl ⬇️ . . I hated my body and tried anything and everything (that I knew of at the time) to have the body I wanted to live in. I did gym membership after gym membership...cuz maybe it was the gym I was going to so I might get results if I tried a different gym, I talked my hubs into home machines that got used a hand full of times, I did the quick fixes that promised results but didn't work, I bought the DVDs off the store shelf only to follow it the first week, slowly fizzle out the 2nd week, and by the 3rd week it was collecting dust. I went threw yo yo diets, cutting out carbs, restricting foods groups, not eating enough. 🤦 . . ⬆️⬆️ I was miserable! My metabolism got so messed up. I became negative, I hated my body even more... because nothing worked, I had no energy and absolutely no confidence in myself. My health was on downward spiral (diabetes and cholesterol). I was at the lowest point in my life. 😔 . . Then I became this girl ⬇️ . . 👉I was about to give up. I'm a mom of 4...so maybe this is just the way I am and the way I will stay. . . But, I decided to give myself one. more. shot. I was so skeptical after all of that ☝️. My mindset was "this isn't going to work either...why am I wasting more money". How is this group of strangers going to help me. . . Well, the day came for my online challenge to start. I didn't even want to participate (skeptical and negative). But I did anyway. I mean I paid for it, I better at least give it a try. . . 👉You guys! I was so wrong. Having that group of strangers making sure I show up everyday to better myself, and cheer me on during those days of struggle to get the things done, and to make sure I'm not self sabotaging my hard work with poor food choices. Plus sharing recipes and check-ins with pictures of dinner plates helped me take control of my eating habits. And the best part....the mindset shift. 🙌 . . 💫 Continued in comments ⬇️⬇️
Oh yeah 💪🏼 back and bi’s. Did I push it this morning. I needed to. I’m still riding the struggle 🚌. So while the face on the left is the “I just crushed this workout” face, the face on the right is the “scale is up another pound, I’m still struggling with emotional eating, I’m stressed and my anxiety is back” face. Each week I’ve said to myself I start again tomorrow. Tomorrow comes and I fail myself. I know I can do this. I’ve done it before. I have to dig deep down inside and find that will power. #needmywillpowerback #yesihaveanxiety #gained5pounds #strugglebus🚌 #momswithanxiety #twofacesoneheart
Oh yeah 💪🏼 back and bi’s. Did I push it this morning. I needed to. I’m still riding the struggle 🚌. So while the face on the left is the “I just crushed this workout” face, the face on the right is the “scale is up another pound, I’m still struggling with emotional eating, I’m stressed and my anxiety is back” face. Each week I’ve said to myself I start again tomorrow. Tomorrow comes and I fail myself. I know I can do this. I’ve done it before. I have to dig deep down inside and find that will power. #needmywillpowerback  #yesihaveanxiety  #gained5pounds  #strugglebus 🚌 #momswithanxiety  #twofacesoneheart 
What do this cat and I have in common?

We have both been taking CBD oil for anxiety.  She’s more consistent than I am. 🤷🏻‍♀️. We are both THRILLED to announce the difference it is making in our lives.

For the human side of things : I am better able to focus on life throughout the day, without the “sensory overload” that can be triggered by too much noise.  I am also less likely to be overhelmed with onslaught of questions and activity as soon as we get home from school/work.  I am sleeping better without melatonin.

For the feline side of things : She is not as fearful of people - family included.  She has stopped chewing and scratching (as much 90% reduction) and is letting her hair grow back.  She hasn’t bitten anyone that’s pet her since starting CBD.  She has allowed family and strangers to pet her.  And THIS MOMENT!! She hasn’t laid with us and been lovingly in the room with us for YEARS until tonight.

I think we will continue to use our CBD and will research other ways it could help our family.

What are your feelings on CBD oil?  Have you used it?
What do this cat and I have in common? We have both been taking CBD oil for anxiety. She’s more consistent than I am. 🤷🏻‍♀️. We are both THRILLED to announce the difference it is making in our lives. For the human side of things : I am better able to focus on life throughout the day, without the “sensory overload” that can be triggered by too much noise. I am also less likely to be overhelmed with onslaught of questions and activity as soon as we get home from school/work. I am sleeping better without melatonin. For the feline side of things : She is not as fearful of people - family included. She has stopped chewing and scratching (as much 90% reduction) and is letting her hair grow back. She hasn’t bitten anyone that’s pet her since starting CBD. She has allowed family and strangers to pet her. And THIS MOMENT!! She hasn’t laid with us and been lovingly in the room with us for YEARS until tonight. I think we will continue to use our CBD and will research other ways it could help our family. What are your feelings on CBD oil? Have you used it?
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Can we as moms just be each other's cheerleaders? Can we stop judging and be supportive of our differences? If somebody is struggling can we just say, "It's ok. We've all been there." Can we stop posting about how perfect of a mom we are, how clean our house is, or how we're killing this whole mom thing? Because honestly, I don't know about you, but I have bad days. Days that I struggle to be excited about being a stay at home, homeschooling mama. Days where I'm just not sure if I'm capable of doing it all. And most days I don't do it all. The house stays a little messy, we pretty much live in pajamas, we eat too much processed foods, and we probably watch a little too much tv for your liking (lucky for us, WE like it just fine 🤷‍♀️). Next time you see a post from somebody about how great of a mother they are or how perfect their kids behave or how clean their home is and you feel bad about yourself, I hope you remember this post and know you're not alone! #notaperfectmom #justbeingreal
Can we as moms just be each other's cheerleaders? Can we stop judging and be supportive of our differences? If somebody is struggling can we just say, "It's ok. We've all been there." Can we stop posting about how perfect of a mom we are, how clean our house is, or how we're killing this whole mom thing? Because honestly, I don't know about you, but I have bad days. Days that I struggle to be excited about being a stay at home, homeschooling mama. Days where I'm just not sure if I'm capable of doing it all. And most days I don't do it all. The house stays a little messy, we pretty much live in pajamas, we eat too much processed foods, and we probably watch a little too much tv for your liking (lucky for us, WE like it just fine 🤷‍♀️). Next time you see a post from somebody about how great of a mother they are or how perfect their kids behave or how clean their home is and you feel bad about yourself, I hope you remember this post and know you're not alone! #notaperfectmom  #justbeingreal 
This week I WILL get our room clean. I WILL replace 15 mins of tv with a book at night. I WILL try to be conscious of my body and remember that it’s a temple not a trash can. I WILL go for at least 2 walks. I WILL make tangible progress on my blog. I WILL do 2 things that make me feel beautiful. I WILL make the doctor appts I need. I WILL be kind to myself. I WILL try to remember to act out of what matters most to me. I WILL see the people around me and teach Kash to do the same. .
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#attainablegoals #livingwithintention #gracenotperfection #doitscared #notallornothing #alittleisalot #progressoverperfection #momswithadd #momswithanxiety #honestmommin #myhonestmotherhood #momsohard #selflovejourney #intentionalliving #girlwashyourface #_mytinymoments #raiseemup #raisethemkind #raisekindhumans #knownandloved #humansofjoy #toddlermama #mamaandme #boymomlife #momhairdontcare #parentingwithpurpose #livingonpurpose #topknotsandjesus #messybungettingstuffdone
This week I WILL get our room clean. I WILL replace 15 mins of tv with a book at night. I WILL try to be conscious of my body and remember that it’s a temple not a trash can. I WILL go for at least 2 walks. I WILL make tangible progress on my blog. I WILL do 2 things that make me feel beautiful. I WILL make the doctor appts I need. I WILL be kind to myself. I WILL try to remember to act out of what matters most to me. I WILL see the people around me and teach Kash to do the same. . . . . . . #attainablegoals  #livingwithintention  #gracenotperfection  #doitscared  #notallornothing  #alittleisalot  #progressoverperfection  #momswithadd  #momswithanxiety  #honestmommin  #myhonestmotherhood  #momsohard  #selflovejourney  #intentionalliving  #girlwashyourface  #_mytinymoments  #raiseemup  #raisethemkind  #raisekindhumans  #knownandloved  #humansofjoy  #toddlermama  #mamaandme  #boymomlife  #momhairdontcare  #parentingwithpurpose  #livingonpurpose  #topknotsandjesus  #messybungettingstuffdone 
Alright time to get real.
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These last two weeks have been hard. Like, really hard.
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Nothing in our daily routine has changed, same amount of playdates, same amount of grocery shops, and lunches made. Same extra curriculars filling up our late afternoons. Same emails sent, and phone calls answered.
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But these last two weeks were harder than the two weeks before and the two weeks before that. .
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These last two weeks felt like I had bricks on my shoulders and fog in my brain. I felt like I couldn't do anything properly, nothing was on schedule, the kids seemed like they were testing me and my husband seemed to not even notice I was there at all. 
I've been feeling angry and guilty and sad and overwhelmed and exhausted and just....alone.
The days seemed to slip by slowly and similarly as if it was the same day repeated. My feelings and wellbeing put aside every minute of every day. My needs ignored and even scoffed at. With every day passing this house felt smaller and smaller until it was almost suffocating me. A never ending cycle of eat, yell, sleep.
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So you know what I did? I took a day. Not even a full day really, I took 5 hours away from my kids, away from my house, doing something I enjoyed because I enjoyed it. Not because my kids wanted to, not because it had to be done, not for anybody but myself. 5 hours I took and the fog has already started to lift, the bricks on my shoulders are slowly turning to dust and I feel like I can do two more weeks of hardcore momming.
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Thats what it is really. Moms are hardcore. We start at the crack of dawn and work until well past dusk. We predict every need, physical, mental, emotional and act accordingly. We do the planning, the cleaning, the cooking, the playing, the changing, the helping with homework, the driving to activities, the playdates, the bedtimes. We work ourselves into this foggy state, and are rarely allowed to just decompress. .
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Today I realized, far too late in my motherhood, that I need that. My family needs me to do that. I can't run on an empty tank and pour from an empty cup. 5 hours is all it took for me to go from 0% to a good 65%.
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Hey it's a start.
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Alright time to get real. . These last two weeks have been hard. Like, really hard. . . Nothing in our daily routine has changed, same amount of playdates, same amount of grocery shops, and lunches made. Same extra curriculars filling up our late afternoons. Same emails sent, and phone calls answered. . But these last two weeks were harder than the two weeks before and the two weeks before that. . . These last two weeks felt like I had bricks on my shoulders and fog in my brain. I felt like I couldn't do anything properly, nothing was on schedule, the kids seemed like they were testing me and my husband seemed to not even notice I was there at all. I've been feeling angry and guilty and sad and overwhelmed and exhausted and just....alone. The days seemed to slip by slowly and similarly as if it was the same day repeated. My feelings and wellbeing put aside every minute of every day. My needs ignored and even scoffed at. With every day passing this house felt smaller and smaller until it was almost suffocating me. A never ending cycle of eat, yell, sleep. . . Repeat. . . So you know what I did? I took a day. Not even a full day really, I took 5 hours away from my kids, away from my house, doing something I enjoyed because I enjoyed it. Not because my kids wanted to, not because it had to be done, not for anybody but myself. 5 hours I took and the fog has already started to lift, the bricks on my shoulders are slowly turning to dust and I feel like I can do two more weeks of hardcore momming. . . Thats what it is really. Moms are hardcore. We start at the crack of dawn and work until well past dusk. We predict every need, physical, mental, emotional and act accordingly. We do the planning, the cleaning, the cooking, the playing, the changing, the helping with homework, the driving to activities, the playdates, the bedtimes. We work ourselves into this foggy state, and are rarely allowed to just decompress. . . Today I realized, far too late in my motherhood, that I need that. My family needs me to do that. I can't run on an empty tank and pour from an empty cup. 5 hours is all it took for me to go from 0% to a good 65%. . Hey it's a start. #momsmentalhealth 
Not every workout is easy but man is it so worth it in the end! I feel soooo amazing when it is over!! #selflove
Not every workout is easy but man is it so worth it in the end! I feel soooo amazing when it is over!! #selflove 
Mornin Folks !! What are your Sunday plans?? Hangin out, having a lazy day ? Going on an adventure? Getting some work done ? .
Well I hope you all have a fantastic day doing whatever it is  you are doing 😁 
Take some moments today to be grateful and blessed. Try and set your anxieties and other stresses aside . Let yourself feel free again. .
We are off to a birthday party with good friends today and the kidlets. 
It snowed all day again yesterday but today is supposed to be sunny and warm, so I hope it melts all this yucky snow once and for all ! ☀️ ✌🏼 .
