Rainbow animals for our Rainbow Baby’s room.... coloured with love and mindful contemplation of our family’s experiences, past, present and future. 🙏🏼💕👼🏻🐳♥️🐶🧘♂️🤰🏻🌈💕🙏🏼 Today I am well over 39 weeks pregnant - my due date is 4 days away! The stitch has been out over two weeks! It has been a gazillion degrees outside and my body hurts in ways I have never known about. I’m emotional to the point of blubbering most days - often with no real explanation - and I really, really would like to meet Wriggles very soon.
The challenge with the stitch is that I never thought we’d make it to term, let alone our due date... my goal was 34 weeks, hoping to hold our baby when s/he is born and to avoid a NICU stay. 5+ weeks on I’m still preggars, something I had not prepared for. I’m wondering if I needed to rest so much in earlier months after all? Also wondering when this baby will come so I can sleep again. (Then realizing that sleep won’t happen anyway!). So here I realize that, however hard this feels now, there are 2 important things I must remember:
1. I am truly happy and grateful to understand and experience the challenges of carrying a baby to due date
2. Months ago, I would have snapped the hand off anyone who offered me a deal that I’d make it to my due date... ...and so we wait, as I am not the boss of this decision. Wriggles is. And if s/he is comfy, I will try to be too. Especially as, when this little next little rainbow arrives, I know it’s going to knock me for six - in every way possible. So there is no need to rush. I’m petrified of my own emotions, but also so well supported, and incredibly excited for our family to grow.
Any day now....!!! #growingarainbowbaby#cerclage#duedatebaby ?! #mindfulness#emotionaloverdrive#gratitude#determination#grace#excitedforwriggles 😬 #missingchloe 😥 #chloefilipagracecalder