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Amazing performance by #brittensinfonia of #keatonhenson: #sixlethargies exploring themes of #mentalillness, #trauma and #empathy
Unfortunately, you can barely see my cane in this one, but it matches my Lapis costume so well! It's blue with scales. It's a mermaid cane! I got really excited about how well it up AND about having a costume that made it super easy to use my cane and pose with it. I've stopped doing hall photos without it, and honestly people always are so kind about that.

I used to be embarrassed and not want photos with my cane. I used to not take it with me on "good" days, but now I value my well-being over the perception I may receive. I want to start posting more photos with my cane while at conventions.

I hope this trio of posts helps someone find confidence. I am in the process of getting a network together and expanding my panels to being a three part series. I want to set up a facebook group so people can post and get advice or just meet others in the community.

We are beautiful. Every single one of you are wonderful.

#cosplay #cosplayersofinstagram #cosplayer #taylormadecosplay #disability disabledcosplayer #disabledcosplayers #chronicpain #mentalillness #physicaldisability #mentaldisability #cosplayerswithconfidence
Unfortunately, you can barely see my cane in this one, but it matches my Lapis costume so well! It's blue with scales. It's a mermaid cane! I got really excited about how well it up AND about having a costume that made it super easy to use my cane and pose with it. I've stopped doing hall photos without it, and honestly people always are so kind about that. I used to be embarrassed and not want photos with my cane. I used to not take it with me on "good" days, but now I value my well-being over the perception I may receive. I want to start posting more photos with my cane while at conventions. I hope this trio of posts helps someone find confidence. I am in the process of getting a network together and expanding my panels to being a three part series. I want to set up a facebook group so people can post and get advice or just meet others in the community. We are beautiful. Every single one of you are wonderful. #cosplay  #cosplayersofinstagram  #cosplayer  #taylormadecosplay  #disability  disabledcosplayer #disabledcosplayers  #chronicpain  #mentalillness  #physicaldisability  #mentaldisability  #cosplayerswithconfidence 
July 22, 2018
So yesterday i had a big existencial crisis, like usual, I thought so much shit (everything is two posts back) and i even cried. So (tw) i self harmed in the thighs, not too deep tbh cuz it was still early and mom was awake. Then i reached to my bed and tried to sleep as i was tired but mom came inside my room and saw some oxygenated water i used to disinfect, so she asked if I cutted and made me show her. She saw the bloody napkins at the trash in my room and cried and told me to dress up cuz she was gonna take me to the hospital or call the ambulance. She said she was gonna take me to the mental health hospital i was gonna be inpatient at but i know that’s not gonna happen bc she doesn’t has money to pay for that nor she has a medical insurance. I’m planning to attempt suicide once again in this days. I can’t stand myself anymore.
July 22, 2018 So yesterday i had a big existencial crisis, like usual, I thought so much shit (everything is two posts back) and i even cried. So (tw) i self harmed in the thighs, not too deep tbh cuz it was still early and mom was awake. Then i reached to my bed and tried to sleep as i was tired but mom came inside my room and saw some oxygenated water i used to disinfect, so she asked if I cutted and made me show her. She saw the bloody napkins at the trash in my room and cried and told me to dress up cuz she was gonna take me to the hospital or call the ambulance. She said she was gonna take me to the mental health hospital i was gonna be inpatient at but i know that’s not gonna happen bc she doesn’t has money to pay for that nor she has a medical insurance. I’m planning to attempt suicide once again in this days. I can’t stand myself anymore.
I feel like utter shit today. Fighting a fever, so conflicted about getting older, whether I want/can face having another child, hating how the stress and anxiety of the past two months has totally disrupted my diet and seen me eat terribly. I default to crap when everything spins out of control. I'm pay for it too. This month, my PMDD was horrific. Anxiety over every little word written and spoken. I am so disappointed in myself for falling spectacularly off the wagon. The PMDD had reduced to almost nothing. One month of eating junk and little exercise saw it return with a vengance.
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Yes, yes, don't beat yourself up yadayada, you've had a fever of 39 degrees for a week and no sleep, sick child, post ovulation hormones etc etc. I know the drill. But when your brain is actively fighting against you and the whispers of self destruction grip you, there's very little I can do but try to stay alive. . 
So this afternoon I stuffed down some Feminax and paracetamol and the two of us headed into town to give sick husband a break. We went to my favourite Kskincare store and bought me some goodies and we had schsffijs, this amazing Surinamese drink which reminds me of Ice Kachang. Shaved ice with a ton of flavours to choose from (I had orange with milk). We sat and watched the world go by on this sunny Sunday, sipping our Schaffijs, feeding pigeons and it was just perfect. There is no better tonic than spending quality time with my daughter. She's the greatest thing in the universe.
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I will start again tomorrow with food. Eliminating all sugar and gluten had an amazing impact before. For today, I've minimised the damage. Hypnotised and ready to chill for the rest of the evening to bring the cortisol under control before sleep. Reminding myself of good things, cycle back at a healthy 28 days after a scary 25 days last month (I stopped Vitex, why did I take it when I have hypothyroid!) lighter period, the intense pressure of PMDD gone so I can focus for a couple of weeks at least. There's always a chance to turn it round #mentalhealth #mentalillness #BPD #cptsd #PTSD #bipolar #pmdd #pmt #mentalhealthdiary #weightlossdiary #weightloss #mother #daughter #motherdaughter
I feel like utter shit today. Fighting a fever, so conflicted about getting older, whether I want/can face having another child, hating how the stress and anxiety of the past two months has totally disrupted my diet and seen me eat terribly. I default to crap when everything spins out of control. I'm pay for it too. This month, my PMDD was horrific. Anxiety over every little word written and spoken. I am so disappointed in myself for falling spectacularly off the wagon. The PMDD had reduced to almost nothing. One month of eating junk and little exercise saw it return with a vengance. . Yes, yes, don't beat yourself up yadayada, you've had a fever of 39 degrees for a week and no sleep, sick child, post ovulation hormones etc etc. I know the drill. But when your brain is actively fighting against you and the whispers of self destruction grip you, there's very little I can do but try to stay alive. . So this afternoon I stuffed down some Feminax and paracetamol and the two of us headed into town to give sick husband a break. We went to my favourite Kskincare store and bought me some goodies and we had schsffijs, this amazing Surinamese drink which reminds me of Ice Kachang. Shaved ice with a ton of flavours to choose from (I had orange with milk). We sat and watched the world go by on this sunny Sunday, sipping our Schaffijs, feeding pigeons and it was just perfect. There is no better tonic than spending quality time with my daughter. She's the greatest thing in the universe. . I will start again tomorrow with food. Eliminating all sugar and gluten had an amazing impact before. For today, I've minimised the damage. Hypnotised and ready to chill for the rest of the evening to bring the cortisol under control before sleep. Reminding myself of good things, cycle back at a healthy 28 days after a scary 25 days last month (I stopped Vitex, why did I take it when I have hypothyroid!) lighter period, the intense pressure of PMDD gone so I can focus for a couple of weeks at least. There's always a chance to turn it round #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #BPD  #cptsd  #PTSD  #bipolar  #pmdd  #pmt  #mentalhealthdiary  #weightlossdiary  #weightloss  #mother  #daughter  #motherdaughter 
Honestly bumping into people when I’m out and seeing they are wearing their MBGM stuff gives me life 😩❤️ 💌order online, link in bio💌
www.madebygeorgiamai.co.uk🐝
#mentalhealth #mentalillness #recovery #mentalhealthart  #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthgift #depression #psychosis #bipolar #bpd #mania #hypomania #schizophrenia #eatingdisorder #gift #onlinestore #madebygeorgiamai #endstigma #stopstigma #handmade #mind #mindcharity #life #mentalhealthmatters #selfcare #nohate #mentalhealthfashion #mentalhealthclothing #mbgm
Honestly bumping into people when I’m out and seeing they are wearing their MBGM stuff gives me life 😩❤️ 💌order online, link in bio💌 www.madebygeorgiamai.co.uk🐝 #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #recovery  #mentalhealthart  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthgift  #depression  #psychosis  #bipolar  #bpd  #mania  #hypomania  #schizophrenia  #eatingdisorder  #gift  #onlinestore  #madebygeorgiamai  #endstigma  #stopstigma  #handmade  #mind  #mindcharity  #life  #mentalhealthmatters  #selfcare  #nohate  #mentalhealthfashion  #mentalhealthclothing  #mbgm 
July 22, 2018
It's only 2 o'clock and I'm already having the worst day😔 but at least I can count on my pupper to cuddle with me
July 22, 2018 It's only 2 o'clock and I'm already having the worst day😔 but at least I can count on my pupper to cuddle with me
The exhaustion I’ve been feeling the last few days after spending time with people is unreal ... I literally just need to be on my own ... all the time ... sleep 
#mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #medicated #medication #ihatemymeds #ineedmymeds #tryingtorecover #selfharmrecovery #metoo #surviving #ptsd #pcos #anxiety #depression #bpd #cyclothymia #eupd #queen #borderlinepersonalitydisorder
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Weekend update !!
Saturday was super fun at pride🌈 (swipe for some pics) and I made a few friends, one of which we exchanged numbers😊I didn't feel agitated at all despite the crowds and dirt and ate like a normal person. Definitely going next year with them !
Today I was so happy to see Demi again and cheer her up during her recent section. So exhausted but refreshed from the walk but I ate chocolate finger fuel so all is good😋
Hope everyone had a good weekend ! What are your plans this week ? Ever been to pride ?💕
Weekend update !! Saturday was super fun at pride🌈 (swipe for some pics) and I made a few friends, one of which we exchanged numbers😊I didn't feel agitated at all despite the crowds and dirt and ate like a normal person. Definitely going next year with them ! Today I was so happy to see Demi again and cheer her up during her recent section. So exhausted but refreshed from the walk but I ate chocolate finger fuel so all is good😋 Hope everyone had a good weekend ! What are your plans this week ? Ever been to pride ?💕
I have borderline personality disorder. Some days I'm great. Other days I'm not. If you see my social media come and go that's a good indication of how I am. This weekend....I've been better. 
When someone takes their life they are taking back control. Maybe it's just because they are tired of hurting. Maybe it's a sense of nobility toaie life better for others. Regardless, the perception isn't to make everyone's life worse. On the contrary, the person thinks people are better off. 
Regrann from @huffpost -  Today, we remember the kind soul and comic genius of Robin Williams on what would have been his 67th birthday. He will forever be missed. 💔⠀
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From @kristenbellon :
I will be lifting at this Charity meet on July 28th.  Please consider a donation to the Prodigal Foundation whose mission is to raise funds and fairly distribute them to Prodigals who are seeking personal addiction recovery treatment to fight the disease of addiction. ❤️You can do a flat donation or donate any amount per pound that I deadlift... aiming for 350-400 (!!!).❤️ ALL proceeds from the event and sale of shirts will go towards The Prodigal Foundation: 
https://prodigalfoundation.org/donate/ ❤️THANK YOU!  CONQUER MENTAL ILLNESS ❤️
July 28th at @irongroundgym
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Click the link @tfleks  profile to register. 
Grab your limited edition Team Fleks Conquer T-shirt by @utahstrong
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All proceeds of the shirts and the event will go towards https://prodigalfoundation.org/
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Conquer is a Charity Deadlift only meet to help raise awareness and support for mental illness. Please join us!