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#weekendvibes #sundays #sundaysarebeautiful #sundays #quotes #meme #goodvibes #positivevibes #positivity #love #anxietyfree #itsagoodday #mentalhealthawareness #momlife #boymom #momswithanxiety #clearmind #anxiety #depression #postpartumdepression
Mornin Folks !! What are your Sunday plans?? Hangin out, having a lazy day ? Going on an adventure? Getting some work done ? . Well I hope you all have a fantastic day doing whatever it is you are doing 😁 Take some moments today to be grateful and blessed. Try and set your anxieties and other stresses aside . Let yourself feel free again. . We are off to a birthday party with good friends today and the kidlets. It snowed all day again yesterday but today is supposed to be sunny and warm, so I hope it melts all this yucky snow once and for all ! ☀️ ✌🏼 . . . . . #weekendvibes  #sundays  #sundaysarebeautiful  #sundays  #quotes  #meme  #goodvibes  #positivevibes  #positivity  #love  #anxietyfree  #itsagoodday  #mentalhealthawareness  #momlife  #boymom  #momswithanxiety  #clearmind  #anxiety  #depression  #postpartumdepression 
Got my candle lit right next to my #cbd and #thc carts. Pray momma pray. #saintjude #hardtimes #mental and #emotional and #spiritual healing #anxiety #mentalhealth #momswithanxiety #fuckanxiety #brokenmomma #underconstruction
Yessss!!!! So glad that I found 3 new friends. Lol well one is my new #psychologist and the second one is a #deacon (yes I am a religious person) and the 3rd is my ENT dr. 😫😂😂 but seriously ever since my first session with my psychologist and my very long talk with the #deacon my #mentalhealth has already improved, I can feel it!! I know that I need to heal both #mentally and #spiritually, I know I need A LOT of work but the team I am building is amazing and I am most definitely on the right path. #fuckanxiety #mentalhealth #irefusetoliveinfear #momswithanxiety
Yessss!!!! So glad that I found 3 new friends. Lol well one is my new #psychologist  and the second one is a #deacon  (yes I am a religious person) and the 3rd is my ENT dr. 😫😂😂 but seriously ever since my first session with my psychologist and my very long talk with the #deacon  my #mentalhealth  has already improved, I can feel it!! I know that I need to heal both #mentally  and #spiritually , I know I need A LOT of work but the team I am building is amazing and I am most definitely on the right path. #fuckanxiety  #mentalhealth  #irefusetoliveinfear  #momswithanxiety 
Saturday afternoon vibes following a non stop morning and a rare day off for @kristoferfortney ...
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We’ve been to baseball, to Costco, to taekwando, to a birthday party, got a workout in and now .... now we rest...
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Weekends are a precious commodity once the kids are in school so time to soak it up .
What does your Saturday look like ?!
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#bulldogsofig #igbulldogs #petlovers #saturdayafternoons #furmama #lazyafternoons #fallishere #october🍁 #bulldogpuppylove #workfromhome #momswithanxiety #notamorningperson #morningmotivation #puppylove🐶 #mytinymoments #childhoodunplugged #petlove #canadianblogger
Saturday afternoon vibes following a non stop morning and a rare day off for @kristoferfortney ... . We’ve been to baseball, to Costco, to taekwando, to a birthday party, got a workout in and now .... now we rest... . Weekends are a precious commodity once the kids are in school so time to soak it up . What does your Saturday look like ?! . . . . . . . #bulldogsofig  #igbulldogs  #petlovers  #saturdayafternoons  #furmama  #lazyafternoons  #fallishere  #october 🍁 #bulldogpuppylove  #workfromhome  #momswithanxiety  #notamorningperson  #morningmotivation  #puppylove 🐶 #mytinymoments  #childhoodunplugged  #petlove  #canadianblogger 
Support your friends and family with #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #anxiety #depression #momswithanxiety 💚💚💚
If we don’t use our art to process the world around us and within us, and we don’t use social media to have important conversations, then what’s the point? I said this and so much more in my stories yesterday, and the response I got was unexpected and incredible.
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I’ve had some of the best, most supportive and uplifting conversations with you all about courage, feminism, anger, art (and leg lifts 🤣) this week. I’ve had more DMs than ever and I so, so appreciate really connecting with you all on so many topics, but especially on these.
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Thank you for being awesome and giving me the fortitude I need to keep going. I know it takes time, effort, and courage to reach out to someone on insta, and I value each and every one of you. I’m here for you, too!
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Happy Saturday, fierce beauties! Let’s go enjoy all that we are fighting to protect. 🖤
If we don’t use our art to process the world around us and within us, and we don’t use social media to have important conversations, then what’s the point? I said this and so much more in my stories yesterday, and the response I got was unexpected and incredible. . I’ve had some of the best, most supportive and uplifting conversations with you all about courage, feminism, anger, art (and leg lifts 🤣) this week. I’ve had more DMs than ever and I so, so appreciate really connecting with you all on so many topics, but especially on these. . Thank you for being awesome and giving me the fortitude I need to keep going. I know it takes time, effort, and courage to reach out to someone on insta, and I value each and every one of you. I’m here for you, too! . Happy Saturday, fierce beauties! Let’s go enjoy all that we are fighting to protect. 🖤
I can’t settle for just anything... they’re watching me. 👀🧐 It is not enough to simply say these tiny humans are my why... they guide my every step and have been the greatest teachers of my life. 😍😍 Somehow, someway, the universe saw fit to bless ME to be their Mom... so it’s on me to level up and do that shit justice!! 🙌🏼💯💃🏽 Happy Saturday friends!! Here’s to leveling up, gratitude, and enjoying your people!! ✨✨ Do you have anything fun planned today?! We’re headed to have a little fun with our oldest friends that we don’t get to see near enough since moving an hour away. We can’t wait!!
I can’t settle for just anything... they’re watching me. 👀🧐 It is not enough to simply say these tiny humans are my why... they guide my every step and have been the greatest teachers of my life. 😍😍 Somehow, someway, the universe saw fit to bless ME to be their Mom... so it’s on me to level up and do that shit justice!! 🙌🏼💯💃🏽 Happy Saturday friends!! Here’s to leveling up, gratitude, and enjoying your people!! ✨✨ Do you have anything fun planned today?! We’re headed to have a little fun with our oldest friends that we don’t get to see near enough since moving an hour away. We can’t wait!!
🙃 “Momxiety” 🙃 As a mom who struggles with anxiety and depression,  having a baby has probably tripled my anxiety.
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Though it has been a year since he was born, I am still constantly full of fear that something - anything - could happen to my son. I still check to make sure he’s breathing multiple times a night; I always make sure to do it before I go to sleep. Sometimes it has been too difficult for me to fall asleep, just worrying about the chance that he could stop breathing while I’m sleeping and I won’t know. .
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I am terrified every time we get in the car that someone will hit us and he will get hurt. I am afraid of him choking while eating or finding something small enough on the floor without me noticing and choking on that. I am afraid of him smothering in his bedding. I am afraid of him catching a deadly sickness. I wipe down any surfaces whenever we take him out anywhere (I mean you really probably should anyway). .
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But the point is, most of the time it feels not only irrational to worry so much, but it’s exhausting! I know that there are many things that will always be out of my control, but the mom in me makes me wish I could control every situation just so he can be safe and I can relax. Unfortunately, I’ll probably be worrying about him forever and facing more fears as he gets older!
🙃 “Momxiety” 🙃 As a mom who struggles with anxiety and depression, having a baby has probably tripled my anxiety. . . Though it has been a year since he was born, I am still constantly full of fear that something - anything - could happen to my son. I still check to make sure he’s breathing multiple times a night; I always make sure to do it before I go to sleep. Sometimes it has been too difficult for me to fall asleep, just worrying about the chance that he could stop breathing while I’m sleeping and I won’t know. . . I am terrified every time we get in the car that someone will hit us and he will get hurt. I am afraid of him choking while eating or finding something small enough on the floor without me noticing and choking on that. I am afraid of him smothering in his bedding. I am afraid of him catching a deadly sickness. I wipe down any surfaces whenever we take him out anywhere (I mean you really probably should anyway). . . But the point is, most of the time it feels not only irrational to worry so much, but it’s exhausting! I know that there are many things that will always be out of my control, but the mom in me makes me wish I could control every situation just so he can be safe and I can relax. Unfortunately, I’ll probably be worrying about him forever and facing more fears as he gets older!
My every night routine! M-grain on the back of my neck and down my spine, calm mom on the bottoms of toes, chest and wrists, my multipurpose oil goes behind my ears and down my neck. Also my hydro flask filled with water and a few drops of lemon and grapefruit!
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#hydroflask #thinwhiteline #calmmom #momswithanxiety #momswithdepression #mentalhealthawareness #essentialoils #mgrain #migraines #multipurpose #emtwife #modernmakerie #thebestbag
Fueling up cuz this kid is comin in hot with the #terribletwos. Also, today in conversation my husband called me ballsy and it was the best compliment ever. Then I had an incredibly blonde moment (about sour cream no less) and he said, “Ballsy, but no awareness.” 😂 to which I replied, “Better than hyper aware with no balls. That’s how I’ve spent most my life and it’s frickin exhausting!” 🙌😽
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#youcandohardthings womanup #growapair #dontoverthinkit #atandupforyourself #whoruntheworld 
#progressnotperfection #inbeautyandchaos #workinprogress #lovedoes #womenwholead #killinitforthekingdom #she_uplifts #youvegotthismama #momswithanxiety #womenempoweringwomen #momswhoinspire
Fueling up cuz this kid is comin in hot with the #terribletwos . Also, today in conversation my husband called me ballsy and it was the best compliment ever. Then I had an incredibly blonde moment (about sour cream no less) and he said, “Ballsy, but no awareness.” 😂 to which I replied, “Better than hyper aware with no balls. That’s how I’ve spent most my life and it’s frickin exhausting!” 🙌😽 . . . . . . #youcandohardthings  womanup #growapair  #dontoverthinkit  #atandupforyourself  #whoruntheworld  #progressnotperfection  #inbeautyandchaos  #workinprogress  #lovedoes  #womenwholead  #killinitforthekingdom  #she_uplifts  #youvegotthismama  #momswithanxiety  #womenempoweringwomen  #momswhoinspire 
I think it's safe to say she had fun at the history fest today. 🦄
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Today was the first field trip of hers that I missed and not because I couldn't go....because this sweet little lady of mine refused to let me go. 🤣 I told her I was going to show up anyway...."if I see you there I'm going to yell...mom go home". 😂🤣😂 I thought I was going to have more time with her before I was "too cool" to hang out with. At what age did your kids start to not want mom around?
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I think it's safe to say she had fun at the history fest today. 🦄 . . Today was the first field trip of hers that I missed and not because I couldn't go....because this sweet little lady of mine refused to let me go. 🤣 I told her I was going to show up anyway...."if I see you there I'm going to yell...mom go home". 😂🤣😂 I thought I was going to have more time with her before I was "too cool" to hang out with. At what age did your kids start to not want mom around? . . #momof4  #girlmom  #boymom  #momlife  #coolmom  #motherhood  #momsofinstagram  #wifelife  #kidlife  #catmom  #dogmom  #unicorn  #parentlife  #wellness  #friyay  #midwestmom  #midwest  #lifeisgood  #blessed  #wifelife  #momhood  #fitness  #health  #homefitness  #coffee  #momswhostruggle  #strugglingmom  #momswithanxiety  #travel  #momswholift 
Thankful for the ability to live my best life with this body of mine.
Thankful for the ability to live my best life with this body of mine.
'We live in a fear-based society that totally gets off on cautioning us, on reminding us how difficult life is, on warning us how hard it is to make money, on holding us back lest we bite off more than we can chew, on screaming "look out!" instead of "rock on!" As a result, we've bought into this idea that it's better to limit ourselves than to stretch, and we've developed this fun-free either/or take on what's available to us: You're either doing what you love or making money, you're either a good person or a rich person, you can either help the world or you can help yourself, you can either go on vacation or pay your car loan. .
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Y.A.W.N.
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Instead of looking to where you can cut back, save, and play it safe, look to how you can expand, grow, and start acting like a badass who's in control of your own life:
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Have a big fancy career AND be a great mom.
Be a good Christian AND make tons of money.
Travel the world AND run your own business.
Be at your desired weight AND eat chicken wings.
Get a time-share AND save for your old age. .
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As you take the time to imagine your life as the biggest, boldest, and most authentic expression of the you that is you, don't be a cheapskate when it comes to taking inventory of what lights up your heart. Act as if you live in an abundant universe (which you do) and have the ability to create whatever financial reality you desire (which you can), and that by doing this you'll be sharing the most magnificent version of yourself with the world (which you will).'
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- Jen Sincero
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☝️☝️ That was from my personal development I have been reading. I wanted to share because it spoke volumes to me. I let fear hold me back from my dreams...time to take control over my life and stop "playing is safe". Are you letting fear stop you from reaching your goals?

#goalgetter #momlife #momof4
'We live in a fear-based society that totally gets off on cautioning us, on reminding us how difficult life is, on warning us how hard it is to make money, on holding us back lest we bite off more than we can chew, on screaming "look out!" instead of "rock on!" As a result, we've bought into this idea that it's better to limit ourselves than to stretch, and we've developed this fun-free either/or take on what's available to us: You're either doing what you love or making money, you're either a good person or a rich person, you can either help the world or you can help yourself, you can either go on vacation or pay your car loan. . . Y.A.W.N. . . Instead of looking to where you can cut back, save, and play it safe, look to how you can expand, grow, and start acting like a badass who's in control of your own life: . . Have a big fancy career AND be a great mom. Be a good Christian AND make tons of money. Travel the world AND run your own business. Be at your desired weight AND eat chicken wings. Get a time-share AND save for your old age. . . As you take the time to imagine your life as the biggest, boldest, and most authentic expression of the you that is you, don't be a cheapskate when it comes to taking inventory of what lights up your heart. Act as if you live in an abundant universe (which you do) and have the ability to create whatever financial reality you desire (which you can), and that by doing this you'll be sharing the most magnificent version of yourself with the world (which you will).' . . - Jen Sincero . . ☝️☝️ That was from my personal development I have been reading. I wanted to share because it spoke volumes to me. I let fear hold me back from my dreams...time to take control over my life and stop "playing is safe". Are you letting fear stop you from reaching your goals? #goalgetter  #momlife  #momof4 
Today is my first day off and the house to myself (okay Max & Snickers are here) since the last school year. AHHHH, much needed for this momma! .
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My plans for today where to take a long hot shower without interruption (even tho my dog and kitty sit outside the door like toddlers 🤣)of kids yelling...can I have a snack, asking for me to sign school papers and planners, to let me know that kid 1 stole kid 2's sock, kid 3 went into kid 1's room without asking, the dog ate my cookie, the cat is stuck under the dresser, ect. Then i wanted to catch up on laundry and dishes. And to work on my home business without the same interruption as above ☝️. .
