4 weeks work conditioning down, 2 more to go! I've been doing a combo of physiotherapy and counseling over the last few weeks in the hopes of decreasing some of the side effects I still experience like fatigue, insomnia and brain fog. And to get me to a place where I can gradually return to work after being off for over 2 years. But while I feel myself getting stronger physically, I still have moments where I've been struggling. Hard. Trying to explain how I feel to others who don't understand brain fog and what fatigue and insomnia is like after cancer is so frustrating and not being able to do the things I could do so easily before. But I remind myself that although in some ways I may not be where I once was, in a lot of ways I have come even further and it helps put things into perspective. From pushing through my first chemo two years ago to taking baby steps after my mastectomy surgery last year and building up enough physical strength to sit up in bed, one step at a time, one day at a time, I will continue to survive and thrive💪
Meet me on the mat tomorrow @alamocityyoga 9:00 Yoga/Pilates fusion ( lots of core and hips tomorrow) and 10:15 Yin/Yoga Nidra ( chakra balancing flow and meditation). Come for one or stay for both - and cover both your yang and yin practices 🧘🏻♀️💗 #yogaeveryday
Today is a milestone day. It’s a day that marks the beginning of SO MANY milestones in my life, that I never thought I would have to face. One year ago today I went into the emergency room for abdominal pain, and walked out with two potential cancer diagnoses...because my pelvic and abdominal cavities were full of tumors. One, ovarian cancer, the other, a cancer that gave me about 3 months to live. Today is a milestone for a crash course in gratitude, in the face of adversity! I am full of gratitude that although I would find out over the next several days I was facing advanced staged ovarian cancer, my prognosis was better than the alternative diagnosis. Gratitude for getting an appointment with the best oncologist in Northeast Florida, on a cancellation, gratitude for friends and family that dropped everything to stand with me, pray for me, fight for me, especially when I didn’t think I could do it for myself. Gratitude that my Mom, who we lost less than 10 months prior to this day, spent her life showing me how to live in faith, and trust in Jesus, no matter what. My life was forever changed one year ago....and so today I celebrate my current health, my expanded faith, and an acute understanding of just how precious this gift of life really is! #ovariancancer#ovariancancersurvivor#brca1#breastcancerawareness#cancersurvivor#gratitude#faith#family#livemindfully#livelifeonpurpose#lifeaftercancer#chemohair#chemocurls#fightlikeagirl
Yasss! This one - all two seconds of it - has been a long time coming. Beyond strength and flexibility, I’ve been challenged by figuring out how to work around my reconstructed breasts. The implants are sewn in behind my pectoral muscles, which creates a few issues. 1. The implants are just physically in the way. They don’t move like normal breast tissue. 2. The pectoral muscles work differently as they’ve been cut, stretched, pieced together with mesh, and now rest over two lady lumps. 3. Because of nerve damage, several muscles through my chest and arms don’t fire the same as they once did. I share all of that to say that consistent practice lengthens, strengthens, and creates new neural pathways...plus, it is fun! @alamoyogini - you inspired and witnessed the first liftoff in class the other day! 🙏🏼 #elated#grateful#firefly
It’s been a year. I’m sitting in my living room - drinking coffee, watching The Princess Bride, snuggling kids, making a packing list for our trip to Santa Barbara, feeding people, cleaning up messes - it’s just a normal, regular kind of day. One year ago, as I was struggling to keep myself from slipping into despair - terrified at the prospect of chemotherapy, but more terrified at the prospect of my children growing up without me - I had a seed of hope for a day like today. Hope for a regular, old, nothing-fancy, hum-drum kind of day. Because as cliche as it sounds, it turns out that every day I’m here is actually an incredible gift - even the hard days; maybe especially the hard days, because they make the good days so much sweeter.
I’m thankful for the perspective, and even though I screw things up and forget to be thankful frequently, I’m glad for every day I have here to practice being a better human.
Every summer has a story.