#mentalhealth #mentalillness #nostigma #endstigma #USPApower
#weightlifting #stengthtraining #workout #npcutah #fitspo #utahfitfam #onlinepersonaltrainer #onlinecoach #healthandfitness #fatloss # #wontstop #coaching #hustle #onlinebusiness #workout
I have borderline personality disorder. Some days I'm great. Other days I'm not. If you see my social media come and go that's a good indication of how I am. This weekend....I've been better. When someone takes their life they are taking back control. Maybe it's just because they are tired of hurting. Maybe it's a sense of nobility toaie life better for others. Regardless, the perception isn't to make everyone's life worse. On the contrary, the person thinks people are better off. Regrann from @huffpost - Today, we remember the kind soul and comic genius of Robin Williams on what would have been his 67th birthday. He will forever be missed. 💔⠀ ⠀ 📸: Getty Images - #regrann  From @kristenbellon : I will be lifting at this Charity meet on July 28th. Please consider a donation to the Prodigal Foundation whose mission is to raise funds and fairly distribute them to Prodigals who are seeking personal addiction recovery treatment to fight the disease of addiction. ❤️You can do a flat donation or donate any amount per pound that I deadlift... aiming for 350-400 (!!!).❤️ ALL proceeds from the event and sale of shirts will go towards The Prodigal Foundation: https://prodigalfoundation.org/donate/ ❤️THANK YOU! CONQUER MENTAL ILLNESS ❤️ July 28th at @irongroundgym • Click the link @tfleks profile to register. Grab your limited edition Team Fleks Conquer T-shirt by @utahstrong • All proceeds of the shirts and the event will go towards https://prodigalfoundation.org/ • Conquer is a Charity Deadlift only meet to help raise awareness and support for mental illness. Please join us! #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #nostigma  #endstigma  #USPApower  #weightlifting  #stengthtraining  #workout  #npcutah  #fitspo  #utahfitfam  #onlinepersonaltrainer  #onlinecoach  #healthandfitness  #fatloss  # #wontstop  #coaching  #hustle  #onlinebusiness  #workout 
So who has heard of Lexi Manion? You can check her out @lexiemanion and read her blog👉🏻https://lexiemanion.com
I've been reading and thinking right on!  I only wish at 23 I had come to an acceptance of myself rather than beat myself up for decades and develop so many health issues due to years of yo-yo dieting and self-loathing and self-abuse.  We each have our story! Check hers out-she's a fierce and brave young woman ❤️Love yourself now, not "someday when...." and as always, take care of yourself❤️
#shoutout #positivity #activist #yourhealthmatters #eatingdisorders #loveyourself #lovecomesinALLsizes #endthestigma #mentalillness #shoutout #tag
So who has heard of Lexi Manion? You can check her out @lexiemanion and read her blog👉🏻https://lexiemanion.com I've been reading and thinking right on! I only wish at 23 I had come to an acceptance of myself rather than beat myself up for decades and develop so many health issues due to years of yo-yo dieting and self-loathing and self-abuse. We each have our story! Check hers out-she's a fierce and brave young woman ❤️Love yourself now, not "someday when...." and as always, take care of yourself❤️ #shoutout  #positivity  #activist  #yourhealthmatters  #eatingdisorders  #loveyourself  #lovecomesinALLsizes  #endthestigma  #mentalillness  #shoutout  #tag 
When you are going under REACH OUT
When you are going under REACH OUT
No shame in taking prescription pills.  You were prescribed them for a reason! 💇‍♀️ @hair_by_brigettek #medicine #pills #drugs #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #bipolar #anxiety #depression #recovery #ptsd #beyou #isoknottobeok #fighter #cantstopwontstop
I love Taako because my cane compliments the costume SO well AND I can use my umbrella for support. And the reception I receive is amazing! Even outside of cons, I have people so excited to see me and compliment how extra my cane is.

#cosplay #cosplayersofinstagram #cosplayer #taylormadecosplay #disability disabledcosplayer #disabledcosplayers #chronicpain #mentalillness #physicaldisability #mentaldisability #cosplayerswithconfidence
“What if I would have ended my life?
What if wouldn’t have gotten help or accepted it?”
▪️I wouldn’t have celebrated my birthday and killed a little mermaid piñata ▪️I wouldn’t have found my passion for my job as a geriatric carer ▪️I wouldn’t have met so many good people that are now a part of my life ▪️I wouldn’t have written my own book! ▪️I wouldn’t have expierenced me giving so much trust to someone else ▪️I wouldn’t have met the person I am without my illnesses ▪️I wouldn’t have seen me become truly happy ▪️I wouldn’t be here to experience the best time of my life