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Well, I woke up to my plans being changed and out of my control. I can't use any water today. 🤦 No chores are getting done now. The best part...I don't have to come up with an excuse for the hubs when he comes home and sees nothing was done while I was home all day 🤣. The bad part...I really wanted that shower without interruptions. 🤷
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The very best part.....I get more time to work on my home business. I get to help women who are tired of being tired, who are looking for a solution to living a healthier life while juggling mom life, to set them up with the right program to meet their health and fitness goals, and set them up with a group of women on the same journey to hold each other accountable. I get to help busy mom's become the best version of themselves!!! 💃 This business fills my heart so much...it doesn't even feel like work. It's not to late to join my next fitness challenge! Message me for deets!!! My passion is to help YOU become the best version of you!! 😘
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#momlife #momhood #parentlife #momof4 #boymom #girlmom #momswhostruggle #strugglingmom #momneedsabreak #momswithanxiety #goals #weightloss #fitness #homeworkout #homeworkouts #fitnessathome #midwestmom #midwest #momswholift #girlswholift #weighttraining #cardio #health #kidlife #wifelife #catmom #dogmom #opportunity #dreamjob #workingmom
Today is my first day off and the house to myself (okay Max & Snickers are here) since the last school year. AHHHH, much needed for this momma! . . My plans for today where to take a long hot shower without interruption (even tho my dog and kitty sit outside the door like toddlers 🤣)of kids yelling...can I have a snack, asking for me to sign school papers and planners, to let me know that kid 1 stole kid 2's sock, kid 3 went into kid 1's room without asking, the dog ate my cookie, the cat is stuck under the dresser, ect. Then i wanted to catch up on laundry and dishes. And to work on my home business without the same interruption as above ☝️. . . Well, I woke up to my plans being changed and out of my control. I can't use any water today. 🤦 No chores are getting done now. The best part...I don't have to come up with an excuse for the hubs when he comes home and sees nothing was done while I was home all day 🤣. The bad part...I really wanted that shower without interruptions. 🤷 . . The very best part.....I get more time to work on my home business. I get to help women who are tired of being tired, who are looking for a solution to living a healthier life while juggling mom life, to set them up with the right program to meet their health and fitness goals, and set them up with a group of women on the same journey to hold each other accountable. I get to help busy mom's become the best version of themselves!!! 💃 This business fills my heart so much...it doesn't even feel like work. It's not to late to join my next fitness challenge! Message me for deets!!! My passion is to help YOU become the best version of you!! 😘 . . #momlife  #momhood  #parentlife  #momof4  #boymom  #girlmom  #momswhostruggle  #strugglingmom  #momneedsabreak  #momswithanxiety  #goals  #weightloss  #fitness  #homeworkout  #homeworkouts  #fitnessathome  #midwestmom  #midwest  #momswholift  #girlswholift  #weighttraining  #cardio  #health  #kidlife  #wifelife  #catmom  #dogmom  #opportunity  #dreamjob  #workingmom 
It’s gonna be okay! I’ve been battling some depression lows and anxiety highs lately. I’m not posting this to get sympathy or pity. It’s just one of those things that you do. You battle. You push. You work through it, and you get OUT. I’m not out yet. But I know I’ll get there. And I’m making progress. And once im out that doesn’t mean the demons won’t come back again. Because they will. After battling depression and anxiety for over ten years I’ve learned this: you WILL learn to cope and you WILL learn how to better respond to yourself when your brain goes whack. I’ve had the same levels before with more panic attacks, more self loathing, and less production. Now when I hit those same levels, I’m able to push through in a new way. I guess it’s just being more self aware and knowing what my simple remedies are. I’ve practiced. I know myself. And I’m not afraid of the stigma attached to mental health issues. It’s just a chemical imbalance guys. Ain’t no thang. 😂😭💁🏻‍♀️#conquermentalillness —
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#seriouspost #gettinreal #mentalhealth #mentalillnessawareness #depressionandanxiety #fightingmentalillness #fightmentalillness #staystrong💪 #bestrong💪 #strongerthanyouthink #redefiningbeauty #inspirationalblogger #fashionwithpurpose #shareyourstory #sharingmystory #outfitlove #fashionbasics #mombloggers #reallifeandstyle #reallifestyle #lifestylebloggers #letsbereal #staytruetoyou #beproudofyou #notashamed #momswithdepression #momswithanxiety #wegotthis
It’s gonna be okay! I’ve been battling some depression lows and anxiety highs lately. I’m not posting this to get sympathy or pity. It’s just one of those things that you do. You battle. You push. You work through it, and you get OUT. I’m not out yet. But I know I’ll get there. And I’m making progress. And once im out that doesn’t mean the demons won’t come back again. Because they will. After battling depression and anxiety for over ten years I’ve learned this: you WILL learn to cope and you WILL learn how to better respond to yourself when your brain goes whack. I’ve had the same levels before with more panic attacks, more self loathing, and less production. Now when I hit those same levels, I’m able to push through in a new way. I guess it’s just being more self aware and knowing what my simple remedies are. I’ve practiced. I know myself. And I’m not afraid of the stigma attached to mental health issues. It’s just a chemical imbalance guys. Ain’t no thang. 😂😭💁🏻‍♀️#conquermentalillness  — . . #seriouspost  #gettinreal  #mentalhealth  #mentalillnessawareness  #depressionandanxiety  #fightingmentalillness  #fightmentalillness  #staystrong 💪 #bestrong 💪 #strongerthanyouthink  #redefiningbeauty  #inspirationalblogger  #fashionwithpurpose  #shareyourstory  #sharingmystory  #outfitlove  #fashionbasics  #mombloggers  #reallifeandstyle  #reallifestyle  #lifestylebloggers  #letsbereal  #staytruetoyou  #beproudofyou  #notashamed  #momswithdepression  #momswithanxiety  #wegotthis 
Here’s to all my sisters who feel the walls closing in. Who question everything about themselves all. the. time. Who get out of bed and put one foot in front of the other. Who argue with the voices inside their head every minute of every day. Who rarely find moments of peace, but who deserve each and every one. 
You, my love, are a badass. Nobody can fight this battle except you and you are doing it EVERY DAMN DAY. You are powerful and impressive and inspiring and wonderful. ❤️
Here’s to all my sisters who feel the walls closing in. Who question everything about themselves all. the. time. Who get out of bed and put one foot in front of the other. Who argue with the voices inside their head every minute of every day. Who rarely find moments of peace, but who deserve each and every one. You, my love, are a badass. Nobody can fight this battle except you and you are doing it EVERY DAMN DAY. You are powerful and impressive and inspiring and wonderful. ❤️
This is how my hubby plays a big role on my anxiety..🙄😳🤨 there's only one way to open a cereal box..ONE way! He does this with chip bags too 🤦‍♀️😭😭 #hubbyproblems #motherhood #marriageproblems 😂 #youonlyhadonejob #passiveaggressive #momswithanxiety #noitdoesntmakesense #imjoking #stilllovetheman #cheerios #cheeriosfamily @cheerios
#week6day23
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If you're like me you walk into your house and are immediately anxious. The list starts rolling through your head with all the things you want or need to get done and you KNOW you don't have enough time to do it.
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I am forever beating myself up as a Mom for coming up short at home. Dishes in the sink. Pizza for dinner. Baskets of folded laundry that haven't found it's way to a drawer or closet. The list is endless. I never feel accomplished at home. And it stresses me the f out.
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I just had my fill tonight with all of it. I started drinking my pre workout and the kids were fighting, the list of stuff I haven't done was on my mind, I had a workout that still wasn't completed. So I sat on the floor and started crying. Feeling like a failure. Ready to throw in the towel.
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Noah sat next to me and said, "Mommy, I know you want to do all this stuff but I think the house looks fine. I mean, so what if it's not perfect? Let's do your workout. You love doing that and it will make you feel better. I'll even do it with you" ... .
Guess what? He was right. .
If you're a Mom who's reading this and thinking it sounds a lot like you... you're doing a good job. And the little people in your life see that. Messy house and all.❤
#week6day23  . If you're like me you walk into your house and are immediately anxious. The list starts rolling through your head with all the things you want or need to get done and you KNOW you don't have enough time to do it. . I am forever beating myself up as a Mom for coming up short at home. Dishes in the sink. Pizza for dinner. Baskets of folded laundry that haven't found it's way to a drawer or closet. The list is endless. I never feel accomplished at home. And it stresses me the f out. . I just had my fill tonight with all of it. I started drinking my pre workout and the kids were fighting, the list of stuff I haven't done was on my mind, I had a workout that still wasn't completed. So I sat on the floor and started crying. Feeling like a failure. Ready to throw in the towel. . Noah sat next to me and said, "Mommy, I know you want to do all this stuff but I think the house looks fine. I mean, so what if it's not perfect? Let's do your workout. You love doing that and it will make you feel better. I'll even do it with you" ... . Guess what? He was right. . If you're a Mom who's reading this and thinking it sounds a lot like you... you're doing a good job. And the little people in your life see that. Messy house and all.❤
I believe you have to choose your battles in life. 
You have to "choose your hard."
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You have to fight to do the things you set out to do. If you wait for motivation then most days you won't accomplish much. Discipline has to keep you going when motivation is nowhere to be found.
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It's HARD to get up and push for your goals each day.
It's HARD to make sacrifices to reach your goals. 
It's HARD to stay disciplined when people around you aren't on the same path.

BUT.. you know what's harder? 
It's HARDER waking up in the morning and realizing time is passing by and you still don't feel your best.
It's HARDER feeling like you can't get control in your life. 
It's HARDER knowing that you can do so much more.

And THAT is what fuels me to keep going when it gets "hard."
~~~ It's just a matter of choosing which hard is easier to deal with 💪🏻 ~~~
Eating clean and moving your body everyday IS hard but being depressed, self conscious, angry, short of breath and fatigued all the time was A LOT HARDER! && that’s my secret y’all that’s the motivation you keep saying you all wished you had. It’s knowing which hard in life is easier for me to handle. 🤘#choosehappy @carldaikeler @autumncalabrese @joelfreemanfitness @breannefreeman
I believe you have to choose your battles in life. You have to "choose your hard." ~~~ You have to fight to do the things you set out to do. If you wait for motivation then most days you won't accomplish much. Discipline has to keep you going when motivation is nowhere to be found. ~~~ It's HARD to get up and push for your goals each day. It's HARD to make sacrifices to reach your goals. It's HARD to stay disciplined when people around you aren't on the same path. BUT.. you know what's harder? It's HARDER waking up in the morning and realizing time is passing by and you still don't feel your best. It's HARDER feeling like you can't get control in your life. It's HARDER knowing that you can do so much more. And THAT is what fuels me to keep going when it gets "hard." ~~~ It's just a matter of choosing which hard is easier to deal with 💪🏻 ~~~ Eating clean and moving your body everyday IS hard but being depressed, self conscious, angry, short of breath and fatigued all the time was A LOT HARDER! && that’s my secret y’all that’s the motivation you keep saying you all wished you had. It’s knowing which hard in life is easier for me to handle. 🤘#choosehappy  @carldaikeler @autumncalabrese @joelfreemanfitness @breannefreeman
From single mom, to drug addiction, and now on the road to healing. #progression #changes #photochallenge #2011to2018  #postpartumdepression #momswithanxiety #sobriety
Hey guys! I have yet again been MIA. Miss you guys! So much going on and I can’t quite hold my head above water. I’m sure you have all been there. Two things led me to today’s (vulnerable) post. One, yesterday was World Mental Health Day and I wanted to to do my part to help spread awareness of mental health issues and two, there are so many new faces around here, and I have yet to truly introduce myself or share a whole lot with you guys (some of you who I’ve  really connected with just learned my name recently!) so I thought it might be the right time to get a bit up close and personal. I had hoped to post yesterday but to say things have been crazy would be an understatement.
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Behind these pretty photos, I have anxiety. Really, who doesn’t these days, right? I think so many of us do, but I have that debilitating-think I’m dying right this very second-cannot breathe another breath-take me to the hospital-breathe into paper bag- heart palpitation-holy shit my whole body feels numb- kind of anxiety and panic attacks since my teen years. Wow, that felt good to get out in the open.  I’m part terrified and part relieved. I think I’ve wanted to scream that out loud in some way or another since I had my first panic attack as a 16 year old girl.  I thought something was deeply wrong with me, so I kept it to myself for a long time. I have shared with a few select friends through the years but have tried to keep it well hidden otherwise.
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One night, at 16, I was driving with my boyfriend. We were talking about a girl we knew who died just before her 16th birthday (her sweet 16 was planned). She got the flu and died suddenly and it struck something in me.  There  were other reasons that triggered it, I’d come to find out later, but suddenly I was having my first full blown panic attack, only I didn’t know it. I thought I was simply just dying.  I never felt anything like it. I couldn’t  get air into my lungs hard as I tried and I tried like my life dpended on it. My heart was racing, my hands were shaking and the, everything went numb.