This summer I started new medications to help with my hormone levels, thyroid function, and terrible hot flashes - here is to hoping I can stop sweating my face off... literally.
from @talkischeapxo - I am beautiful, don’t you agree? I still feel like me. Sure I got that full body wax chemo thing going on, but I’m still the sweet Kelly everyone knows.
I will admit at times, the public can make me feel pretty crappy. Whatever happened to compassion? We all know cancer exists and the young and old can become affected, but I feel like once it’s real and in front of your face, people don’t know how to react. If I don’t put makeup on, eyebrows and wig people are distant to me, make me feel like their afraid of me or treat me like I’m dying. Don’t do that, you could very easily be in my shoes one of these days and it’s not fun to be on the receiving end of that.
Okay so I’m the 1 in 8, and I’m part of the 10% of that 1 that gets an aggressive cancer without a brca mutation but I still deserve to be treated like a real live breathing person!
Don’t be afraid to look at me, stand next to me or give me a hug, because before you know it, my hair will be back, and I’ll be the one supporting and embracing you as you go through your full body wax. 😘💕
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Laughter is proven to be good for our health. And even though this week while I’ve been grieving it’s hard to find moments that evoke laughter, and laughing feels wrong when I’m hurting, I try to remind myself that it’s ok, and how it’s healthy. Here’s what I’ve learned about laughter...
1. Laughter relaxes the whole body - it has been proven to physically release tension for up to 45 mins after a good laugh
2. Laughter boosts the immune system - it decreases stress hormones and increases infection fighting antibodies
3. Laughter triggers the release of endorphins- the body’s natural feel-good chemicals! 🤣
4. Laughter protects the heart- Laughter improves the function of blood vessels and increases blood flow ❤️
4. Laughter lightens anger-Laughing can help put problems into perspective and enable you to move on from confrontations without holding onto bitterness or resentment
5. Laughter may even help you to live longer (I’m no doctor this is just through research and conversations with professionals) - A study in Norway found that people with a strong sense of humor outlived those who don't laugh as much. The difference was particularly notable for those battling cancer 🙋🏼♀️...
Whatever your struggle may be try to find time for laughter. Have you laughed yet today? 😂🤣
OMG! I’ve made it through 9 treatments!!! I’ll admit, I had my doubts. At one point, I told my sister that if this ever happened again, I was done. I would never do chemo again.
This was because my side effects were here to stay. I was always nauseous. Even with two of the strongest nausea meds on board. I had hyper salivation, I ate less than a sick bird, and I was just exhausted. I will tell you though, sativa and CBD/THC (variations of cannabis), helped a lot when I was able to take it. But the way my job was set up, not even chemo was enough to let me fail a drug test. So I only got to use it sparingly. But I digress.
I had to make it through these last three. There was a lot riding on me pulling through. Two treatments ago, my family celebrated the life of my cousin, James Rhodes. After many years of battling colon cancer, he passed. In addition, my family hasn’t seen me since April. I decided to do my treatments 3,000 miles away because of convenience to the cancer center. So you can only imagine the anxiety my family was feeling at this point.
Little did they know, my nurse Joanne and my friends were fussing at me because they were afraid I was taking a turn for the worse.
There are going to be moments like this on this journey. Even for the happiest and most positive person. It’s okay. What matters the most, is how you come back from it.