But I don’t need to waste my time on these thoughts. Because I AM here. 🖤
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“What if I would have ended my life? What if wouldn’t have gotten help or accepted it?” ▪️I wouldn’t have celebrated my birthday and killed a little mermaid piñata ▪️I wouldn’t have found my passion for my job as a geriatric carer ▪️I wouldn’t have met so many good people that are now a part of my life ▪️I wouldn’t have written my own book! ▪️I wouldn’t have expierenced me giving so much trust to someone else ▪️I wouldn’t have met the person I am without my illnesses ▪️I wouldn’t have seen me become truly happy ▪️I wouldn’t be here to experience the best time of my life But I don’t need to waste my time on these thoughts. Because I AM here. 🖤 • • • #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthblog  #mentalhealthblogger  #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #depressionquotes  #anxietysupport  #anxiety  #panicattack  #ocd  #bipolardisorder  #bipolar  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #suicide  #indieauthor  #personalblogger  #influencer  #personalblog  #writersofinstagram  #poetrycommunity  #gratitude  #buddhism  #mindfulness  #whatif 
Every two weeks, I'll be on FB/Insta LIVE available to answer any questions about therapy or mental health! I'll feature a variety of professionals from different topic areas....nutrition, psychiatry, safety, nursing, psychology, outreach, leadership, Latinx studies, and SO MANY MORE!
The next appearances are every two weeks on Mondays (Mountain Standard Time) :
July 30 @730 pm
August 6 @730 pm
August 20 @730 pm
September 3 @730 pm
September 17 @730 pm
#fightingthestigma #therapy #multidisciplinary #holistichealth #traumainformedcare #collateralinfo #teamwork #lifteachother #mentalhealthmatters #mindbodyspirit #mentalillness
Every two weeks, I'll be on FB/Insta LIVE available to answer any questions about therapy or mental health! I'll feature a variety of professionals from different topic areas....nutrition, psychiatry, safety, nursing, psychology, outreach, leadership, Latinx studies, and SO MANY MORE! The next appearances are every two weeks on Mondays (Mountain Standard Time) : July 30 @730 pm August 6 @730 pm August 20 @730 pm September 3 @730 pm September 17 @730 pm #fightingthestigma  #therapy  #multidisciplinary  #holistichealth  #traumainformedcare  #collateralinfo  #teamwork  #lifteachother  #mentalhealthmatters  #mindbodyspirit  #mentalillness 
Diary entry No. 287
What did you want to be when you were younger?
I wanted to be a writer
I was forever making up stories with my toys and then writing it all down and making mini books.
My anxiety kind of kicked in and I’ve never had the confidence to make anything of it, I don’t take rejection very well and if there is a chance that I’ll get it then I shy away from those situations.
I really hope I can teach my daughter to be... well... nothing like her mother I guess 😂
Lots of love, BorderlinePersonalityGirl x
Repost from @hott_mess_express 
#mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthblogger #depression #depressed #selfharm #selfinflicted #scars #selfharmscars #selfinjury #suicide #suicidalthoughts #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #triggerwarning #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #personalitydisorder #eupd 
#life#abusesurvivor #selfhate #selfhatred #emotions #anxiety #invisibleillness #mentalhealthawareness #medication #selfharmrecovery #bpdrecovery #youarestrongerthanyouthink
Diary entry No. 287 What did you want to be when you were younger? I wanted to be a writer I was forever making up stories with my toys and then writing it all down and making mini books. My anxiety kind of kicked in and I’ve never had the confidence to make anything of it, I don’t take rejection very well and if there is a chance that I’ll get it then I shy away from those situations. I really hope I can teach my daughter to be... well... nothing like her mother I guess 😂 Lots of love, BorderlinePersonalityGirl x Repost from @hott_mess_express #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthblogger  #depression  #depressed  #selfharm  #selfinflicted  #scars  #selfharmscars  #selfinjury  #suicide  #suicidalthoughts  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #triggerwarning  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #personalitydisorder  #eupd  #life #abusesurvivor  #selfhate  #selfhatred  #emotions  #anxiety  #invisibleillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #medication  #selfharmrecovery  #bpdrecovery  #youarestrongerthanyouthink 
📱📸Picture of The Day📸📱
#canadiancloudkings365dayphotochallange
#POTDday75
Trying to stay creative and take pictures of other things so here’s a picture of part of a blanket it my room. I’ve always liked the patterns on this so I thought I would share this with you!!
As always I love any feedback!!
Lemme know what you think in the comments!!
Keep spreading those positive vibes😁✌️👍
Stay lifted 🔥💨🤙
And do you!! ☝️🙌
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#365dayphotochallenge #dayseventyfive #blanket #patterns #art #abstract #hippiestyle #lifethings
📱📸Picture of The Day📸📱 #canadiancloudkings365dayphotochallange  #POTDday75  Trying to stay creative and take pictures of other things so here’s a picture of part of a blanket it my room. I’ve always liked the patterns on this so I thought I would share this with you!! As always I love any feedback!! Lemme know what you think in the comments!! Keep spreading those positive vibes😁✌️👍 Stay lifted 🔥💨🤙 And do you!! ☝️🙌 . . . #365dayphotochallenge  #dayseventyfive  #blanket  #patterns  #art  #abstract  #hippiestyle  #lifethings 
Today is going to be a different day in terms of posts because I received excellent news about my AWA panel being accepted!

I'm very open about my disability and have to manage conventions and cosplays around my chronic pain and mental illness. I suffer from constant, intense pain on my left hip and leg that makes it hard to walk around conventions without a mobility aide. I either use a cane, or in serious circumstances, I will rent a wheelchair.

I am often approached by my cane at cons with compliments and have met a LOT of amazing people through being open about my disability. I have been working hard to help people find confidence in themselves and their costumes while using their mobility aides. I've been trying to encourage people to not put the perception of the public above their own physical well-being.

Many cosplayers are afraid to use any mobility aide because of the negative attention we receive. I have heard nasty things, but the encouragement and solidarity is so much louder and more important to me than the negativity I have experienced.

I am so proud of AWA for accepting my panel. I will be presenting an hour long panel on disabilities in the cosplay and convention world. The first thirty minutes will be informative with info from my panelists, then the final thirty minutes will be us opening the conversation to the attendees so we can hear other voices from people with both visible and invisible disabilities, and how they manage conventions.

This isn't about visibility for just one of us. This is about visibility for all of us and solidarity. We are a community of our own, and we are so bright.