Hey guys! I have yet again been MIA. Miss you guys! So much going on and I can’t quite hold my head above water. I’m sure you have all been there. Two things led me to today’s (vulnerable) post. One, yesterday was World Mental Health Day and I wanted to to do my part to help spread awareness of mental health issues and two, there are so many new faces around here, and I have yet to truly introduce myself or share a whole lot with you guys (some of you who I’ve really connected with just learned my name recently!) so I thought it might be the right time to get a bit up close and personal. I had hoped to post yesterday but to say things have been crazy would be an understatement. . Behind these pretty photos, I have anxiety. Really, who doesn’t these days, right? I think so many of us do, but I have that debilitating-think I’m dying right this very second-cannot breathe another breath-take me to the hospital-breathe into paper bag- heart palpitation-holy shit my whole body feels numb- kind of anxiety and panic attacks since my teen years. Wow, that felt good to get out in the open. I’m part terrified and part relieved. I think I’ve wanted to scream that out loud in some way or another since I had my first panic attack as a 16 year old girl. I thought something was deeply wrong with me, so I kept it to myself for a long time. I have shared with a few select friends through the years but have tried to keep it well hidden otherwise. . One night, at 16, I was driving with my boyfriend. We were talking about a girl we knew who died just before her 16th birthday (her sweet 16 was planned). She got the flu and died suddenly and it struck something in me. There were other reasons that triggered it, I’d come to find out later, but suddenly I was having my first full blown panic attack, only I didn’t know it. I thought I was simply just dying. I never felt anything like it. I couldn’t get air into my lungs hard as I tried and I tried like my life dpended on it. My heart was racing, my hands were shaking and the, everything went numb.
One thing I've learned in life is there will be people who appreciate everything you do for them and then there are others who only notice what you don't do.
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There will be people who you might worry tirelessly over wondering if you've done what you can to make them happy or comfortable or feel welcome, but no matter what you do they're never satisfied.
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You can be passionate about things, work hard for what you want, or dream big dreams but someone somewhere will always be the negative to your positive. .
Here's the thing. You don't need to make anyone else happy other than yourself. 
You are the most important person in all of those scenarios.
If at the end of the day your heart is happy, then that's all that matters. You've done your job at taking care of YOU and you can rest your head knowing that with certainty.
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Never let anyone tell you your dreams or your heart are too big.
Do you. Always.
Be selfish. 
Smile. (A lot!) Love yourself. 
Work hard. 
Treat yourself. 
Be kind. 
Build others up. 
Be the light in this dark, negative world. 
If people don't like it, oh well.
Because YOUR people will love you no matter what.👏❤
One thing I've learned in life is there will be people who appreciate everything you do for them and then there are others who only notice what you don't do. . There will be people who you might worry tirelessly over wondering if you've done what you can to make them happy or comfortable or feel welcome, but no matter what you do they're never satisfied. . You can be passionate about things, work hard for what you want, or dream big dreams but someone somewhere will always be the negative to your positive. . Here's the thing. You don't need to make anyone else happy other than yourself. You are the most important person in all of those scenarios. If at the end of the day your heart is happy, then that's all that matters. You've done your job at taking care of YOU and you can rest your head knowing that with certainty. . Never let anyone tell you your dreams or your heart are too big. Do you. Always. Be selfish. Smile. (A lot!) Love yourself. Work hard. Treat yourself. Be kind. Build others up. Be the light in this dark, negative world. If people don't like it, oh well. Because YOUR people will love you no matter what.👏❤
Love this from #milmbcontributor @rcarpenter0013 ・・・
I’m Rachel. This seemingly adventurous and carefree woman who has anxiety and depression. It’s a part of me but not all of me. It may change my perceptions, moods, attitudes, and emotions. It can make my life so damn difficult on one day, yet it can leave me perfectly whole the next day. Mental health is more than just a bad day or a little bug, and it’s not a weakness (something that I still struggle to remember) or easily cured. So today, on #worldmentalhealthday I’ll be a little vulnerable so that someone else knows that he or she is not alone. #mentalhealthawareness #anxiety #depression #normalizementalillness #militarymoms #momswithdepression #motherhood #momswithanxiety 
For info on how to get free counseling through the military, along with myths and truths about counseling, check out @corinnenables post, link in bio!
Love this from #milmbcontributor  @rcarpenter0013 ・・・ I’m Rachel. This seemingly adventurous and carefree woman who has anxiety and depression. It’s a part of me but not all of me. It may change my perceptions, moods, attitudes, and emotions. It can make my life so damn difficult on one day, yet it can leave me perfectly whole the next day. Mental health is more than just a bad day or a little bug, and it’s not a weakness (something that I still struggle to remember) or easily cured. So today, on #worldmentalhealthday  I’ll be a little vulnerable so that someone else knows that he or she is not alone. #mentalhealthawareness  #anxiety  #depression  #normalizementalillness  #militarymoms  #momswithdepression  #motherhood  #momswithanxiety  For info on how to get free counseling through the military, along with myths and truths about counseling, check out @corinnenables post, link in bio!
Today is #worldmentalhealthday and it is so apropos. Ive recently been trying much harder to talk to my family and my partner about anxiety. At least three of my family have chronic anxiety issues and one is dealing with panic attacks and extreme stress. Seeing and feeling it makes me so glad #mentalhealth is in the spotlight more, and makes me hopeful we can learn more and help more. 
My secret weapon to battle my anxiety- running. But that hurts my toes and cracks my heels terribly, so it's actually pedicures. Maybe I run more so I can get foot massages and pretty toes more? Who knows. Both work pretty darn well to help me fill my cup.
Also, halloween toes 🕸
#youcantgivefromanemptycup #youcantpourfromanemptycup #anxiety #momswhorun #momswithanxiety #anxiousmommy #anxious #realmotherhood #selfcare
Today is #worldmentalhealthday  and it is so apropos. Ive recently been trying much harder to talk to my family and my partner about anxiety. At least three of my family have chronic anxiety issues and one is dealing with panic attacks and extreme stress. Seeing and feeling it makes me so glad #mentalhealth  is in the spotlight more, and makes me hopeful we can learn more and help more. My secret weapon to battle my anxiety- running. But that hurts my toes and cracks my heels terribly, so it's actually pedicures. Maybe I run more so I can get foot massages and pretty toes more? Who knows. Both work pretty darn well to help me fill my cup. Also, halloween toes 🕸 #youcantgivefromanemptycup  #youcantpourfromanemptycup  #anxiety  #momswhorun  #momswithanxiety  #anxiousmommy  #anxious  #realmotherhood  #selfcare 
In honor of #worldmentalhealthday I just want to remind you that you matter. No matter what your head might be telling you, you are enough. You are so enough. It is unbelievable how enough you are. 
Everyone’s mental health struggles look different. For me, I struggle with anxiety which lately has been manifesting as overthinking. Like overthinking my overthinking to the point of paranoia. I have a lot of ideas why I’m struggling with this right now {and hopefully it is temporary based on certain situations}, but the main point is I don’t feel like I cant trust myself. I can’t trust that I’ve done or said the right thing and I replay situations and conversations in my head for DAYS after the fact. 
I feel really lucky that I have found ways to {mostly} cope and that I have a great support system that is always willing to listen to me ramble, and would support me if I felt like i needed outside help. My default reaction is to turn into myself and not say, or do anything, in the fear that I might say or do something “wrong”. I’m really thankful that I have people who keep me from doing that, and who remind me that I’m a good person, and that I’m okay. 
I also do things like repeat positive affirmations to myself, pray- give my burden to God, exercise, but mostly lean on the people in my life who I know love me exactly as I am, and who know my heart.

I share my story in the hope that someone who needs to see it does, and knows they’re not alone. I also hope that you have a support system like that too, and if you don’t, please please feel like you can reach out to me. I’ll just listen. And do my best to remind you what an amazing badass you are 💕 #Anxiety #MentalHealthAwareness #MomsWithAnxiety #SingleMomLife #BoyMom #CopingWithAnxiety
In honor of #worldmentalhealthday  I just want to remind you that you matter. No matter what your head might be telling you, you are enough. You are so enough. It is unbelievable how enough you are. Everyone’s mental health struggles look different. For me, I struggle with anxiety which lately has been manifesting as overthinking. Like overthinking my overthinking to the point of paranoia. I have a lot of ideas why I’m struggling with this right now {and hopefully it is temporary based on certain situations}, but the main point is I don’t feel like I cant trust myself. I can’t trust that I’ve done or said the right thing and I replay situations and conversations in my head for DAYS after the fact. I feel really lucky that I have found ways to {mostly} cope and that I have a great support system that is always willing to listen to me ramble, and would support me if I felt like i needed outside help. My default reaction is to turn into myself and not say, or do anything, in the fear that I might say or do something “wrong”. I’m really thankful that I have people who keep me from doing that, and who remind me that I’m a good person, and that I’m okay. I also do things like repeat positive affirmations to myself, pray- give my burden to God, exercise, but mostly lean on the people in my life who I know love me exactly as I am, and who know my heart. I share my story in the hope that someone who needs to see it does, and knows they’re not alone. I also hope that you have a support system like that too, and if you don’t, please please feel like you can reach out to me. I’ll just listen. And do my best to remind you what an amazing badass you are 💕 #Anxiety  #MentalHealthAwareness  #MomsWithAnxiety  #SingleMomLife  #BoyMom  #CopingWithAnxiety 
#worldmentalhealthday Daily positive affirmations to oneself are so important.  When dealing with any sort of mental illness, never be afraid to reach out. #crazymotherhood #momswithanxiety #anxiety #panicdisorder #agoraphobia #imokay #itsoktonotbeok
Just a girl and her buds 💞
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It only took 4 months for the kitty to get this close to Max without smacking him in the face and running away or attacking his tail. I hope this is the start to them finally getting along! 🤞
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#momof4 #boymom #girlmom #momhood #momlife #parentlife #wifelife #catmom #dogmom #midwestmom #midwest #travel #adventure #uk #blessed #homeworkouts #health #momswholift #momswhostruggle #strugglingmom #momswithanxiety #goals #tiredasamother #motherhood #lifewithkids #lifewithpets
Just a girl and her buds 💞 . . It only took 4 months for the kitty to get this close to Max without smacking him in the face and running away or attacking his tail. I hope this is the start to them finally getting along! 🤞 . . . #momof4  #boymom  #girlmom  #momhood  #momlife  #parentlife  #wifelife  #catmom  #dogmom  #midwestmom  #midwest  #travel  #adventure  #uk  #blessed  #homeworkouts  #health  #momswholift  #momswhostruggle  #strugglingmom  #momswithanxiety  #goals  #tiredasamother  #motherhood  #lifewithkids  #lifewithpets 
Half way through the first semester of nursing school and really love that we are building bonds and friendships with one another. Becoming a great support system for one another and y’all having fun learning. -
Sure nursing school is stressful and A LOT of studying but we sure know how to have fun while doing it. -
Ps we both smiled for this photo even though our mouths were covered. 🤣 #infectioncontrol
Half way through the first semester of nursing school and really love that we are building bonds and friendships with one another. Becoming a great support system for one another and y’all having fun learning. - Sure nursing school is stressful and A LOT of studying but we sure know how to have fun while doing it. - Ps we both smiled for this photo even though our mouths were covered. 🤣 #infectioncontrol 
MOM GUILT:  we all feel it: stay at home Mom's, working Mom's, working at home Mom's. .
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women, we need to make a pact together to accept it for what it is and let that shit go. .
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On days I devote my hours in my day to my business the Mom-guilt swoops + hits me hard. 
Guilt she's sitting in front of the tv, or watching other kids play together on YouTube. 
Guilt that I lost my patience a handful of times before noon 
Guilt that I raised my voice when I tripped over the same toy I already put away five times today. 
Guilt that I'm irritable because I have no hands available to work because she is in a stage of clinginess. 
Guilt that I only got about an hour of work done. 
Guilt that the laundry didn't get done, the toys didn't get picked up, and the floor didn't get vacuumed. 
Guilt that she might remember sitting around while Mom was on her phone and laptop all day. .
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What I forgot was, 
we snuggled before we got out of bed in the morning 
we ate breakfast, lunch and dinner together as a family 
we took a long walk in the morning and looked for different color leaves
we read books before naptime 
I told her I loved her 
I hugged + kissed her .
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I forgot that of my parents worked and never once in my childhood did i feel unloved. I forgot that that when I think about those times in my life I don't think about my parents ever being absent from any part of my upbringing. 
i also forgot I run a business from my home,  lead a team, am a wife, a daughter, a friend AND DAMNIT, I forgot I need to take a breath and give myself some freakin' grace. .
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SO, Mama's, 
if your lost your cool today, 
or maybe you didn't play as much as you would've liked, 
if you were looking at your phone during dinner, 
or never bothered to cook... just remember it's ok, you are ok, it was just a bad day. 
stop being your own worst enemy 
just be the Mom your kid already thinks you are.