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I hear repeatedly that many of us aren’t sure what to do when someone we care about is living with or beyond cancer. Simply being there & actively listening helps show empathy & support. Genuine listening has become a rare gift, it's the gift of time. How can we become better listeners? ⠀
Here are some thoughts. Attends to the individual's agenda, not yours. Hear their concerns & beliefs about what is & is not possible with no judgement. Try not to 'fix' the problem, often we just want to be heard. Show that you are giving them your full attention, no checking your mobile. Be curious, ask questions. Allow silence, this often may help more than words. Allow them to feel whatever they're feeling - it's ok not to be ok. ⠀
My lanta. We are coming up on our third anniversary and never in a million years would I have expected to be where we are now. We started Sofia Holub Wellness about 2 years ago as a way to bring peace, hope, and unity to cancer survivors struggling to accept and love themselves after all the crippling effects cancer and its treatments can have to your mind, body and spirit. It’s something I have known I wanted to do since I was 18 as I started college and began thinking about long term goals. I had suffered alone in survivorship for so long. I had no idea how to face my post cancer life. No more ballet, a weird leg, pain, a 3 inch long afro, chemo brain, all on top of all the weird ish that you already have to deal with as a teenager. I knew something needed to change in my life and the lives of other survivors struggling as well. And along my rocky path I found yoga. I found this man. And now together we are hosting my dream yoga retreat with our best friends @ourvieadventures for my cancer surviving tribe. Grateful doesn’t begin to express how I feel! Im here to say that while struggles never cease to exist things DO get better. Life is precious and I’m humbled to share it with such an amazing group of humans. ❤️🎗 love you all! #embraceournewnormal
Feeling beyond grateful tonight to have received the honor of being interviewed by @jessbeinspired for her podcast.
We had a great conversation discussing some of the fundamentals for thriving after cancer and overcoming/preventing a recurrence.
All of which I will be discussing in further detail in my complimentary webinar which launches at the end of the week.
Intrigued, check out the interview for a sneak peak and while you’re there check out some of her other amazing episodes.
Click on the link in my bio to listen to the interview.
How do you manage #scanxiety ??? I am just going for another MRI to try to figure out why my body is always in pain, so no biggie, right??
It wouldn’t seem like it, but #lifeaftercancer is hard and harsh man! I am #grateful for it, but damn.
So today was the big 1 year MRI. June 2017 I was diagnosed with cervical cancer (1b1) and was successfully treated in August of 2017 after an unsuccessful attempt in July 2017.
One year later I'm here, I'm breathing, I'm living. I'll admit I haven't been living my "best life". The mental battles with anxiety and depression since diagnosis have been excruciating to say the least, but I do still try to carry on as normal as possible.
I struggle with #survivingcancer and don't always feel I've earned the title of #cancerwarrior or #cancersurvivor because mine was removed surgically (first a LEEP and then a cone biopsy with lymph node removal) but as someone very wise once told me, "There is no such thing as cancer lite". Keep being strong, keep being warriors and keep kicking cancer's ass. I'm hopeful that in a few days I'll get my scan results and can celebrate one year #cancerfree#oneyearlater#tealsister#cervicalcancercrushers#cervicalcancer#cancer#youngadultswithcancer#lifeaftercancer#cancersurvivor#fighter#ihadcancer
ONE yr ago...I was saying ✌🏼 to my portacath (see that bump on my chest). Bye, Penelope the port!! Thanks for being threaded into the vein that goes to my heart, and pumping that chemo all around to kill those cancer cells. I seriously don’t remember this day at all. I guess the anesthesia was good! Haha. But the beauty of this day was that no more port meant no more chemo. 👊🏼
Did I mention I stopped by one of my favorite places on the way home from the beach? This place grew me in places I didn’t know existed and honestly in places I didn’t know I needed to grow until YEARS later. College was not my best season of life by any means but I’m sure thankful looking back at the important lessons I learned because of my mistakes. Lessons I’ve carried with me since, especially through my #cancerjourney •
Yesterday marked another new chapter—I started a new job at a financial services firm in Lower Manhattan, a short walk from my Battery Park City Home. In my 20+ years working on the industry known to many as “Wall Street,” I am now actually working on this noted street. The last time I worked in Lower Manhattan was on September 11, 2001 and I am so thrilled to be working once again in this vibrant part of New York City. Excited for this next chapter and I remain grateful for all the love and support. #i ❤️ny #wallstreet#lowermanhattan#fidi#lifeaftercancer#hodgkinslymphomasurvivor