#cosplay #cosplayersofinstagram #cosplayer #taylormadecosplay #disability disabledcosplayer #disabledcosplayers #chronicpain #mentalillness #physicaldisability #mentaldisability #cosplayerswithconfidence
Today is going to be a different day in terms of posts because I received excellent news about my AWA panel being accepted! I'm very open about my disability and have to manage conventions and cosplays around my chronic pain and mental illness. I suffer from constant, intense pain on my left hip and leg that makes it hard to walk around conventions without a mobility aide. I either use a cane, or in serious circumstances, I will rent a wheelchair. I am often approached by my cane at cons with compliments and have met a LOT of amazing people through being open about my disability. I have been working hard to help people find confidence in themselves and their costumes while using their mobility aides. I've been trying to encourage people to not put the perception of the public above their own physical well-being. Many cosplayers are afraid to use any mobility aide because of the negative attention we receive. I have heard nasty things, but the encouragement and solidarity is so much louder and more important to me than the negativity I have experienced. I am so proud of AWA for accepting my panel. I will be presenting an hour long panel on disabilities in the cosplay and convention world. The first thirty minutes will be informative with info from my panelists, then the final thirty minutes will be us opening the conversation to the attendees so we can hear other voices from people with both visible and invisible disabilities, and how they manage conventions. This isn't about visibility for just one of us. This is about visibility for all of us and solidarity. We are a community of our own, and we are so bright. #cosplay  #cosplayersofinstagram  #cosplayer  #taylormadecosplay  #disability  disabledcosplayer #disabledcosplayers  #chronicpain  #mentalillness  #physicaldisability  #mentaldisability  #cosplayerswithconfidence 
Hey everyone! 👋🏻 You know what time it is? Tag challenge time 😉✨
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This week is: “3 places you feel comfortable in” ✨.
That could be physically or mentally comfortable, or just some places you like to be. 
I immediately thought of my bed but I’ve decided you CAN put your bed but maybe try and think of other places first? 😂
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🌈In my back garden there’s a deckchair where I sometimes read. Over the fence, there’s a hedge where you get a lot of birdsong from so you can sit there and listen to the tweets (examples of which are on my story highlight named “☀️”. .
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🌈The beach is a fairly recent rediscovery 😂. It used to be triggering for me (it still depends on how I feel) but I feel like the sea air is reviving but also, it makes you sufficiently tired (you know that sea air tired feeling?) But I hope to get more acquainted with the beach in St. Andrews! .
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🌈I know that buses are stressful for lots of people but I’m very used to buses (my family didn’t have a car until 2014 because my dad works as a timetable scheduler so my parents get free travel). I quite like travelling, it gives you time to think but mostly I find that car journeys cause more difficult thoughts than on buses because you’ve got more people around you to ground you (not too busy though!) .
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I’d really like to see your lists - please join in and make your own posts! I look forward to them 🙈✨
I hope everyone has a good week- my week starts off quite busy 😯
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Hey everyone! 👋🏻 You know what time it is? Tag challenge time 😉✨ . This week is: “3 places you feel comfortable in” ✨. That could be physically or mentally comfortable, or just some places you like to be. I immediately thought of my bed but I’ve decided you CAN put your bed but maybe try and think of other places first? 😂 . . Here is my list: 🌈In my back garden there’s a deckchair where I sometimes read. Over the fence, there’s a hedge where you get a lot of birdsong from so you can sit there and listen to the tweets (examples of which are on my story highlight named “☀️”. . . 🌈The beach is a fairly recent rediscovery 😂. It used to be triggering for me (it still depends on how I feel) but I feel like the sea air is reviving but also, it makes you sufficiently tired (you know that sea air tired feeling?) But I hope to get more acquainted with the beach in St. Andrews! . . 🌈I know that buses are stressful for lots of people but I’m very used to buses (my family didn’t have a car until 2014 because my dad works as a timetable scheduler so my parents get free travel). I quite like travelling, it gives you time to think but mostly I find that car journeys cause more difficult thoughts than on buses because you’ve got more people around you to ground you (not too busy though!) . . I’d really like to see your lists - please join in and make your own posts! I look forward to them 🙈✨ I hope everyone has a good week- my week starts off quite busy 😯 . . . . . . . . . . #depressionrecovery  #depression  #depressed  #depressionblog  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #eatingdisorder  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalillnessrecovery  #mentalillnessawareness  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthblogger  #blogger  #mentalhealthmatters  #recovery  #recovering  #positivevibes  #positivity  #positive  #positivequotes  #aesthetic  #rainbow  #tumblr  #tagchallenge 
Meu prato preferido do Camarão e Cia na promoção de sempre. Almoço com a família no @shoppingnovaamerica. Camarão ao alho e óleo com arroz e batatas fritas. Só amoooo!
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My favorite foof of Camarão and Cia in the promotion. Lunch with family at @shoppingnovaamerica. Garlic shrimp and oil with rice and chips. Just loooooove It!
#bipolar #bypolarix #bipolardisorder #mooddisorder #mentalillness #anxiety #transtornobipolar #mania #depressao #psicose  #depression #ansiedade #psychosis #happiness  #CIDF31 #dailybattle #domingo #gratitude #speedy #sunday #faith #happiness #joy #camaraoecia #shoppingnovaamerica #delcastilho #riodejaneiro #lunch #shrimp #rice #frenchfries
Meu prato preferido do Camarão e Cia na promoção de sempre. Almoço com a família no @shoppingnovaamerica. Camarão ao alho e óleo com arroz e batatas fritas. Só amoooo! * * * My favorite foof of Camarão and Cia in the promotion. Lunch with family at @shoppingnovaamerica. Garlic shrimp and oil with rice and chips. Just loooooove It! #bipolar  #bypolarix  #bipolardisorder  #mooddisorder  #mentalillness  #anxiety  #transtornobipolar  #mania  #depressao  #psicose  #depression  #ansiedade  #psychosis  #happiness  #CIDF31  #dailybattle  #domingo  #gratitude  #speedy  #sunday  #faith  #happiness  #joy  #camaraoecia  #shoppingnovaamerica  #delcastilho  #riodejaneiro  #lunch  #shrimp  #rice  #frenchfries 
El malestar puede ser intenso, pero no será eterno. Busca ayuda, haz los cambios necesarios y enfócate en tu bienestar. No te rindas, la vida es maravillosa. ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ The discomfort can be intense but it will not be eternal. Seek help, make the necessary adjustments and focus on your well-being. Do not give up, life is wonderful.

#buscandolacalma #saludmental #ansiedad #depresión #apoyo #ayuda #bienestar #vida #recuperación #amorpropio #noterindas #seekingcalmness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #anxiety #depression #ocd #discomfort #support #help #life #recovery #selflove #wellbeing #wellness #donotgiveup #nohealthwithoutmentalhealth #mindfulness #endthestigma
El malestar puede ser intenso, pero no será eterno. Busca ayuda, haz los cambios necesarios y enfócate en tu bienestar. No te rindas, la vida es maravillosa. ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ The discomfort can be intense but it will not be eternal. Seek help, make the necessary adjustments and focus on your well-being. Do not give up, life is wonderful. #buscandolacalma  #saludmental  #ansiedad  #depresión  #apoyo  #ayuda  #bienestar  #vida  #recuperación  #amorpropio  #noterindas  #seekingcalmness  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #anxiety  #depression  #ocd  #discomfort  #support  #help  #life  #recovery  #selflove  #wellbeing  #wellness  #donotgiveup  #nohealthwithoutmentalhealth  #mindfulness  #endthestigma 
What did I even do? I haven't even left my room. If it was something online then......Okay, I'm screwed. 😂😭😩
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🔊 Dragi naši, u okviru rubrike Psihopis ste izabrali da čitate na temu "Tama u nama. Otvoreno o depresiji...". 📃
Saznajte kako da razlikujete tugu, kao zdravu neprijatnu emociju od depresije, kao patološkog stanja. Saznajte koji su to simptomi depresije i na koje načine ovo stanje može biti "maskirano". 💡
Tama u nama više nije fama! 😊
👆 link u opisu profila 👆
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🔊 Dragi naši, u okviru rubrike Psihopis ste izabrali da čitate na temu "Tama u nama. Otvoreno o depresiji...". 📃 Saznajte kako da razlikujete tugu, kao zdravu neprijatnu emociju od depresije, kao patološkog stanja. Saznajte koji su to simptomi depresije i na koje načine ovo stanje može biti "maskirano". 💡 Tama u nama više nije fama! 😊 👆 link u opisu profila 👆 #depression  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #sadness  #psychology  #psychotherapy  #advice  #novisad 
"Excuse me, but you're about to freak out and I'm here to stop that." Lol, thanks Nina. There's nothing quite like waking up after having a PTSD inducing dream where one of your ex friends is gaslighting you again. I woke up shaking and nearly vomited. Very thankful for my #pawtner 😝😥💜🐶
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#Nina #NinaTheServiceStaffy #adoptresponsibly #shopresponsibly #adoptthecropped #pitbullsofinstagram #pibble #amstaffsofinstagram #ICouldLiveWithoutHer #ButIChooseLife #breatheinbreatheout #ilovemyrescue #tasktrained #mentalillness #mentalhealth #depression #gad #panicdisorder #ilovemyfamily #dontbullymybreed #dogswithjobs #happytohelp #pibblesmile #servicedogssavelives #servicedogsofinstagram #dontdistractservicedogs #workingdog #spoonie
"Excuse me, but you're about to freak out and I'm here to stop that." Lol, thanks Nina. There's nothing quite like waking up after having a PTSD inducing dream where one of your ex friends is gaslighting you again. I woke up shaking and nearly vomited. Very thankful for my #pawtner  😝😥💜🐶 ; ; ; #Nina  #NinaTheServiceStaffy  #adoptresponsibly  #shopresponsibly  #adoptthecropped  #pitbullsofinstagram  #pibble  #amstaffsofinstagram  #ICouldLiveWithoutHer  #ButIChooseLife  #breatheinbreatheout  #ilovemyrescue  #tasktrained  #mentalillness  #mentalhealth  #depression  #gad  #panicdisorder  #ilovemyfamily  #dontbullymybreed  #dogswithjobs  #happytohelp  #pibblesmile  #servicedogssavelives  #servicedogsofinstagram  #dontdistractservicedogs  #workingdog  #spoonie 
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//long post (personal-mental health)
This is a different sort of post for me and though it terrifies me, it's important to talk about it. I'm taking this trip as an opportunity for a much needed reset. I've struggled with managing my mental health in the past and this past year has been particularly difficult. For me, anxiety manifests in perpetual overthinking, in states of oppressive worry and fear. It interrupts my sleep and my enjoyment of life in general. I have a hard time being present and not being inhibited in my interactions with people and the world around me. 
Up until recently, maintaining my mental health had been a pretty isolated journey. I felt that my private struggles were shameful and that revealing them meant that I was weak and that they had conquered me. For years, I was silent even as I felt it changing me, corrupting the things I loved to do and making what connections I forged with other people feel tenuous. I shoved it all down and endured it, trying to be "strong" though I vaguely realized I was only compounding the issues. That was the game I played until the support system I took for granted was yanked out from under me and I found myself bankrupt of emotional stability. 
I had no tools to cope with it. I floundered. And then I didn't. I stopped resisting the depression and helplessness threatening to capsize me and just checked out. For months. Only other people pulled me out the other side. 
In the time since, I have sought out therapy and am now on medication. It's now something I can talk about without shame. I have learned coping mechanisms to avoid my panic attacks and manage my depression. I try to keep my senses engaged and focus on my outward experiences to keep my thoughts from turning too inward and too anxious. Thus, the reason that I share these pictures. My intention is for them to be a reminder to stay in the present moment, to enjoy little things in the world around me. Maybe they can be a reminder to other people, too. At the very least, they're pretty. 😊

And if any of you need to talk, please know that I am always available to listen.