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#motherhood #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodthroughinstagram #motherhoodunfiltered #motherhoodinspired #motherhoodintheraw #motheranddaughter #momlife #momguilt #motherhoodinspired #motherhoodintheraw #anxiety #momswithanxiety
MOM GUILT: we all feel it: stay at home Mom's, working Mom's, working at home Mom's. . . women, we need to make a pact together to accept it for what it is and let that shit go. . . On days I devote my hours in my day to my business the Mom-guilt swoops + hits me hard. Guilt she's sitting in front of the tv, or watching other kids play together on YouTube. Guilt that I lost my patience a handful of times before noon Guilt that I raised my voice when I tripped over the same toy I already put away five times today. Guilt that I'm irritable because I have no hands available to work because she is in a stage of clinginess. Guilt that I only got about an hour of work done. Guilt that the laundry didn't get done, the toys didn't get picked up, and the floor didn't get vacuumed. Guilt that she might remember sitting around while Mom was on her phone and laptop all day. . . What I forgot was, we snuggled before we got out of bed in the morning we ate breakfast, lunch and dinner together as a family we took a long walk in the morning and looked for different color leaves we read books before naptime I told her I loved her I hugged + kissed her . . I forgot that of my parents worked and never once in my childhood did i feel unloved. I forgot that that when I think about those times in my life I don't think about my parents ever being absent from any part of my upbringing. i also forgot I run a business from my home, lead a team, am a wife, a daughter, a friend AND DAMNIT, I forgot I need to take a breath and give myself some freakin' grace. . . SO, Mama's, if your lost your cool today, or maybe you didn't play as much as you would've liked, if you were looking at your phone during dinner, or never bothered to cook... just remember it's ok, you are ok, it was just a bad day. stop being your own worst enemy just be the Mom your kid already thinks you are. . . You are enough. . . . . #motherhood  #motherhoodunplugged  #motherhoodthroughinstagram  #motherhoodunfiltered  #motherhoodinspired  #motherhoodintheraw  #motheranddaughter  #momlife  #momguilt  #motherhoodinspired  #motherhoodintheraw  #anxiety  #momswithanxiety 
Andddd a not so fun post... but one that is necessary. If you didn’t know, today is #mentalhealthawarenessday and it’s pretty important to me. I remember having my first panic attack, in the hospital when I was 9 years old when the doctors sent us to our private room and told us that my 12 year old sister wouldn’t be coming home with us. I remember laying on the chair and staring out the window and having a hard time breathing like the wind got knocked out of me. I was good for awhile and then around 19, after I had my first baby, it turned into general anxiety. Always fearing something would go wrong. I would miss the sign of something and wake up to a dead baby. I learned how to keep it under wraps, not many people knew. Heck I don’t think I really knew, it’s just who I was... Then after I had my 4th baby, my body went into shock and I couldn’t get past it. The entire right side of my body was numb and tingling for 3 months. I went the ER and doctor more times that I could think of. Cancer, MS, brain tumors filled my mind and tests were done.. all to find out that my mind was playing tricks on me, every single day. My anxiety isn’t just health anxiety, although that’s a big part of it.. it’s also fear of disappointing people. Being a public space for too long. Not feeling comfortable with my surroundings. I am scared to be still and alone because I’m afraid of where my thoughts will go when I don’t have something to distract me... I have learned that I will never get rid of anxiety. I will only be able to work with symptoms and make them less debilitating. I have definitely gotten better the last 2 years. I know God is bigger than me and he has my whole life planned out. I trust in his good and his plan for my life. But I truly believe that anxiety and depression are chemical imbalances in the brain. I want so badly to get better and move on but I can’t. Paralyzed in my brain. It’s time to wake up and realize the magnitude of mental health. It doesn’t mean you’re crazy. Although it’s in your head, those feelings are real. We think 90% subconsciously and 10% in the now. We are what we think. Have patience for those who deal with this and give grace.
Andddd a not so fun post... but one that is necessary. If you didn’t know, today is #mentalhealthawarenessday  and it’s pretty important to me. I remember having my first panic attack, in the hospital when I was 9 years old when the doctors sent us to our private room and told us that my 12 year old sister wouldn’t be coming home with us. I remember laying on the chair and staring out the window and having a hard time breathing like the wind got knocked out of me. I was good for awhile and then around 19, after I had my first baby, it turned into general anxiety. Always fearing something would go wrong. I would miss the sign of something and wake up to a dead baby. I learned how to keep it under wraps, not many people knew. Heck I don’t think I really knew, it’s just who I was... Then after I had my 4th baby, my body went into shock and I couldn’t get past it. The entire right side of my body was numb and tingling for 3 months. I went the ER and doctor more times that I could think of. Cancer, MS, brain tumors filled my mind and tests were done.. all to find out that my mind was playing tricks on me, every single day. My anxiety isn’t just health anxiety, although that’s a big part of it.. it’s also fear of disappointing people. Being a public space for too long. Not feeling comfortable with my surroundings. I am scared to be still and alone because I’m afraid of where my thoughts will go when I don’t have something to distract me... I have learned that I will never get rid of anxiety. I will only be able to work with symptoms and make them less debilitating. I have definitely gotten better the last 2 years. I know God is bigger than me and he has my whole life planned out. I trust in his good and his plan for my life. But I truly believe that anxiety and depression are chemical imbalances in the brain. I want so badly to get better and move on but I can’t. Paralyzed in my brain. It’s time to wake up and realize the magnitude of mental health. It doesn’t mean you’re crazy. Although it’s in your head, those feelings are real. We think 90% subconsciously and 10% in the now. We are what we think. Have patience for those who deal with this and give grace.
They can check your blood pressure, your weight, and your cholesterol...but that other stuff...the mind stuff...isn’t so straightforward. For years I checked the boxes how I thought they should be checked:
Do you worry excessively? NO
Do your thoughts and emotions interfere with your daily life? NO
Do you feel like you are unable to control your worry? NO
Because it’s hard to admit that sometimes your inner monologue is so loud and sharp that you can’t breathe. That sometimes you can’t tell the difference between anxiety thoughts and your own genuine thoughts. Is there even a difference? 
But in honor of #worldmentalhealthday I’m just gonna say...check the right boxes, be honest, talk about it—for yourself, those little people watching you, and for the person nearby struggling too. #anxietysucks, but we’re in this together. 
#anxietywarrior #momswithanxiety #inthistogether #talkaboutit #endthestigma #helpeachother #teamwork #anxietymoms #momshit #girlmom #boymom #liftingsoulsandcrushinggoals #teamhighfrequency
They can check your blood pressure, your weight, and your cholesterol...but that other stuff...the mind stuff...isn’t so straightforward. For years I checked the boxes how I thought they should be checked: Do you worry excessively? NO Do your thoughts and emotions interfere with your daily life? NO Do you feel like you are unable to control your worry? NO Because it’s hard to admit that sometimes your inner monologue is so loud and sharp that you can’t breathe. That sometimes you can’t tell the difference between anxiety thoughts and your own genuine thoughts. Is there even a difference? But in honor of #worldmentalhealthday  I’m just gonna say...check the right boxes, be honest, talk about it—for yourself, those little people watching you, and for the person nearby struggling too. #anxietysucks , but we’re in this together. #anxietywarrior  #momswithanxiety  #inthistogether  #talkaboutit  #endthestigma  #helpeachother  #teamwork  #anxietymoms  #momshit  #girlmom  #boymom  #liftingsoulsandcrushinggoals  #teamhighfrequency 
My anxiety and depression has been on its own crazy roller coaster since I was young. It has landed in my hospitals, it has lost me friends, it has inhibited me from experiencing things in my life, it has kept me from enjoying things like prom, graduation, birthdays etc..., it has ripped me apart, it has pushed me to quit many adventures in my life. It is an awful, terrible thing that has put me in the most amazing place in my life. For every missed opportunity, for every friendship lost, for every adventure I quit... has lead me to where I am today. Through every hospital visit, through every time that I hit rock bottom, I have come out on top. It has not won. It will not win. We need to bring awareness to mental health and to end the stigma that surrounds it. I am not ashamed. Stand up, talk about it and do not let it define you. It will not win.
My anxiety and depression has been on its own crazy roller coaster since I was young. It has landed in my hospitals, it has lost me friends, it has inhibited me from experiencing things in my life, it has kept me from enjoying things like prom, graduation, birthdays etc..., it has ripped me apart, it has pushed me to quit many adventures in my life. It is an awful, terrible thing that has put me in the most amazing place in my life. For every missed opportunity, for every friendship lost, for every adventure I quit... has lead me to where I am today. Through every hospital visit, through every time that I hit rock bottom, I have come out on top. It has not won. It will not win. We need to bring awareness to mental health and to end the stigma that surrounds it. I am not ashamed. Stand up, talk about it and do not let it define you. It will not win.
It’s World Mental Health Day.  Mental Health is often a hush hush topic.  No one wants to admit they have issues with their mental health.  Often others don’t want to hear about it too.  You’re often left to deal with these mental issues on your own and that’s not okay. .
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I’ve struggled with anxiety my entire life (I’m talking since age 5.). I dealt with it.  I was just labeled a kid who worried a lot, that then turned into an adult with anxiety.  I kept it at bay, having flare ups here and there throughout the years.  I never thought there was anything to help me. .
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After my second child was born, it HIT THE FAN.  She had medical issues, I had to move when she was just a few weeks old.  I was stressed and anxious and a year later I lost it.  Like lost my damn mind.  I won’t go into detail because it won’t all fit in this post, but my neurologist said something really meaningful to me: “ If you had diabetes you could change your diet and take your medicine to treat it.  Anxiety is no different.  Your brain is not chemically balanced. You have to find ways to fix it.” .
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I went to therapy.  I got on medicine.  I slowly made my way out of my dark place.  Does it mean it’s gone forever? NO.  Have I learned to manage my mental health better? Yes. .
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Don’t be afraid.  Don’t be afraid to ask for help.  Therapy is a wonderful thing.  A person who doesn’t know you can help you by having an unbiased opinion.  Don’t be afraid to go on medication.  It’s nothing to be ashamed of.  Treat it as you would any other ailment.  Help yourself.  Let others help you. .
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To those who don’t struggle with mental health, I can guarantee you know someone who does.  Look out for signs that someone needs help.  It may just be a hug, a listening ear, or something more.  Help others to help themselves 💕. .
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#mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #worldmentalhealthday #feedyoursoul #gethelp #helpothers #lendanear #hugitout #anxiety #depression #momswithanxiety #momlife #stress #stressedout
It’s World Mental Health Day. Mental Health is often a hush hush topic. No one wants to admit they have issues with their mental health. Often others don’t want to hear about it too. You’re often left to deal with these mental issues on your own and that’s not okay. . . . I’ve struggled with anxiety my entire life (I’m talking since age 5.). I dealt with it. I was just labeled a kid who worried a lot, that then turned into an adult with anxiety. I kept it at bay, having flare ups here and there throughout the years. I never thought there was anything to help me. . . . After my second child was born, it HIT THE FAN. She had medical issues, I had to move when she was just a few weeks old. I was stressed and anxious and a year later I lost it. Like lost my damn mind. I won’t go into detail because it won’t all fit in this post, but my neurologist said something really meaningful to me: “ If you had diabetes you could change your diet and take your medicine to treat it. Anxiety is no different. Your brain is not chemically balanced. You have to find ways to fix it.” . . . I went to therapy. I got on medicine. I slowly made my way out of my dark place. Does it mean it’s gone forever? NO. Have I learned to manage my mental health better? Yes. . . Don’t be afraid. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Therapy is a wonderful thing. A person who doesn’t know you can help you by having an unbiased opinion. Don’t be afraid to go on medication. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. Treat it as you would any other ailment. Help yourself. Let others help you. . . To those who don’t struggle with mental health, I can guarantee you know someone who does. Look out for signs that someone needs help. It may just be a hug, a listening ear, or something more. Help others to help themselves 💕. . . . . #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #worldmentalhealthday  #feedyoursoul  #gethelp  #helpothers  #lendanear  #hugitout  #anxiety  #depression  #momswithanxiety  #momlife  #stress  #stressedout 
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve found myself in this position, hoping, begging, praying to feel better... to get better! There is a lot that I’ve shared on my channel about my mental health (past & present), there is some I haven’t. But Something I’ve learned through Social Media is how many people struggle with their #MentalHealth that I can relate to & they can relate to me. So know that you’re not alone, it will get better, AS LONG AS YOU ARE willing to work at it EVERY SINGLE DAY!
If you’ve dealt with mental health & feel comfortable put a ❤️ IN THE COMMENTS BELOW TO SPREAD AWARENESS!❤️
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve found myself in this position, hoping, begging, praying to feel better... to get better! There is a lot that I’ve shared on my channel about my mental health (past & present), there is some I haven’t. But Something I’ve learned through Social Media is how many people struggle with their #MentalHealth  that I can relate to & they can relate to me. So know that you’re not alone, it will get better, AS LONG AS YOU ARE willing to work at it EVERY SINGLE DAY! If you’ve dealt with mental health & feel comfortable put a ❤️ IN THE COMMENTS BELOW TO SPREAD AWARENESS!❤️
NEW BLOG POST | dear raging heart .
This one is as deep and as personal as I’ve yet gotten on my blog. From my raging heart to yours 🖤 link in the bio .
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#brimming #mamawriter #momswithanxiety #mentalhealthmatters #believewomen #believesurvivors #pleasevote #amwriting #amediting #momswhowrite #writermom #authorlife #amrevising #writerproblems #writerlife #writereadrepeat #wordboss #imwriting #novelwriter #oaklandblogger #bayareablogger #votevotevote #midterms2018 #openletter
NEW BLOG POST | dear raging heart . This one is as deep and as personal as I’ve yet gotten on my blog. From my raging heart to yours 🖤 link in the bio . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #brimming  #mamawriter  #momswithanxiety  #mentalhealthmatters  #believewomen  #believesurvivors  #pleasevote  #amwriting  #amediting  #momswhowrite  #writermom  #authorlife  #amrevising  #writerproblems  #writerlife  #writereadrepeat  #wordboss  #imwriting  #novelwriter  #oaklandblogger  #bayareablogger  #votevotevote  #midterms2018  #openletter 
#Repost @thismamagetsyou ・・・
Today is #worldmentalhealthday2018 
If you yourself struggle with a mental illness, take this day to reflect on yourself , and how far you’ve come even if you think you have got no where, you are still here. Living and breathing. If you don’t feel like reflecting, take this day to rest, or reach out to others who are struggling and share your stories. It may help you more then you think ! 💗

If you do not struggle with a mental illness, maybe reach out to someone who does, hear their story, be a positive light in their dark world. Share some kind and encouraging words. 
Or take this day to educate yourself on all aspects of Mental Illnesses ! 
