Although I love rock climbing, an injury a couple of years ago left me with a bit of a fear of falling. A couple of months ago I went to Kalymnos for a climbing trip, and was determined of getting back on the rock again, but after a couple of panics and demotivating days, I gave up and started wondering if diving was a better choice.
On the last day my partner convinced me to give it one last try. We went to a crag that we had visited before.By the time I reached the 4th bolt I felt my hand grip tightening on the holds, by the 5th I felt the panic slowly running through my body, and by the 6th bolt I was dealing with the good old disco-leg. Once again I gave into the temptation of feeling the rope securely holding my weight, and asked my partner to take the rope in. As soon as I felt the rope, I was gutted!
I finally collected myself and continued up until I clipped the chain.
Once on the ground again my partner told me that he was very proud that I decided to carry on. This encouragement made me try again, and this time I made it to the top with no panics. Afterwards I did another 4 lower grades routes, and felt so happy that I picked a slightly harder - emphasis on the slightly part, route. This route was much steeper, and of similar length of the others. The hold were big and chalked up, but the moved a little longer. As I reached the 80% height of the route I could feel my forearms tensing up, I moved right and reach for a hold, but didn't find it, I re-positioned my feet and tried again, but with no luck. I looked down and saw nothing but air between myself and the ground, I felt the panic, but not in the overwhelming sense that I had before, I asked my partner to take me on the rope, and then I let go... Flying through the air, I let out a little gasp of a scream before my body bounced against the rock. I then sat there on the rope, face firmly pressed against the rock as a feeling of relief came over me. My first lead fall in 3 years.
I left Kalymnos with a real sense of peace that I had finally started facing my fear of falling.
Happy Monday ☀️
There is maybe no sunshine outside but you can be your own little one 💛☀️
"Live beneath your means.
Return everything you borrow.
Stop blaming other people.
Admit it when you make a mistake.
Give clothes not worn to charity.
Do something nice and try not to get caught.
Listen more; talk less.
Every day take a 30-minute walk.
Strive for excellence, not perfection.
Be on time.
Don't make excuses.
Be kind to people.
Be kind to unkind people.
Let someone cut ahead of you in line.
Take time to be alone.
Cultivate good manners.
Realize and accept that life isn't fair.
Know when to keep you mouth shut.
Go an entire day without criticizing anyone.
Learn from the past.
Live in the present.
Don't sweat the small stuff.
It's all small stuff."
Words to live by 💛 feed your soul and be the light in the room ☀️
Day by day, you can be better.
Not for someone else, just for yourself. You matter 💛
I wish you a great start of the week, do your best, always. ⭐️