#mentalhealthawareness
#depression #anxiety #mentalillness
Jewel tones . . //long post (personal-mental health) This is a different sort of post for me and though it terrifies me, it's important to talk about it. I'm taking this trip as an opportunity for a much needed reset. I've struggled with managing my mental health in the past and this past year has been particularly difficult. For me, anxiety manifests in perpetual overthinking, in states of oppressive worry and fear. It interrupts my sleep and my enjoyment of life in general. I have a hard time being present and not being inhibited in my interactions with people and the world around me. Up until recently, maintaining my mental health had been a pretty isolated journey. I felt that my private struggles were shameful and that revealing them meant that I was weak and that they had conquered me. For years, I was silent even as I felt it changing me, corrupting the things I loved to do and making what connections I forged with other people feel tenuous. I shoved it all down and endured it, trying to be "strong" though I vaguely realized I was only compounding the issues. That was the game I played until the support system I took for granted was yanked out from under me and I found myself bankrupt of emotional stability. I had no tools to cope with it. I floundered. And then I didn't. I stopped resisting the depression and helplessness threatening to capsize me and just checked out. For months. Only other people pulled me out the other side. In the time since, I have sought out therapy and am now on medication. It's now something I can talk about without shame. I have learned coping mechanisms to avoid my panic attacks and manage my depression. I try to keep my senses engaged and focus on my outward experiences to keep my thoughts from turning too inward and too anxious. Thus, the reason that I share these pictures. My intention is for them to be a reminder to stay in the present moment, to enjoy little things in the world around me. Maybe they can be a reminder to other people, too. At the very least, they're pretty. 😊 And if any of you need to talk, please know that I am always available to listen. #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #anxiety  #mentalillness 
PLEASE READ:  I swear to god my mental illnesses are forever set out to destroy me. I can be one of the loudest people in the room at times, but other times I feel like I am being crippled by my anxiety. Torn apart for being me and struggling to force the words out to let people know how I’m feeling.