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#invisibleillness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #postpartumdepression #ppd #ppa #pyschosis #depression #anxiety #suicide #suicideawareness #support #love #therapy #happypills #depressionmedicine #anxiety #livingwithanxiety #ocd #anxietyawareness #1in4 #intrusivethoughts #reflection #perinatalmentalhealth #maternalmentalhealth #momswithanxiety 
@thebluedotprj @whentheboughbreaksdoc @projsemicolon @mentalhealthawareness.insta
#Repost  @thismamagetsyou ・・・ Today is #worldmentalhealthday2018  If you yourself struggle with a mental illness, take this day to reflect on yourself , and how far you’ve come even if you think you have got no where, you are still here. Living and breathing. If you don’t feel like reflecting, take this day to rest, or reach out to others who are struggling and share your stories. It may help you more then you think ! 💗 If you do not struggle with a mental illness, maybe reach out to someone who does, hear their story, be a positive light in their dark world. Share some kind and encouraging words. Or take this day to educate yourself on all aspects of Mental Illnesses ! Let’s support eachother ! 💗 - . . . . . . #invisibleillness  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #postpartumdepression  #ppd  #ppa  #pyschosis  #depression  #anxiety  #suicide  #suicideawareness  #support  #love  #therapy  #happypills  #depressionmedicine  #anxiety  #livingwithanxiety  #ocd  #anxietyawareness  #1in4  #intrusivethoughts  #reflection  #perinatalmentalhealth  #maternalmentalhealth  #momswithanxiety  @thebluedotprj @whentheboughbreaksdoc @projsemicolon @mentalhealthawareness.insta
Today is #worldmentalhealthday2018 
If you yourself struggle with a mental illness, take this day to reflect on yourself , and how far you’ve come even if you think you have got no where, you are still here. Living and breathing. If you don’t feel like reflecting, take this day to rest, or reach out to others who are struggling and share your stories. It may help you more then you think ! 💗

If you do not struggle with a mental illness, maybe reach out to someone who does, hear their story, be a positive light in their dark world. Share some kind and encouraging words. 
Or take this day to educate yourself on all aspects of Mental Illnesses ! 
Let’s support eachother ! 💗 -
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#invisibleillness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #postpartumdepression #ppd #ppa #pyschosis #depression #anxiety #suicide #suicideawareness #support #love #therapy #happypills #depressionmedicine #anxiety #livingwithanxiety #ocd #anxietyawareness #1in4 #intrusivethoughts #reflection #perinatalmentalhealth #maternalmentalhealth #momswithanxiety 
@thebluedotprj @whentheboughbreaksdoc @projsemicolon @mentalhealthawareness.insta
Today is #worldmentalhealthday2018  If you yourself struggle with a mental illness, take this day to reflect on yourself , and how far you’ve come even if you think you have got no where, you are still here. Living and breathing. If you don’t feel like reflecting, take this day to rest, or reach out to others who are struggling and share your stories. It may help you more then you think ! 💗 If you do not struggle with a mental illness, maybe reach out to someone who does, hear their story, be a positive light in their dark world. Share some kind and encouraging words. Or take this day to educate yourself on all aspects of Mental Illnesses ! Let’s support eachother ! 💗 - . . . . . . #invisibleillness  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #postpartumdepression  #ppd  #ppa  #pyschosis  #depression  #anxiety  #suicide  #suicideawareness  #support  #love  #therapy  #happypills  #depressionmedicine  #anxiety  #livingwithanxiety  #ocd  #anxietyawareness  #1in4  #intrusivethoughts  #reflection  #perinatalmentalhealth  #maternalmentalhealth  #momswithanxiety  @thebluedotprj @whentheboughbreaksdoc @projsemicolon @mentalhealthawareness.insta
Mental health is just as important as physical health! Let’s shed some light on all mental health disorders not just today but everyday. NO ONE IS PERFECT I certainly am not. Those who bully, those who belittle others or disregard their feelings. SHAME ON YOU!! We need to do better! It’s ok to not be ok. I will always be here for anyone be that friends or family! I will NEVER judge or make anyone feel like they are “crazy” because you are not! #mentalhealthawareness #anxiety #anxietydepression #seperationanxiety #peoplematter #loveyourself #youreworthit #yourlifematters #momblog #momswithanxiety #boymom #repost
Mental health is just as important as physical health! Let’s shed some light on all mental health disorders not just today but everyday. NO ONE IS PERFECT I certainly am not. Those who bully, those who belittle others or disregard their feelings. SHAME ON YOU!! We need to do better! It’s ok to not be ok. I will always be here for anyone be that friends or family! I will NEVER judge or make anyone feel like they are “crazy” because you are not! #mentalhealthawareness  #anxiety  #anxietydepression  #seperationanxiety  #peoplematter  #loveyourself  #youreworthit  #yourlifematters  #momblog  #momswithanxiety  #boymom  #repost 
Today is #worldmentalheathday and I want to take a few minutes to talk about my journey. I have suffered with OCD, depression and anxiety since childhood. As an adult, I was diagnosed with PTSD. After each baby, I've battled postpartum depression.  I'm battling it right now. .
And as much as I try to be transparent and frank in my online presence, the very nature of social media often results in our lives being portrayed as more idealic than they are. All my posts are true, but there are other truths I don't post. They include:
*Sometimes when my children laugh, I feel nothing.
*Sometimes when my children cry, I feel nothing.
*Sometimes when my child hugs me and tells me they love me, I feel nothing.
*Sometimes my house is a wreck because I'm busy attending to my kids' needs but sometimes it's a wreck because I don't have the energy\focus\motivation to even put away one load of laundry or even just put the Legos back in their bucket.
*Sometimes dinner is just a box of Cheerios.
*Sometimes I don't schedule playdates or cancel at the last minute because my anxiety is too high.
*Sometimes I can't stand having my children touch me.
*Sometimes my children need me and I'm so paralysed with depression I don't go to them.
*Sometimes I yell at my kids because depression isn't just about being sad. There's also a lot of anger and it bubbles over and effects their lives too.
*Sometimes I see my children struggling with their own OCD (so far 2 out of 4 have it) and I feel crushing guilt at having passed that on to them.
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None of this negates my love for them. None of this releases me of my responsibilities to them. I am so blessed\lucky\thankful to have a large support network (especially my husband, @tharber79 ), quality and affordable health insurance, and a strong Faith. Yet even still, mental illness is isolating and overwhelming and often debilitating. To all of you out there sharing this struggle: keep fighting, keep talking, keep asking for help, keep searching for solutions. .
#depressionawarenes #depression #anxiety #ocd #ptsd #postpardum #postpardumdepression #keepfighting #mentalhealthawareness #momswithanxiety #parenting #reallife #lifeunfiltered #metoo
Today is #worldmentalheathday  and I want to take a few minutes to talk about my journey. I have suffered with OCD, depression and anxiety since childhood. As an adult, I was diagnosed with PTSD. After each baby, I've battled postpartum depression. I'm battling it right now. . And as much as I try to be transparent and frank in my online presence, the very nature of social media often results in our lives being portrayed as more idealic than they are. All my posts are true, but there are other truths I don't post. They include: *Sometimes when my children laugh, I feel nothing. *Sometimes when my children cry, I feel nothing. *Sometimes when my child hugs me and tells me they love me, I feel nothing. *Sometimes my house is a wreck because I'm busy attending to my kids' needs but sometimes it's a wreck because I don't have the energy\focus\motivation to even put away one load of laundry or even just put the Legos back in their bucket. *Sometimes dinner is just a box of Cheerios. *Sometimes I don't schedule playdates or cancel at the last minute because my anxiety is too high. *Sometimes I can't stand having my children touch me. *Sometimes my children need me and I'm so paralysed with depression I don't go to them. *Sometimes I yell at my kids because depression isn't just about being sad. There's also a lot of anger and it bubbles over and effects their lives too. *Sometimes I see my children struggling with their own OCD (so far 2 out of 4 have it) and I feel crushing guilt at having passed that on to them. . None of this negates my love for them. None of this releases me of my responsibilities to them. I am so blessed\lucky\thankful to have a large support network (especially my husband, @tharber79 ), quality and affordable health insurance, and a strong Faith. Yet even still, mental illness is isolating and overwhelming and often debilitating. To all of you out there sharing this struggle: keep fighting, keep talking, keep asking for help, keep searching for solutions. . #depressionawarenes  #depression  #anxiety  #ocd  #ptsd  #postpardum  #postpardumdepression  #keepfighting  #mentalhealthawareness  #momswithanxiety  #parenting  #reallife  #lifeunfiltered  #metoo 
Can I share a story with you?  It's not an easy one to tell, but I do so in case someone reading this can relate and it helps... It was the fall of 2015 and I was struggling.  Sleepless nights were followed by mornings I felt like a zombie and then afternoons where I was sure my heart was going to beat out of my chest.  I couldn't point to any particular thing that was driving this awful anxious cycle, but I sure couldn't make it stop either.  This went on for months.  I remember asking my husband to go away with me to the mountains for my birthday weekend.  I thought a change of scenery would help...which it did some, but there are still pictures of us at the most beautiful frozen winter wonderland and I feel the pain I was experiencing all over again when I  look into my eyes in those photos. 
I remember the day I knew I had enough and I needed help.  It was early December and we were planning on heading out on a shopping trip to knock off much of our gifting list.  We had gone out to breakfast and then back home to make a plan of where we were going to go.  Except I froze.  As much as I love the Christmas season, and finding the perfect gift for everyone on my list, I could not move from the couch that day.  The thought of going anywhere felt so incredibly scary and overwhelming.  My husband knew something was wrong, but he didn't know what to do either so he let me be.  We ended up staying home and I sat on the couch while the kids watched Christmas movies all day.  I was sitting there next to them, but I didn't even feel like I was with them.  I was deep down inside of myself filled with panic, and disappointment.  I felt awful...I'm sure I won the worst mother ever award that day.  The next day when I went to work I spent the better part of two hours convincing myself to call in to make an appointment to talk to someone.  I had to.  I couldn't be this kind of wife anymore.  I couldn't be the mom who snapped at every little thing because I was so on edge and exhausted.  I didn't want to feel so alone anymore.

The more I talk about my anxiety, the more I realize just how NOT alone I am.  Almost every person I've ever started a conversation with on the s
Can I share a story with you? It's not an easy one to tell, but I do so in case someone reading this can relate and it helps... It was the fall of 2015 and I was struggling. Sleepless nights were followed by mornings I felt like a zombie and then afternoons where I was sure my heart was going to beat out of my chest. I couldn't point to any particular thing that was driving this awful anxious cycle, but I sure couldn't make it stop either. This went on for months. I remember asking my husband to go away with me to the mountains for my birthday weekend. I thought a change of scenery would help...which it did some, but there are still pictures of us at the most beautiful frozen winter wonderland and I feel the pain I was experiencing all over again when I look into my eyes in those photos. I remember the day I knew I had enough and I needed help. It was early December and we were planning on heading out on a shopping trip to knock off much of our gifting list. We had gone out to breakfast and then back home to make a plan of where we were going to go. Except I froze. As much as I love the Christmas season, and finding the perfect gift for everyone on my list, I could not move from the couch that day. The thought of going anywhere felt so incredibly scary and overwhelming. My husband knew something was wrong, but he didn't know what to do either so he let me be. We ended up staying home and I sat on the couch while the kids watched Christmas movies all day. I was sitting there next to them, but I didn't even feel like I was with them. I was deep down inside of myself filled with panic, and disappointment. I felt awful...I'm sure I won the worst mother ever award that day. The next day when I went to work I spent the better part of two hours convincing myself to call in to make an appointment to talk to someone. I had to. I couldn't be this kind of wife anymore. I couldn't be the mom who snapped at every little thing because I was so on edge and exhausted. I didn't want to feel so alone anymore. The more I talk about my anxiety, the more I realize just how NOT alone I am. Almost every person I've ever started a conversation with on the s
This month marks 6 months on this journey! It has been a wonderful journey and I have enjoyed connecting with people I wouldn’t have meant otherwise. I can’t wait for the future with my coaching and my health and fitness!! #6months
This month marks 6 months on this journey! It has been a wonderful journey and I have enjoyed connecting with people I wouldn’t have meant otherwise. I can’t wait for the future with my coaching and my health and fitness!! #6months 
I really wanted to hesitate sharing this information. I really battled with not posting anything at all. But I couldn’t post other happier things without sharing what is going to be taking a huge part of my life now without being real.  Last week my handsome boy was diagnosed with a #congenitalheartdefect it was never caught when he was born except for a #vsd  Last week we were told he was going to need surgery to fix it and our lives have not been the same since.  It is one thing to be afraid for yourself but it’s a whole new thing to be afraid for your baby. I have never been so frightened in my life. All I ask is for everyone’s prayers that all goes well in the next month.  And thank you to the moms out there who have already shared and we’re kind enough to offer their support. #scaredmommy #mysonshine
I really wanted to hesitate sharing this information. I really battled with not posting anything at all. But I couldn’t post other happier things without sharing what is going to be taking a huge part of my life now without being real. Last week my handsome boy was diagnosed with a #congenitalheartdefect  it was never caught when he was born except for a #vsd  Last week we were told he was going to need surgery to fix it and our lives have not been the same since. It is one thing to be afraid for yourself but it’s a whole new thing to be afraid for your baby. I have never been so frightened in my life. All I ask is for everyone’s prayers that all goes well in the next month. And thank you to the moms out there who have already shared and we’re kind enough to offer their support. #scaredmommy  #mysonshine 
Hi, my name is Kelly and I suffer from anxiety and depression. Most days you’ll find me in workout pants or leggings a dirty sweatshirt, my hair in a very messy bun and leftover make up on my face. A lot of days I don’t feel like getting dressed, no one will see me so why does it matter?  Then there are days like today. I had an early morning takeover and I had to get dressed, hair and make up too. What a difference in the way I felt today. I felt good, Happy, I felt pretty. Isn’t that what we all want?  Now I’m not saying that any brand of anything is going to cure those awful feelings of doubt, but what I am saying is that when you feel beautiful you feel good. I see it everyday when I Style Outfits. A friend comes in with the weight of the world on her shoulders. She tries on a new outfit and she stands a little taller and you can see a smile form. I love that. Now, I just need to remember how I felt all day today and repeat it again and again. #lularoe #personalstyling #lularoeelegantcollection #lularoecarly #fallfashion #sparkle #plussizefashion #momswithanxiety #depressionsucks #feelingpretty #lularoepdx #lularoepnw #last90days #fallfashion #falloutfits #selfcare #selflove
Hi, my name is Kelly and I suffer from anxiety and depression. Most days you’ll find me in workout pants or leggings a dirty sweatshirt, my hair in a very messy bun and leftover make up on my face. A lot of days I don’t feel like getting dressed, no one will see me so why does it matter? Then there are days like today. I had an early morning takeover and I had to get dressed, hair and make up too. What a difference in the way I felt today. I felt good, Happy, I felt pretty. Isn’t that what we all want? Now I’m not saying that any brand of anything is going to cure those awful feelings of doubt, but what I am saying is that when you feel beautiful you feel good. I see it everyday when I Style Outfits. A friend comes in with the weight of the world on her shoulders. She tries on a new outfit and she stands a little taller and you can see a smile form. I love that. Now, I just need to remember how I felt all day today and repeat it again and again. #lularoe  #personalstyling  #lularoeelegantcollection  #lularoecarly  #fallfashion  #sparkle  #plussizefashion  #momswithanxiety  #depressionsucks  #feelingpretty  #lularoepdx  #lularoepnw  #last90days  #fallfashion  #falloutfits  #selfcare  #selflove 
I feel so broken, today has been a shitty day. I hope tomorrow is better. #brokenmomma #momswithanxiety #anxiety #mentalhealth #irefusetoliveinfear
It always seems impossible when you first start. 