I want to hide away and go to sleep, but on the outside there is nothing wrong, I look well, I smile and I feel brave when I face the world. Inside I feel empty, lonely and sad, even when surrounded by those who care the most. 
My mental illness makes me feel lazy, ugly and like the worst person in the world, because I let the voice in my head win. But that voice is stronger than you’ll ever know, and it’s truly a sad feeling knowing your own worst enemy is you. 😭☹️
PLEASE READ: I swear to god my mental illnesses are forever set out to destroy me. I can be one of the loudest people in the room at times, but other times I feel like I am being crippled by my anxiety. Torn apart for being me and struggling to force the words out to let people know how I’m feeling. I want to hide away and go to sleep, but on the outside there is nothing wrong, I look well, I smile and I feel brave when I face the world. Inside I feel empty, lonely and sad, even when surrounded by those who care the most. My mental illness makes me feel lazy, ugly and like the worst person in the world, because I let the voice in my head win. But that voice is stronger than you’ll ever know, and it’s truly a sad feeling knowing your own worst enemy is you. 😭☹️
For many children and young people the start of the #summerholidays begin properly tomorrow.
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That doesn't necessarily mean it's a holiday from everything as some children and young people may still need support and help with their mental health over the 6 week break.
Here's details of all the Surrey Haven drop in sessions they can access without an appointment where professionals can talk and listen with them.
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The East Surrey Family Centre, The Annexe,
134-138 STATION ROAD Redhill RH1 1ET 
Monday: 3.45pm - 5.15pm
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Leacroft Youth Centre, Raleigh CrescentStaines, TW18 4PB
Monday: 3-5pm
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Ash Youth Centre, Ash Hill Road, Ash, Aldershot,Hampshire, GU12 5DN
Tuesday: 2-5pm
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Malthouse Youth Centre, Mill Ln, Dorking RH4 1DU
Tuesday: 3.45pm - 5.15pm
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Addlestone Youth Centre, Church Road, Addlestone KT15 1SH
Wednesday: 4– 6pm
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Harry’s Youth Centre, 181-183 Station Rd, Oxted RH8 0QE
Wednesday: 3.30pm - 5.30pm
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Focus Youth Centre, 9 Depot Rd, Epsom KT17 4RJ
Wednesday: 3-6pm
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Sheerwater Youth Centre, Blackmore Crescent, Woking, GU21 5NS 
Wednesday 4.30pm – 7pm
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Godalming Library (Surrey Family Services Office, 1st Floor), Bridge Street, Godalming, Surrey GU7 1HT
Thursday: 2-5pm
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Frimley Green Youth Centre, Wharfenden Way, Frimley Green, Camberley GU16 6PJ
Thursday: 3.30pm – 6pm
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Molesey Youth Centre, Ray Rd, West Molesey KT8 2LG
Thursday: 3pm – 6pm
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#surrey #surreyparents #surreylife #parentsofinstagram #youthmentalhealth #youngminds #youngmindsmatter #surreymentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #teenmentalhealth #mindfulness #wellbeing #mindfulparenting #mentalcoach #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthblogger #mentalillness #youngmindguardians
For many children and young people the start of the #summerholidays  begin properly tomorrow. - That doesn't necessarily mean it's a holiday from everything as some children and young people may still need support and help with their mental health over the 6 week break. Here's details of all the Surrey Haven drop in sessions they can access without an appointment where professionals can talk and listen with them. - The East Surrey Family Centre, The Annexe, 134-138 STATION ROAD Redhill RH1 1ET Monday: 3.45pm - 5.15pm - Leacroft Youth Centre, Raleigh CrescentStaines, TW18 4PB Monday: 3-5pm - Ash Youth Centre, Ash Hill Road, Ash, Aldershot,Hampshire, GU12 5DN Tuesday: 2-5pm - Malthouse Youth Centre, Mill Ln, Dorking RH4 1DU Tuesday: 3.45pm - 5.15pm - Addlestone Youth Centre, Church Road, Addlestone KT15 1SH Wednesday: 4– 6pm - Harry’s Youth Centre, 181-183 Station Rd, Oxted RH8 0QE Wednesday: 3.30pm - 5.30pm - Focus Youth Centre, 9 Depot Rd, Epsom KT17 4RJ Wednesday: 3-6pm - Sheerwater Youth Centre, Blackmore Crescent, Woking, GU21 5NS Wednesday 4.30pm – 7pm - Godalming Library (Surrey Family Services Office, 1st Floor), Bridge Street, Godalming, Surrey GU7 1HT Thursday: 2-5pm - Frimley Green Youth Centre, Wharfenden Way, Frimley Green, Camberley GU16 6PJ Thursday: 3.30pm – 6pm - Molesey Youth Centre, Ray Rd, West Molesey KT8 2LG Thursday: 3pm – 6pm - #surrey  #surreyparents  #surreylife  #parentsofinstagram  #youthmentalhealth  #youngminds  #youngmindsmatter  #surreymentalhealthsupport  #mentalhealthsupport  #mentalhealthawareness  #teenmentalhealth  #mindfulness  #wellbeing  #mindfulparenting  #mentalcoach  #mentalhealthadvocate  #mentalhealthblogger  #mentalillness  #youngmindguardians 
swipe through for a lil annotating of a facebook ad that I couldn’t just scroll past. messaging around food and health is not inclusive, and it’s often sneakily dangerous for those w EDs; and honestly harmful for society as a whole.
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#eatingdisorder #ED #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfam #eatingdisorderrecovery #dietculture #cleaneating #plantbased #diet #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #health #antidiet #riotsnotdiets #youareenough #recovery #fatphobia #bodyacceptance
swipe through for a lil annotating of a facebook ad that I couldn’t just scroll past. messaging around food and health is not inclusive, and it’s often sneakily dangerous for those w EDs; and honestly harmful for society as a whole. . . . . . . . . . . . . #eatingdisorder  #ED  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfam  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #dietculture  #cleaneating  #plantbased  #diet  #mentalillness  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #health  #antidiet  #riotsnotdiets  #youareenough  #recovery  #fatphobia  #bodyacceptance 
Behind the scenes photo of the project I'm helping @kimberly.pace13 with! This film will be focusing on life with OCD. It's not just about being a neat freak! Stay tuned for more updates!
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#mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthwarrior #ocd #ocdproblems #depression #anxiety #anxietydisorder #breakthestigma #film #filming #videoproduction #mentalhealthvideos #nikon #canon #dslr #photography #createart #artheals #recovery #revoverywarrior #girlswithink #lgbt #lgbtpride #girlswhokissgirls #folowmyjourney #followher #followme
Behind the scenes photo of the project I'm helping @kimberly.pace13 with! This film will be focusing on life with OCD. It's not just about being a neat freak! Stay tuned for more updates! 🎥📷💊 #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthmatters  #mentalhealthadvocate  #mentalhealthwarrior  #ocd  #ocdproblems  #depression  #anxiety  #anxietydisorder  #breakthestigma  #film  #filming  #videoproduction  #mentalhealthvideos  #nikon  #canon  #dslr  #photography  #createart  #artheals  #recovery  #revoverywarrior  #girlswithink  #lgbt  #lgbtpride  #girlswhokissgirls  #folowmyjourney  #followher  #followme 
It’s a little ironic that I write this a few days after I was appointed to a really prestigious position in the school... one that I wanted, but now am seriously worrying that I won’t be able to live up to, but I suppose it’s good that I got all those emotions out. 
#teenpost #poetrygirl #poetrytime #poetryporn #poetrycommunity #poetry #poetryslam #poetsofig #teenpoet #poetsofinstagram #poetrybyme #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthmatters #inspiration #inspirationalquotes #confidence #power #uplifting #teenpost #teen #anger #failure #depressionquotes #depressionsucks #depression
It’s a little ironic that I write this a few days after I was appointed to a really prestigious position in the school... one that I wanted, but now am seriously worrying that I won’t be able to live up to, but I suppose it’s good that I got all those emotions out. #teenpost  #poetrygirl  #poetrytime  #poetryporn  #poetrycommunity  #poetry  #poetryslam  #poetsofig  #teenpoet  #poetsofinstagram  #poetrybyme  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthmatters  #inspiration  #inspirationalquotes  #confidence  #power  #uplifting  #teenpost  #teen  #anger  #failure  #depressionquotes  #depressionsucks  #depression 
despite the body image struggles, I decided to wear a dress today. I will fight this illness until it has no more voice in my mind... I'm done being tormented by an eating disorder. I deserve a better life, and have so much more to give this world than low weight goals. I'm meeting up with one of my very good friends for coffee, then I am heading to my bestfriends place to sleep over. if I let this illness consume me again, I will not be there for my friends, and that goes against my values. I'm also loving this rainy weather; to me, it has a very poetic atmosphere and that goes along with who I am as a person. 
today is good ❤
#recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #edfam #anorexia #bodyimage #health #mentalhealth #mentalillness #positive #life #poetry #rain
despite the body image struggles, I decided to wear a dress today. I will fight this illness until it has no more voice in my mind... I'm done being tormented by an eating disorder. I deserve a better life, and have so much more to give this world than low weight goals. I'm meeting up with one of my very good friends for coffee, then I am heading to my bestfriends place to sleep over. if I let this illness consume me again, I will not be there for my friends, and that goes against my values. I'm also loving this rainy weather; to me, it has a very poetic atmosphere and that goes along with who I am as a person. today is good ❤ #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #edfam  #anorexia  #bodyimage  #health  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #positive  #life  #poetry  #rain 
— TRIGGER WARNING: sexual assault & self harm
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You hurt me, you scarred me, you took my innocence away,
My mouth has been sealed though you’ve got crimes to pay,
You took away my adulthood, left me here as a child,
Voices so loud, thoughts running wild,
They screamed at me “YOU FUCKING SLUT”,
I take the pain away with a single deep cut,
They scream again “YOU FUCKING WHORE”,
I drag the blade deeper, right to my core,
I bleed out the contamination, all of your dirt,
Do you know what you’ve done to me? All of this hurt,
I scream, I shout, I hysterically cry,
I go numb and still, I’m asked if I’m okay, I lie,
I want to be innocent again, a child so clean,
But now that child is trapped inside a once vulnerable teen,
I hate you and I wish it never ended that way,
But there’s nothing I can do about it and now I’ll never be okay.
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©️ s a d i e r o s e p o e t r y
20•07•18
— TRIGGER WARNING: sexual assault & self harm • You hurt me, you scarred me, you took my innocence away, My mouth has been sealed though you’ve got crimes to pay, You took away my adulthood, left me here as a child, Voices so loud, thoughts running wild, They screamed at me “YOU FUCKING SLUT”, I take the pain away with a single deep cut, They scream again “YOU FUCKING WHORE”, I drag the blade deeper, right to my core, I bleed out the contamination, all of your dirt, Do you know what you’ve done to me? All of this hurt, I scream, I shout, I hysterically cry, I go numb and still, I’m asked if I’m okay, I lie, I want to be innocent again, a child so clean, But now that child is trapped inside a once vulnerable teen, I hate you and I wish it never ended that way, But there’s nothing I can do about it and now I’ll never be okay. — ©️ s a d i e r o s e p o e t r y 20•07•18
I feel disappointed in myself because I was going to work extra hours today but I couldn't go in early.because I woke up in a panic. I just did it 2 days ago but I didn't have the strength to do it again. I will however be working my scheduled shift. .

I was petrified and I'm so thankful to have a boyfriend like mine who came in to comfort me..I'm not sharing this for anyone to feel sorry for me. This is the reality of mental illness. I'm closer to having a better life, but it isn't the life I want. I want to be able to work more and make more money to do what I like to do. .

Before I speak more negative about myself, I will say that I'm proud of what I did 2 days ago, when I refrained from taking my personal day because of my anxiety, and instead I went to work. I have sick days I can use but I'm tired of anxiety controlling me. I'm so tired of being in prison as I call it. I'm so tired of feeling weak and exhausted just from being awake. I just want a "normal" life, can I have more days without anxiety? I miss waking up normally. . .
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#depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #hope #aspie #sadquotes #mentalillness #inspirationalquotes #selfharmmm #words #quotes #youmatter #positivity #spiritual #mentalhealthawareness #words  #wordstoliveby #loveyourself #selflove #yourenotalone #positive #quoteoftheday #endthestigma #recovery #tumblr #youarebeautiful #quotestoliveby
I feel disappointed in myself because I was going to work extra hours today but I couldn't go in early.because I woke up in a panic. I just did it 2 days ago but I didn't have the strength to do it again. I will however be working my scheduled shift. . I was petrified and I'm so thankful to have a boyfriend like mine who came in to comfort me..I'm not sharing this for anyone to feel sorry for me. This is the reality of mental illness. I'm closer to having a better life, but it isn't the life I want. I want to be able to work more and make more money to do what I like to do. . Before I speak more negative about myself, I will say that I'm proud of what I did 2 days ago, when I refrained from taking my personal day because of my anxiety, and instead I went to work. I have sick days I can use but I'm tired of anxiety controlling me. I'm so tired of being in prison as I call it. I'm so tired of feeling weak and exhausted just from being awake. I just want a "normal" life, can I have more days without anxiety? I miss waking up normally. . . . . #depression  #anxiety  #mentalhealth  #hope  #aspie  #sadquotes  #mentalillness  #inspirationalquotes  #selfharmmm  #words  #quotes  #youmatter  #positivity  #spiritual  #mentalhealthawareness  #words  #wordstoliveby  #loveyourself  #selflove  #yourenotalone  #positive  #quoteoftheday  #endthestigma  #recovery  #tumblr  #youarebeautiful  #quotestoliveby 
RATE YOUR AWARENESS from 1-10‼️ Did you know this ⁉️#education #mentalhealth #nyc #help #latino #black #white #diversity #diagnose #diagnosis #mentalillness #children #babies #community #msw #lmsw
Det går framåt 👌

Jag var så svag och trött hela dagen. Ville bara försvinna!
Sovit under dagen och allt har varit likgiltigt MEN har jag KBT schema så ska det följas 🤜🏼🤜🏼
Och otroligt nog klarade jag det galant utan "piller" i kroppen

Helt underbar känsla,
Äntligen försöker och lyckas jag sakta ta mig ur mitt egna fängelse 👊👊#mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #words #bipolär #bipolar #borderline #ptsd #manic #platonic #anxiety #anxietydisorder #anxietyattack #panikångest #panikattack #ångest #ångestattack #diagnos #medicine #terapi  #fight #cry #sad #whoami #depressed  #feelings #mood #kbt #ocd #currentmood #currentmode
Det går framåt 👌 Jag var så svag och trött hela dagen. Ville bara försvinna! Sovit under dagen och allt har varit likgiltigt MEN har jag KBT schema så ska det följas 🤜🏼🤜🏼 Och otroligt nog klarade jag det galant utan "piller" i kroppen Helt underbar känsla, Äntligen försöker och lyckas jag sakta ta mig ur mitt egna fängelse 👊👊#mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #words  #bipolär  #bipolar  #borderline  #ptsd  #manic  #platonic  #anxiety  #anxietydisorder  #anxietyattack  #panikångest  #panikattack  #ångest  #ångestattack  #diagnos  #medicine  #terapi  #fight  #cry  #sad  #whoami  #depressed  #feelings  #mood  #kbt  #ocd  #currentmood  #currentmode 
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RATE YOUR AWARENESS from 1-10‼️ Did you know this ⁉️#education #mentalhealth #nyc #help #latino #black #white #diversity #diagnose #diagnosis #mentalillness #children #babies #community #msw #lmsw
Often times we are so busy caught up in the busyness of the world that we forget to stop and take a break for ourselves. We forget to stop and breath. We forget to stop and think.
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It’s important to just stop and be still. To get in touch with your feelings and gather your thoughts. Mental illness is a real thing. 
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Sometimes we get caught up trying to please others or just simply trying to be strong. But it’s ok to break down, shit, thugs cry too! Thugs need hugs and love!
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All over social media you see the saying “check on your strong friends”. This is for the strong ones! For the ones that cry @ night and weep alone
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#selfcare #selflove #strength #weak #emotions #love #loveyourself #bekind #cry #crying #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #thoughts #journal #breath #sunday
Often times we are so busy caught up in the busyness of the world that we forget to stop and take a break for ourselves. We forget to stop and breath. We forget to stop and think. _____ It’s important to just stop and be still. To get in touch with your feelings and gather your thoughts. Mental illness is a real thing. _____ Sometimes we get caught up trying to please others or just simply trying to be strong. But it’s ok to break down, shit, thugs cry too! Thugs need hugs and love! _____ All over social media you see the saying “check on your strong friends”. This is for the strong ones! For the ones that cry @ night and weep alone *** #selfcare  #selflove  #strength  #weak  #emotions  #love  #loveyourself  #bekind  #cry  #crying  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #thoughts  #journal  #breath  #sunday 
RATE YOUR AWARENESS from 1-10‼️ Did you know this ⁉️#education #mentalhealth #nyc #help #latino #black #white #diversity #diagnose #diagnosis #mentalillness #children #babies #community #msw #lmsw
I’m very sick today but the news that my new song is going to be recorded and released in the next couple of months has brightened my day just a little! I can’t wait to share the finished product with you all. I wrote it about something very real and personal to me. It has my heart. Exciting times! #newmusic #originalsong #run #acousticmusic #invisibleillness #mentalillness #sheffieldmusic
I‘m literally having the hardest time for about a week now to even get out of bed... I have been offered a spot in an intensive outpatient program by my therapist due to the severity of my momentary suffering... Spots for this are very limited and the rules and regulations are strict... Mandatory group therapy once a week plus my usual sessions plus the inclusion of my husband if necessary... Alcohol abstinence a must! This is what I will be doing to achieve mental health for one entire year and I have my hopes up... My therapist assures me I will get better real soon! Grateful for this opportunity! Grateful for being able to at least take care of my beautiful daughters... I know some moms with my illness aren’t able to and they aren’t bad moms... It could be so much worse and I have wonderful and encouraging therapists who believe in me! This is me with my daughter this afternoon! Grateful for moments like this! #lifewithdepressions #hope #depressions #therapy #mentalillness #mentalawareness #awareness #momof2 #momblog #sundayafternoon #bavaria #fest #fair #blue #mommydaughtertime #change #changes #hardwork
I‘m literally having the hardest time for about a week now to even get out of bed... I have been offered a spot in an intensive outpatient program by my therapist due to the severity of my momentary suffering... Spots for this are very limited and the rules and regulations are strict... Mandatory group therapy once a week plus my usual sessions plus the inclusion of my husband if necessary... Alcohol abstinence a must! This is what I will be doing to achieve mental health for one entire year and I have my hopes up... My therapist assures me I will get better real soon! Grateful for this opportunity! Grateful for being able to at least take care of my beautiful daughters... I know some moms with my illness aren’t able to and they aren’t bad moms... It could be so much worse and I have wonderful and encouraging therapists who believe in me! This is me with my daughter this afternoon! Grateful for moments like this! #lifewithdepressions  #hope  #depressions  #therapy  #mentalillness  #mentalawareness  #awareness  #momof2  #momblog  #sundayafternoon  #bavaria  #fest  #fair  #blue  #mommydaughtertime  #change  #changes  #hardwork 
RATE YOUR AWARENESS from 1-10‼️ Did you know about this ⁉️#education #mentalhealth #nyc #help #latino #black #white #diversity #diagnose #diagnosis #mentalillness #children #babies #community #msw #lmsw
Post baptism isn’t so cute, but I feel beautiful.
Post baptism isn’t so cute, but I feel beautiful.
Please tell me Im not fat, I ate some quark even though I said I would fast😖 I hate myself, I just want to lose weight😭
#anorexia #mentalillness
Please tell me Im not fat, I ate some quark even though I said I would fast😖 I hate myself, I just want to lose weight😭 #anorexia  #mentalillness 
As a mental illness sufferer, I know how difficult it can be to find Mental Health resources. It's so important to take care of your Mental Health, yet according to @mentalhealthamerica, 56% of adults who struggle don't receive treatment. While there are many reasons for this, some common barriers that prevent people from getting the care they need come from stigma, lack of time or transportation, and financial limitations. @moderntherapyonline is a great solution for anyone who faces those barriers, or maybe have thought about trying therapy, but never got the chance to. They offer convenient, private, and affordable online talk therapy through messaging, email, phone and video! Visit their website, www.moderntherapy.online to learn more.
As a mental illness sufferer, I know how difficult it can be to find Mental Health resources. It's so important to take care of your Mental Health, yet according to @mentalhealthamerica, 56% of adults who struggle don't receive treatment. While there are many reasons for this, some common barriers that prevent people from getting the care they need come from stigma, lack of time or transportation, and financial limitations. @moderntherapyonline is a great solution for anyone who faces those barriers, or maybe have thought about trying therapy, but never got the chance to. They offer convenient, private, and affordable online talk therapy through messaging, email, phone and video! Visit their website, www.moderntherapy.online to learn more.
When you like the picture... you just have to share it on here 😉

I hope you all had a lovely weekend whatever you got upto 💜
When you like the picture... you just have to share it on here 😉 I hope you all had a lovely weekend whatever you got upto 💜
I'm alone. I fake smiles just to not hurt other people who love me, so I keep everything inside me but I'm like a vulcano...when I'm full I become aggressive because everyone leaves me alone.
I just need someone who can help me because the community I'm in doesn't help me.