BUT- - - what is important is that you take that first step. .
For so many years I tried to do it myself. I thought if I just exercised, counted calories or cut out food groups I was doing the right thing. 
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What matters most is that I now have the tools for success. 
I know how to give my body the proper nutrients and how to exercise efficiently- rather than spending an hour in the gym everyday or paying personal trainers hundreds of dollars-- I am able to get even better results at home in under 30 minutes all while eating more than I ever did before. 
I am able to ease my anxiety through healthy outlets. I am healthier, happier and more fit now approaching the dreaded 40 than I was in my 30’s. 
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I am living proof that the programs I use are successful. My clients are living proof that these programs are successful. My clients are living proof! 
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If you're in the place I was and are ready to take a step on your transformation- comment below. I'd love to give you more information. .
I want to help you achieve those results you've always wanted. Reach
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#cantstopwontstop #wellness #health #smile #shinebright
It always seems impossible when you first start. BUT- - - what is important is that you take that first step. . For so many years I tried to do it myself. I thought if I just exercised, counted calories or cut out food groups I was doing the right thing. ___________________________________________________________ I was so freaking wrong. ___________________________________________________________ What matters most is that I now have the tools for success. I know how to give my body the proper nutrients and how to exercise efficiently- rather than spending an hour in the gym everyday or paying personal trainers hundreds of dollars-- I am able to get even better results at home in under 30 minutes all while eating more than I ever did before. I am able to ease my anxiety through healthy outlets. I am healthier, happier and more fit now approaching the dreaded 40 than I was in my 30’s. ___________________________________________________________ I am living proof that the programs I use are successful. My clients are living proof that these programs are successful. My clients are living proof! ___________________________________________________________ If you're in the place I was and are ready to take a step on your transformation- comment below. I'd love to give you more information. . I want to help you achieve those results you've always wanted. Reach out! . . . #cantstopwontstop  #wellness  #health  #smile  #shinebright 
Not going to lie, today was just one of those days. Ya know the kind where you wake up and your in a funk and no matter what you do you just can’t get out of it? We all have days like that. The question is what do you do to get out of them? Today, I tried just about everything. I went for a walk on lunch and listened to a podcast by Jenna Kutcher, used my essential oil relax roll on and, took deep breaths for a few minutes to refocus and even counted backwards 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and told myself to let it go. Unfortunately, none of that worked today so I decided instead I scrolled through my phone and came across this picture from yesterday and it instantly made me smile. This little girl always makes everything. She’s the blessing I never knew I always wanted 💕
Not going to lie, today was just one of those days. Ya know the kind where you wake up and your in a funk and no matter what you do you just can’t get out of it? We all have days like that. The question is what do you do to get out of them? Today, I tried just about everything. I went for a walk on lunch and listened to a podcast by Jenna Kutcher, used my essential oil relax roll on and, took deep breaths for a few minutes to refocus and even counted backwards 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and told myself to let it go. Unfortunately, none of that worked today so I decided instead I scrolled through my phone and came across this picture from yesterday and it instantly made me smile. This little girl always makes everything. She’s the blessing I never knew I always wanted 💕
Praying that all my anxiety is over NOTHING!! Scared that I'm going to see the doctor alone but glad they were able to book me an appointment for TOMORROW!! #fuckanxiety #momswithanxiety #idontwanttoliveinfearnomore
Sometimes we need reminders like these! #justbloom
Sometimes we need reminders like these! #justbloom 
#transformationtuesday is a wish for all you mamas that you replace worry with peace - they will sleep they will figure out potty training - they will learn and grow and be amazing. So kiss their nose and gather them up in your arms in the calm of that thought- that they will be ok. It’s easier said than done (I KNOW) but you are not alone, we all feel it, the what if’s and need to constantly protect and worry- But my wish is for us to transform that constant worry into some deep breaths and Faith. You are so much more than you think you are and you are perfect right here right now, and so are they. From one worry wart mom to another - big hugs 🤗 #wevegotthis
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#lovehereandnow #moment #momlife #mommingainteasy #worry #faith #momlyfe #redhat #postpartumanxiety #momswithanxiety #worrywartmom #hugs #breathe #postpartumdepression #postpartumsurvivor #postpartumstrong #dailyvibes #peace #peacefulmind #happymom #anxietyrelief #dontworry #theywillbegreat
#transformationtuesday  is a wish for all you mamas that you replace worry with peace - they will sleep they will figure out potty training - they will learn and grow and be amazing. So kiss their nose and gather them up in your arms in the calm of that thought- that they will be ok. It’s easier said than done (I KNOW) but you are not alone, we all feel it, the what if’s and need to constantly protect and worry- But my wish is for us to transform that constant worry into some deep breaths and Faith. You are so much more than you think you are and you are perfect right here right now, and so are they. From one worry wart mom to another - big hugs 🤗 #wevegotthis  . . . . #lovehereandnow  #moment  #momlife  #mommingainteasy  #worry  #faith  #momlyfe  #redhat  #postpartumanxiety  #momswithanxiety  #worrywartmom  #hugs  #breathe  #postpartumdepression  #postpartumsurvivor  #postpartumstrong  #dailyvibes  #peace  #peacefulmind  #happymom  #anxietyrelief  #dontworry  #theywillbegreat 
I know I said I was going to be getting back in it my routine yesterday. But, it's also important to listen to your body...and this congested cold was still lingering. 😷 So, I decided to wait one more day so I could kick this cold to the curb and be able to power threw my workout. .
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Woke up feeling a lot better!! 💃 Ready to send my kids off to school...then get back pushing play. AHHHH, It has been 13 days since my last workout along with my nutrition being off and I'm definitely feeling blah because of it....so ready to get back to feeling refreshed, energized, healthier and stronger! 💥
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#healthymoms #health #momof4 #boymom #girlmom #momlife #parentlife #wifelife #midwest #midwestmom #momswhostruggle #strugglingmom #momswholift #girlswholift #gaols #homeworkouts #homefitness #fitness #momswithanxiety #tiredasamother #motherhood  #nutrition #tattooedmoms #momswithtattoos #coffee #uk #travel #ireland
I know I said I was going to be getting back in it my routine yesterday. But, it's also important to listen to your body...and this congested cold was still lingering. 😷 So, I decided to wait one more day so I could kick this cold to the curb and be able to power threw my workout. . . Woke up feeling a lot better!! 💃 Ready to send my kids off to school...then get back pushing play. AHHHH, It has been 13 days since my last workout along with my nutrition being off and I'm definitely feeling blah because of it....so ready to get back to feeling refreshed, energized, healthier and stronger! 💥 . . . #healthymoms  #health  #momof4  #boymom  #girlmom  #momlife  #parentlife  #wifelife  #midwest  #midwestmom  #momswhostruggle  #strugglingmom  #momswholift  #girlswholift  #gaols  #homeworkouts  #homefitness  #fitness  #momswithanxiety  #tiredasamother  #motherhood  #nutrition  #tattooedmoms  #momswithtattoos  #coffee  #uk  #travel  #ireland 
One day I woke up and was tired of the road I was on I decided to take a turn and head down an unfamiliar path. That path has started this beautiful wonderful self love journey. You always have a choice to take a different path you just have to trust and believe you can do it!!
One day I woke up and was tired of the road I was on I decided to take a turn and head down an unfamiliar path. That path has started this beautiful wonderful self love journey. You always have a choice to take a different path you just have to trust and believe you can do it!!
Keeping a promise I made to myself. I make the time for my workouts daily but I’ve been neglecting my personal development and I can tell. .

So while I sip on my unicorn juice (all natural pre workout), I’m making the time to read and journal. It might sound silly, but it helps me be a more patient and present person. .

#happytuesday #mom #momlife #sahm #presentoverperfect #presentnotperfect #personaldevelopment #metime #preworkout #boymom #girlmom #confessionsofastayathomemom #fillingmycup #momswithanxiety #anxiety #mentalhealth
Keeping a promise I made to myself. I make the time for my workouts daily but I’ve been neglecting my personal development and I can tell. . So while I sip on my unicorn juice (all natural pre workout), I’m making the time to read and journal. It might sound silly, but it helps me be a more patient and present person. . #happytuesday  #mom  #momlife  #sahm  #presentoverperfect  #presentnotperfect  #personaldevelopment  #metime  #preworkout  #boymom  #girlmom  #confessionsofastayathomemom  #fillingmycup  #momswithanxiety  #anxiety  #mentalhealth 
"Until you heal the wounds of your past, you are going to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with  alcohol, with drugs,with cigerettes, with sex; But  eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open your wounds, stick your hands inside and pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past and make peace with them" 
#trustgod
"Until you heal the wounds of your past, you are going to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs,with cigerettes, with sex; But eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open your wounds, stick your hands inside and pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past and make peace with them" #trustgod 
Just another moody Monday 🖤
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Unendingly grateful for bright October sunshine, strong coffee, long walks, squishy hugs, shared outrage, red wine, flowing words, loving talks, and hard laughs. Without all of this in abundance this weekend, I would be in a far darker headspace about the state of the world. The people we love really keep us afloat.
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#brimming #mamawriter #momswithanxiety #mentalhealthmatters #believewomen #believesurvivors #pleasevote #amwriting #amediting #momswhowrite #writermom #authorlife #amrevising #writerproblems #writerlife #writereadrepeat #wordboss #imwriting #novelwriter #oaklandblogger #bayareablogger #selfcarefirst #artheals
Just another moody Monday 🖤 . Unendingly grateful for bright October sunshine, strong coffee, long walks, squishy hugs, shared outrage, red wine, flowing words, loving talks, and hard laughs. Without all of this in abundance this weekend, I would be in a far darker headspace about the state of the world. The people we love really keep us afloat. . What are you grateful for today, beauties? . . . . . . . . #brimming  #mamawriter  #momswithanxiety  #mentalhealthmatters  #believewomen  #believesurvivors  #pleasevote  #amwriting  #amediting  #momswhowrite  #writermom  #authorlife  #amrevising  #writerproblems  #writerlife  #writereadrepeat  #wordboss  #imwriting  #novelwriter  #oaklandblogger  #bayareablogger  #selfcarefirst  #artheals 
I show up for myself every single day! I don’t focus on the scale I focus on what I deserve. And I deserve to wake up and put myself first before the day starts for anybody else! #putyourselffirst
I show up for myself every single day! I don’t focus on the scale I focus on what I deserve. And I deserve to wake up and put myself first before the day starts for anybody else! #putyourselffirst 
Happy Canadian Thanksgiving!! 🎃🍁🌽🍂🥧🥂 Our weekend has been so full of food, activities , visiting with friends and family already. 
2 dinners down, and 1 more to go today. 
I Try to be thankful everyday , but sometimes i don’t acknowledge what I’m truly thankful for.

So today I am specially thankful for my family. My beautiful little boys. Thankful that they are Happy, Healthy, and fed everyday. 
I am thankful for my Husband. And how hard he works to provide for us, and especially for putting up with my bullshit lol

I am thankful that I am here , living and breathing. I am thankful that my mental health has improved drastically. 
I am thankful that I have a roof over my head and food in my fridge. 
Finally, I am thankful for amazing friends and family. Without you guys & all your love and support , I don’t know where we or I would be today. 
Today is a day of reflection for me. 
I am going to embrace the snow that is falling outside, & cuddling with my babies in my warm and cozy house.