#depression #anxiety #anxious #instagood #instadaily #fashion #nature #love #me #mentalissues #mentalillness #blondiegirl #blondie #blonde #blondehair #nevrosi #alone #lonely #lonelyplanet #tears #boots #jacket #
I'm alone. I fake smiles just to not hurt other people who love me, so I keep everything inside me but I'm like a vulcano...when I'm full I become aggressive because everyone leaves me alone. I just need someone who can help me because the community I'm in doesn't help me. #depression  #anxiety  #anxious  #instagood  #instadaily  #fashion  #nature  #love  #me  #mentalissues  #mentalillness  #blondiegirl  #blondie  #blonde  #blondehair  #nevrosi  #alone  #lonely  #lonelyplanet  #tears  #boots  #jacket  #
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hi! & welcome to my newly made poetry account. this account is gonna contain my own written poems, which some may be highly triggering so please be aware, there will be a warning sign beforehand with the subject included when a poem is posted. please do not steal and please give feedback! my theme is gonna be pretty dark like my mind so if you don’t like spooky things or real life struggles that can be scary or gruesome or upsetting, then this poetry acc is not for you. my names sadie rose, i’m 21. and im an inpatient on a psychiatric intensive care unit struggling with trauma, borderline personality disorder and treatment resistant psychosis. my poetry will be mainly based around my experiences, emotions and thoughts. lots of love. enjoy.
— hi! & welcome to my newly made poetry account. this account is gonna contain my own written poems, which some may be highly triggering so please be aware, there will be a warning sign beforehand with the subject included when a poem is posted. please do not steal and please give feedback! my theme is gonna be pretty dark like my mind so if you don’t like spooky things or real life struggles that can be scary or gruesome or upsetting, then this poetry acc is not for you. my names sadie rose, i’m 21. and im an inpatient on a psychiatric intensive care unit struggling with trauma, borderline personality disorder and treatment resistant psychosis. my poetry will be mainly based around my experiences, emotions and thoughts. lots of love. enjoy.
Feira de gestantes no shopping Nova América. Família. Sobrinhos lindos. Filhota. Finalmente entendendo que preciso me cercar de amor pra estar bem.
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Fair of pregnant women at the Nova América mall. Family. Beautiful nephews. Child. Finally understanding that I need to surround myself with love to be well.
#bipolar #bypolarix #bipolardisorder #mooddisorder #mentalillness #anxiety #transtornobipolar #mania #depressao #psicose  #depression #ansiedade #psychosis #happiness #altosebaixos #CIDF31 #dailybattle #goodmoorning #bomdia #domingo #gratitude #speedy #sunday #faith #happiness #twinboy #nephew #brotherinlaw
Feira de gestantes no shopping Nova América. Família. Sobrinhos lindos. Filhota. Finalmente entendendo que preciso me cercar de amor pra estar bem. * * * Fair of pregnant women at the Nova América mall. Family. Beautiful nephews. Child. Finally understanding that I need to surround myself with love to be well. #bipolar  #bypolarix  #bipolardisorder  #mooddisorder  #mentalillness  #anxiety  #transtornobipolar  #mania  #depressao  #psicose  #depression  #ansiedade  #psychosis  #happiness  #altosebaixos  #CIDF31  #dailybattle  #goodmoorning  #bomdia  #domingo  #gratitude  #speedy  #sunday  #faith  #happiness  #twinboy  #nephew  #brotherinlaw 
New post: https://lunastrea.wordpress.com/2018/07/22/etre-plus-heureuxse-2 🌸☀️🌟
New post: https://lunastrea.wordpress.com/2018/07/22/etre-plus-heureuxse-2 🌸☀️🌟
GOOD MORNING ☀️Reposting this from my story as I didn't take any pictures from last night...but your girl went out with friends last night 👏🏼 The last time I went out was in February for my birthday and I don't know how I did it because I had 0 energy, could barely walk, thought about food 24/7, and was in all honesty dying. But last night I went out and had fun, had so much energy, dance and laughed with my friends when guys tried to hit on us and even got a number (which I'm not gonna use LOL). And a lil PSA: ( I don't drink because I'm not healthy yet, but either way it's just not a big interest of mine anyways!). There has been progress from the girl in February and the girl that went out last night. Yes I've gained weight, yes I still need to gain weight, and yes I'm still scared to gain weight. Mentally I'm in a better place but I still struggle a lot. But I think the biggest thing that has changed is that I've come to the realization that I want recovery. I want to be recovered. I want to be happy. No more missing out on life. Last night I didn't think about anything except for having fun and being surrounded by the people I care about. And that's how everyday should be lived. I know how some of you think you just "can't" do it. Well I thought that too many months ago. And look how far I've gotten. Keep fighting. Don't give up on yourself. You can do this. AND I EVEN HAD A PIECE OF 🍕at 2am because if that's not living your best life I don't know what is. •
#anorexic #anorexianervosa #anorexicrecovery #anarecovery #ana #anorexianervosarecovery #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderfamily #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatingdisorderfamily #fearfood #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #fearfoodchallenge #mentalhealth #mentalillness #strongnotskinny #healthynothungry #healthynotskinny
GOOD MORNING ☀️Reposting this from my story as I didn't take any pictures from last night...but your girl went out with friends last night 👏🏼 The last time I went out was in February for my birthday and I don't know how I did it because I had 0 energy, could barely walk, thought about food 24/7, and was in all honesty dying. But last night I went out and had fun, had so much energy, dance and laughed with my friends when guys tried to hit on us and even got a number (which I'm not gonna use LOL). And a lil PSA: ( I don't drink because I'm not healthy yet, but either way it's just not a big interest of mine anyways!). There has been progress from the girl in February and the girl that went out last night. Yes I've gained weight, yes I still need to gain weight, and yes I'm still scared to gain weight. Mentally I'm in a better place but I still struggle a lot. But I think the biggest thing that has changed is that I've come to the realization that I want recovery. I want to be recovered. I want to be happy. No more missing out on life. Last night I didn't think about anything except for having fun and being surrounded by the people I care about. And that's how everyday should be lived. I know how some of you think you just "can't" do it. Well I thought that too many months ago. And look how far I've gotten. Keep fighting. Don't give up on yourself. You can do this. AND I EVEN HAD A PIECE OF 🍕at 2am because if that's not living your best life I don't know what is. • #anorexic  #anorexianervosa  #anorexicrecovery  #anarecovery  #ana  #anorexianervosarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderfamily  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatingdisorderfamily  #fearfood  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #fearfoodchallenge  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #strongnotskinny  #healthynothungry  #healthynotskinny 
During the last weeks I felt better, yeah actually quite good again, after a long period of time where I despiced myself. I didn't hate myself anymore and I appreciated everything I had, my own body included. In the last few days I noticed that I feel worse again. I accept myself but not more than that. I feel weak again. 
I could cry, although there is no reason for it. I feel lonely, although I now my friends and my boyfriend are there for me. I feel bad, although I haven't done anything wrong. 
I mean, it's okay for me, if I feel bad and down sometimes, but I'm afraid of feeling down all the time again. I'm afraid of going back too many steps I walked forward. I'm afraid of falling down again.
I hope that I will get better soon, because I don't want to be a burden for everybody around me anymore.
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#selflove #depression #anxiety #fighting #depressionfighter #mentalbreakdown #suffering #mentalillness #mentalhealth #appriciation #blog #influencerstyle #influencerlife #bloggergirl #blogger #bloggerlife #influencer #gettingbetter #metalhead #potterhead #flowers #photography #randomthoughts #rain #raindrops #fear #journal
During the last weeks I felt better, yeah actually quite good again, after a long period of time where I despiced myself. I didn't hate myself anymore and I appreciated everything I had, my own body included. In the last few days I noticed that I feel worse again. I accept myself but not more than that. I feel weak again. I could cry, although there is no reason for it. I feel lonely, although I now my friends and my boyfriend are there for me. I feel bad, although I haven't done anything wrong. I mean, it's okay for me, if I feel bad and down sometimes, but I'm afraid of feeling down all the time again. I'm afraid of going back too many steps I walked forward. I'm afraid of falling down again. I hope that I will get better soon, because I don't want to be a burden for everybody around me anymore. . . . #selflove  #depression  #anxiety  #fighting  #depressionfighter  #mentalbreakdown  #suffering  #mentalillness  #mentalhealth  #appriciation  #blog  #influencerstyle  #influencerlife  #bloggergirl  #blogger  #bloggerlife  #influencer  #gettingbetter  #metalhead  #potterhead  #flowers  #photography  #randomthoughts  #rain  #raindrops  #fear  #journal