Even if you aren’t Canadian and it’s not thanksgiving for you today, take a moment to really reflect on what you are thankful & grateful for. 💗 .
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Have a beautiful and blessed day everyone ! 💛🧡❤️ .
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#happythanksgiving #canadianthanksgiving #turkeyday #ilovefood #family #friends #thankful #blessed #grateful #givethanks #fall #reflection #love #positivethinking #positivevibes #momlife #boymom #momoftwo #motherhood #momsofinstagram #momssupportingmoms #momsfollowmoms #momswithanxiety #mentalhealth #anxiety #anxietydisorder #ppd #ppa #postpartumdepression #mentalhealthawareness
Happy Canadian Thanksgiving!! 🎃🍁🌽🍂🥧🥂 Our weekend has been so full of food, activities , visiting with friends and family already. 2 dinners down, and 1 more to go today. I Try to be thankful everyday , but sometimes i don’t acknowledge what I’m truly thankful for. So today I am specially thankful for my family. My beautiful little boys. Thankful that they are Happy, Healthy, and fed everyday. I am thankful for my Husband. And how hard he works to provide for us, and especially for putting up with my bullshit lol I am thankful that I am here , living and breathing. I am thankful that my mental health has improved drastically. I am thankful that I have a roof over my head and food in my fridge. Finally, I am thankful for amazing friends and family. Without you guys & all your love and support , I don’t know where we or I would be today. Today is a day of reflection for me. I am going to embrace the snow that is falling outside, & cuddling with my babies in my warm and cozy house. Even if you aren’t Canadian and it’s not thanksgiving for you today, take a moment to really reflect on what you are thankful & grateful for. 💗 . . Have a beautiful and blessed day everyone ! 💛🧡❤️ . . . . . . . . #happythanksgiving  #canadianthanksgiving  #turkeyday  #ilovefood  #family  #friends  #thankful  #blessed  #grateful  #givethanks  #fall  #reflection  #love  #positivethinking  #positivevibes  #momlife  #boymom  #momoftwo  #motherhood  #momsofinstagram  #momssupportingmoms  #momsfollowmoms  #momswithanxiety  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #anxietydisorder  #ppd  #ppa  #postpartumdepression  #mentalhealthawareness 
It’s such a strange feeling when you recognize yourself in your children. Not just in the way they look, but in who they are. Sometimes it’s subtle and other times it startles you. In the same way that you sometimes stop to think, these are really my people, my own little humans that I am responsible for raising and teaching. Even though it’s something you always know, the actual thought can sweep you off your feet for a moment. Motherhood is such a revolving door; so many things are always coming and going, changing and evolving, while you remain the constant, the structure, where everything seems to begin and end. You are always giving away pieces of yourself, parts of your heart that will live outside of your body, beating inside their own little chests. And even on the days where you feel stripped bare, you’ll do all of this gladly, because there is nothing you’d rather be. 🍂 #motherhood
It’s such a strange feeling when you recognize yourself in your children. Not just in the way they look, but in who they are. Sometimes it’s subtle and other times it startles you. In the same way that you sometimes stop to think, these are really my people, my own little humans that I am responsible for raising and teaching. Even though it’s something you always know, the actual thought can sweep you off your feet for a moment. Motherhood is such a revolving door; so many things are always coming and going, changing and evolving, while you remain the constant, the structure, where everything seems to begin and end. You are always giving away pieces of yourself, parts of your heart that will live outside of your body, beating inside their own little chests. And even on the days where you feel stripped bare, you’ll do all of this gladly, because there is nothing you’d rather be. 🍂 #motherhood 
My therapy today was my fitness. Check out my stories today and I’ll explain what happened but the short of it is my plane ended up making a quick crash landing after take off due to an engine fire. It was scary. .

I woke up in the night in a full blown panic attack. Took me a bit to calm down and get back to sleep. .

I really didn’t want to get out of bed this morning. I contemplated staying there but I knew it wouldn’t help. So I prayed my way out of bed and got downstairs to workout. I’ve been using that as my anxiety and depression medicine for years now. I’m thankful that it works for me. .

I can still feel the panic bubbling under the surface so I’m gonna feel the feelings, focus on the beautiful things in front of me today, and keep stepping. .

I’m thankful for a beautiful community who have already been praying for me and encouraging me today. That is a treasured gift. We don’t have to be alone. We don’t have to hide and put on a brave face. We can face the fear in faith together. ❤️
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#anxietyrelief  #panicattacks #meridabrave #fitnessismytherapy #godisgood #feelingthankful🙏  #mondaymotivation💪 #curlyfit #crazycurlyhair #curlyhairprobs  #crazycurls #crazyhairdontcare #momswithanxiety
My therapy today was my fitness. Check out my stories today and I’ll explain what happened but the short of it is my plane ended up making a quick crash landing after take off due to an engine fire. It was scary. . I woke up in the night in a full blown panic attack. Took me a bit to calm down and get back to sleep. . I really didn’t want to get out of bed this morning. I contemplated staying there but I knew it wouldn’t help. So I prayed my way out of bed and got downstairs to workout. I’ve been using that as my anxiety and depression medicine for years now. I’m thankful that it works for me. . I can still feel the panic bubbling under the surface so I’m gonna feel the feelings, focus on the beautiful things in front of me today, and keep stepping. . I’m thankful for a beautiful community who have already been praying for me and encouraging me today. That is a treasured gift. We don’t have to be alone. We don’t have to hide and put on a brave face. We can face the fear in faith together. ❤️ . . . . #anxietyrelief  #panicattacks  #meridabrave  #fitnessismytherapy  #godisgood  #feelingthankful 🙏 #mondaymotivation 💪 #curlyfit  #crazycurlyhair  #curlyhairprobs  #crazycurls  #crazyhairdontcare  #momswithanxiety 
It's definitely Monday & I'm struggling to get back into routine... especially when Mondays are normally my day off. But, this week is packed full of make up days at work from having last week off. The joys of coming home  from vacation. 🤷
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This morning my cat jumped on me and spilled my hot tea down my arm, my daughter woke up crabby, there were no clean bowls for breakfast, and I'm out of coffee. 🤦 I was in such a hurry signing school papers, finding all my work stuff, feeding the pets, figuring out who is where after school...that I didn't give myself time to make breakfast. It's a grab & go kinda morning in this house. 🙃 .
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Happy Monday!
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#mondayvibes #mondays #midwest #midwestmom #momof4 #boymom #girlmom #catmom #dogmom #goals #health #fitness #homeworkout #homeworkouts #wifelife #travek #vacation #uk #ireland #adventure #momlife #parentlife #tiredasamother #momswhostruggle #strugglingmom #momswithanxiety #momswithgoals
It's definitely Monday & I'm struggling to get back into routine... especially when Mondays are normally my day off. But, this week is packed full of make up days at work from having last week off. The joys of coming home from vacation. 🤷 . . This morning my cat jumped on me and spilled my hot tea down my arm, my daughter woke up crabby, there were no clean bowls for breakfast, and I'm out of coffee. 🤦 I was in such a hurry signing school papers, finding all my work stuff, feeding the pets, figuring out who is where after school...that I didn't give myself time to make breakfast. It's a grab & go kinda morning in this house. 🙃 . . Happy Monday! . . . #mondayvibes  #mondays  #midwest  #midwestmom  #momof4  #boymom  #girlmom  #catmom  #dogmom  #goals  #health  #fitness  #homeworkout  #homeworkouts  #wifelife  #travek  #vacation  #uk  #ireland  #adventure  #momlife  #parentlife  #tiredasamother  #momswhostruggle  #strugglingmom  #momswithanxiety  #momswithgoals 
My first blog is up on my new site: Chasing Addy .
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Check it out, be kind, and let me know what you think! .
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LINK IN BIO! .
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#momblog #mommyblogger #anxiety #momswithanxiety #entrepreneur #mom #momentrepreneur #survivingtoddlerhood #gymowner #fitness #familyfirst #selfcare #selfawareness #momathlete #momsofinstagram #momsoftoddlers
Vacation is over! Time to relax and hang with the family.....I mean ....time to catch up on everyone's laundry (along with all the other daily things that piled up while I was gone). 🤦 Welcome home to me. Can I go on another vacation now? 😂🤣😂
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#momlife #momhood #tiredasamother #momswhostruggle #strugglingmom #anxietysucks #momof4 #boymom #girlmom #momswholift #tattooedmoms #momswithgoals #momswithanxiety #midwestmom #midwest #goals #vacation #travel #adventure #parentlife #messylife #messymotherhood #messymomlife #homeworkout #fitness #wifelife #coffee #homeworkouts #catmom #dogmom
Vacation is over! Time to relax and hang with the family.....I mean ....time to catch up on everyone's laundry (along with all the other daily things that piled up while I was gone). 🤦 Welcome home to me. Can I go on another vacation now? 😂🤣😂 . . . #momlife  #momhood  #tiredasamother  #momswhostruggle  #strugglingmom  #anxietysucks  #momof4  #boymom  #girlmom  #momswholift  #tattooedmoms  #momswithgoals  #momswithanxiety  #midwestmom  #midwest  #goals  #vacation  #travel  #adventure  #parentlife  #messylife  #messymotherhood  #messymomlife  #homeworkout  #fitness  #wifelife  #coffee  #homeworkouts  #catmom  #dogmom 
Sporting my @seahawks gear in Maryland/Pennsylvania area is always fun! #gohawks
Sporting my @seahawks gear in Maryland/Pennsylvania area is always fun! #gohawks 
✨This has been my favorite quote since I was a teenager and needed to see it today. Thinking maybe some of you may need to read it too💕✨
#bethelight #workforthosedreams #dontletanyonekeepyoudown #somedayssmallwinsarejustfine
Like so many, living at the center of our emotions is overwhelming. 
One minute we are excited and happy, and the next we're sad, anxious, scared, embarrassed, or filled with anger at the outrageously unfair decision that we just made. 
Feeding your anxiety. 
What so many don't realize is that we all have the ability to change the course of our emotions.  And once we learn how to do that, we also find that we can alter the counterproductive ways we often act as a result of these emotions. 
How is it possible to change the way you feel? 
Enter Bella Anxiety Coaching.  We will coach you how to break up with negative thinking habits that are holding you back from achieving happiness and success. 
Are you ready to begin your journey of getting unstuck?  Let's chat!  Shoot me an email at:  loretta@bellaeducationalservices.com
Like so many, living at the center of our emotions is overwhelming. One minute we are excited and happy, and the next we're sad, anxious, scared, embarrassed, or filled with anger at the outrageously unfair decision that we just made. Feeding your anxiety. What so many don't realize is that we all have the ability to change the course of our emotions. And once we learn how to do that, we also find that we can alter the counterproductive ways we often act as a result of these emotions. How is it possible to change the way you feel? Enter Bella Anxiety Coaching. We will coach you how to break up with negative thinking habits that are holding you back from achieving happiness and success. Are you ready to begin your journey of getting unstuck? Let's chat! Shoot me an email at: loretta@bellaeducationalservices.com
Change doesn’t happen over night. It takes hard work and consistency!
Change doesn’t happen over night. It takes hard work and consistency!
Hey guys ! 
How’s everyone doing today ?! October is my fave month ! The whole Fall season is my favourite ! 
Monday is Canadian Thanksgiving 🎃🥧🍁🦃
I hope you all enjoy a weekend of food, drinks and laughs with the ones you love ! 
I’ve been kind of lacking some motivation lately. Needing to get back on track with my physical health. Will probably start after Thanksgiving 😉

Also kind of been feeling lost with the whole stay at home mom job. Feeling the need to get back in the workplace . Don’t know if it’s the right time yet or not . Just been thinking a lot. Could be because of all this shitty weather we have been having.. snow, rain, cold. That’s right I said SNOW 😠 needing to get out and about and walking through the crunchy fall leaves ! . But my anxiety has been dormant for the last few months so that is a plus ! 
Have a fantastic weekend friends & Happy Friday ! .
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#autumn #fall #october #octoberismyfave #crunchyleaves #crispfallair #positivevibes #canadianthanksgiving #thanksgiving #weekend #weekendvibes #friday #momlife #boymom #momof2 #motherhood #mentalhealthawareness #positivethinking #postpartumdepression #anxiety #momswithanxiety #noanxietyhere #ppd #ppa #inspiremyinstagram
Hey guys ! How’s everyone doing today ?! October is my fave month ! The whole Fall season is my favourite ! Monday is Canadian Thanksgiving 🎃🥧🍁🦃 I hope you all enjoy a weekend of food, drinks and laughs with the ones you love ! I’ve been kind of lacking some motivation lately. Needing to get back on track with my physical health. Will probably start after Thanksgiving 😉 Also kind of been feeling lost with the whole stay at home mom job. Feeling the need to get back in the workplace . Don’t know if it’s the right time yet or not . Just been thinking a lot. Could be because of all this shitty weather we have been having.. snow, rain, cold. That’s right I said SNOW 😠 needing to get out and about and walking through the crunchy fall leaves ! . But my anxiety has been dormant for the last few months so that is a plus ! Have a fantastic weekend friends & Happy Friday ! . . . . . . . #autumn  #fall  #october  #octoberismyfave  #crunchyleaves  #crispfallair  #positivevibes  #canadianthanksgiving  #thanksgiving  #weekend  #weekendvibes  #friday  #momlife  #boymom  #momof2  #motherhood  #mentalhealthawareness  #positivethinking  #postpartumdepression  #anxiety  #momswithanxiety  #noanxietyhere  #ppd  #ppa  #inspiremyinstagram 
I’ll never look back and think, “I spent too much time with my kids”
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I’ll never look back and think, “I spent too much time with my kids” 🧡